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One More Try: Chapter Ten
ARIZONA'S POV
This moment is all I could have hoped for. Eliza in my lap. Her naked stomach against my own. God, this feels like every emotion I have all rolled into one. She has something on her mind and she seems a little hesitant, but she is here with me right now so I don't care about anything else. I don't care about anything other than this woman staying against me for as long I can possibly keep her here. She is making my head spin with every swipe of her tongue, and honestly, I'm not sure I've ever been kissed like this. I'm not sure I've ever felt so aroused by anyone before. My ex-wife included. Don't get me wrong…it was amazing with Abbie, but this? Eliza? I can barely control myself right now. I have to, though. She has to be the one to initiate this. I feel like that is the right thing to do. I could be wrong, and we could be waiting forever if she is waiting for me to start something, but as her professor, my mind is telling me to hold back. If she wasn't my student, she would be in my bed totally naked right now. She would be screaming my name and I would be taking her like there was no tomorrow. She is my student, though, and even though I trust her…I feel like I have to protect myself in some way. I feel like I have to have some sort of defense should this crumble around me. Around us.
Her lips working my neck, her tongue runs up the shell of my ear and her breath is all I can feel right now. "Do you have any idea how long I've thought about this moment?"
"I-I think I do." I breathe out. "It's all I've thought about, too."
"Yeah?" She takes my earlobe between her teeth and tugs a little. "What did you think about?"
"This." I moan as she sucks on the sweet spot below my ear. "Us. You against me." Her fingertips grazing my nipple, a slight gasp leaves my mouth. "You touching me…making me feel good."
"Where was I touching you, Arizona?" She whispers. "Here?" Tugging at my nipple, I simply moan in appreciation. "Or here…" Her hand ghosting down my stomach, it tightens and I swear I'm soaked right through my pants. "Not close enough, huh?" Smiling against the skin of my neck, she pushes her hand past the waistband of my yoga pants and my eyes close. Oh, god…this is finally happening. It's actually happening, and I'm not sure I can stop it. I'm not sure I'd ever want to anyway. "How about now?" She drops her head on my shoulder.
"O-Oh God." I breathe out. Her perfect fingertips connecting with my throbbing clit, she applies a little pressure and my head spins. It's actually spinning. I'm seeing nothing right now. Just darkness. Black. Taking a deep breath, my body completely relaxes on my couch and I swear this woman is about to make me feel the best I've ever felt.
"I've wanted to touch you for so long, Arizona…" Her words lingering in the air around us, I spread my legs a little wider and it gives her all of the answers she will ever need. "It's all I've wanted." Dipping her fingers a little lower, she gathers my arousal and teases my entrance. Shifting, I find myself flat on my back, and her knee slips between my legs. Two fingers pushing deep inside of me, all breath leaves my body and I find myself gripping the edge of my couch. One hand of hers braced behind my head, she dips her own head and our lips connect. Slowly massaging my walls, I can feel my stomach tightening way sooner than I want it to. I can feel my body defying me, and I hate it. This has to last longer…so much longer. Her tongue working the inside of my mouth incredibly, I'm pretty certain I could die happy right now. "God, you feel amazing…" She moans as she pulls back and her green eyes stare intently. I'm not sure I've ever seen them so dark. It only adds to her hotness, though. It only adds to everything I love about her.
"Fuck…" My hand coming to rest on my forehead, she gives me a smile and her thrusts pick up in speed. "O-Oh, god." Hitting that spot, I grit my teeth and try to hold off on my impending orgasm. "I-I…Eliza, shit."
"I swear you cursing is the hottest thing I've ever heard." She smiles against my mouth before trailing soft kisses along my jawline.
"You make me do it." I smile. Groaning when she sinks deeper than before, her thumb rests on my clit and she draws soft circles. "O-Oh, wow." Holding my breath, my eyes slam shut and she watches my every reaction. I can feel her eyes on me, and it only makes me want to come harder than ever before. "Eliza, I-I can't…" Applying a little more pressure to my throbbing bundle of nerves, she rests her forehead against my own and gives me a nod.
"Let go, Arizona." She smiles. "For me…"
"Jesus Christ…" I moan as my orgasm approaches faster than ever before. "F-Fuck, oh god…I-I." My nails digging into her naked back, she doesn't let up with her movements and my body stiffens beneath her. "Wow…" Her movements barely slowing, she presses her lips to my own and pulls back to give me the chance to catch my breath. Although, the way I feel right now…I'm not sure I'll ever catch my breath. "E-Eliza…" I moan as she settles her body on top of me and brushes a few stray hairs from my face. "Wow…"
"Okay, I'm going to need some other descriptive words…" She smiles and runs her thumb across my cheek. Slowly slipping out of me, I groan at the loss of contact but she doesn't move. She doesn't climb off of me. God, I need to touch her. I need to feel her come undone beneath me.
