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I could feel the old me attempting to convince my hands to reach out and put my little disaster causing brother into a headlock and lock him in the first closet I could find, but that might ruin my dress, and worse, cause an unnecessary scene. So instead I escorted him to a far corner of the ballroom, smiling serenely at each person that I passed, I may be upset but I wasn't going to display a lack of decorum at an event such as this.
Once we reached the destination I coolly turned around to face my brother, eyeing him testily, squaring my shoulders and standing at my full height, which put me at eye level with him. He bore a stronger resemblance to me than my darling older sister who took after our mother. We both had the same stormy eyes colored almond shaped eyes, strong jaw, lean build, and tan skin. But he did have our mother's fair hair, as well as her thin lips and shy demeanor.
He shifted uneasily under my intense scrutiny, when finally I sighed, pinching the bridge of my nose and placing my other hand on my hip as I felt my anger begin to dissipate. This was my only brother, the one who always tried to defend me, to rescue me. But then I remembered, he didn't rescue me this time, I did, and he was the reason for it. So I regained composure, and jabbed him in the chest with my pointer finger as I began my lecture.
"you had better have an amazingly important reason for recklessly managing to involve me in your ridiculous military affairs Joseph. Just what, could possibly be so important that I had to be dragged into this?" I demanded him, jabbing him with each new sentence.
He grabbed my hand and looked earnestly into my eyes as he tried to explain himself, "I honestly cant tell you sister, its completely confidential and if I told you I could get into a lot of trouble." He said, pleading with his eyes.
I simply wouldn't have it.
"I don't care, I was attacked, it had to do with you, and you will tell me right now what is going on in the military." I said, pulling my hand from his grip, relaxing my expression and smiling softly at Roy as he looked up at me from that Full Metal child, what was a kid doing here in the first place?
"Fine, but you can't tell anyone. You were taken by what is known as a homunculi's, I was part of the investigation team in charge of finding out how these creatures function, and how they are created. Mustang is the one who assembled the team under very secret circumstances; the higher ups don't even know what we are up to. According to Mustang, we cant even trust them any more, but when the team found some, sensitive information about a possible location for the homunculi, and found out how they could be created, the team began to disappear, or, after a family member was threatened, they would back out and pretend to have no memory of any of the research. I thought that with all of dads contacts and money and security I would be safe so I continued, I dropped out after you were captured." I stared at Joseph, unmoving and contemplating everything he said.
"You backed out? How dare you refer to yourself as a Brownwell, let alone my brother? Our family does not cave in to the maniacal demands of freaks, you will re join the investigation, you will conduct yourself carefully, and you will return to the safety of our home. I will make sure that Roy provides you with full protection. You had better remember who you are, we are not cowards, we are survivors." I said this all without faltering, I was even shocked slightly at how harsh I was speaking to him.
All he could do was watch, as I swiftly made my way back to Roy at the other end of the hall.
"Well that looked rather intense." Roy said, his voice lightening my mood, although my anger was still bubbling beneath the calm façade I was displaying.
The blonde child regarded me coldly, and it irked me. How dare he judge me, I didn't know this brat and he was giving me a stare that made me seethe.
"Hello Full Metal, I hope you and your brother are well." I said, regarding him carefully, not sinking down to his level with petty glaring.
"We are thank you, I don't mean to be rude, but why exactly are so cold and defensive? Your brother looks petrified." He said, his voice level and cool, still eyeing me with that, that look!
"That is none of your concern Elric, and as for your judgment of me, that is also none of your business and I suggest you stop glaring at me so openly. This is a small city, I wouldn't want you to become blacklisted." I said, taking Roy's arm and walking over to where there were refreshments waiting to be consumed.
"Well that went well." He said sarcastically, referring to the meeting of me and the young alchemist.
"The brat was giving me a very rude look, and I won't tolerate that sort of disrespect from somebody who doesn't even reach my shoulder." I said, coldly still seething. How dare that child ruin my night.
Roy smirked, but still sighed and gave me a look I could just barely discern, a look of pity.
