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*Principia Mathematica: Yeah, sorry I took so long, it's just that high school is kinda hard. I'm having trouble with algebra... two "F" and I think one more is coming... I'll try to take more time to work on the fics. Sorry again, I took some days past the TWO-WEEK limit. Thanks for taking time to review and to email me, lots of love!
*Neo-chan: I just looooooove your stories, I've kinda read like half of them... when I have time to do so of course. Brotherly love, what can I say? Love it. Just finished reading chapter 8th, I don't know really if I've left any reviews. It's just that sometimes I'm just so sucked in the stories that I forget about time. I usually get online (when I do) like at 10:00 p.m. and I end up like at 2 o 3 a.m. so I kinda daze off a lot. Hehehehe... OoU *Neko-chan: Sorry, here's the next part... enjoy it! *Death- Stopper *CCPhoenix This is three years after defeating Piedmon!
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For the one's who have troubles with the Japanese names here they are...
Taichi Yagami/Kamiya - Tai Kamiya Yamato Ishida - Matt Ishida Koushiro Izumi - Izzy Izumi Jyou Kido - Joe Kido Sora Takenouchi - = Takeru Takaishi - TK Takaishi Hikari Yagami/Kamiya - Kari Kamiya Mimi Tachikawa - =
Just in case Miyako?? - Yolei Daisuke Motomiya - Davis Iori ??- Cody
-"Really... this is more than what I expected. But it is now my turn to speak, it's time for me to tell you what happened, three years ago, when Piedmon killed me..."-
"Explaining you" By Baby-chan
~*FLASHBACK*~
"As everyone knows, Piedmon struck us with his powerful attack: Trump Sword. First it was WarGreymon who fell to his powers... then it was my turn. When WarGreymon fell, I lost all my hopes of winning the battle; I lost my faith on returning safely to the real world... I lost it all. I thought about you guys, about my parents; I couldn't let that monster win. I couldn't allow him to hurt you, you were my responsibility, and it was my duty to protect you. I had to do something. I tried to stop him, I knew of course; I couldn't do anything on my own. But at least I had to try, even if he had powers and I didn't. That was proven right away, when I gave in to his attack, well; I wasn't left much of a choice. I mean, I couldn't do anything. I tried; I really did... just not enough I guess. Anyway, when both swords sliced me, I felt an enormous amount of pain. I had never experienced something like that, and it's my true wish to never experience it again... ever. My whole body turned heavy, then numb. I had trouble with breathing; the air was slicing my lungs. Everything seemed to be lost. It was that moment, just then, when my hopes got up again, I heard my name being called by the one who could defeat the evil and save you all. I heard you calling me Matt. You hold me kindly in your arms, even though you seemed to hate me so much. I felt that no matter what happened to me, just being in your arms for some seconds meant the world to me. It was now or never. I couldn't die with out telling you. I loved you; you had to know... even if it was just to be turned down in my last breath... you would at least know about my feelings. I got brave when I felt you caress my hair and face, I started by apologizing about all our fights, then I told you. After I said it, I felt my entire body as light as a feather, the pain disappeared. I felt as if I didn't need to breathe anymore; all I wanted to do was sleep. Suddenly, I found myself awake, staring at what was going on with you guys. I couldn't hear anything; all I could do was stare. My wounds were gone; I was with out any trace of scratches, not even bloodstains were left. You could say I was intact. When I started to disappear, I got this strange feeling that this wasn't my end. I don't know why I got that feeling, it was just that it didn't felt like and end. Even though I have no idea how dying feels. At first, a blinding light came and I had to shield my burning eyes with my arm. When I opened them again I saw myself in strange dimension. It was some sort of data bank or something like that! I had never seen a place like that before. I saw Agumon at my side and I supposed that we were dead. I got happy to see that even in death we would at least be together. Agumon too, seemed to be wondering were could we be, for he had a confused face just like mine. I supposed that we had died in the battle, but I couldn't explain myself where we were at that moment. The strangest thing was that Agumon and I well; we were like floating or something like that! There was no solid floor beneath us. Just digits. We both were obviously freaked out, what had happened? Where were we? It was obvious that we had died, but were have we've been sent to? Was this heaven? No, it couldn't be. Was this hell? It didn't seemed like hell to me. It couldn't be hell either. It was so awful there, well at least for me... and I'm pretty sure that for Agumon it was too! We had no one else to talk with; we were floating in plain nothing. But then, I saw you guys appear where we were, and I thought you had died! I got scared thinking that you were dead too, maybe we had lost the battle. I didn't know what to think, but still, I could only think the worst. Agumon called you several times, but it seemed as you were ignoring us or couldn't hear us. Then I heard you say Matt:
