I run up to my room and I barely shut the door when I broke down on the ground crying. I pulled my knees up to my face and hugged them.
I was broke.
I tried not to care.
Ignore it and him completely.
I couldn't.
Not if he says things like that. "Love happened."
If love happened we wouldn't be where we were.
Something did happen though. I just wasn't sure what.
One day I was happy. His hands wrapped around me. He leaves for few hours comes back all cold and distant and few days later he fucks Jessica Stanley. It was anything but love.
I whipped my tears away and collected myself. I need to talk to him. I stood up and opened my bedroom doors and gasped. He was already standing there his hand up in the air. He was about to knock before I opened the doors. I didn't say anything. I opened my bedroom doors wider and he walked in.
His hands were pushed in to his pockets and he leaned against the wall next to a window which was facing his bedroom.
He licked his lips and sighed.
"I'm sorry." He finally spoke. I closed my bedroom doors and walked over to my bed and sat down looking down at my feet.
"I'm sorry too." I spoke and felt a single tear rolling down my cheek.
"I hate when you cry."
"Well…lately making me cry is what you do best."
"But you have Jasper to whip your tears away." He said with a hint of bitterness in his words.
"Don't pull Jasper in to this. He's done nothing, but being my friend."
"I know. That's why I hate him so much. I hate him with you. I hate that you so easily replaced me."
"You chose this."
"I know."
"So then what's the problem? You chose to send me to hell and you are mad about it? Thats fucked up. Even for you."
He pushed himself of the wall and came to sit down next to me. The electricity I known so well, but had forgotten hit my body hard. I didn't want to felt it. I didn't want it to be there.
"I'm sorry that I was an ass. I'm sorry that I treated you awful. But fuck Bella. You would've done the same."
"I don't even knwo why you did what you did." I said honestly.
"You just love to play stupid."
"No. I really don't know what happened. I remember how you pulled me in to your lap, kissed my neck and you and Emmett left to go grab us lunch. Next thing I know you come back and ignore me completely."
"Because I heard what you told the girls."
"What the hell are you talking about?"
"When me and Emmett got back, I was about to walk in when I heard you screaming "I fucked James too. I couldn't help it. Have you seen him naked?" "
I just gaped at him. Where this is coming from? I tried to think things through. Then my mouth fell open.
Flashback.
So tell me Bella. What happened between you two? He came here and you two looked pretty cozy." Alice said biting her lip and waiting for juicy details.
"Nothing."
"Oh don't lie. I can see how blush is coloring your cheeks now."
"Okay. We made out a little."
"You fucked him? You slut!"
"I'm a slut? I just made out with him. You are a slut little miss I fucked James too. I couldn't help it. Have you seen him naked?"
"Are you fucking serious right now?" Edward yelled when I told him what happened.
"Yes! If you don't believe me you can just ask Alice or Rose. God Edward. I would never sleep with James. What were you thinking? Why didnt you just asked me?"
I was shocked and mad and I saw red. How could he even think that I had slept with a guy like James?
He dropped his head in his hands.
"I can't believe that this all was just a misunderstanding. How could I be this stupid?"
I just sat there and gaped somewhere in the air. So all this hate from him was just because of something he had heard?
"Get out Edward."
"What?" He asked tilting his head up.
"Get out. All this time I thought that this was my fault. That I really did something wrong. But it actually turns out that your bad habit of eavesdropping bite you in the ass. I just…I need you to leave."