A/N- yes yes, I know I haven't been around for a while, but I came back and wrote another chapter, because I left you all with a nasty cliffhanger that I forgot about until like three hours ago, after which time I had to read like the whole story over again and came up with this. R&R!
Chapter 10 - Sleep So Sound
We spent the next day at the hospital, we left right after I had gotten the message. We sat in the waiting room as Carlisle tried to talk some information out of the doctors. He probably got more out of them than other person would, as he was a doctor. Still, they were sketchy on the information they were giving. We still had no real idea what was going on.
I sat with my head in my hands, Edward's hand resting on my back, he had already given up on trying to comfort me. I stared at the floor tiles, counting them and then stopping and counting again as some kid crawled across them, drool all over his chin. I sighed, this wasn't going good.
I had tried to convince them to stay on tour, it'd only be a couple of shows and I'd be right back with them, but they refused and insisted they fly back to Jacksonville with me. They had put their world tour on hold, already rescheduling the next two shows, before even knowing what was going to come from this ordeal.
Finally a doctor came out to get us, we were finally allowed in to see my mother. Of course, just coming out of surgery, she was only allowed two visitors at once. Edward came with me. As we walked through the depressingly quiet hallways of the hospital, I could hear a steady beeping from the rooms and my mind immediately clicked. My mother hadn't set off the smoke detectors, it was an EKG machine.
When we got to her room, I could feel that something was very wrong as soon as I stepped foot through the doorway. The steady beeping grew louder as we came into the room. She looked completely different than the last time I had seen her. She hardly looked like my mother at all, yet the papers at the end of the bed all her name on them.
I swallowed hard and choked out a "hello.". Tears were starting to roll down my cheeks, I quickly wiped them away. The conversation that followed was painful, not just how she sounded, sick and raspy, but to find out about the lies that had been piled on. Phil, who was thought to be my step father was actually in fact my mother's doctor. I was shipped off to Charlie's because she was getting sick, and fast. She moved to Jacksonville so it would be easier to get care. Months this had been going on, but she never told me.
"I didn't want to make you worry about me, you needed to live your life! And look what's came of it, you're famous." she said, wheezily.
"I could have- could have helped you, done something-"
"Bella, there's nothing you could have done. There's no cure for cancer." Her eyes looked heavy, our visit was more than likely taking a toll on her. I choked back a sob, it wasn't fair. She closed her eyes, two seconds later the EKG flatlined. I went hysterical.
"Mom? Mom?" I cried.
"Really Emmett? Not funny." I followed Edward's gaze over to where Emmett stood, holding the plug attached to the machine. He looked at us with an innocent look on his face.
"What? I wanted to see the reaction!" Edward's jaw dropped as he gave Emmett one of the most disgusted looks I have ever seen. "She'll be more prepared for it when the real event comes! Don't be so selfish Eddy, I'm doing this to improve her future!" Emmett said with the most innocent of expressions.
"Just plug the machine back in, Emmett." Edward growled at him through gritted teeth.
"Oh, and who do we have here?" Emmett let out a slight grin as he plugged the machine back in.
"Emmett Cullen ma'am." Emmett said, giving a cheesy bow. "At your service!"
"Well that's... nice..." Her words were becoming more and more spread apart, slower and more laboured.
"I'll be leaving now, I just came up to tell Edward that Laurent is downstairs in the waiting room." That was not good. They exchanged a knowing look, and probably a more detailed thought of the situation and Emmett left.
"That's ni- Just- Bella..." The EKG flatlined again. I didn't bother to go hysterical this time, I can't believe he'd pull this again.
I looked over to where Emmett had just been standing with the plug in his hand. He wasn't there. "Emmett stop doing-"
"Bella, that's not Emmett." Edward was calm as he put his hand on my shoulder. I broke down into a sobbing mess. My mother was gone.
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The boys were to play their rescheduled shows the next week. The next few weeks went by in a wave, that came from deep under the surface and just kept going. The only thing I knew was that it had to hit a shoreline somewhere, something had to smash me back into reality.
Emmett came bursting though the door of my hotel room doing just that, waving a magazine around like a crazed lunatic. "Dude! Congratulations!" Emmett practically yelled. That brought everyone to the door of my hotel room. Emmett had smacked the magazine down on the table in front of me. The cover read Bella Cullen Pregnant! I stared at it, a picture of Edward and me leaving the hospital after my mother's death. Me with my hand up at my face, my tears not shown. I slowly set my coffee down and flipped to the page the article was on.
The article mostly read about when we were spotted leaving the hospital, the rumor being that I was pregnant, and my shirt was covering up a baby bump. I snorted and tossed the magazine aside. Edward picked it up and scanned the article, his face not letting any emotion show. It made the rounds through everyone else, after reading the article they all dispersed, leaving Edward in the room with me.
He sat down across from me. "This was exactly what I was talking about." He spoke quietly. I shrugged.
"Let them think what they want."
"Let them think what they want? Bella, this can't not bother you! Any other girl on the face of the planet would be out there denying it right away! They'd be furious that the rumor was started! At the very least half of them would take it as they're fat!" He was on his feet now, and he was steaming.
