A/N: Were you surprised by last chapter?~ It wasn't my favorite buuut…meh. Your reviews made me happy :D. I loved the way I made them fall in love. It just happens so suddenly. All it took was a kiss~:3. Hopefully Shizuo will finally take some initiative in the relationship and grow some…Anyway, feedback is always appreciated and enjoy.
~ Izaya's Aparment, 2:40, Izaya POV ~
"Ah, Namie, Namie my dearest Namie!~ I'm in love!~"
Izaya was prancing around his office being an annoying prick because he could. He could piss Namie off as much as he wanted and not give a crap.
"You can't marry sushi, you know?"
"How cruel Namie~. It is an actual human, well sort of human~…"
"What a poor, poor woman. God rest her soul if she ever marries you."
"Well it isn't legal for me to marry 'her.'" Izaya said air quoting the her.
"'Her?!' It is a guy! I should've known you were gay, my gaydar was going off with you."
"Watch it, Namie. You are hurting my feelings calling me gay. I'm only gay for him~. Would you like me to rant about him for the entire workday so you can bring lots of paperwork home?"
Namie was silent for a second. "Like you haven't ever insulted or hurt someone's feelings before."
"Those people don't control me or my paycheck, hm?~"
Namie went back to sorting the files and started to ignore Izaya because he was pissing her off. Nothing new really, just pissing her off more than normal.
"But seriously," Namie thought, "Who would Izaya Orihara possibly fall in love with? I only ever saw him bring women home at night. Who knows what goes on in his twisted mind?" Then she muttered, "Only for you Seiji…" and clutched the picture she held of him tight to her chest.
"Izaya, are you serious about this? It scares me a little to hear you admitting to being human and having human emotions. Are you sure you didn't finally crack?"
"Ahahahah~! I am. But for once, I am truly in love."
"I'm glad…for you." Namie wondered if the emotional mess that would result from this would be something to look forward to. Heh. Definitely not.
Izaya started to ignore Namie, too. Yeah right she was happy for him.
Namie is such a stupid bitch. I'm worried enough about Shizu-chan! I went up and kissed him square on the lips! I hope he doesn't hate me for it. I could almost swear he kissed me back, but who am I kidding? Why would he think of me that away? I should be lucky we even became friends. But I can't help but hope. Although, what if Shizuo rejects me? Will our friendship disappear? Will he brush me away like everyone else? I hate this. I hate it.
Please Shizuo…don't leave me. After all, you said you'd catch me if I fell.
~ Streets of Ikebukuro, 19:08, Shizuo's POV ~
-bang-
"Fuck! Get back here asshole!"
"Shizuo!? Let him be, are you okay?"
"I'm fine. It is just a shot in the leg. We can take care of it after work."
"You need to treat that Shizuo! Seriously!"
Calm yourself, Tom. I don't realize why he thinks this is such a bit deal.
"Who gives a shit? I can stop by Shinra's later."
"Later?!" Tom sighed, "Please Shizuo, think rationally for once! You are my friend and I want you to be safe and not stupid. Letting you bleed of your thigh is not exactly making me a good friend."
"Fine, Tom…can you finish up without me?"
"Yes I can catch that guy some other time. I just need to be a little more prepared for the next time."
"Well…okay. See you, Tom."
How goddamn annoying. Fuckers need to stop shooting me. Next time I find this idiot he will be dead as a damn doornail. Anyway, the last place I want to go to is Shinra's. After what happened 'bout a week ago…that…kiss…Well, Shinra is way too noisy, and I love him and all, but right now I just need to talk to Izaya. But this past week had been crazy busy.
Shizuo kept grumbling to himself about Shinra on his entire way towards his apartment.
I wonder if anything changed there, or if anything changed between them since then.
-ding dong-
Shinra came rushing to the door and smiled that dorky grin that would make anyone want to punch him in the stomach.
"Ah, hello Shizuo!~ What brings you h-? Oh, I see. Come in, Come in. I'll patch you up."
Heh, nothing looks different. Shinra is as peppy as always. After all, they have been living with each other with so long. The wedding was practically a formality for the two.
"Thanks, Shinra. Tom was bothering me about it. What has been up with you?"
"Nothing new really. Celty is out doing some delivery while I'm home alone waiting for my enchantress. The real question though is what is up with Izaya and you?~"
"What is up with it?" Am I blushing? Oh, please I hope I fucking am not. "Nothing. We are friends now."
"Ahahha, really? How exciting…Great idea! How about I invite Izaya over for a drink? I haven't talked to him at all lately. You guys get too busy too often."
Fuck, I'm not prepared for this. Shinra, I'll kill you for this later.
"Sure, I don't care."
Shinra continued to sew and clean Shizuo's wound when he called Izaya up.
"Hey Izaya! Want to come over?"
"Ah, Shinra~! What a pleasant surprise. Sounds wonderful, I've been people watching around in Ikebukuro so I'll be right over."
