Sorry for the LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG wait guys….I just haven't been feeling it lately I guess. I only remember bits and pieces to my story so be easy on me please lol. I think I moved it a bit too fast than what I wanted it to be years before (I think it was like 1 or 2 years?) but bleh too bad.

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Feelings of Hatred

Chapter 10

Questions

LEENA'S POV

I sat there, on the steps in the front of the school, waiting for all the footsteps and noise to fade in the halls. I was in a daze, my mind and body not functioning properly. My friends hadn't found me yet, or maybe they didn't notice that I was even gone as they headed to their classes, but that's okay. Their barriers were suffocating me, as they continuously surrounded me throughout the day, making sure there was no contact with outsiders. The whole school wanted to know, and sadly enough, so did my friends. I didn't give them much insight about me and Kai and I don't think I intend to. I wasn't ready. When will I be? I'm not strong enough, but I try my best. I work hard and I make do with what I have. So why was I suffering?

My body was aching and my head was spinning like crazy. I bent forward and I covered my eyes with my hands, feeling tears falling down my face. Unconsciously, hard chokes and cries erupted from my throat, just like yesterday. I lied down on my side, against the cold cement, looking at the cloudless blue sky and feeling the warmth of the sun's rays. I shivered and curled into a ball, trying to ease my sobs and breathing.

"God, please help me…….." was what I managed to whisper before my eyelids slowly closed.

KAI'S POV

'What am I doing here?' is the first thing I asked myself as the teacher took attendance. I found myself aimlessly walking around and stumbled into class without a second thought. I had managed to make it all the way to the second floor without anyone bothering me, so maybe I could manage getting through this class without leaving. As I took my seat near the back of the class by the windows, I remained silent as I felt my classmates' eyes on me, whispering here and there. Some giggles, some smirks, some stupid reaction to all the rumours and gossip. I'd usually enjoy hearing such thing; I enjoyed the thrill of it all of what people thought of me, especially if it was something crazy or something that made me feel superior. It was different today though because for the first time, I knew that this was something no one could understand. This was some kind of test or maybe bad karma.

'Probably both,' I told myself, staring at the scenery outside. It was a nice day today, the sun shining, the sky so blue, the birds chirping and the wind blowing. It certainly was a nice day. So why wasn't today as nice for me? I was getting agitated just because of that stupid girl! I should do something to compensate for the little present she gave me yesterday, just to show her how I feel. I'd enjoy the feeling of playing around with her, then breaking her heart afterwards, but I already know that she'd never fall for it in the first place. She'd always see through my lies, my façade.

I remember the way she'd look at me, her eyes and face, showing much distaste. The way she'd never bother with hearing anything about me, or how she'd just so casually ignore me anywhere. And when we'd actually talk, all that could come out from her were insults and words of hate. And……

There she was, outside by the stairs. As I rested my chin on my right hand, looking towards her, I couldn't help but watch her every move, letting my eyes roam all over her. Everything going through my head seemed to always relate back to this girl and my relationship with her. 'It was all too long ago, I can barely remember all the wrongs I had done,' I thought, looking away from the window and towards the teacher.

She had already started instructing and I had now clue what was coming out of her mouth.

"I never meant to do what I did," Kai continued, seeing her expression full of hurt and pain.

Leena looked at Kai with anger. "How dare you even talk about this," she spat coldly, making Kai step back. "You have no goddamn right!" Leena poked him in the chest hard and started walking away. Kai grasped her arm again.

"Leena-"

Leena spun around and lifted her hand with such force, smacking his right cheek. Her eyes looked like they were full of anger and hate that he stumbled back in slight shock, letting go of her arm, and bringing one of his hands to his now, bruised red cheek.

"Don't 'Leena' me! Why don't you go back to not caring, you seemed to be doing a better job at that!" she yelled before running away to the parking lot.

I couldn't concentrate on anything at all. I'd keep thinking and thinking that it was just hurting me. 'I need to see her again.' And that thought made me look back at her. Just looking at her from afar was not enough to put me at ease. I slowly cast my eyes down by the stairs where I had first seen her sitting and my eyes widened. I reacted first in shock, then panic and froze in thought. I begged my legs to move and when they did, I rushed towards the door, opened it and ran without looking back. Without wondering what Cheryl would be thinking.

"Hiwatari-san! Sit down in your seat!" the teacher instructed, infuriated that someone had interrupted her.

She watched as he hastily exited the room, causing a disturbance as she was teaching. Before she could even stop him, he was already gone, as if he wasn't even in class at all. He had been so quiet, that he seemed almost invisible to everyone.

"Hiwatari-san! Come back here this instant!" she yelled back, reopening the classroom door.

This was the first time he did something like this; he would always just skip class, not bothering to stay for just a few minutes, but this time it was different. Why the sudden change?

As she sighed thinking about possibilities she didn't see Cheryl's angry expression that was looking towards the window, watching another scene play out.

CHERYL'S POV

Outside these glass barriers that were called windows, she saw him – Kai Hiwatari, talking and helping her acquaintance Leena. It was really shocking to see something going on between them as if they had a good relationship and it made my blood boil. Right when things were going really good for me too……….

What was I to do now? Another girl was competing to take away my soon-to-be boyfriend! It wasn't fair! No one ever dared to be my rival when it came to the guys I was after. After all, it was I that would always win. The problem was though, that what if Kai isn't interested in girls like me?

'NO CHERYL! Don't think like that!' I willed myself. 'He IS interested in me! If he wasn't he wouldn't have been all flirty with me before right?'

As I stopped with these silly thoughts, I watched those two people.

It didn't make sense for someone to just suddenly fall asleep – I was guessing, at the front of the school steps and I was pretty sure that Kai thought so as well as he continued to look at her, waiting for something to happen. What made me even angrier was the fact that he touched her, feeling her face with his hand, then sliding it down her neck all so softly as if she were a porcelain doll. It was disgusting! A guy like him being so gentle to a girl like Leena. AND she has no feelings for him whatsoever. I've seen her before and plus, all of her friends were the ones telling me that anyways. 'It couldn't be that,' I wondered before freezing, 'that he?' 'NO!' my mind yelled.

I clenched my hand in a fist, trying to stop these thoughts of mine and the last thing I saw was Kai carrying Leena on his back and leaving school property. As they disappeared outside the tall brick walls of the school, I managed to finish the sentence of my long awaited and anxious question:

'It couldn't be that Kai has feelings for Leena?'

Dun dun dun! What do you think huh? Does Kai have feelings for Leena? Is Cheryl finally wavering and willing to stop her crazy antics? Is Leena going to be okay? Where is Kai going to take Leena? Find out next chapter haha. Hope you enjoyed…….

I'll update umm…..dunno when yet, but hopefully soon (right? Lol).

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