"Maybe we could take this to the bedroom…" I raise an eyebrow. Her features changing slightly, I study her face but she drops her gaze. "Unless you don't want to." I backtrack. "That would be totally fine."
"It's not that I don't want to." She gives me a small smile. "I just don't think that we should…"
"Okay, you've totally lost me." She shifts a little and lies her body beside my own, her elbow propping her up. "Eliza, is there something I need to know?" I ask. I don't know what there is that I could possibly need to know, but she's beginning to worry me a little. "Anything at all?"
"Yeah, kinda." She shrugs. "Just, do we really have to do this now?" Okay, that doesn't sound good. I've got a really bad feeling about this.
"I think we should, yeah." I nod. "We should do this now because you are making no sense."
"Okay, you don't have to look so freaked out." She furrows her brow. "What is it that you think is the problem?"
"Honestly, I don't know," I admit. "But you keep telling me no, and it's making me feel a little uncomfortable. I mean, we just, or rather you just…you know, and if that isn't what you wanted, I'm so sorry."
"It is what I wanted." She tries to reassure me, her lips meeting my own. "I've wanted that for so long…"
"Then I don't know what the problem is…"
"It's nothing you've done, I swear." She replies. "It's just me…"
"Wait, you are who you say you are, right? I mean, you are twenty-one?"
"Of course, I am." She laughs. "Do you really think I'd lie to you?"
"Well, no." I shake my head. "At least, I don't think you would. I just…talk to me, please? Tell me what it is on your mind?"
"I'm a virgin." She drops her gaze, and I'm sensing a little embarrassment from her. "I just…I should have told you way before now. I should have told you so you could decide if you wanted to be with me or not. I mean, why would you?" She scoffs. "Why would you want someone like me when there is so much more out there?"
"Hey…" I curl my fingers beneath her chin and lift her head a little. "Don't ever worry about that." I smile. "Don't ever think that it would be a problem." I won't lie, it's not what I expected to hear from her. I didn't expect her to say that when she has just totally blown my mind. She seems pretty experienced to me. "We take this at your pace, okay? I'd never take something like that from you. Not if it isn't what you want…"
"No." She stops me. "That's not what I'm worried about. I've never worried about the night that it happens with you. It's all I've thought about, Arizona. I guess I'm just scared. Worried. Nervous that I can't be what you want."
"You want the truth?" I raise my eyebrow and she gives me a slight nod. "It's kinda hot." I shrug. "Knowing that nobody else has had their hands on you. Knowing that I'll be your first…Mm, it's all kinda of hot."
"R-Really?" She stutters and wrinkles her nose. "You aren't just saying that to make me feel better?"
"God, no." I close my eyes and my mind instantly takes me to the moment Eliza will be writhing beneath me. "And for the record, you seem experienced enough to me."
"It's not like I haven't been in any relationships…I have." She admits. "I just never felt that connection with any of them. You know? I didn't want to give myself to them because society says that it's how it should be. I've had plenty of encounters, shall we say…and I've had plenty of women scream my name, but no, I can safely say that you, Arizona, will be my first."
"You've no idea how much I want it to be me…" I smile. I can't say I've ever really thought about anything like this. It definitely isn't a problem, though. It's nice to meet someone who doesn't just put their body out there. It's nice to know that not every woman sees herself as being a sexual object. "Now that I know, will you stay the night?" I ask. "I wouldn't ever put you in a position where you weren't ready, but I'd really like you to stay the night."
"I don't know." She sighs. "I'd like to…love to, actually, but I'm not sure I can keep my hands off of you all night." Her words sending me crazy, I pull her back down on top of me and smile against her mouth.
"And who said I wanted you to keep your hands off of me?" I raise an eyebrow. "Huh?"
"Oh, it's just a feeling I get." She smirks. "Figured you'd had enough before."
