April 16, 2011
"Is he ever going to get better?" Thomas sighs.
"You need to give him more time." the therapist gives Thomas a sympathetic look.
"That's what everyone keeps telling me but I don't even know how to be around him anymore. I can't touch him, he barely talks to me, and it's like we're back at square one and we're never get any further than that." Thomas yells.
"I'm sorry Thomas but Matthew hasn't been here long enough for me to say if he actually needs to be hospitalized but he is improving." Thomas calms down. "Most patients take a while to finally tell me their problems but Matthew doesn't seem to have a problem with explaining what's on his mind." the therapist explains.
"Has he told you what happened that night?" the therapist shakes his head.
"Not directly but I have enough data to guess at what happened but I can't give that info to you." Thomas nods his head.
"So I have to wait till Matthew is ready to tell me?" Thomas looks at his shoes and noticed one of them is untied and goes to tie it.
"Precisely, now I must be going." the therapist makes his way into his office.
"I'll see you tomorrow." Thomas says as he finishes tying his shoe.
"Bye." the therapist disappears into his office.
At Matthew's Apartment
"Are you ever going to tell me what happened?" Thomas makes his way to Matthew's side.
"I don't know what you're talking about Thomas." Matthew sinks further into the blankets.
"Matthew we've been over this many times…the day Mary told you I was no good for you." Matthew loosens his grip on the blankets. "Do you agree with her?" Thomas pulls the blankets off of Matthew.
"Thomas you've been so nice to me but I don't think I can give you what you deserve." Matthew admits.
"I'm so stupid!" Thomas slams his hands into the bedroom wall and Matthew jumps at the sudden action. "I should've known." Thomas turns to face Matthew.
"You can't leave me Thomas you owe me that." Thomas looks at Matthew confused.
"What are you talking about?" Thomas continues to stare at Matthew.
"Tom told me you slept with him." Thomas shifts his gaze away from Matthew. "You lied to me this whole time!" Matthew yells. "You knew who Tom was the day we first met but you pretended to not know him." Matthew keeps on and Thomas doesn't stop him. "Why?" Thomas is surprised by the sudden change in Matthew. This is most he's ever said to him since that day. "Was Steven even real or was he a lie to so that I'll feel bad for you?" Thomas clenches his fists and storms over to Matthew.
"How dare you say that Steven was not real. He's real as you'll ever be." Thomas pulls Matthew from the bed. "You're just some worthless piece of shit with no potential." Thomas spats and forces Matthew to look at him. "How can you even walk around with pride for who you are?" Matthew cringes as Thomas raises his fist but Thomas doesn't hit him.
"I wish you were dead." the atmosphere becomes strained. "You can go fuck yourself if your so desperate to get in my pants." Matthew pushes Thomas away. "Loving someone means you care and respect them but it seems you have no respect for me." Matthew scoffs.
"I don't care and respect you?" Thomas is taken back. "I take you to every fucking appointment and wait for you. I even cook for you." Matthew rolls his eyes. "So don't go blaming this shit on me." Thomas shoves Matthew to the floor.
"Please leave Thomas." Matthew shrinks into a ball and starts crying.
"Just for a bit right because you'll come running back to me asking me to fuck the shit out of you realizing how stupid you're being." Thomas starts throwing things around the apartment trying to scare Matthew.
"Just leave!" Matthew grabs his head and starts rocking back and forth.
"No I'm gonna fucking stay!" Thomas makes his way over to Matthew on the floor and tries to take his clothes off.
"Don't touch me!" Matthew is shaking a lot but Thomas is too far gone to even notice.
"Why am I not good enough for you anymore." Matthew keeps trying to push Thomas off but Thomas continues to unbutton Matthew's shirt.
"Please Thomas stop." Matthew starts convulsing on the floor and Thomas becomes awakened to reality.
"Matthew!" Thomas tries to get Matthew to look at him but Matthew has no control over his body. "Stay with me Matthew." Thomas puts everything else aside for now and rings for an ambulance. "I can't lose you, not now." Thomas whispers.