So sorry I didn't update yesterday so I'm posting now and I'm giving you two chapters! So sorry!
When I was well enough eventually to leave the hospital and you have no idea how happy that made me.
"Freeeeeeeeeeedom!" I cried out as I ran out the doors of the hospital. The trio of friends of mine ran quickly after me. "The doctor said take it slow! What part of slow do you not understand?!" Lexie yelled and I smiled. I was basically bouncing up and down next to the car. "Come on lets go!" I shouted to the others(they were moving waaaaaay too slow). Cammie laughed, "Since when are you excited for school?"
I shrugged. The car ride was great and once we got to school I never thought I could be happier. I noticed someone waiting out in the cold at the steps. Slick black hair, piercing blue eyes, a perfect complexion. Macey McHenry with some guy. He was tall and somewhat muscular. But he was still kinda skinny, he's brown hair slicked perfectly to the side. His big brown eyes never leaving Macey. They held hands.
We got out of the car and I went defensive. Not because of Macey or the guy next to her but Corduroy was looking at me from the barn. She was putting some matts away and fixing up the weights. Cammie and Zach looked happy to see them so I guess that they're good friends. Macey's eyes landed on me and I nodded. My sensors buzzing telling me to follow Corduroy. But I wasn't leaving Ash's side.
"You again?" She said with an eye roll to Zach. He just gave her a blank stare before she shifted awkwardly. Ahh, they're those kinds of friends. As Cammie greeted the guy while Macey and Zach did a contest to see how many times they could flip each other off without getting caught by Cammie.
2480. They flipped each other off 2480 times before Cammie noticed. I wanted to slowly clap but with the stern look Cammie gave them and the clueless expression of the guy made me hold back.
Macey smirked at me.
"Thief."
"Macey McHenry aka Peacock. Secret Service."
I wanted to laugh at their surprised faces. Instead I have them an eat-shit-bitch smile. "What? Didn't think I would find out soon? Chameleon, oh please tell me you and Blackened Throne didn't doubt me." Zach and Cammie looked even more shocked. I shrugged. "Oh well," I looked over at my friends. "What? Thought I wouldn't learn anything here?" I said and swung my hips and smirked. "Think again." I climbed the stairs and the rest rushed up to catch me.
I opened the door to our room. There I saw everything neat like usual. I walked over to my bed and saw my homework in a pile on my pillow. May as well get cracking.
Ash and the others came in, Mel walks over to see what I was on and praised me. "Oh what's this? Independence on homework?" I laughed shaking my head and asked for help on a couple of problems that I didn't get.
That evening I was asked to meet at Cammie's office. I walked the halls and noticed a wall dedicated to this big family tree of the founder. I traced my finger along the lines mindlessly. I felt a click. Strange. I left the tapestry and went to the office.
I opened the door to see only Corduroy. She stood in the middle of the room back to me. She held something in her hand. I growled. She turned with a smile. A Hawaiian shirt and khaki shorts on her. She held a photo of three people. Three happy people.
"Where Mrs. Morgan-Goode?" I asked calmly. She shrugged. "Grand Hall, why?" I narrowly missed the smirked on her face when she said why. "Supposed to meet with her." She laughed. The ring of bells again.
"Oh no sweetie that was me." I turned for the door. "Then I'm not needed here-" I jumped back and flipped over just nearly missing the dagger she threw. This just made her even happier. "Not bad kid." She threw more and I dodged perfectly remembering my promise to everyone not to cause another accident or dare start world war three. She acted like this was a game. Soon she ran out of knives, daggers, and other small sharp objects.
"Wow you're just like your father!" She praised. My eyes widened. "Wha-" defense, defense! "How do you know my father?" I asked deadly calm for the trembling fear that ate me from the inside. "Well you'd think I would know the man I married well enough to recognize him in my own daughter." What?!
"No, my parents are dead. Gone, no more." She pouted. "Well I'm hurt." She walked towards me and I backed away. Don't let her get close to you! "Come on baby it's me!" She said joyfully. "I finally found you munchkin!" She showed me the photo of the three people.
A man with brown wild hair the same color as my own and hazel eyes smiled at me as he held up a baby girl. A scar on her face on the left side, right where mine was. And a lady next to them both with raven hair and gold eyes laughing.