"From you?" I raise an eyebrow. "I could never get enough from you." Her half-naked body resting on my own, I take in her absolute beauty and I'm not sure how long I can hold off on making her mine. Because she will, she will become mine one day, and yeah…I cannot wait for that moment between us. Maybe the fact that she is a virgin is a good thing. I mean, it tells me that she takes relationships seriously. It tells me that she doesn't just sleep with people for a little fun. It tells me that she cares enough to be honest and open about it with me, and knowing that she wants me to be the one who takes something so precious, it's only made me fall harder for her. It really has. It may be hot, and the idea of watching her come undone beneath me may be sending me crazy right now, but she is so beautiful inside and out, and if I have to wait a lifetime for her to be ready to take that next step, that is what I'll do. I will wait until she decides that she wants it. She wants me. I will wait until she feels confident enough and comfortable enough around me before I even suggest that we take things further. I want her to be okay with it. I don't want her to think that it's anything I want if she isn't ready. A little touching never hurt anyone, though, right?
"I'll stay." She pulls back and finds my eyes. "I'll stay the night."
"Yeah?" My smile widening, she gives me a nod and climbs off of me. "Where are you going?"
"You wanted to take this to the bedroom didn't you?"
"Only if you are okay with that…"
"Let's go." She pulls me up to my feet and smiles. "I may be a virgin, Arizona, but you're not."
Waking to the sound of soft breathing beside me, I glance up at the ceiling above me and yeah, I'm just as wet this morning as I was when we fell asleep last night. Eliza sends me absolutely crazy with want, and god…she knows exactly how to make me feel good. So good. Not only did she give me complete honesty last night, she gave me four orgasms, too. I guess the back and forth from us both has totally made the wait worth it. I mean, she craves me and I crave her. She wants me like I've never experienced before. Even my own wife never made me feel as good as Eliza did last night. Never. I can't recall a single moment where I felt that intense rush like I did last night. Like, I never wanted it to end. I never wanted her to stop. I never wanted to close my eyes and sleep ever again. I think she may be a little worn out this morning, but god, my girl did good. Better than ever.
I'd like to think that we can continue this way for as long as she wants to, but I'm not sure that will happen. I mean, I love that she wants to give me the things she already has, but I don't want to just take from her. I want to be the one who makes her feel just as good. I don't want her to think that she has to touch me. It isn't like that, not at all. Running my fingers up her naked back, her sleeping form shivers a little and it makes me smile. I may have ended the night totally naked and screaming beneath her, but she is still wearing her panties. Her very enticing black lace panties. God, she makes me crazy. Biting down on my own bottom lip, I shift a little closer to her and press my body against her back. "Wake up, beautiful." Breathing against her ear, she mumbles and glances back over her shoulder. "Hey…" I smile. It's kinda weird waking beside her, but it feels right. Nothing about this feels wrong or like it shouldn't be happening.
"Mm, morning." She smiles as a yawn slips from her mouth. "Did you sleep okay?"
"Better than ever before," I admit. "Did you?"
"I did." She turns and lies flat on her back. Her gorgeous breasts coming into full view. God, if I could just take one between my teeth. Squeezing my own thighs together at the thoughts I'm creating in my head, I close my eyes and give myself a moment. "What's up?" She asks.
"Nothing." I breathe out. "Just...did anyone ever tell you how beautiful you are?"
"No." She admits. Ugh, that breaks my heart.
"Well, you are." I place a kiss below her ear and shift until my body is on top of her own. "And I will tell you that every single day."
"God…" She closes her eyes and a slight smile appears. "You've no idea how amazing you feel against me."
"I want to do something for you…" I suggest. "Don't worry, I won't even touch you…but you deserve to feel good, too."
"A-Arizona, you don't have to do that." She blushes. "I'm okay with how things are right now."
"You don't even want to feel a little bit good?" I raise my eyebrow and straddle her legs. "My hands will stay here," I state as I plant them firmly either side of her head. "I promise."
"Okay…" She nods. Studying her face, I find no signs of hesitation from her and it settles me a little. "What are you going to do?" She asks, her brow furrowed.
"Can I use my mouth?" I ask.
"W-Where?" She stutters.
"Above the waist only…" She gives me a nod. "Are you sure? We don't have to do this, but I'd really like to…"
"Do it." She smiles. "Now!"
"Well, okay then," I smirk. Dipping my head, I capture her lips and she smiles against my mouth. I love kissing her. It's my favorite thing about her. Her lips are the softest I've ever felt. She puts her all into our kisses, I know that. Working the skin of her neck, she releases a low moan as I suck on that sweet spot below her ear. It drives me wild, and I'm pretty sure it does the same to her. "I just want you to feel good, Eliza." The tip of my tongue trailing down between her breasts, my center grinds down against her own and her breath catches in her throat. "But if at any point you want me to stop, just say the words and I'll stop, okay?" Glancing up at her, she gives me a nod and her eyes close, her hands fisting in the sheet either side of her. Taking a nipple between my lips, I suck gently and she tangles one hand in my hair, forcing my head against her. Rolling my tongue over the hardening bud, she gives me a moan of appreciation and I know she is okay with this right now.