"We can't end like this! We have to defeat him, we can't let Tai's sacrifice himself in vain!"-A younger Matt was yelling. I tried to tell you that we where there, but it was useless. Agumon yelled too, but it seemed that you couldn't hear us or see us. We somehow found a way to float to where you were and reach you, but when I tried to touch you... I just went right through you. You can't imagine how scary that felt! Goosebumps invaded me and I felt like screaming, yet no scream came. It seemed that you weren't exactly with us, I mean dead, as Agumon and I supposedly were. I didn't know why were you there in that dimension or whatever it was if you weren't dead, still I don't know why... but it really doesn't matter know. Does it? With my last hint of hope, you could say that sometime before I let my faith slip away into the abysm of resignation, I forced myself to believe that you hadn't lost the battle or your lives. That everything was ok, that you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. I hoped and wished with all my cells that I were able to at least encourage you. Agumon did the same. I can't really explain what happened. I wish I knew, because I know that I still wonder sometimes at night about it, but... I felt as I was in you, and you were in me."- Tai paused, the others were silent. He took air again and continued with his explanation. -"I don't really think you can understand what I'm saying... I felt, for a brief and mystic moment, that I was a part of you and you were a part of me. As soon as I felt that, I thought that now you would be able to hear me. It seems it worked! Because my tag and my emblem glowed as I whispered my cheers: "Don't give up, I'm counting on you to finish what we started..."- He paused, looking at their remembering faces -"I saw that you could hear me! I got happy, maybe we, I mean Agumon and I, could go back with you. But right after that... you disappeared! I was left alone with Agumon again. My last hope of returning to the real world or even to the digiworld disappeared with you guys, and so did Agumon's. We thought there was nothing left for us, we were really gone. After that, time passed, and again I felt desperate. I got desperate of having no one to speak to, nothing to talk about. Agumon was the same, maybe even worse. We stopped talking; no word would be spoken by any of us. We stopped trying to get out; we were again dying slowly... even if we were already dead. It seemed eternities, ages. I really have no idea how much time it passed... but it was a lot, hell of a lot. I couldn't know, neither could Agumon, how many days, weeks, months and even maybe years passed by. There were no sun or moon to see, there were no clocks: just white and some digits here and there. We were all alone, Agumon and I must have spoken at the much like six or seven sentences in all the time we spent there. We just didn't feel like speaking, we would just stay there floating. We couldn't sleep. I don't know why, we didn't feel tired or sleepy. Time seemed that even when it did pass, it forgot totally about us. We seemed to be ages in that sort of dimension, but we never seemed to grow. Not a bit, not even my hair or my nails grew. We stayed exactly the way we were when we died. I got depressed as time kept slipping; with out notice of how much had already passed by. Also, there was too much solitude, I missed being around other people. I needed to be around other people, I was becoming sick of where I was. Sick of being lonely, I missed you guys so bad it hurt. I missed my parents, my friends, my life, the digimons, our adventures, I missed my sister... and I missed you Matt. So, I reunited all that was left of my hope, and wished to be able to see you guys again, I missed you so much and Agumon did too. I wasn't asking to be revived, all I wanted was to see you. After all, we were already dead. Piedmon had killed us, that couldn't be changed... or so I thought. And again my tag and emblem glowed, but this time, the digivice glowed too. It didn't just glow, it flashed some sort of lightning towards Agumon and then, the digivice disappeared. But the tag and the emblem kept glowing with a light so bright, I had to shield my eyes or I would get blind. And then, I felt them penetrate my shirt and skin. As soon as I got that feeling, I clenched my teeth preparing myself for the pain, but amazingly, it never came. Everything was with out pain. I didn't feel anything, not even tickles. They became one with me, and I became one with them. It was then, when a faint voice was heard, it seemed to be calling us. Agumon and I looked in every direction possible, but we just kept seeing all white and some digits. Strangely, even when there was no one there, the voice came from every where, the voice echoed through all that mysterious and weird place.
