I just want to share with you all in my excitement that this story is FINISHED. Now I just need to reread, edit, and post and this will be done. You may get them all tonight but if not by this time next week. Yahoo!

Stephenie Meyers owns Edward, I just own a pillow named Edward ;)

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BPOV

"Fuck I missed you," Edward growled before his lips collided with my own.

I opened my own mouth hungrily allowing myself to get lost in the feeling of his touch. Edward yanked my shirt over my head his eyes feral and desperate, much like the feelings that had been growing inside of me.

"You're so perfect," he moaned trailing kisses down my stomach.

It was in these moments that the war within me was silent. Nothing mattered but us, races didn't matter and there was no hatred or discontent only our love and desperate need for one another. Edwards skin on mine, his body consuming me, claiming me as his own as we moved together as if one person.

"I love you," Edward mumbled as he nuzzled into my neck causing a smile to play on my lips, his fingers slowly tracing circles around my navel.

I looked down at him once again wondering about our future as the war inside me came raging back to life.

"What's on your mind?" Edward questioned and I tensed fearing that somehow he could hear my every thought.

"You look so serious," he remarked after a few minutes of silence as he ran his thumb over my furrowed brow.

"What's our future going to be like?" I asked, and Edward rolled over next to me laying on his back as he stared up at the ceiling, his hands behind his head as he was silent in thought.

"Well, I figured we'd get married, have some babies, you know the normal stuff," Edward said seriously, and I wondered how that could be all. What about the rest of the details?

"What will you do for work?" I pondered, moving over to nuzzle into the crook of his arm, inhaling his scent.

"Well I'll keep working at the construction company, and Carlisle has already told me when he retires in a few years he's just going to let me take over," Edward said, sounding too okay with the way our lives had turned out compared to the dreams we had once shared together.

"What about being a doctor," I wondered aloud.

"It's a little late for that now don't you think," Edward said, rolling to his side, his head now propped up by his arm as he looked down at me still nuzzled into his side as I stared through the space into his arm at the blank wall behind him.

"It's never too late," I scoffed sitting up suddenly, pissed off that Edward was so quick to settle.

"Jesus, Bells where is this coming from? Are you wanting to go back to school? Go back, you know I'll support you. I just know, it's not in the cards for me to be a doctor. I'm just not cut out for it."

"Not cut out for it, you got straight A's in school and all you ever wanted was to help others. What happened to you?" I spat turning my back to him.

"Yea, so I probably could have done it, could still do it. And then what? Save every spic, nigger and gook to walk in the door? Do you really think any hospital would be okay with me turning people away? Be realistic." Edward growled, and I could nearly hear him running his hands across his head in frustration.

"Maybe you shouldn't be turning people away," I said softly before I realized the words had escaped my lips.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" Edward said, grabbing my arm now forcing me to face him, "You've worked with that dirty nigger what, 5 months and now all of a sudden you two are 'besties'?"

I clenched my jaw as I balled my hands into fists, ready to punch Edward if I needed.

"Let go of me," I said in a low voice, as I yanked my arm away from his grip, "for being smart you're really fucking naive."

I thought of how I sounded like Angela and suddenly completely knew what she had meant before.

"Fuck, Bella," Edward said, some of the anger leaving his eyes as he ran his hands over his face in frustration, "you know I'd follow you to the ends of the earth, but this is ridiculous. This can get us BOTH killed! Blood traitor or not do you think I would let anything happen to you? Do you think they would just let us walk away? Maybe you need to take some time and get your head together before you start saying stupid shit like that anymore."

Edward stood, throwing his clothes on quickly as he headed towards the door.

"I'm going to pretend like this conversation never happened, come find me when you've got your head on straight," he said his hand resting on the door knob with his back to me.

"I can't Edward, I just can't do this anymore."

His head snapped over to look at me as tears filled his eyes.

"Fine," he said quietly walking outside into the night air as he slammed the door behind him.

My hand quickly covered my mouth as I fell to the bed, pulling my knees up to my chest and began to sob.