"What exactly am I supposed to do? It's not like they'll listen! I tried to tell them we weren't married, but they still call me Ms. Cullen! What's the difference going to be now? I'll get a call from my dad, explain it's not true then who cares? Once we get back to school it'll be obvious that the rumor's false!" For the first time in a while I felt an emotion rather than sadness, whether anger was a good first emotion to be feeling I wasn't sure, but it felt almost good.
"Fine. Let them take you as a whore."
This was my shoreline.
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It was a fight, a big one. Edward stormed off, refusing to talk anymore, I was fuming now. Why the hell did he care so much? He himself said it would happen! Joked about it in passing even, it wasn't a big deal with Emmett and Rosalie, why the hell was it one now?
We still weren't talking when it was time for the concert. I sat at the side of the stage as usual as the normal babel took place again, as it usually did. I had refused to do any performances at the last few concerts and tonight held the same.
"Alright, let's get this show started, this is a new song off of our band new album!"
3 p.m on my feet and staggering
Through misplaced words and a sinking feeling
I got carried away
Sick, sick of sleeping on the floor
Another night, another score
I'm jaded
Bottles breaking
You're only happy when I'm wasted
I point the finger but I just can't place it
It feels like I'm falling in love
When I'm falling to the bathroom floor (oh oh oh oh)
I'll remember how you tasted
I've had you so many times lets face it
Feels like I'm falling in love alone
Stella would you take me home
Stella would you take me home The crowd was dancing as the guys came in with the different harmonies.
2 a.m. I'm on a black-out binge again (ha ha ha) You could tell this was Emmett's favourite part of the song, from the look on his face when he yelled 'ha' into the microphone.
You know I don't need sleep and I lost my keys but
I got so many friends
And they keep, keep me coming back for more
Another night, another score
I'm faded
Bottles breaking And the crowd was anticipating the breakdown that was to follow.
You're only happy when I'm wasted
I point the finger but I just can't place it
It feels like I'm falling in love
When I'm falling to the bathroom floor (oh oh oh oh)
I'll remember how you tasted
I've had you so many times lets face it
Feels like I'm falling in love alone
Stella would you take me home
One more reason I should never have met you
Just another reason I could never forget you
Down we go
The rooms spinning out of control
Lose myself in a chemical moment
White lights taking it's tole
That's just the way it goes
Come on, Stella would you take me home
You're only happy when I'm wasted
I point the finger but I just can't place it
It feels like I'm falling in love alone
Stella would you take me home
You're only happy when I'm wasted
I point the finger but I just can't place it
It feels like I'm falling in love
When I'm falling to the bathroom floor (oh oh oh oh)
I'll remember how you tasted
I've had you so many times lets fix it
Feels like I'm falling in love alone
Stella would you take me home
Stella would you take me home
The song finished and the crowd cheered as usual, they followed it up with Sleep So Sound and Celebrity Status.
"And now we're going to slow it down a bit, with this last song, written literally just two hours ago by Ed here for a special someone." Edward shot Jasper a bit of a look while he spoke into the mic. as they started to play the new song. They had the audience in a trance as Edward's acoustic rang out over the audience.
Tonight a candle lights the room,
Tonight it's only me and you,
Your skin like gravity
Is pulling every part of me,
I fall, you and I collide
What if I stay forever?
What if there's no goodbye?
Frozen for a moment here in time,
Yeah,
If you tell me the sky is falling,
Or say that the stars collide,
The only thing that matters in my life,
Is you and I tonight
Our eyes close the candle burns away,
But I know the fire still remains
This love is all we need
We fit together perfectly,
I fall, you and I collide
What if I stay forever?
What if there's no goodbye?
Frozen for a moment here in time,
Yeah,
If you tell me the sky is falling,
Or say that the stars collide,
The only thing that matters in my life,
Is you and I tonight At this point Edward looked over at me, and stopped singing, Jasper taking the vocals as Edward pulled his guitar strap over his head and passed his guitar off to a crew member.
I wanna see this through
I wanna give it all to you
Tonight a candle lights the room
Tonight, it's only me and you, oh He was mere inches away from me, his eyes staring into mine. He pressed his lips down on mine, tilting my head up to his with a hooked finger. The crowd went nuts.
What if I stay forever?
What if there's no goodbye?
Frozen for a moment here in time,
Yeah,
If you tell me the sky is falling,
Or say that the stars collide,
The only thing that matters in my life, Jasper looked over, a smirk on his face as the crowd's noise over-took the amplified sounds being blasted out over them.
Is you and I tonight
Tell me the sky, forever
Just you and I tonight
Tell me the sky,
What if I stay?
Just you and I tonight.
And it was just him and I that night.
A/N- ooooohhhh! Songs were: Stella by All Time Low, the second mentioned song was in reference to Sleep So Sound by The Artist Life (lyrics are NOT in this chapter, rather just mentioned), and You and I Tonight by Faber Drive. Thoughts? I know it's been a while, but you know you want to press that review button!