Chapter Ten:

L's POV

Slowly my eye lids lifted and I fixed my eyes on the boy on top of me. The heat from his body was making me sweat. His warm arms spread over me, his head was on my shoulder. I looked over to the clock carefully, trying not to wake the boy on top on me. It either said 5:25 or 2:52 I could quite tell from my angle. The amber eyed boy started to move, his eye lids widened and his lips began to open.

"Ryuzaki?" He questioned , he seemed confused, but he didn't pull away from me.

"Light-kun", my emotionless voice sounded more foreign to me.

" Why… are you holding me? Why am I holding you? Whaat happened?" His eyes started to close again, his grip loosened and he repositioned himself so he was laying next to me facing up.

" You were having a… nightmare.. And you were searching for me, begging for me not to leave so I had to hold you." My voice was sounding more foreign to me as the words slipped from my mouth. It seemed like I had no control over what came out of my mouth anymore. Maybe its from the lack of sleep. Or maybe I'm starting to get a cold.

"Oh… Sorry Ryuzaki.. What did I dream of exactly." His gaze was fixed on the ceiling, but began to meet mine. He was obviously expecting me to answer, but I didn't now what to say.

" Urm, you dreamt you were Kira and that I caught you. You began to tell me not to leave you and your arms began to search the bed for me. Then you began to cry and you told me…" My voice began to betray me, its tone was completely different showing discomfort, his eyes seemed more curious now and he urged me to go on. " You told me that you love me."

Both of us fell silent, the charismatic younger boy shied away for what seemed to be the first time in his life. " Since you been talking about me being Kira so much, it must have been planted in my subconscious."

Neither of us dared to look at the other. My eyes swayed between the ceiling and the door. " I suppose that could explain why you believed you were Kira, but how do I fit in?" My voice was still emotionless, I could now feel his gaze on me. Or Maybe he was Kira and his memories come back once hes asleep. But them why would he be begging for me to stay...

" Well you have been the one constantly blurting out that I am Kira, so of course you would fit in my dream." His voice was plain, effortless, and nonchalant. " Besides we both know that I'm physically attracted to you, and of course you to me." He let out a huge grin, he really didn't have any shame did he?

" I don't recall announcing to you I still acquire any attraction towards you. That incident took place weeks ago, so please speak for yourself and I shall do the same." My voice sounded robotic, it reminded me of an answering machine. My voice's pitch never rose or sank, it was perfectly in sync, displaying no emotion.

" Ha,", He smirked, he turned his entire body towards me. " You might not of said it out loud, but actions speak louder than words my dear friend." His face began to edge closer to mine own. My face betrayed me and blushed, but my eyes displayed fear. My mask was completely shattered as his lips were brushed softly against mine.

They were warm and soft, his lip tasted like mint, and his breath tickle my nose. One of his hands was placed on my cheek, and the other one wrapped around me. Both of my arms stayed by my side, unsure about what to do. Something warm was licking my lip, I gasped in reply, and it quickly gained entrance into my mouth, for the second time. His muscle began to explore the inside of my mouth, it started with the roof, then it began to massage my tongue. My tongue then began to rush into the other boys mouth. The heat of his mouth was soothing, his tongue began to wrestle mine for dominance. What am I thinking? I shouldn't being doing this with a boy that's my number one suspect... but he's so soft and smells so good and I think I...

The curious boy got on top of me, my arms wrapped around his shoulders, forcing him closer. I think I... love him? His hand went up my shirt, exposing my pale skin. His warm hands heated up my flesh, and his mouth descended from mine. His lips came in contact with my neck and his tongue began to tease it. No I can't... I don't... Last night I was tired, I didn't know what I was saying... I can't love him.

" Li… Light..", my voice was shaky, he bit my flesh and I groaned with pleasure and pain. " L…Light.. We need to stoopp."

He showed no signs of stopping, his hands began to pull my shirt up and over my head.

" Light!", I began to try to push him off, but he pinned my arms above my head. "Light STOP!", my voice sounded nervous, I was nervous, I didn't want him to go any farther, but my body did. I can't love him! I don't love him! His grip on me tightened, his lips went lower. "Urrg... Stop" He began to unbutten my pants. " Light! Stop this, this insanity! I do not like you in that way, and I'm not sure now if I even consider you as a friend!" My voice was full of range. He looked up at me, his eyes filled with regret. He quickly got off of me and slid out of bed, pulling me with him. I saw tears slide down his cheeks and pain shot through me. No... I didn't mean that.. Light I'm sorry... I should of told him.. I should tell him... That no matter what I say or how I react... The truth is that.. I love you.

Light's POV

" Light! Stop this, this insanity!" The panda eyed detective's voice was filled with frustration. His eyes gave me a look that could kill, but his body beckoned for more. "I do not like you in that way, and I'm not sure now if I even consider you as a friend!" My heart dropped, he doesn't even consider me a friend… I quickly got out of bed, pulling him with me. Fury filled tears streamed down my cheeks. Stupid L! He knows he wants me.. Everybody wants me.. Last night he had me tight in an embrace, and while I was a sleep… I can't believe I'm making a fool of myself, its not like I love him. I just find him… smart and attractive, but I don't love him…right?

Tears continued to flow down my cheeks more rapidly, I refused to look at the dark eyed man, and violently made my way to the bathroom. I threw off my shirt and tossed it at the ground. Why can't I get him out of my head? I then proceeded to pull my pants off of me and stepped into the empty shower. Why does it hurt so much when he rejects me? I threw my boxers over the shower curtain and turned on the water. I might think of him as the only one equal to me. The water was cold, my skin shivered as they made contact. But that doesn't mean that… My mind went blank, I quickly grabbed the shampoo and squirted it in my hand. I began to massage the shampoo in my hair. But I do… He's .. he's the only one that seems through me… I put my head under the water, and my hand started towards the soap bar. He's the only one that can hold an intelligent conversation with me… I rubbed the soap bar all over my body, desperately trying to clean my skin. But he thinks I'm Kira… I put the soap back and grabbed the conditioner. But there's this feeling I get around him.. It feels like… love? I placed the condition in my hair and put the bottle back on the little shelf. But he only thinks of me as a suspect. I let the condition rinse out, my arms dangled uncontrollably, my eyes closed and my head drooped. And he'll never feel anything towards me, or anyone else because he is L, and L is for Loyalty to justice… not for love.

Tears mixed in with the water, my legs began to give out, and I kneeled down. I think I understand how my father feels, its like my purpose for living was ripped out of me…