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Flashbacks
Chapter 9: All the Flashbacks Revolve Around You
I didn't fall asleep very well after having sex with Pein; and I waited until the sound of my lovers breathing became heavy before leaving the room. Walking out onto the balcony sitting on the ground looking the through the glass balcony wall. I watched all as the night time city life go on. Thoughts of regret from early running through my mind, letting my head clunk against the glass. I thought about how I first got involved with all of my new friends. It confused hme how they had all wormed their way into my life, and not once did I try stop them. It confused me cause I didn't know why they did, other than them being friends with Sakura as well.
"Tonight was amazing but…I don't think it was right." I muttered to himself hugging my knees to my chest hearing soft snores coming from Peins room. Frowning to myself I walked back into the apartment and pulled my shoes and jacket on leaving a note for Pein before leaving to head home. I stood in the silent elevator starring at my phone and at Kakashi's number trying to decide whether or not to call him or not. Deciding against it I pulled the hood to the jacket over my head and exited the fancy hotel into the cold winter air. Freezing in surprise to see Sakura standing there waiting, leaned up against a light pole.
"I had an inkling that you wouldn't be able to stay with him the entire night." She said walking over to me giving me a small smile.
"I guess I'm not over that bastard." I muttered letting out a sad sigh.
"No, you're over him. You're not over the fact of what he did to you. It's not something you get over easy. Especially since you don't go to any therapy to help with getting over it, I'm worried about you, ya know." Sakura explained as the two of us began walking down the street.
"I don't need therapy Sakura. And I defiantly don't need to go see any doctors. Tsunadae will be here soon enough to give me all sorts of tests. Like she did to her assistant Shizune a couple years back when she was attacked by some foreigner." I whispered looking down at my feet.
"Besides I already have a therapist…I've got a ton of therapists if you ask me. Everyone in Static Unplugged makes it their personal business to know what's going through my mind and what's wrong when I'm upset." I laughed dryly then sighed.
"We know you don't appreciate us always budding in when you don't want to talk about it. But remember this Naruto, I was there when that bastard first caused you to break and you fell into hysterics. At the time I wished I had always bugged you about your feelings and wished I was there. You changed dramatically because you always stayed in your head! You went from my bubbly, outgoing, knuckled headed best friend to this mellow, depressed, cautious person. You don't take risks like you used to, you don't pull anymore pranks. Naruto I want the old you back, the old Naruto who would do anything to be spotlight on that stage with only a guitar and no band to back you up!" Sakura snapped stepping in front of me her eyes brimming with tears.
"It's not that easy to just revert back! It's not that easy to just open up and tell everyone exactly what happened. The only reason I said anything to Tsunadae and you without avoiding it because I know you two! The both of you would never let it go until I did. Honestly I just want to disappear until it all goes away like I always do." I panicked looking away from her. Sakura smiled sadly before reaching out and wrapped her arms around my shoulders holding me tightly to her.
"I know Naruto, I know it's not easy. And I want you to always remember that I am here for you no matter what. You and I have been friends since diapers and don't you dare ever forget it!" Sakura whispered holding me a little while longer before stepping away.
"Come on let's get you home before we freeze to death!" Sakura laughed beginning to walk down the sidewalk again.
'You know Sakura… Gaara is a lucky guy to have a girl like you. So don't you ever forget how special you are.' I thought jogging to catch up to her the two of us walking in comfortable silence until we reached my house.
"Do you want to stay the night Sakura?" I asked the standing at the bottom of the driveway. Sakura shook her head smiling.
"Not tonight, Gaara is waiting up for me. You had me waiting outside for quite a while. Maybe sometime next week you and I can get some best friend time in." She said before turning and walking away her hands linked behind her back. I watched her walk away until I couldn't see her anymore then began walking up the drive way. Instead of going inside I walked into the garage and over to my desk. Instantly I began writing lyrics down into a notebook then on separate music sheets I wrote different notes for the song. It was going to be another long night recording a song. Taking a short break around three in the morning I sat outside the garage watching the sky as snow began to fall.
"Hey Naruto, do you think one day we will be an old married couple sitting on an old wooden porch sing watching the snowfall like this?" A younger Sasuke asked the two of us young boys sitting at a park on top of a park table watching the snow fall.
"Maybe, you never know when it comes to love. Anything could happen and everything could change in a matter of seconds." I explained my knees hugged to my chest and my chin rest on my drawn up knees.
"I hope that never happens to us. I want us to stay together forever." Sasuke said looking back up at the sky.
"Good luck with that Sasuke, you have to earn Sakura's respect before that's ever going to happen. Especially after what you did to her." I sighed rolling my eyes.
"She's moving to Tokyo Usuratonkachi, I doubt she's going to give a fuck if we stay together or not." The raven retorted punching me in the arm.
"Even if she wasn't you're off to a bad fucking start! You know how her and I hate it when you call me that!" I spat getting up from the table and began walking off. I yelped when I was tackled to the ground and straddled by Sasuke.