She touched my scar. "You got this trying to fight a doctor in the hospital once. Guess its permanent." I slapped her hand away, no she's gotta be manipulating me. Don't believe her. "N-no, you left me!" I cried out scared. She shook her head and pointed angrily to the man in the photo. "I would never leave you, He did it. He, the disgusting creep I dare married killed you. Or so I thought. And you don't even want to know the worst of it!" I was so scared, this was totally not how I imagined re-meeting my family.
She looked weak and vulnerable. Practically begging me to remember. She stopped trying to approach me. I sat down in a chair opposite of hers. "How do I know you really are my mom, that picture could be fake!" She laughed. "True, true. But I have evidence. One: the scar, you really did get it from a doctor in an incident at the hospital when you were younger."
I felt my cheek. I always thought I probably got hurt and that's how I got it. "So, you could have just made that up!" She nodded and took my hand. She led me to a room under a vending machine and put my hand on the cold table that Mel used to find my file. It scanned my hand and then Corduroy did the same, it said we matched." I shook my head. "O-our names don't match! My last name is-" she hugged me and began to cry. "Sweetie please," she begged. "Its me! Mommy. I changed my name and looked the whole continent for you! Please tell me you remember, even just a bit!" I shook my head.
"I-I'm sorry I don't." She fell flat. Her shoulders dropped. I looked into her golden eyes. I wanted to believe her but at the same time didn't. I wanted to wake up from this dream but then again I wanted to see how it would end. She stroked my hair, "O-oh okay..." she got up and planted a kiss on my forehead. "Don't think I'm giving up munchkin." Were her words before she left the room leaving me clueless and completely lost.
I glanced over at the table that showed the match. I deleted it. I didn't feel like eating so I went to our room. I was about to enter but then I remembered what happened a while ago.
I changed into all black clothes and left for Roseville.
The streets were kind of noisy but I ignored it all and went to the street I remembered, pretty house on a plain street. I walked over and noticed a family out on the front yard eating out side. They laughed and ate by candlelight. Two parents, one kid. The Moons.
I waited across the street by a black fence. I watched them. Do I just walk up to them or wait? My question was answered when Tristan looked up and smiled at me. He always saw me. He signaled me over and I looked both ways before crossing. I awkwardly walked up to them and felt the thank you gift in my hoodie pocket. I blushed as more attention was given to me by Tristan's parents. I waved to them and his mom got up and smiled at me.
"Hellos dear!" She beamed. "What brings you to our nick of the neighborhood?" I blushed furiously and handed her the gift silently not facing her. She looked surprised and didn't move. I put it into her hands.
"I-Its for you and your family. A-as a t-thank you...f-for the incident..." ugh! I couldn't take her silence anymore. I looked up to see her smiling at me. "Oh thank you hon! But no need really, jest knowin' that yer fine is all the thanks I need." I nodded and stuffed my nervously twitching hands in my hoodie. "O-oh..." I bet I looked redder than I thought.
She gestured to the blanket spread out on the lawn. "Have ya had dinner yet?" I couldn't find the strength in me to lie and say 'no' to this happy kind woman who may as well have saved my life. I sat down next to Tristan who offered me a spot next to him. He even shared his blanket with me. The pies she made were definitely better than the Grand Hall's sure they were made to be amazing but these just had that handmade-with-love taste.
"So this is the girl I've been telling you guys about." Pan said at some point. He talked about me?! His dad nodded and shook my hand. "Nice to meet you Miss...?" Oh right. "K-Kana sir." He laughed. "Oh sweetie no need for the whole sir thing, just call me Teddy, or Mr. Moon whatever tomatoes your tomato." I nodded. Tristan's mom went next. "Danica Moon." I nodded. "Y-yeah I remember." She laughed. "Oh hun I hoped you didn't, ya saw meh in my worst apron yet!" I hadn't really noticed her clothes the day it happened. "Oh I did?" She nodded and laugh.
"It said 'the sun is on fire!'" I did my best not to laugh or snort. That is kinda silly and not something I would want to wear at all.
She chuckled. "'S alright to laugh dear. I'm laughin' too jest thinkin' 'bout it." Something about the way she smiled and seemed so oblivious to the real dangers if the world made me wonder what it would have been like for me if I stayed with Ash's family. Suddenly a thought dawned on me. Wasn't Ash the daughter of Cammie and Zachary Morgan-Goode? So if she's their daughter...and we're sisters...wouldn't that make me the daughter of-? Before I could finish my thought a new smell came to me. Enchiladas!
