Shawn was rushed back to the Emergency room and the doctors and nurses began to work feverishly to try and save the young Psychic's life. For a few minutes Shawn could hear the hustle and bustle around him but soon the sounds of yelling doctors and nervous nurses faded away. Shawn found himself sitting on the beach on a bright and sunny day. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the feeling of warmth on his face.

His blissful silence was interrupted by a touch on his shoulder. He popped open his eyes only to see his Father sitting on the bench next to him. Shawn was so excited to see his Father again. He embraced him tightly and began to tell him how much he missed him, and how much he missed his words of wisdom. His Father hugged him back then held him at arms length so he could see his face.

"We don't have much time, what in the world are you doing here son." Shawn smiled at the realization that this must be heaven, "I couldn't do it alone Dad. Those men came back and they hurt me again but this time you weren't there to protect me. Lassiter saved me but, Dad, the memories and the images in my head would never ever go away, I couldn't stand it anymore Dad. I took a whole bottle of pills Dad so I could come and be with you."

Henry looked at his son for a moment and shook his head, "Shawn Henry Spencer, you mean to tell me that you tried to commit suicide? Spencer men do NOT take their own lives do you hear me?" Shawn was hurt, "I couldn't do it Daddy, and every time my eyes closed they were in my head doing horrible things to me. My friends are trying to help me but they aren't you Dad, I need you."

"Son you listen to me and you listen to me right now. It is not time for you to be here yet. I lived a long life, it was my time, and you still have to get married and have babies and solve crimes. Your life isn't done yet son, you need to head back now while you still can."

Shawn crossed his arms like a small pouting child, "I cant Dad, I just can't"

Henry stood up in front of his son and cupped his face in his hands, "Son, I would like nothing more than to have you with me for eternity, but I know you have a life to lead and good to accomplish, so I am going to give you one last bit of Fatherly help and then you are going back okay?" Henry leaned down and kissed his son's forehead, "Now LEAVE".

Shawn stuttered, "Wait Dad, wait no I don't want to leave you Dad wait" He felt another hand on his shoulder and he heard a soft voice saying, "Mr. Spencer, your back with us, thank God, it is ok stay calm you are in a hospital, do you remember what happened?"

Shawn opened his eyes and looked around he wasn't on the bright and sunny beach anymore he was in a bright and sterile hospital. Then it all came rushing back to him, "Yeah I remember, I tried to kill myself by taking pills. I don't remember why though, I know I was stabbed but I am having trouble remembering everything else."

The nurse patted his cheek, "That's great Mr. Spencer, you close your eyes and relax while they finish up and I will go and let your friends know how you are doing. They can come and see you soon." Shawn smiled and thanked the nurse.

Lassiter, Juliet and Gus were assembled in the waiting room ready to pounce on the first medical professional they thought might have news on Shawn. They soon got their wish, "Friends for Mr. Spencer?" All three of them echoed "here over here"

The Nurse came over to them with a huge smile on her face, "I am not sure how, but Mr. Spencer is alive. We couldn't find a heart beat for 6 minutes while he was back in the ER but by some miracle he woke up. He remembers you all, he remembers trying to take his life but he doesn't remember many of the facts from his attack."

Lassiter stunned said, "What to you mean he is having trouble remembering? The nurse smiled, "I think given the extent of his trauma's that is a good thing. He wants to see all of you, but he asked Detective Lassiter to come in first." They all three looked at each other oddly and Lassiter went with the nurse to Shawn's room.

Lassiter timidly pushed the door open. He was greeted by Shawn's smiling face. Lassiter came in and headed straight for the young detective and pulled him into a huge hug. While holding on to the young man tightly he said, "Oh Shawn, don't ever do that again, you scared me so bad. I thought you had died in my arms." Gently laying the detective back down to the bed, Lassiter composed himself, "Do you know what you would have done to Guster and O'Hara if you left, and hell I would miss you too."

Shawn smiled at the uncharacteristic show of emotions from the elder detective. Shawn said, "I wanted to see you first because I wanted to have a moment to thank you. I thought with my Dad not here that I would be alone and no one would be there to look out for me. I have Gus and Jules but well, they are Gus and Jules. When I was on the table dying I saw my Dad, he reminded me that you have been saving my sorry behind for the last 7 years, and that I am not alone."

Lassiter patted Shawn's shoulder and said, "He was right you aren't alone and you never will be alone. You make everyone love you, even if they desperately don't want to. Listen the nurse said that you don't remember many of the details of what happened to you?" Shawn smiled, "You are going to think I am absolutely nuts but before I came back Dad told me, "let me do this last thing to help you" and he reached over and kissed my forehead. I think somehow he took some of those images out of my mind so that I can heal. I know what happened to me, but I am not replaying it in my head like a horrible movie anymore."

Lassiter smiled, "I don't think that is crazy, sounds like something Henry would do. He was a good man and I hope you realize that you were his world. God forbid anything happened to you, we always drew straws to see what unlucky bastard had to call and tell Henry something was wrong with his only son."

Both men laughed and agreed Henry was a one of a kind. Lassiter excused himself to go and get the others.

Shawn lay in the bed looking at the ceiling smiling. For the first time since his Father died he could actually smile and think about the future. Thanks to his Dad giving him that one last gift he was going to be able to have a future and it is going to be amazing.

_SIX MONTHS LATER_

Shawn was standing at the front of a small church decorated with beautiful bouquets of spring flowers. He was wearing a Black tux and converse tennis shoes and beside him stood Gus and Lassiter on the other side of the isle was Chief Vick and Juliet's college roommate. Then the back doors of the Church opened and Shawn began to cry happy tears as Juliet came through the doors dressed in the most beautiful white dress with a small gold pineapple on the belt. Her Step Father accompanied her. The wedding was beautiful filled with so much love. They took the time in the middle of the service to place a rose on the front row seat that had a picture of Henry in it.

When the minister uttered the words "It is my honor to present Mr. and Mrs. Shawn Henry Spencer." Shawn knew that his Dad was right. It wasn't his time all those months ago. He still missed his father everyday but he was determined to live everyday to its fullest and raise the child that Juliet just found out about in that same little house on the Beach. In that house he knew his Dad would never be far away.

##### Thank you so much for reading, my girls told me I got a little too sappy with this ending but I was going one of three ways, this ending, writing as a slash (shassie) ending or killing Shawn. I went with sappy Thank you again for taking the time to read my story.####

-Post note, can you all help me and challenge me. I have got in the habit of writing either angsty or fluffy stories. What direction should Shawn and the gang go one now. Smut, slash or whatever. I want to write something out of my comfort zone. It is kinda sad that rape and suicide has become my comfort zone rotfl. I value your input