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Chapter 10

March 3, 2011

Tonight felt like the end all be all of TNA. Tonight we were going to find out the fate of Immortal. I hoped that Dixie got control back, but I wasn't going to count on it. I had a feeling this war against Immortal was only beginning. I also knew it was only a matter of time before they realized that I was on the apposing side. So far it seemed like I was remaining neutral, but no one was going to see through the rouse much longer. Although how much longer I could actually be on Impact on a week to week basis seemed to be coming to a close rather quickly.

Tonight I was here not only on the pretense of letting AJ spend time with Kayleigh, but that I was going to witness my mother's wedding. (If I were truly honest then I would have to say that it made me want to gag.) Sure Karen wasn't biologically my mother, but when my mom died Karen adopted me. It made things easier when my dad was out of town and incase if something would have happened to him. My dad was making sure that I was taken care of in his own way. I was also here to support Matt.

Tonight was going to be my last night at Impact for a while. Matt and I found the perfect house (it was only about 10-15 minutes from my dad and Giovanna) and Kourtney was leaving for London this weekend. I was more than prepared to stay at home. It was something I was looking forward to. Matt or dad would take Kayleigh down if AJ really wanted to see her, which I wasn't counting on being very often. I was sure that the kids would keep me more than busy. I was actually thinking about possibly finding a daycare for Kayleigh a day or two a week since Aubree would be in preschool and the other kids were in school. Then I would have time to myself or to do whatever. I was honestly thinking about heading back to school for something business related.

Matt and I had already begun to move some of the stuff into the house. Most of it was honestly stuff from his house. I had a little stuff from my apartment, but I gave most of it to Lena when I moved back in with my dad. I didn't think I would need it for a while. Well and honestly I didn't. Some of it was going to be new. We had picked out some stuff and it was going to be delivered this weekend.

I was also here to talk to Karen. I wanted to tell her about me and Matt, and I wanted to see if Kyra and Kody could visit during their spring break. I wanted them to see what my life was becoming like and honestly they probably needed a vacation. I missed them and now with all the new responsibilities I was taking on I wasn't sure the next time that I would be able to get to Henderson. I only hoped that Karen would be cooperative. I knew that it was hoping for a miracle, but maybe if I could get her by herself for a few minutes. I know that Jeff would skew things so that it was a horrible idea and Karen would just kind of go with it.

I found out the news of Immortal and I decided I wanted to talk to Karen one more time. I needed to ask her in person about Kody and Kyra otherwise I wouldn't be able to know I did everything if she said no. I also wanted to see if our relationship was salvageable. I was at the point that I was pretty sure that the relationship that I had with Jeff was unsalvageable, but if it was possible I would like to at least have some relationship with the closest thing to a mother I've had.

I took a deep breath as I knocked on the suite for Immortal. It seemed like the area they controlled backstage was getting larger and larger. I pushed that idea to the back of my mind as I put on my happy face. I was going to be an adult in this situation even if those who were supposed to be were not.

I asked for directions to where Karen and Jeff were hiding out, knowing that talking to one without the other was virtually impossible. Lovely to think of. I just took some calming breaths. I was amazed that I had been able to be off anxiety meds and antidepressants since I found out it was pregnant with Kayleigh. These people weren't helping any despite the promises they made when I found out I was pregnant.

"Karen, I wanted to talk to you for a few minutes," I said when I saw her.

"Sweetheart, I know that you want to talk to me, but it I am really busy tonight. We can talk in a few days," Karen said without even looking up from what she was doing.

"No, I have a simple question and you can answer it now," I said. I wasn't going to let her dismiss me like some person beneath her. "I wanted to know if Kody and Kyra could come stay with me in Pittsburgh for spring break."

"Well, you know I don't really want them in Kurt's house until he's actually married to that woman," Karen began. I hated the way she referred to Giovanna. She was absolutely wonderful with Kyra and Kody. She even stomached Karen's attitude toward her without complaining or getting that upset.

"Actually they would be staying at my house," I said. I was hoping she would just answer to get me out of her way. Then Jeff walked in and that hope went out the window. He has been driving me crazy lately.

"The house that you are undoubtedly sharing with Morgan, I don't think so," Jeff interrupted coming from what seemed like nowhere. I hate when he does that. "Our children don't need to be unsupervised around your kind of crazy. Now you're adding Morgan who is not only unstable, but you guys aren't even married. Not happening."

"Last time I checked Kody and Kyra weren't your children, but if you're going on the premise that Karen's children are yours then I would be your kid too. I am not crazy. I am actually the one person that has been the most mature in this whole damn situation. I just want to spend a little bit of time with my brother and sister," I said. "They will be perfectly fine with Matt and I."

