A/N: I must place this Author's Note here because this is my favorite chapter ever from my fic.
Also, I had to write ~heart~ because they wouldn't accept the symbol and I think that s2 is too ugly, so yeah.
Brace yourselves and see you all next Monday.

Also, thanks to Sherlockedbyben, BrightWatcher, Lindsay the narwhal, Sdw1013 and McMadi47 for the reviews. :3

CHAPTER 10

GOING BACK HOME

He opened his eyes. In front of him, only the grey emptiness of a rainy sky. Beneath him, he could feel innumerous grains of sand pressing against his hands and his neck. The rest of his body was covered by the suit he was wearing, and his feet were protected by and old dirty pair of white Converse All-Stars. He got up, recognizing the place where he was instantly. The white sand, the grey sea, those black rocks. He was in Dårlig Ulv-Stranden. Bad Wolf Bay. The sight of that beach brought back many memories, most of them he just wanted to erase from his mind, but there was one that he cherished with all his heart. The day he was created. The day he finally was able to be with her. No regenerations problems, no immortality, no obstacles nor setbacks. It would be just him, her and the world. And even though it would be only this world, he didn't care. He would give up all of those wonders he saw through all of his lives to have a full one with her. His companion, his friend, his love, his Rose. He put his hand in his trousers pockets, and smiled looking at the horizon. But something had happened. Something interrupted his story. He remembered going to bed with her one night, her head on his shoulder. He kissed the top of her head, and watched as she slowly entered the world of dreams. He loved that, watching her breath calmly. But he also hated that. He knew about the thoughts that sometimes crossed her mind during the day, and while she was asleep, those same thoughts would cross his mind. For all intents and purposes, he was the Doctor. He had the memories, the feelings, the appearance, the personality, and even his genetic code was the same. But he would never be her Doctor. The one she met when he blew up her workplace, the one with whom she met her first Dalek, the one that saw her be Bad Wolf, that she saw regenerate, that she had to learn to love from scratch once more, and the one she lost, all those years ago, in this same place. This Doctor, the one-hearted-Doctor, the human-Doctor remembered the way she looked at him in the Tardis the day he was created; the day he committed genocide. Her eyes showed that she was confused, and that she didn't believe that he even existed, ignoring him completely. All of that came to his mind every single night, while he saw her with her eyes closed, leaning on his shoulder. And after so many days, and so many years, he learned to push those thoughts back, but he never learned how to block them.

He looked around the bay, but there was no one there with him. He started to walk away from the beach, looking for her, trying to understand that feeling that was telling him that something was wrong. He reached the road, and there wasn't a single car parked. He closed his eyes, going back to that moment when he fell asleep, but after that, there was nothing. After that, he only woke up here. Walking down the road, he thought of every possible situation that would lead him to wake up in Bad Wolf Bay, but none of them seemed plausible. He kept debating with his own mind until he found a bus stop. The Doctor sat down, and waited for a bus that would take him back to London. It took about 1 hour for one to arrive, but he wasn't worried. He knew that his Rose would be waiting for him, probably with some nasty things to say, but happily nonetheless.

The Doctor got on the bus, and reached for his pocket searching for money, when his hand touched his wallet. He grabbed it, and once he opened it, a small piece of paper fell on the floor. He paid the bus driver, picked up the piece of paper, and found an empty seat, near a window. Unfolding the paper, he recognized Rose's handwriting, and a smile came to his face once again.

If it wasn't for me

this would still be in your nightstand

~heart~

This was also one of the things he loved the most about her. Even if he wasn't her Doctor, she showed him all the love and admiration he thinks she would show the other Doctor. And it was one of the things that kept him going, that kept him with her. He neatly folded the little note, and placed it inside his wallet, in a compartment where it wouldn't fell again. It took the bus around 2 hours to get to the nearest airport, and the flight would take another few hours to take off. While sitting on a bench, waiting for his plane to start boarding, he saw a man reading a newspaper, and that was when he realized. For him, it seemed that he had slept for a few hours. However, according to the newspaper in front of him, he had slept for almost a whole month.

-DW-

Rose's scream brought three nurses into her hospital room, but she didn't care about it, because she remembered it! Now she knew who that man was!

"That man! The Man In The Trench Coat! He is the Doctor. The last of the Time Lords of Gallifrey, the Oncoming Storm, the bringer of darkness. He is over 900 years old, and he travels in a spaceship that can move through time and space, a time machine called Tardis, which stands for Time And Relative Dimension In Space. He had fought Daleks, and Cibermans, and Slitheens, and more aliens I could imagine."

It was all there, inside her head. All of their adventures, and all of their misadventures as well. She remembered the first day she met him, before he had regenerated.

"I remember Bad Wolf, and his regeneration and how much scared I felt back then when I thought that he might not want to travel with me anymore because he had changed. I remember New New York, and Cardiff, and the werewolf in New England, the Impossible Planet, and then… Bad Wolf Bay."

The day she lost him. The day he burned a star for her, to talk to her. The day he didn't say what she needed to hear the most. And after that, those years without him. How dull her life had become, how boring. But not for long.

"But then, then the stars where disappearing, and I knew we needed the Doctor once more. So I spent all of my time, and all my days to find a way to go back to his universe, and I succeeded! I reached to Donna, his companion at that time, and managed to find him!"

And she was so thrilled by seeing him that she almost couldn't control herself. When things finally calmed, they hugged, tighter than ever before, neither of them wanting to let go, but being forced to.

"All of his other companions were there too. Capitan Jack Harkness… Oh My God, he is my doctor…! And Martha… My psychologist…?! Donna, Sarah Jane, Mickey, and there was even a second Doctor, a human Doctor…"

But she didn't care about any of them, all she cared about was that she was reunited with her Doctor. He taught them all how to properly drive the Tardis, and left all of his friends back in London. He could do it now that the problem had passed, and the universe was safe once more. She could see in his eyes that every time one of them got out of the Tardis, his hearts broke a little, and, because of that, so did hers. He left her for last, in a last attempt to spend as much time as he could together.

"He chose Bad Wolf Bay to leave me…"

And she couldn't blame him for doing so. On that day, she lost her Doctor once again, but, in compensation, the Doctor said that there was no place for the human-Doctor in his universe, so he should stay here with her. She didn't know if she wanted to kiss him, or kill him. She hated him because he knew it wouldn't be the same, and because he wasn't taking her with him, however, she loved him because she knew that this was his way of leaving a little bit of himself with her, so she would never forget.

"But I forgot... All those strange things that has been happening to me in the last weeks: the tie in my room, the 3D glasses, the empty space in my wardrobe, the key in my keychain, the Tardis' key. All of that makes sense now. But it took me almost a month to remember him… Why so long?"

That started to weight on her conscience. If their places were changed, he would never take that long to remember her. And now that she remembered, she wondered where he was, and why he had disappeared. There was only one thing she was completely sure about: she wouldn't stop at anything or no one, until she was reunited with her human-Doctor… No, not just her human-Doctor… Her Doctor, once again.

Dr. Jack came in the room, hearing only the last few words that she said.

"Rose, you need to sit down so we can talk. Did you take your pills? Remember what I told you, all of this, it is all in your head. This… Doctor. He's not real, Rose…"

She turned to him, looking deep in his eyes, with a smile across her face.

"But he is. My Doctor is real. And were ever he is right now, now that I remember him, I know that he's coming for me."