"WHAT THE FUCK SASUKE?!" I yelled squirming.
"Fine I promise not to call you that anymore. Just stay with me." Sasuke whispered brushing his fingers into my hair before kissing him. I kissed back wrapping my arms around Sasuke's shoulders.
Gritting my teeth at memory I abruptly stood up and stormed back into the garage sitting down at the piano Deidara brought and began recording the first instrument piece trying to push Sasuke completely from my mind. Looking back at the words to the lyrics I had written down, the words reminded me of the past love life, a past person I thoughy could be the one, but over and over proved to be the wrong person. But still I was in love with him.
I ran down the streets of my old neighborhood happily. I had been living at Sasuke's new house for a little over a week now and I have never been any happier. I was sad about the fact that Sakura only had one more month before moving, but we stay in touch with all the time. Running up the front steps I busted through the front door.
"Hey Sasuke I'm home!" I shouted through the house disposing of my shoes at the door before walking into the living room. I had a bad gut feeling when there was shuffling noises from the upstairs room. Part of me told me to just ignore it and start making dinner but my feet had a mind of their own and headed straight to the bedroom. I felt like the walls were caving in on me since it was dark outside and no lights were on in the house. My hand rested on the cool metal handle of the door before gripping it tightly and pushing the door open. My heart sank at the site and before Sasuke could scream out my name I was already out the door running down the street. The echo of thunder sounded around me as an incoming storm warned people to go into their homes. Images of Sasuke and that other boy who they went to school with ran through my mind.
'Why?...WHY?!' I kept thinking as I vaguely noted that I entered the forest path in the park trying to get as far away from his home as possible. The other boys' identity finally revealing itself in my mind.
'What does Neji have that I don't? Why would Sasuke do this? Did I do something for Sasuke to do that?!' My thoughts went wild again as I finally came to a stop collapsing to my knees tears falling from my eyes rain beginning to pour down around me.
"WHY?!" I finally screamed out to the sky breaking into hysterics
Sitting down on the stool, the record button already pressed as I waited for the music I just recorded and put together to play. I listened as the beginning piano piece began and already did I feel tears already springing out. I let out a deep breath before singing.
"Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me"
I sang and let the music die off before I stopped recording and stood there for a while before shutting it all down and left the garage again.
"Naruto?" Iruka called walking up, jumping I sighed when I saw it was just Iruka there.
"Hey Iruka-Tou-San." I sighed before looking back up at the sky trying to calm down my beating heart.
"Kakashi said you were staying the night with Pein." Iruka said standing next to his son.
"I got home sick." I answered simply letting out a shaky breath.
"Did you envision…him…again?" Iruka asked looking down at his son worriedly.
"No…but I felt horrible afterwards. And I don't know why! I love Pein, I know I do! Every time I'm with him I get all weird, nervous but I'm happy being around him. He makes me feel safe. But why…why do I feel so horrible?!" I asked not realizing I was slightly shouting.
"Because you fear it's going to happen again. You think that what you have with Pein will turn out the same way like with him. All of us think it's too early for you to be with anyone, but again we can't stop you and your decisions. We all make mistakes and we have to learn from them. Use tonight to really think on what you want and what you're ready for. If Pein truly loves you the way you love him, then he will respect whatever you decide and will wait if you want to take it slow." Iruka explained before patting me on the back and headed back into the house. I looked down and sighed before walking out to the front of the house and sat on the old rickety bench Kakashi put out there. Snow had been rapidly falling around me for a good a while even when someone sat next to me, I know who it was but I stayed in my mind going through all my decisions, all my options, and all that I wanted.
"We moved too fast didn't we?" I finally asked starring at my hand wishing that I was wearing gloves.
"Only you can decide that Naruto, but if I had to be honest. I think I'd have to say yes, we moved a bit too fast. Way to fast." Pein answered wrapping his gloved hands around mine.
"Can we slow down, tonight was amazing, but… I just don't want to happen what happened last time. I'm not saying that you'd ever hurt me…" I began hearing my voice cracking.
"You're just not ready yet, I know and I will respect that." Pein said leaning forward and kissed my cheek.
"You do what you want to do and stop when it goes too far. We will stick to holding hands then when you're ready for the next step then we will move to the next step." Pein explained, I looked up and into Peins eyes and smiled before hugging the man.
"I trust you Pein, so please trust me." I asked feeling even warmer when Pein hugged me back.
"I already do trust you Naruto." Pein replied before letting me go and the two of us stood from the bench.
"Go get some sleep we have a long day tomorrow. I hope you're packed for that trip to the Island." Pein said kissing my forehead on last time before heading off to his house. My smile faded and I rushed into the house and up to my room digging out multiple luggage's before tossing summer clothes everywhere.
"What the fuck are you doing?" Kyuubi asked walking into the room yawning Hideki standing behind him looking just as tired.