"You are Karen's daughter out of pity, and you're an adult; I cannot make you do anything. You are a mistake that Karen helped Kurt attempt to fix. Some things just can't be fixed," Jeff said. I couldn't believe that he even went there. I couldn't believe that it didn't appear that Karen would even try to defend me. She looked like she was just going to let him say whatever he wanted about me. In that one moment I felt like my mom was gone all over again, but I held the emotion in. I was not going to let them see how upset they were making me. It would only make things worse.

"I am legally Karen's daughter, and at one point I thought that she actually gave a damn about me, obviously something has changed. I might not have been planned, but I was most definitely not a mistake.

You just proved to me that you were a liar. You promised me that you would support me and do whatever you could to make having a baby easier for me. You haven't even really been involved in Kayleigh's life, and you sure as hell haven't done anything to support me. You so worried about appearances that you have forgotten what really matters. I don't want to hear your voice until you have decided what really matters.

Karen is Kody and Kyra's mother and I was talking to her not your lame, has-been, greedy, narcissistic ass," I said. "If you were that important in the company how come your name hasn't been mentioned for a title shot?"

"Katie, if you want to see Kyra and Kody over spring break that's fine come to Henderson and see them just like Kurt, but make sure that you don't bring anyone aside from my adorable granddaughter with you," Karen said obviously trying to keep as much of the peace as she possibly could. I didn't have the heart to tell her that it wasn't really helping. "And you might want to get back with your psychologist to make sure that you don't need to be back on meds."

Karen and Jeff pretty much turned their back on me dismissing me. I was done with them. I was going to find a way to se my brother and sister no matter what they thought, and I was going to be watching them. I was in very, very regular contact with their children. I coudln't believe what was going on.

I was honestly not surprised how they treated me. I was very angry, but I completely expected it. Something has changed. Something that I will never understand. Now they were the one who was going to look like complete idiots when they had to tell Kody and Kyra that I asked to see them and they didn't let them. It wasn't my problem.

"I take it that didn't go well," Matt observed. He was pretty good at reading me even when I was trying to hold things in.

"No they pretty much called me a bad influence and crazy and you unstable. Needless to say they said that if I wanted to se Kyra and Kody to come to Henderson," I said. I left the thought out that I didn't think I was ever going to be able to see them. I was really scared that Karen was trying to cut me out of their life and drive a wedge between us. "So how did your little chat with my dad go?"

"Not to bad. He's warming up to the idea. It was pretty much the standard you're not a bad kid, but if you break her heart I'll break your ankles," Matt said. I knew that my dad was trying to make this as easy for me as possible. I also think he honestly liked the idea of me being with Matt; he just had to get the formalities out of the way before he could be okay with it.

March 5, 2011

Kourtney was about to drop Aubree, Connor, and Hannah off. Matt was in what was gong to be Aubree and Kayleigh's room he painted the walls light purple yesterday and was now putting Kayleigh's crib and Aubree's bed together. Connor's room is green and going to have a sports theme and Hannah's room is yellow but she had yet to decide anything else aboutthe decor. I was unpacking the last living room and kitchen boxes while Kayleigh was sleeping in her pack and play.

Most of our stuff was unpacked and we had more furniture coming this afternoon. There were a few things that didn't really fit or we just decided that we wanted new ones. Some things weren't worth moving from our old places.

It wasn't long before Kourtney came in with the kids and a few things from her place that they absolutely couldn't part with. Matt was still upstairs putting beds and what not together so that was their first destination. I could hear the excited conversation up the stairs.

"Katie, this is a big responsibility. Are you sure you're ready for this?" Kourtney asked.

"Yeah. I love Matt and I want to be with him no questions asked," I answered honestly. My dad had asked the same question and I answered the same way. Matt and I were a family and we were both in this long term.

"Then I wish you luck. As well thought out as Matt is he isn't always an easy man to live with. If you need anything just give me a call and I'll listen and do whatever I can to help," Kourtney said. We had actually begun what had the potential to be an awesome friendship. She was so open and she was just a special person. It was refreshing that she was in my life.

"I'm not always an easy woman to live with, so I guess we're even. We'll figure everything out," I said, "but if I need anything I'll let you know, especially advice."

Kourtney and I talked for a few more minutes before Matt and the kids came rushing down to say goodbye to Kourtney. She was leaving tonight from Boston so she wasn't going to be able to stay very long. I kind of stepped back and watched. I didn't want to intrude, and Kourney and I said our goodbyes when they were upstairs.

I braced myself as she pulled out of the driveway for a difficult next few weeks. I knew that after a couple days things would get difficult. I knew what it was like trying to adjust to a new environment and I was older than these guyse when it happened.