Okay! Okay! Call me weird and totally stupid when it comes to something like cool forgen foods and modern hip stuff like new tech, the latest trend, what's up on social media, but I am an expert on kicking ass and survival skills. I'm as hard as a rock and stubborn like a bull and impossible to interrogate (unless Liz uses her weird needle thingy). But with this woman and her amazing crazy good food I may as well have been mistaken for a regular sap.
I felt heaven shine down on me as I took a bite of Mrs. Moon's enchiladas. She laughed at my awed face. I didn't even care if the others were seeing me right now, I will enjoy this while it lasts. Mr. Moon chuckled. "Yep I got a great woman with me. Sweeter than her cooking " Mrs. Moon hit him on the head with a wooden spoon. "And a fighter too. Don't cross a wooden!an like her every millennia." I nodded.
"You bet, this food is stellar man." I said covering my mouth in case I had food stuck in between my teeth. Mrs. Moon laughed. Tristan nudged me with his elbow. "I almost didn't see you, are you like a spy or something? I almost lost you first time we meet." I laughed. Oh he didn't even know hot close he was there. "Naw man, just been good at hiding all my life I guess. Hide-and-seek master in your presence right now."
Mr. Moon raised a brow. "Oh, a master you say?" I nodded. "Well, my boy here is a master finder. Bet you can't hide from him long." I smirked. "That a challenge?" He crossed his arms and nodded.
And that's how u ended up in the back of a Gallagher van. Just kidding. Tristan gave up after a whole 30 minutes but I knew he wasn't actually calling it quits. I could see him cross his fingers behind his back from here. Then again from here I could see the whole street. I shook my head.
Not gonna work kid.
Okay so if you want to know yes I'm on the roof. No I'm not being risky I did this too when I was with Abby. I was young and totally freaked out when I didn't sense her coming up behind me and suddenly asking me what I was doing. I screamed and ran and ended up on the roof and wouldn't come down at all till I had to go. So yeah, roofs and I go back and back and back. Besides the fall won't kill me. I'm on a streak right now of not dying. I think it's almost over. I don't know man.
Suddenly my watch did a mini buzzing sound. A message popped up.
"Where r u ?-Ash"_Ash
"Wait we can send messages through the watches!?"
"Yeah lol, forgot 2 tell u?"_Ash
"What the hell!"
"Sorry ?"_Ash
I sighed and rolled my eyes. Whatever.
"Okay but seriously why hasn't anyone told me about this before?"
"Oh, we all thought u already figured it out?"_Ash
"Well, I didn't."
"STOP AVOIDING MY QUESTION! WHERE R U?!"_Ash
"Uh...on Earth."
"?Where"_Ash
"North America."
"Where?"_Ash
"U.S.A."
"Where!?"_Ash
"Virginia."
"OMG JUST TELL ME ALREADY OR IM HAVING MEL HACK THIS!?"_Ash
Uh oh, shooting threats.
"Okay, okay calm down. I'm at the Moon residence to thank them for the incident."
"..."_Ash
"Are you hacking me right now?"
"Nooooooooo?..."_Ash
"God damnit Ash."
I sighed and saw Tristan asking his parents my hiding spot. Cheater. I threw a pinecone at him. Oops, just gave myself away. He looked up as the pine landed next to his feet and I hid. Fuck. And just my luck I got a new message. I heard Tristan enter the house so I got off the roof as fast as I could.
I made sure I wouldn't get hurt before jumping into the tree nearby. He was obviously going to check it out now that there was a twig snapping sound and I hid in a random room with it's window open. Which just so happens to be his room. Ugh seriously. I rolled under the bed and covered myself with a school jersey and a bunch of books he had under here.
I checked my watch. It was from a new code number so not Ash.
"Hello this is Laptop, come in Wild Card. I repeat come in Wild Card this is Laptop speaking."_Mel
"Uh...hey Laptop? What's up?"
"We are at your location for a check on -...- the suspect."_Mel
"Me?"
"No, you idiot the neighbors...?"_?
"Who's this?"
"It's-"_Mel
"It's Spy ,Wild Card. Why'd you have to pick such a stupid codename!?"_Lexie
"Because it made sense with your character there for making it easier for me to identify you when speaking out our code names to each other. That and we're in a school for spies so it would be kinda hard to guess who is Spy exactly."
