When Tessa opened her eyes again they were green, her face full with freckles and hair as bright and as red as fire, it took me a moment to realize Clary was standing in the middle of the room – it wasn't the Clary I remembered. This Clary was sad, hurting and ashamed.
"I am sorry", she said with agony, "I tried to fight! But I lost".
Her eyes looked up into mine, "Jace, I tried, but she was stronger than me."
"She? Do you mean Lilith?" I asked but she already looked into Jocelyn's direction.
Tears ran down Jocelyn's eyes Luke hugged her harder and harder, as if she wanted to run to her daughter or fall on the floor – but he wouldn't let her. "Mom," Clary smiled at her, "Thank you for trying to hide me from this world."
"I'm sorry," she answered her, "I really -"
Clary cut her off, "No! I am happy you did it – that is what made me - me." She smiled to her and looked up to Luke.
"Take care of her" she said.
Then she looked all over the room and said – "im sorry I can't be here to help you stop it, but I lost my fight – and for that I am truly sorry."
Her hair started to fade into brown, and slowly I could notice the freckles were starting to disappear as well – she hadn't got much time left.
"I wish I could explain it to you all – but all I have time to say is that I wish you luck." the runes on her arms started to fade as well, she noticed it and hurried to turn look at me.
I felt as if we where alone, "I know it will be hard on you, but you should remember - I am dead."
As she said it she lost the ground from under her feet and fell side ways on the ground – unconscious – she wasn't Clary any more, it was Tessa, and Alec ran right down to her.
I helped Alec to pic her up and put her on the nearest bed bed, Brother Enoch did what he could but Tessa wouldn't wake up, she was sleeping; 'she has to clear things in her own head, it was too hard on her for a reason I hope, as she wakes up, she will know'.
After Enoch left it was time for Alec to tell us everything and so he did – but I wasn't taking attention in it at all, my head was lost in Clary 'remember I am dead' why does she think that? how could I forget it?