"Brave Heart, Fire Warrior"- It said. Agumon and I supposed that it was talking to us, I mean, we were the only ones there. "Brave Heart, lift your hand in front of your chest and think of the digiworld or about the real world..."-Agumon and I looked at each other, which one of us was the so called "Brave Heart"? We kinda guessed that it was talking about me. I mean, I'm the one with the courage tag. Courage makes you courageous, courageous and brave are kinda like the same... aren't they? I did as I was told, remembering every detail of the place where we landed the day the sky swallowed us and we fell into the digiworld. And then, a big oval of blue energy appeared in front of us. What the hell was that? That was all I could think. The voice was heard again: "Enter the portal..."- I saw Agumon looking at me, expecting me to say something. I stayed silent; I had nothing to say. That's a portal? I couldn't believe that... although it did seem like one. But where would it take us? To the digiworld? I couldn't answer myself those questions. Even so, I made up my mind. "Do you think it's safe Tai?"- Agumon asked me, I didn't even answer Agumon's question, I just kept thinking that I'd rather be in where ever that portal took me, than stuck were I was. It would be better if I took my chances with the portal; maybe it would take me back, than staying there to die again of solitude. Again I did as I was told, and I felt as if I had been thrown to a pool, I felt myself splashing into something. It wasn't water that's for sure. Even so, it was a refreshing feeling. I had my eyes closed, suddenly; the splashing feeling disappeared, to be replaced with the feeling of air, sounds and mostly, solid ground. I wasn't sure if I should open my eyes or not. I didn't want to see where had I been sent to. I was scared, scared of what could I find when I opened my eyes. I pulled up my guts; after all, I was the digidestined of courage. I had to show the characteristics from which I had been chosen. I opened my eyes slowly, and I found myself at the digiworld, where we first arrived there. It seemed to be a few hours before sunset. I was speechless; I couldn't believe my eyes. I rubbed them hard, trying to wake myself up from some weird dream. I couldn't, I was already awaken. I was back! I really was! I had longed and wished for it so much I couldn't believe it. I fell to my knees; I squeezed the dirt in my hands, feeling it. I kissed the floor, thanking God for being so kind. I rubbed my head in the dirt, yelling thanks to the heavens. Thanks for all. Thanks for being back again. Agumon, who had followed me through the portal, screamed in excitement as he ran around feeling the floor under his paws. He too, couldn't believe we were back. He saw me kneeling, and approached, he placed his paw in my shoulder. -"We made it Tai, we're back."- I nodded smiling. Suddenly, I felt amazingly tired; my eyes started to close. I felt myself heavy; it became difficult to be kneeling, so I just dropped myself to the floor. It wasn't long before Agumon fell to my side, he too felt deadly tired. It became hard to be awake. Eventually, we both fell asleep cuddled one into the other. I swear I had never felt so tired before. I slept like a baby. I don't know how much I slept, but I need it so much. I suppose all that time with out sleeping made us all tired. When I woke up, I felt like a new person... it had been hell of a long time since the last time I slept. It was already past dawn, I had slept at least 12 hours. I noticed Agumon was missing. I was about to call him when my stomach announced me that he was alive again too. I felt like starving, thirst took over me. I found myself running to a nearby stream. The stream in which we fell the first time we were here. When that digibug chased us. I saw Agumon coming with food; he too seemed to have been at the verge of dying of hunger. We ate like pigs; not even chewing. We couldn't control ourselves we NEEDED to eat. After that, we rested some more. Still, we felt tired, even though we had slept a lot the day before. Some while later, we set off to explore. We wanted to see if the digiworld had changed after the battle. Mostly, I wanted to make myself sure, that we had won. I had still some fears that haunted my thoughts. Fears that we had lost and that you had died too. We evaded the digimon that knew us, trying to be as silent and wary as shadows. We traveled through a lot of places, until we had almost checked the entire digiworld. Of course, this took a lot of time. We must've been traveling like 4 or 5 months. Of course, this is almost nothing in human time. But still, I didn't age a day. I would stay just like I was when I had eleven years old. I got