"Well, THAT sure was descriptive even for you."_Lexie
"Do you want a different code name?"
"Yes."_all three of them
"Well, I'm hurt. You know I put a lot of effort in those code names."
"Laptop is kind of obvious...tbh"_Mel
"No not really, it can go to many different coders and according to your files(yes I searched you all up) Laptop is equal to Laptop's brother in hacking, code-breaking and other things. Therefore it could go to either one of the two. That and there are a list of people with excellent coding etc. just like Laptop here so it could also go to them that and it is Laptop's least common or most likely used piece of equipment."
"...okay fine"_Mel
"Mine is still obvious..."_Ash
"Okay whatever but I could not think of anything else OK?"
"How about Food."_Mel
"Obvious."_all of us
"MG?"_Lexie
"Obvious..."_all
"Oh, I know!"
"What?"_Mel, Ash, Lex
"Eevee."
"What?"_all
"Because it can be so many different forms, it can go from embrion to espion with just plain training. It doesn't just rely on skill but experience too. Just like a spy. You can be the good guy with how you think and feel and what you've seen and heard."
"Okay, so I'm Eevee now...cool!?"_Ash
"Wait since when do you of all people know about Pokemon?!"_Lexie
"Since she has a whole backpack full of cards under her bed in a secret hole in between the corner and window?."_Mel
"HEY!"
"*lol* ?you have a whole backpack for Pokemon?"_Lexie
"Yeah so?!"
"Uh oh someone's getting embarrassed.?"_Lexie
"Oh, my gods shut up Lexie! At least I don't go ga ga over Dan!"
"Girl fight!?"_Mel
"?Guys-"_Ash
"Oh, can it Kane! At least I don't have a secret boyfriend townee!"_Lex
"Tristan is NOT my boyfriend he's some guy I meet on the street who's mom just so happens to have saved my goddamn life!"
"Point Wild Card, also CODE NAMES!?"_Mel
"?Guys...-"_Ash
"Well his mom wouldn't have had to save you if you weren't so stupid!"_Lex
"Stupid. Stupid!? Are you kidding me right now Spy!? I have literally been exposed to child trauma at like age 2! I had to survive on my own for my whole life and stayed alive! I can kick your ass right now if I dare wanted to! Don't you dare give your self any right to call me stupid!"
"Point Wild Card?."_Mel
Suddenly the door opened to the room I just so happened to be in. Really? I turned my watch off so it wouldn't vibrate or glow at every new message. Tristan walked right by me slowly. He was trying his best not to be heard. It had already been a while hour since the game has started. Oh well, he tried and was close.
I got out of my spot and stood in the dark corner. He was looking out the window like he was looking at something. Did he catch the gang? I walked over to him and playfully shoved him on his bed and stood over him. His glasses reflecting the moonlight.
"Boo."
He smirked. "Well, you gave up early." I shrugged. "Thought we'd be here all night just playing one game so I came out of hiding." He smirked. "Suuuuuuuuuuuuure."
I helped him up and came out to the yard. "So who are your friends?" He said talking about Mel, Ash, and Lexie. I shrugged. "They like following me around. It's just a habit with them." True but also false. Try and find my lie.
He nodded.
"Yeah, I noticed them outside while I was looking for you."
I nodded. "Had a hard time finding me?" He nodded. "You're good. Scary good." I smirked.
"It's how I was raised."
"By what animals?"
"Sure...by animals."
"So do you have rabies?"
I hit him in the back of the head. "No, I don't have rabies."
He laughed. "Just kidding." I rolled my eyes. "Sweet pick up line. You outta have girls lining up for you." He shook his head. "Oh, now that's just cold."
We got back and the Moons had already finished eating. "So who won?" Mr. Moon asked. We shrugged. "Tied." He nodded. "Well come on. Here's the best part of night meals." He said and patted the ground next to him. We walked over and I looked up at the stars as he blew out the candle. I was awed at the sky above me, that was always there, the one I never had the pleasure to look up at.
It was like billions of diamond s stuck up in the sky. Fire flies the lost their way back to Earth. Like me. Lonely big hot heads alone in a void of darkness. Left to die alone and destind to lose everything I care about. I felt like these are the things that understood me. That could share my pain but then I remembered they they felt no pain. They were the ones with no heart to break. Nothing left to lose. But I did have something left to lose. My sister and my trust.