"Awesome. Bring some beer? Or some wine? I just ran out."
"Tch, fine. This is rather odd coming from your Shinra. I find it surprising that you drink. Even an informant like me doesn't know that about you. How shameful~."
"Oh, I only drink in moderation and for special occasions!"
"Alright, I guess a little can't hurt. Be over soon."
Shinra hung up and Shizuo narrowed his eyes.
"You better not be trying to get us drunk off our asses again. That was a really bad decision on both our parts. Even if it is for the better now, the day after was horrific."
"Ah, calm down Shizuo. I just want to talk to you guys and hang out a little. No shame in that?~ Anyway, I want to tell my two favorite men about my lovely Celty~."
"I haven't heard from her much. She doin' okay?"
"Mostly. She cooks for me now and seems to be a bit happier. Not to flatter myself or anything~."
-ding dong-
That fucker is already here? What kind of shit was he up to…and to whom?
"Sh-Shizuo?"
Their eyes met and they stood stiffly in front of each other.
The night of last week flashed before their eyes like a dream that was so fleeting and short, to never happen again.
It seemed too unreal. Where does reality and dreams overlap? When did life become so unrealistic and dream-like? Why, why, why the two men questioned to themselves?
Why did they both want that dream to never end?
"'Sup, flea?"
"I was just talking to Kida-kun and Mikado-kun…Shizuo…why are you here?"
"Got shot and-."
Shinra popped into the conversation, "Really? THAT is what you call people watching? Talking to those kids?"
"Well, no…I was doing some other things, too! No matter! I brought Bella Sera*~~! No Vodka this time to avoid Shizu-chan and our previous bad experience with it."
Glad we are on the same page…
Shinra then ushered Izaya in, "Come in Izaya! We can't wait around in the hallway for too long~."
The three walked over to the couch while I went and poured some of the wine into some glasses.
Bella Sera is a favorite of mine. My mother used to drink it all the time when I was a child.
"Ah, thanks Shizu-chan~."
"Thank you, Shizuo."
Sipping the white wine, I said, "Wine is one of the few things that can calm me down. Especially white wine. It is really nice the few times I have it."
Shinra evilly whispered, "Quick Izaya. More wine. Shizuo is in a weak state and I want to see drunk Shizuo again~."
"I agree. Shizu-chaaaaan~~ C'mere~"
What the f-fuck? They better stay the fuck away. I can't tell when either of them is joking. Shinra has asked to experiment on me before…I should try and like back away before I get angry and crush his whole fucking house. But for some reason I don't really feel all that angry. I actually find this kind of funny…w-What? These guys are fucking scary when they get serious….Oh god I need more wine. I'm too sober for this shit.
Shinra pulled out a needle form his back pocket and teased," I have my needle ready…We can knock him out and drug him…Just hold him down Izaya~."
I screamed at them, getting a little pissed off now, "GUYS?! WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING?!"
Shinra and Izaya started cracking up. Like, they fell on the floor, and started rolling a little. ROLLING. ON. THE. GODDAMN. FLOOR.
DO THEY THINK THIS IS FUCKING FUNNY? THIS TAKES TEASING ME TO A WHOLE NEW LEVEL! ESPECIALLY WITH FUCKING SHINRA AND HIS CREEPY DOCTORNESS AND IZAYA AND JUST HIS OVERALL CREEPYNESS. WHY AREN'T MY FRIENDS NORMAL?
Izaya then chuckled, "Calm down, Shizu-chan. We are joking around."
"How the hell should I know? You guys are fucking crazy, you know that?"
Shinra added, "We know! Haha, but you love us anyway!"
"W-what? I don't love either of you!"
Izaya teased Shizuo further, "I don't know about that~. You are blushing a lot. Did you fall in love with one of us? I can't deny I'd fall in love with me, too."
"…What the fuck Izaya? Is this a joke to you?"
"…That was the point, Shizu-chan. What is the big deal?"
Shizuo slammed his glass to the coffee table and stormed out the door. "Get. The. Fuck. Out. Here. Now. Shinra, don't you DARE listen to this conversation or I will rip your fucking neck out."
Izaya sung, "Be right back Shinra~. My dear monster awaits me."
Shinra, stunned out of his mind, walked out of the room to look like he wasn't going to spy on them. He, of course, was going to listen to every single word they said.
~ Outside of Shinra's Apartment, Izaya POV ~
"What do you think you are saying, Izaya? 'Did you fall in love with one of us?' Why would you ask something shitty like that? After you kiss me, and run away?! What the fuck am I supposed to think?"
No, Shizuo…I was just…joking…really…
"Shizu-chan, it was a joke. Did you want Shinra to know what happened the other day?"
"Well, who gives a shit if he knows? I'd rather him know than know that you think what happened a week ago was a joke! You don't do those kinds of things randomly for the hell of it or for fun!"
It wasn't done freely Shizuo…I really meant it…
"It isn't like that Shizuo!"