worried, but I suppose that it was because of the difference of time between the Digiworld and Earth itself. In all that time, I kept thinking about you guys all day. There was no moment that I wouldn't be thinking about you all. My parents, my sister, my friends... my love. I missed you Matt so much, even when all we had done before was just argue. That had become an important thing... and I couldn't help but miss it. After we were entirely sure, that there wasn't any dark master left, we stopped. We settled down, after we had done with our travelling. We built some sort of house in a small and well hidden grotto. We spent there like another two months. It was until one day, that we discovered that if I concentrated hard enough, we could travel to the real world or to the digiworld using the portals. Agumon on his side could digivolve whenever it was needed to do so, into WarGreymon or into whatever other of his digievolutions. Agumon tried to convince me to come to the real world, but I wasn't sure, I felt that I wouldn't find a warm welcome. Again, I was scared of facing the effects of time. The effects that my confession could've caused. Scared that you guys wouldn't accept me for not being what you would call normal. I mean, maybe you thought that homosexuals were wrong... I use to be like that, why shouldn't you think that way? I would not be able to live if my family or friends didn't accept me for who I was, for who I like. Most of all, I was scared to face you Matt. Being in love with someone, who seems to think about you like a rival, isn't something easy. When you said you didn't hate me, things seemed easy, and I blurted out my feelings. Besides, I was at the verge of dying; it didn't matter anything anymore. But now I was back, it DID matter now, and I wouldn't be able to live after being turned down by you. It may sound stupid, but it's true. You could tell me: Hey! "You're only fourteen, get over it, it's just a crush." But it wasn't just a crush, and I knew that so well, it made me want to cry just to think about not being what you wish or even deserve. How could it be just a crush? It's not like everyday you get sucked into another world with some kids and realize it's your job the save the world. Things like that change the way you are and the way you think. Nobody here present can truly say that he or she didn't learn anything or change in any way possible. We aren't like the kids our age, we don't think like them, not anymore... we have matured so much, no one would ever tell we truly are just kids. We faced so many things, risked our lives so many times, we aren't normal teens. We are digidestined, and we must face the consequences, no matter what are. So it wasn't just a crush, I knew that very well. We passed so much together; I felt as if I was bound to you Matt in so many ways, that it scared me. Our fights, our argues, seemed to me like if they were just tying us together, making the relation between you and me look impossible, yet perfect. Even so, I still felt scared of being turned down. Ironic isn't it? I'm supposed to be the digidestined of courage, I fought with monsters, faced death itself... yet, I'm scared of facing a fourteen year old boy. I felt so pathetic; still I wouldn't let Agumon convince me of coming to the real world. He decided to leave the point there, knowing I would accept when I felt ready to do so. We dedicated our time to built our home perfectly, this of course, with out other digimon noticing it. We took our time in that; I needed some time to decide. So, we got ourselves to work, Agumon would go and get stuff we needed, while I'll be watching over the place. It would be less suspicious if the digimons saw another digimon instead of a human, especially when supposedly the chosen children had already left the digital world. It wasn't long before I found myself sad about everything. And every night, when I thought Agumon was sleeping, I would go outside the small grotto and sit under the stars. And then, I would find unstoppable the rain that flowed from my eyes, I felt so alone. Alone with out you guys, I felt no one except you could stop the rain that was pouring inside me, in my heart, in my soul. One night, when my eyes were flooded with tears, I felt Agumon's paw in my shoulder. I looked down, he called me, and I couldn't hold it anymore. I sobbed in Agumon's shoulder; he hugged me, and listened to all that was drowning me from inside. The next day, I woke up in Agumon's lap, and I made a decision. I would go to the real world; it was time to see you. I needed to see you. We waited until midday, then it was time. I concentrated myself hard, thinking of my room. Remembering every detail possible, trying not to forget