I lost so much and could lose so much more. With every step I take, I'm only put back where I started before. My mind my only guide lost to the dark. Fear my enemy and my enemy myself.
I heard a guitar string being strung. I looked over at Mr. Moon with an older version of Tristan's guitar. He played a mindless Melody with no song to sing along with. I smiled and closed my eyes. The cold air hitting me like a blanket of frost. It covered me in it's cold hands.
I felt warm, I felt cold. I felt many things just listening to this family, to the wind blowing lightly against my ear whispering the secrets of the night. I stood and while everyone else was relaxed with their eyes closed just staying calm and still for as long as they could I left. I left behind I clue to show that I wasn't just a trick of the night. A pinecone.
I knew they were following me so I stopped by an entrance to the school near the park. They were waiting for me there. I waved. Ash was frowning, Lexie looked disappointed in me and Mel was just scribbling in her endless supply of notebooks.
"Why'd you run off?" Lexie demanded first thing because this girl doesn't have a stop button. I shrugged. "I wanted to say thanks, you know, for saving my life." Ash didn't speak. I felt like I forgot something which sucks since I have an amazing memory. Mel looked up from her notebook and showed me what she wrote.
'Ash is mad because you didn't come to eat.'
Oh...whoops.
I walked over to my sister. "Uh...hey?" She nodded. I sighed. "I did eat! Just...not with you guys..." She still wasn't talking to me. Mel and Lexie moved along to look at the park so we could talk alone.
"I was worried." She snarled, I flinched. I felt really guilty. "I-I-i was gonna leave a note and I-" she raised her hand silencing me. "Save it." She wiped away a tear that fell from her eye and got in the entrance. Lexie and Mel passed by me without a word. I'm so in the dog house right now.
Later that evening I wrote millions of apologies in my notebook and ripping out each one of them. They were all stupid and didn't make up for what I did. I had worried Ash just after I had gotten out of the hospital from my most recent incident so I was in mucho problems. Or whatever. Ash wasn't talking to me and just nodded or said 'yeah sure' before walking off.
I groaned in frustration and hit my face with my pillow.
"Why am I so bad at being good!" I cried out into the poor unfortunate pillow. I grumbled and stuffed the ripped out papers in a box and shoved it under my bed. I growled and went for a tour around the halls. I didn't go into any classes. I didn't leave. I stayed in the school and wrote a note and sent three messages with my exact location to all three of my roomies.
I noticed the headmistress's office door open and poked my head in. She wasn't doing much besides filing paper and stuff. Zach was working with her. If I'm Ash's sister wouldn't that make their-I didn't let the thought continue. I took a deep breath and knocked. May as well have a little chat with them now that never.
Cammie didn't need to look up. She and Zach probably already knew or sensed me when I was just a hall away. She looked up. "How can-do" Zach covered her mouth. "Hey, you did it last time, my turn. How can we help you, Miss. Kana?" I rolled my eyes.
"You and I both know my last name," I showed them my file. "It's Mulligan, no need for the first name thing. I already know about my parents. Gone with the wind. I know my background. What you have on me. All of it." I opened up my family file to the adoption page. "Even this."
Cammie and Zach shared a look and nodded closing the door with the push of a button. This button also made the bookshelves spin and all sorts of other stuff. I was impressed by it all. "We knew it was you, we were just waiting for you to know." I nodded. What do I say? Out of everything I trained myself for, life, heartbreak, death. I could have never prepared for a family. Ever.
"So umm...what does this make me? I mean I get what it means but i-i mean I'm not stupid or anything it's just that I ... I... I don't know." I looked down to the floor. What was I supposed to know? Cammie smiled at me. "It's confusing I know." She noticed my necklace. I took it off and handed it to her. "It's yours right?" She shook her head and gave it to me.
They explained to me how they had meet me and came to like me. Ash had made a friend at the orphanage that I was in and came to visit often. Then one day I came in. I was screaming and fighting back all I could. But I was hopeless, I was just a kid fighting against a full grown adult. They were surprised to see someone react like that but they ignored me at first but later on Ash started to befriend me and we got really close. Something about me was just different.
