Disclaimer: All characters from the most amazing book ever, Twilight, are unfortunately owned by Stephenie Meyer and not me. Any similarities with Breaking Dawn are mere coincidences. I did not copy the manuscript for Breaking Dawn!

Author's Note:

This chapter is dedicated to Edward Cullen because I didn't get the reviews I wanted!! Also, Edward is the only one you can count on.Plus, I won't dedicate a chapter to somebody twice! This is quite dissapointing because I know 23 people read my previous chapter! I guess this chapter describes me perfectly then.

The song for this chapter is The Call by Regina Spektor.

Chapter Summary- I decided to do it from Edward's POV because I thought you should just get a feel of how Edward was taking this. And yes, Adidasgrl328, he is pissed. So this chapter basically is showing how Edward is taking all of this. He's not taking it so well I might add.

Plus, this chapter is shorter than most and I wanted to post something before I go on vacation for two weeks. Sorry! But there will be a lot of driving in the car so I promise to finish at least 2 chapters before I come back!!

So enjoy!

Chapter 10: Depression

Edward's POV

I read the letter that had been left for me once more, although, not really reading what it said. I had practically memorized it already, but I needed to read those words again to try and accept the finality of them.

"Dear Edward" it began.

"You have no idea how much this hurts to do this to you, but I would hurt even more if I didn't. I need to do this for myself before we get married. Don't get mad at Alice when you find out. It probably hurt her enough to agree to help me (which wasn't easy I might add).

I'm sorry. I went to find Jacob. I know you're angry, but please, hear me out. I'm not choosing him over you. I just need to make sure he's OK and apologize for hurting him… again.

Please, don't follow me. Alice is keeping a close eye on me and she knows what to do in case something happens.

I love you, and please don't do anything drastic while I'm gone. You know what I'm talking about.

I'm sorry. I'll see you in a week.

Forever Yours,

Bella"

"She went to comfort that dog?" had been my first thought upon reading the letter.

I had known for quite some time how much Bella cared for that d- Jacob. It shouldn't have surprised me that she would do something like this. But the thing is, it did. She would be quiet or thoughtful at times and I knew her thoughts were turned towards him. I was aware that she called Billy. Way more than I would've liked I might add.

And yet, I couldn't get rid of the initial shock I had felt.

Arriving home from hunting had been anything but pleasant.

I cringed from just the thought of it. My entire being had taken a life of its own and has therefore made it easier to be around Bella.

Ah, Bella.

I had been surprised I had even let myself think that beautiful name of the only person to touch my non-beating heart.

The person who had now left me to comfort another.

I had the strange feeling of déjà vu. In remembrance o leaving Bella not 10 months ago.

But, I now had an idea of what Bella cringe must've gone through when I cringe left her.

It was one thing to leave someone when you know your reasons and that you're justified. In your mind at least.

But, it's a whole new experience to be left by your beloved. I knew it wasn't permanent, but the pain hurt just the same.

I cringed once more in the pain I was inflicting on myself. I must have a death wish. OR a damnation wish, at least.

Although, now, unfortunately, there were no bloodthirsty vampires in job to do the job.

Not that I wanted to die. No. Quite the contrary. I just wanted to find some way to just live (or non-live in my case) through the next 5 days. Or was it 4? I had been lying here on my bed for so long, I had lost track of the time.

Sometimes I wished I could just sleep, if only for a second, just to take a break from the never-ending thoughts that constantly invaded my mind.

Mine, I could handle if I put in the effort. But my unmanageable thoughts plus everyone else's was unbearable.

And their thoughts were quite loud and aggravating at the moment.

They all had one thing in common though. Me.

For the past 48(or was it 72?) hours or so, their thoughts were centered on me.

Rosalie was worrying, more like wondering to be exact, if this depression would be as abd as my previous one. Emmett was thinking how he missed having someone to joke around with, while at the same time comforting Rose.

Esme was being her usual motherly self and was concerned if I was going to run off again.

Carlisle was working, so a little bit of the weight was lifted from not hearing my "father's" worries.

Jasper was out hunting nearby, but not too close enough to hear his thoughts, so that was also a relief.

Earlier he had tried to affect my emotions, but had stopped after my second outburst.

And last, but by no means least, was Alice, the majority of the reason behind my fury.

Her thoughts had been the most aggravating to me. They had finally been silenced after I had yelled at her to stop.

Also, the fact that I was using all of my strength to block her out greatly helped to keep her infuriating thoughts out of my head.

Thinking about her again, however, let her gain access to invade my mind with her thoughts.

"Edward! I know you can hear me!" Alice's shrill voice echoed as if she was standing right next to me. "You need to stop this foolishness! It's infantile and immature! If I'm OK with Bella cringe leaving, you should be, too!"

"That may be true, but you know what's happening to her, and I don't." I retorted in the confinement of my thoughts.

As if Alice had briefly borrowed my power, I saw flickering images of Bella driving, Bella hiking, Bella sleeping.

She seemed fine, which greatly helped my anxiety.

However, seeing her there without me sent another spasm of pain up and down my body.

Alice would be paying for this when I recovered.

How could someone so pixie-like be so annoying and aggravating?

As if her psychic abilities weren't enough to drive anyone insane, it made matters worse when she rubbed it in your face as she did to me just seconds before. Add that to her shopping obsession and party planning habits, she was one vexing vampire.

As if on cue, she slammed open my door and stormed in as if she owned the place.

"Speak of the midget." I thought glumly to myself, not in a good enough mood to even laugh at one of my better jokes.

"Edward! This has got to stop! You're affecting everyone with you problems and you don't even mind!

"Jasper had to leave because your emotions were too strong for him! Carlisle and Esme are so worried about you, but they don't know how to approach you! Rosalie is worried you'll break up the family again, and Emmett cares too, but he won't say it aloud.

"And how do you think I'm taking this? Along with all the planning, I also have to deal with a depressed bridegroom! Do you not care about your family anymore?" She lectured with the authority of one of my old college professors.

"Alice, just leave me alone." I said knowing, that if I didn't, she'd never be happy.

"Fine. Waste the time away. See if I care." She stomped out of the room and shut the door so hard, it nearly came out of its hinges.

"Fine, I will." I thought stubbornly and lay there waiting for my sentence to hell to be over.

Author's Note:

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