Bexacon; slight intimacy.

I crawled up next to Jacob and hooked my arm into his and leaned into his bicep, "Jake, you have to do what your heart tells you to do."

"My heart is telling me to stay here with you Bella, but I would be lying if I said the prospect of getting out of Forks, even for 4 years, doesn't sound nice." I saw the torn look on his features and his eyelashes were wet.

I bit my lip, "Well, then you should look into out of state colleges."

"And what about you? You stuck around here for me and then I end up leaving? That's not fair."

"No, Jacob I stayed because this is the life I wanted. If your life is something different there is nothing wrong with wanting that. I'll always be here for you."

He shook his head, splaying his hair across his forehead, "You are my life, I want you."

"Jake, nobody is telling you you can't have me. I want you to get the opportunity to get out of here, experience college and you'll be back in the summers, on breaks and in 4 years you can be back here with me as much as you want to be."

He didn't protest, not that I wanted him to. As much as my heart was broken I wanted him to go, it was what he wanted and I didn't want him to regret not going.

"If I go...IF..." He started, pulling at his strings again. "Will you break up with me?"

"I'm not going to punish you for choosing to experience better things Jacob, however you may want to be single while out in school and I won't stand in your way of that." As much as THAT hurt, I want him to experience other girls too.

"Bella I don't want to lose you or screw this up at all. I'm really scared that's what will happen if I end up going."

"Look at me," I gently tugged his chin and out eyes met. "I will never hate you, so I want no opportunity for there to be any hatred. You should go to school single," He opened his mouth to protest but I placed my hand over his mouth. "Listen. And do what you want to out there, and when you come back if you are still single we'll pick this back up."

His bottom lip quivered and I bit mine to keep it from doing the same, being adults was over rated. Way overrated.

"I haven't made up my mind yet." Jacob placed his hand on my thigh, "If I went though I wouldn't want to go a virgin, because that's special and I want to share that with you."

He tried to make that sound sweet, I know he did but I couldn't help but smirk at how horny it made him sound. "You wouldn't leave till the fall, I'm sure we could work something out." I rubbed his hand and got a smile from him.

"I love you. Like, so much Bella. I don't know what I'd do without you in my life. If the cards were dealt differently, how different our lives would be." He squeezed my hand and his eyes shut and took a deep breath. "Enough of the heavy though, I'll think about it some more."

"Okay Jake."

"What do you want to do now?"

"I could think of a few things." I smiled and met him halfway as our lips met. It certainly did not take very long for either one of us to get turned on or naked, it had been quite awhile!

"Bells, relax!"

I arched my back away from Jacob's mouth, which was swirling around my lady bits and I bit my pillow. Calm down Bella, you are going to give Jake whiplash!

Uunnghhh I moaned, thank god I lived alone. "J-jake" I hissed, pushing his head away from me. "oh god."

He pushed back, knowing I was almost at the end of my wind up. His tongue lapped at my labia and I felt heat rushing towards my vagina and in an instant my toes curled and I squealed with release. "God." He licked once more and I knew what he had done. "Jake!"

He swallowed and smiled at me, "Yummy!"

"God that's gross!" But I giggled as he landed on me and mauled me with his lips, I didn't care that he tasted of me I just wanted to kiss this man. We'd come so far, so incredibly far since I moved to Forks and I was so in love with him.

We laid together in bed, snuggled under the covers naked as the day we were born. My head on my spot, right under his shoulder. His hand around my back and rested on my hip, tracing circles on the naked skin, his chin on my forehead. This was life, this is what we could have together for every day until eternity ended for us.

Jacob broke through my daydream, "Bella, how's your Dad?"

"He's good, he told me he was back at work this morning and they were treating him like a child." I laughed, "But he will be back out patrolling in no time I am sure of that."

"I'm sure, he is the chief after all."

"Oh, Mom called me too. Told me that we should come down for your birthday."

"Really? Wish we could."

"Yeah, she said she'd pay again, as your gift."

"Seriously? That's too much, although I'd love to go back it was fun."

"It's a gift Jake, I think it would be nice to go right before...well if you decide to go that is."

He squeezed me and I felt tears burn my eyes.

"We can go if you want to, it'll be nice. You sure you are okay with me going away? You don't seem too sure you will be okay without me."

"I mean damn Jake, of course it won't be easy but nothing worth having is."

"Tell her we'd love to come down."

He kissed my forehead and we drifted off to sleep.

Next up another fun trip to florida! I posted this one for an early Christmas present for you guys! I have lot of intimate things coming up for your horny sides :) Have a great Christmas and a happy new year!