I was strange and funny from time to time and cold as ice the next second. My emotions were so strong towards my new friend. In fact I was a marshmallow with Ash and extremely protective. Ash had once said about me being her sister. Soon I was in their family. Then I left just after a month.
They were frantic. A small little kid like me, all on my own, Ash cried and worried for a long time. She searched desperately for me all this time. I was her main goal. Later on when they heard from Abby about a small orphan that was definitely me due to my chin scar they were doing all they could to come to me. Ash had talked on the phone for hours straight getting as much information about how I was from the twins.
They learned about my hate for Gallagher and Ash was shocked. She later on worked hard to get into the school like everyone else to prove that Gallagher wasn't a bad place. But once they came to check to see me I was gone again. Ash was heartbroken. Then when they saw me again when I tried to steal from them they were shocked. They saw who I grew up to be. They saw the monster that I had let myself become(okay they didn't say that exactly but I knew that that was what they were thinking)
"I'm sorry." I said looking at the floor. "I-I-I caused you all so much trouble, all of you..." I was doing my best not to cry. What's wrong with me?! I hurt this family who had taken me in. "I can't believe I cause you all so much trouble... especially since I'm worth nothing..." I whispered the last part as quietly as I could. Cammie put a reassuring hand on my back. She raised my chin and smiled at me. I looked away.
"Kana, that's not true." She hugged me. I didn't believe her but I nodded anyways. I smiled at my parents.
"So umm...does this make me,"
"Our daughter?" Zach finished before I could. "Yes, yes it does."
I smiled. He smiled, Cammie smiled. I cried a bit, who knows why. I just did. I decided that I should get back to trying to apologise to Ash but how? Cammie probably saw my confusion. She didn't even have to ask, I already knew what she was asking. What was wrong? Her eyes told me.
I sighed. Zach put a hand on my shoulder. "It's Ash," I said at last. "I messed up tonight and I don't know how to make it up to her..." Zach and Cammie shared a look. "You mean from the hospital or-" I shook my head.
"Umm... hypothetically speaking if someone were to be absent for a while and have not left a note or anything to tell their friends or family where it is that they went and one very specific person worried so much as to be extremely pissed at the person who left once that person was found...umm...how exactly do you make it up to that specific person exactly?" Cammie looked shocked and Zach looked freaked out. "NOT THAT SOMETHING LIKE THAT HAPPENED! Nope not at all hee hee." I let out an awkward cough. Bex came in through the door smiling.
"Sorry to over hear your conversation but I do believe that has happened before dearest, isn't that correct CAMMIE!?" I looked between Mom and Bex, uhh...
Mom sighed and nodded. "But we both know REBECCA that what you are talking is classified for a reason." She said gesturing to me. I waved. Bex sighed. She shrugged and smiled at me, "Don't worry, it'll work out you'll see." Well what the fuck am I supposed to do with that?! I nodded and got up awkwardly. I went over to our suite and saw my friends gathered around my bed passing papers. My papers. My apologies for Ash that I wrote.
I ran forward and dove for the box. I curled around it and was red to the face. "Don't read them!" I cried out and I said Ash with one in her hand. I blushed madly and covered my face with my hands. Someone pealed my hands away from my face and I saw a smiling Ash.
"You wrote these?" I looked the other way but nodded. She hugged me. "Sorry I was mad." I shook my head. "No, no apologies coming from you young lady! I should be the one saying sorry, I ran off and dint tell you guys. It's on me." We argued for a while back and forth on who should apologise and soon it got out of hand.
"Oh yeah well I apologize for not apologizing first!"
"Well, I apologize for being the one to apologize first since you want to apologize first!"
Lexie and Mel had to deal with us for a while. Lexie soon was done with our bickering and yelled at us both. "Oh my God we get it! You're both sorry geez, no more, just hug and make up already!" We shrugged and hugged. That night I told them about the time I had with the Moons.
"So what was the gift?" Lexie asked. "Huh? Oh, it's a thank you card with personal apologies for the trouble I caused." Ash smiled. "Do I get one too? Or was my card all the cute letters you wrote and then hid under your bed?" I blushed and threw a pillow. "You never saw those!" I said my blush deepening. She giggled and threw it back. "But they were so sweet!"
Lexie giggled. "Dearest sister, I'm so terribly sorry that I gave you such a frightening scare. Please find it in yourself to-" I ran over and hit her as hard as I could with my pillow.