"Honestly Vanessa, he's right, what happened to turn you into such a distant, guarded, cruel person? At the park, you seemed to be relaxing, that child, you gave him a look of such warmth, and compassion. What happened to you?"
I looked up at him, completely shocked, what had happened to our agreement? This was to be purely business, and from what I had gathered he was sickened by my personality, but lately he had been growing on me, trying to get close to me, what happened? And why was everybody judging me?
"I want to go home Roy." I said, my wall was starting to break, and I was not going to be completely vulnerable in a room full of sharks.
Roy sighed, but he linked arms with me and together we made our way out of the Hall, and back outside where the moon was full and high in the sky, looking down at us, at me. I felt a tremendous weight on my shoulders and an enormous pressure in my chest. I was only trying to survive, I was strong and independent, cunning, yet everyone was judging me. Elric, Roy, I had seen their looks from others since moving to Central, my mother even looked at me with that sad, Pitying look from time to time and it crushed me more and more. I didn't want to be laughed at again, what was so wrong with that?
We made it to the car, and Roy held the door open as I slid in, cautiously knowing at the slightest jerky movement my wall, which had taken so many years to build and protect, would crumble at my feet and reveal what I truly was. A scared, lonely, angry child who just wanted to prove to everyone that I was worth something.
Roy sat next to me, and all he did was sit, not looking at me, and I was relieved. But then, he wrapped his arm around me, and when I looked up, he was giving me that look again, and suddenly we hit a bump in the road, and then it happened.
It shattered.
All the resolve I had been clinging to disappeared and suddenly I was sobbing, huge tremors rocked my shoulders as I pulled away from Roy, and leaned forward covering my face as I cried. I cried for myself, I cried for my family, I cried because I was weak. I had finally been broken, once again.
I felt a pair of strong hands pull me to the side and I felt myself in Roys lap, I was laying on the seat my face away from him, as I continued crying, unable to stop as he held my hand with one hand and kneaded my shoulder with the other. We drove around for most of the night, him not saying anything, and me just crying. We finally stopped, and I managed to suppress my sobs and see that was were at the park where Roy and I had watched the childs party. I looked at him questioningly as he signaled his driver to leave the car.
He turned me to him, and cupped my chin in his hand as he looked at me, a fierce look in his eyes.
"I don't know what happened to make you this way, and I don't understand why you need to have so many barriers to keep people out, but you have my word, if you let me in, let me get to know you, I will not give you any reason to block me out again." He said, his voice strong.
"Don't make such a silly promise, you hate me, you hate my guts. What you see, on a day to day basis that is me. Maybe it's a more guarded, more serious version, but what you see is what you get. I am determined, I am manipulative, I'm controlling, I'm moody, and I have no sympathy for weakness. Yes, I'm weak right now, but I will be strong again, don't you dare fucking pity me." I said harshly, wishing I could just go back to crying.
"I'm ok with that, because I know that you are real. You have fears like the rest of us, you can be hurt like the rest of us, you laugh, you cry, face it, your human. Get over it."
I just looked at him, questioningly. I wasn't sure where any of this was going, but I was willing to try it. After all, I was a Brownwell, and we never back down.
I felt something inside me give me a push, and with that I leaned forward, and kissed him. I released all my passion, my rage, my anguish, and in that moment, felt completely whole.
I could feel his arms wrap around me, and then pull away as his hands gripped my sides and pulled me onto his lap as we both finally connected and let our guards down. He wasn't so different from me, I knew that he was cocky; he was arrogant, and completely stubborn and sarcastic. But he was loyal, honest, and surprisingly funny.
I ran my hands through his hair, relishing the feeling of our bodies pressed together, our lips moving in harmony, and I pulled my hands down and cupped his face in my hands, ending the passion, and staring him in the eyes, both of us breathing heavily, both of us were vulnerable, both of us were emotionally naked, just looking at each other.
I could feel all my emotions running wild, and with some dread, and mostly shock and acceptance, I came to terms that this was somebody I could truly be open with, somebody I could become passionately in love with.
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