"It wasn't? So you did it to make fun of me? You planned all this shit out? Was this just a fucking game to you? It always was wasn't it? It doesn't matter who wins, you know that right? But, if it makes you feel so fucking great, YOU WIN."
"I don't feel like I'm winning…"
"Well you see me screaming and yelling at you, getting all emotional…I, I, really liked what you did! I like you! But obviously that doesn't matter to you. This little game of yours, this little JOKE that you do to EVERYONE! Why did I think I was different to you?"
"You…are different."
"Yeah, I'm the 'non-human monster,' right? That really just makes me feel so great inside, being called a monster. I can't believe I thought that being friends, or even more with you, could even work!"
It can work Shizuo. I love you.
I love you so much.
Don't end this. You can't leave me.
I…I don't want this. I don't want to hear you yell at me. Joking around about love is how I act with the face I wear to people. It is the way I have to act to keep people away. I'm a terrible person; I know that…But was it so wrong to hope Shizuo might love me?
"It can work Shizuo! Please…I was only acting that way because I was being the…fake me. The real me wanted to run up and kiss you again. The fake me would say I hate you and run away from you. Don't you understand?"
"I…You haven't ever been the 'real you' in front of me?"
"I…always was…You…make me feel like myself. I feel like I can't lie to you…It….Just…"
Shizuo stopped fuming by now. He slumped against the wall and slowly inched down, until he fell to the ground.
"…Why do you do this to me? How can I believe this isn't a game again?"
"…I can't prove that. You have to trust me. You can do that, right?"
Shizuo…Don't do this to me…I hate this. I hate this SO MUCH. Why can't you trust me? I know we had a past that makes you so on edge…But, please. Trust me in the time it matters most.
"I'm not sure."
The three words echoed through the room. They weren't words of undying love. They weren't the right letters strung together. The music they played only told of a sad story. They only told a story that no one wanted to hear.
The silence that followed was deafening. It was if the two knew it was hopeless. The dream they though could live on forever was just burned and crushed.
Why even try to hope for something more in life? Only things like this happen. Shizuo still can't trust me, and I said something wrong to him…Doesn't he know I love him? But why can't I say it…? Will he know I am not lying…? How do I get this to stop? How do I fix it? I'll do anything if we can be together…if we be ANYTHING more than nothing. I don't want to be left in the dust.
"P-please Shizuo…Trust me. I-I…."
"…"
"I-I…"
"Spit it out!"
"I-I love you…Sh-Shizuo…"
Izaya held his breath, waiting to hear what Shizuo would respond. The words reverberated like the three words spoken before. Yet this time, the silence was even worse.
Please, don't keep me waiting. You have to respond…
"You're lying."
"…It is the truth."
"YOU ARE LYING."
"I am not lying, Shizuo! I love you! I really do. Why won't you believe me?"
"I don't know…I don't know what to believe anymore…"
I looked Shizuo right in the eyes, tears streaming down my face. Our eyes were locked on each other. I couldn't look away even if I tried. If I did, he would know. He would know I don't mean what I said. But I mean it. I mean it so much. I love him. I love him. I love him. I love him. I love him. I love him. I love him. I love him. I love him.
"B-believe me. I won't lie to you. I…I just want to love you. I just want…you."
I am not possessive. I can't help my want for him. I can't help my longing for him. I can't help it anymore. I can't hold back anymore.
Shizuo stood back up, keeping eye contact. "Damnit, damnit, damnit, damnit, damnit..."
…Oh god. This can't be good…Is he angry? I didn't mean to make him angry!
"I'm sorry Shizuo…I didn't…mean to make you angry. If you want me to leave you alone that bad, I'll do it…"
Slamming me against the wall, Shizuo muttered, "Don't leave."
W-what?
Leaning into me, Shizuo closed his eyes…
Shinra, being who he is, opened up the door at that moment, with Shizuo breathing onto me while I stood quivering against the wall.
"Hey guys! Want to come back in now? I don't mean to interrupt whatever was happening here," Shinra twirled his fingers in their direction, "But…The wine is waiting.~"
You are kidding? What was Shizuo going to do? I will kill that imbecile Shinra. This is why he needs Celty around. He gets so lonely without her. What a typical male.
Shizuo growled, "Sorry. I'm a bit busy and I have to take my dinner home."
"D-dinner?" Shinra asked.
Picking me up, Shizuo carried me over his back and left Shinra's apartment.
W-what? What is going on…?
Muttering under his breath Shizuo said, "I hope you taste sweet."
A/N:…Enough angst? I don't know if I'll be ending the story soon, or if I'll add a little more to the story! We'll see…Along with what the next chapter has in store for my faithful readers~ hehe. I almost made Shinra a cockblock, but Shizuo will not take it, as you can tell haha. Thanks for reading loves~. :3
*a type of wine
By the way, reviewers without accounts, thank you for reviewing. I can't personally respond to you. Anyway, sorry for my endless talk :c.