anything. We were going there, 'cause I needed to disguise Agumon, in order to make him able to walk along the people with out causing hysteria. The portal appeared, I was going to enter first... I was nervous. Even when we knew I could do it, I mean create a portal when I concentrated hard enough, we only entered once into one of them. It was when we were brought back to the digiworld. So we weren't exactly sure if it would work again, mostly, because we were now going to the real world. I pulled my guts again, and stepped forward the portal, my eyes closed. Again the splashing feeling came and, as soon as it came, it disappeared. I supposed I had arrived to the real world. Still I had my eyes closed, no sound was heard, it was total silence. Slowly and carefully, I opened my eyes, just to find myself in where I've wanted to be: in my room. Happiness invaded me; the joy of being back home was burning me. I wanted to scream in delight, yell at the world that I was back. Still, I remained silent just to be wary, maybe there was someone else in the apartment. I wasn't sure if I wanted to let anyone see me yet. Agumon popped out of the portal right after, he too got happy to see I was back home. I jumped to the bed and hugged the pillows, smelling the scent of my house, feeling its softness. I decided I would take some of my clothes and change myself into them. The ones I was wearing were all dirty and a little ripped. I was looking through the drawers, praying that my mother hadn't thrown my clothes out when Agumon screamed. -"Tai! Look at yourself! You're changing!"- And it was true, I was changing, I felt myself doing so. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My hair was growing, my nails, my body... It didn't change a lot, but it did change a little. Maybe it grew all it had to grow in all the time I was lost in that dimension and in the digiworld; I really don't know what happened, all I know it's that my body changed. I suppose we noticed it 'cause it happened all of a sudden, but it wasn't that odd; I mean you all changed, you just did it with time and not in one moment. I swear, that was weird, but even so, I felt relieved. I had thought I would stay like an eleven-year-old boy forever. After that incident, my body has grown normal, like everyone else's does. I saw how dirty I was myself, and decided to take a shower. But first, I had to check if there was someone in the house. Slowly I got outside the room, and silently I checked the house. There was no one; everything seemed to be fine. When I was entering the kitchen I got shocked at what I discovered there. I found a calendar with the date: it had been almost a year from when we were transported back to the digital world for the second time to defeat the Dark Masters. Exactly eleven months, one week and five days, that is the exact time which took me to return to the real world. I couldn't believe it at first, especially when most of that time we spend it in that weird dimension of data. With out wasting more time, I decided to take a shower now that I was sure there was no one in the house. While I took a long and relaxing shower, cleaning myself from all the dirt and relaxing a little after so long, Agumon was making us some lunch. I quickened my pace when I remembered that at any second Kari could appear or maybe even my parents. I dressed myself and noticed my clothes barely fitted me. Then I ran to look for some clothes Agumon could wear, once I've found some old clothes that disguised him perfectly, he placed them on. We ate quickly and ran out of the apartment. Before running out, I grabbed a notebook in which Kari had all the addresses of all of you guys. I'd seen it before, so I knew which one was. All I had to do was see if it had everyone's address there, it did. Also, I looked for the money I'd been saving, it was still were I'd left it: hidden beneath the bottom bunk. I took it, just in case. Luckily, we didn't met with anyone familiar when we got out. We walked through the city, trying to use the less populated streets. I still didn't feel like meeting you guys, I wasn't ready. For now, all I wanted was to see you. To make myself sure you were all ok. First, I went to TK's house, thinking that probably Kari was there too. Before we arrived at his house, I saw TK and Kari walking, Kari seemed to be crying; that worried me. I followed them closely, just enough to see where they were and distant enough to avoid being seen. You entered a small café; we followed inside and sat behind you in another table. Then I heard it all: Kari was crying because of me. She missed me; she blamed herself about my death. I felt terrible; it broke my heart to see her and to hear her in that state of depression. I