"That feels amazing." She whispers.
"I know." I smile against her skin as I palm her other nipple. "You feel amazing." I release her nipple with a pop and smile. "Everything about you is amazing, Eliza." My tongue trailing down her stomach, I moan as it contracts and tightens and I'm finding it harder and harder to keep my hands where they are right now. It's absolute torture, but I promised her this. I promised her I wouldn't touch her. Until she says otherwise, that is how it will stay.
"A-Arizona…" She groans as her lips lift from the bed a little. "I-I think my panties need to go."
"Eliza, you don't have to do that." I give her a sad smile.
"I want to, though." She gives me a look of certainty and I raise my eyebrow.
"May I?" I ask. "I promise I won't touch you…"
"Yes." She smiles as I climb off of her and curl my fingers beneath the waistband of the black lace material covering her gorgeous body. Giving her a questioning look, she gives me a nod of approval and I slip them over her thighs. Her legs are incredible, but they look even better totally naked. Biting down on my bottom lip as I take in her naked body, she clears her throat and my eyes shoot back up to her face.
"S-Sorry." I shake my head. "I was just admiring the view."
"That's okay." Giving me a slight shrug, I climb back on top of her and our centers connect. "Oh god." She closes her eyes and I freeze above her.
"Do you want me to stop?" I ask.
"No!" Pulling me down against her, she takes my bottom lip between her teeth and smiles. "Please don't stop." My hands returning to their position either side of her head, she lifts her hips and I know she is wet. Soaked, even. I'd say it is my own arousal, but no…that is totally Eliza. "That feels incredible." She moans as I drop my head to her shoulder.
Shifting a little, I know exactly what I'm doing right now. I'm going to make her come without even touching her. Without entering her. I want nothing more than to take her in my bed, but I don't need to right now. I don't need to do anything whatsoever with my hands. Right now, I'm taking nothing from her…and that is what she wants. Now in a better position, my clit brushes against her own and her nails dig into my back. "Feel good?" I ask.
"Amazing…" She breathes out as I roll my hips into her own. "Fuck." Oh, god. That's hot. That is so fucking hot. Repeating my movements, she bites down on my shoulder and I'm pretty sure I've just come. I don't know how she does it, but she makes me so aroused that I'm not sure it's even normal behavior. My hips picking up speed a little, she matches my movements and I know that she is loving this. I know that I'm making her feel good. I don't know how far she has gone in the past, but this is good enough for me right now. Our bodies molded together, this is the perfect start to our day.
My own hands gripping the sheet either side of her body, I dip my head and take a nipple into my mouth as my hips increase in strength. "You feel so good against me…" I moan before sucking and tugging at the bud. "Mm, so good." Her grip on my back tightening, I know she is close. I know she is about to come. Maybe not in the way that I'd like her to, but still…she's going to come and I'm going to be the one who does that to her. Me. My body. My words. Nobody else.
"Arizona, oh god…I-I." Her breathing becoming a little labored, I lift my head from her shoulder and find her eyes. "I-I think, I just…oh god, yes." Bracing myself on my hands, I grind my hips harder against her soaked sex and she closes her eyes. Her bottom lip firmly between her teeth. "I-I, fuck…don't stop."
"Never." I smile as my lips work her jawline. Reaching her ear, I lower my tone painfully and brush my lips against the shell. "I think you should come for me, beautiful. You know you want to." My words pushing her over the edge, her nails in my skin cause a slight hiss from me but I don't care. I've always liked a little pain with my pleasure. Shaking and writhing beneath me, I don't let up with my movements. I want her to feel this. I want her to know that I can make her feel truly amazing when the time comes. "Relax your body, Eliza." Her hips resuming their own movements, the moan she releases sends my own body over the edge and I'm not sure I've ever come so hard. Her throbbing clit pushing against my own, all breath leaves my body, and I stiffen above her. "F-Fuck." My chest heaving, I drop down against her and she wraps her arms around my waist. "Wow…" I breathe out, my oxygen levels pretty low right now.
"That was incredible." She places a kiss on my shoulder and I prop myself up on my forearms. "Thank you."
"No." I shake my head. "Thank you…for trusting me."
"I'm not sure I ever want to leave this bed." She admits. "Can we stay here a little while longer?"
"We can stay here as long as you like…" I smile as I press a kiss to her lips. "As long as you like."
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