"I forgot that we are leaving tomorrow for the search expedition to that island." I panicked, Hideki blinked a few times before turning right back around heading back towards Kyuubis' room; muttering that she was glad that she wasn't going with the group to the remote island.
"Well you should have thought about that earlier should you?" Kyuubi asked chuckling before following Hideki wrapping his arms around the girls' waist. I rolled his eyes stuffing as many clothes into two luggage's and stuffed a carry on duffle bag with stuff to keep me entertained. By the time I was done the sun was beginning to come up and as I was laying my head on the pillow when Hidan came rushing into the room.
"RISE AND SHINE SLEEPY HEAD TIME TO GO!" The platinum haired boy yelled, I sat on my bed starring at the boy with a blank stare before digging my face into the pillow to go to sleep again.
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"ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! GET THE FUCK UP!" Hidan yelled going to pounce on the blond, but Kyuubi caught him by the back of the shirt.
"Grab his bags I'll carry him, he's been literally up all night packing." Kyuubi explained walking over to the already passed out Naruto and lifted the boy off his bed then grabbed the carry on duffle bag. Outside Sakura giggle at the site of Naruto asleep and punching Kyuubi's chest from a dream.
"HERE! He's your problem now!" Kyuubi snapped shoving the blond into Peins arms and tossed Sakura the duffle bag then ran over to Kisame and Kakuzu to help pack all the cars. Sakura busted out into laughter when Naruto instantly curled into Pein becoming still.
"Yep he still sleeps like a fucking rock!" She laughed turning and waved to Gaara when she saw him walking up.
'He may be sleeping like a rock but he's tense. He's not fully asleep. If he senses anything uncomfortable he will wake up instantaneously.' Pein thought sighing carrying Naruto to his car and sat him in the front seat buckling him in.
"I'll be right back Naruto." He whispered kissing the boys forehead then headed over to help the others with packing the cars. The second he was gone Naruto opened his eyes and watched everyone before looking around the area. He knew Sasuke was close by the air always got tense when he was. And he was right when his phone buzzed and the number he had recognized all too well.
"Moushi, moushi?" He answered tiredly not caring at the moment at who it was.
"Hello Naruto." Sasuke's voice came from the other end.
"Uh huh, what?" Naruto asked, normally he would be frightened to hear his voice, but with all his friends nearby and him being way too tired, he simply didn't care.
"So you're going on a trip I see." Sasuke said ignoring Naruto's tone of voice.
"Yep we are going to the Island of Coochi to go get eaten by an escaped science project made of Blue Goo called Coo." Naruto said not interested in anything Sasuke had to say then hung up the phone. Getting out of the car Naruto walked over to Kakashi who came out to supervise.
"I thought you were asleep." Kakashi said everyone stopped to watch Naruto.
"Here I don't want this vile thing anymore…you can burn it if you want." Naruto said and then dragged himself back to the car to sleep some more after giving Kakashi his cell phone.
"Um who called?" Sakura asked.
"Sasuke." Naruto stated and he sensed everyone went onto edge.
"What did the bastard want?" Gaara asked evilly tossing a bag up to Kiba a bit too hard knocking the boy off the top of the car.
"Just stated that he saw that we were going on a trip." Naruto stated yawning giving everyone a blank stare, Sakura was trying not to laugh since this was a serious topic.
"And what did you tell him un?" Deidara asked not getting the point now.
"I told him that we are going to the Island of Coochi to go get eaten by an escaped science project made of Blue Goo called Coo." Naruto answered then finished his way back to Peins car climbing into the back seat and took it over.
"I guess Sakura and Gaara are going to have to share the front seat after all." Pein sighed shaking his head.
"What…the fuck?" Hidan asked looking to Sakura.
"Get used to that especially if you wake Naruto up too early or if he has lack of sleep. He will go zombie, which is bad for us and Sasuke because he simply…Doesn't give a shit. Nothing scares him and he will say the oddest things ever just to shut you up long enough for him to finally fall asleep. That's probably why Sasuke hasn't called back, he knows that if you bug Zombie Naruto too much then you will suffer the wrath of him using you as a pillow and chewing on you and drooling on you then glaring at you for an entire week after he wakes up." Sakura explained in one breath and nodded her head before heading for Peins car as well.
"Well Naruto isn't normal that's for sure." Sasori said patting Deidara on the head when the blond hugged onto him shivering. They might have been going to a warm climate island but they were still in Tokyo where it was freezing cold.
"Okay kids lets get into the cars and head to the airport we are 15 minutes behind schedule!" Pein announced and soon the lot of them were on their way to the airport hoping for the trip to be a success with them going to be gone for the remainder of the school year and the all summer if needed be.
Well there you go the next chapter…YAY! I know it's short and to be honest I kind of rushed it LOL! Well now…I know they are going to a remote Island to find and rescue Naruto and Kyuubi's parents…I need your help with ideas on what should happen and I'm serious….I NEED YOUR HELP! LOL xD. See you next time.