was about to turn and hugged her begging her to forgive me for not showing up earlier, when she said she was happy that she was finally getting over it, she had almost forgotten it all... but that she still felt bad when she saw anything related to me. After I heard that, I became sad, because I thought that it would be better if she never saw me again... ever. I know it was stupid, how could it be better? But in that moment it seemed to be the right thing. I heard silently the rest of the conversation, that way I found out about Mimi moving away to America with her parents. I found out that Mimi, Jyou, Izzy and Sora were fine and so were my parents, but I couldn't find anything about Matt. We walked out of the café just like we came in, silently and carefully. TK and Kari didn't even notice us. So, Agumon and I got in our way to check on Matt. I was very nervous, but even so, I couldn't wait to see you. After a while of walking, again in the less crowded streets, we reached Matt's apartment building. How in the world would we find anything with out being discovered? I wasn't ready to face you, to talk to you... what would I say? What would I do? Even when I wasn't ready to face, I do was for seeing you. I had to see you; I NEEDED to see you. We sat in the sidewalk across the street, staring at the huge building, thinking of any way possible we could get information about you Matt. I knew for sure, that Matt would be alone. His father was always working, he had said that once in the digiworld. The notebook had the floor and the number of your apartment, all we had to do was get in. That of course, was the hard part. Then, I got a weird yet possible idea. I told Agumon and he agreed. Matt's apartment was on the fifth floor. We went inside the building; we used the elevator and got to your floor. We looked for your apartment number and once there, it was time to get to work. I tore off one of the notebook sheets and, with the pen I took from Kari's drawer, wrote a loving note directed to: the carrier of friendship... of course, Matt. The important thing about the note was that I had drawn the best I could, the friendship emblem. I folded it neatly, instructed Agumon on what he had to do and gave it to him. It was, well, it seemed to be an easy plan; I wasn't really sure. Agumon hid in the upper part of the stairs, while I knocked hard on Matt's door. I stuck my ear to the door, and when I heard Matt coming, I quickly slipped the note from underneath the door. After slipping the note, I ran to the stairs and jumped onto it's landing spot, in the middle of the 4th and the 5th floor. I heard Matt open the door, asking if someone was there. -"Hurry up Matt! The digiworld awaits!"-I yelled. I heard Matt calling my name. -"Tai? Tai is that you? Tai!"- I started running down stairs, I heard Matt running behind me, still, I had a lot of advantage on him. I could hear him running downstairs trying to catch up on me. He never did, I ran out of the building and into some shop that was near by. He never found me. I trusted that he had done what we needed him to do. He did. I saw him pass the store, and I ran again into the building. I took the elevator to his floor. There was Agumon waiting for me, inside Matt's apartment. In his attempt to catch me, he had left the door wide open. I had never entered his apartment, so I looked for his room, along with Agumon. Once we found it, we started to look for something that could tell us how he was. I looked at every inch of it, trying to keep it in my memory in order to return here again someday using the portals. I heard Matt enter the apartment, saying something about hallucinating stuff. Agumon and I quickly jumped into the closet, praying that he didn't need anything inside it for a while. I left the door barely open, in order to see him, that way I would be able to check if he was ok. He took a while in entering, and I had become desperate when he finally came in. My mouth fell wide open, both in astonishment and in shock. He was so beautiful, even more than when we were together in the digiworld, I couldn't help but drool. But I wouldn't be able to do so, I was in shock. His eyes were red and puffy, he had been crying. He had a knife in his hand, even Agumon could tell what he was planning on doing. Agumon was about to say something, probably going to yell my name telling me to stop him, so I just placed my hand in his mouth. And signaled him to keep quiet. I hadn't planned that, so I didn't knew what did I had to do. I was trying to think quickly, I had to stop him; he couldn't kill himself. I needed him; only that I was too scared to admit it. I was about to jump out and discover myself to him when he said something out loud. -"I miss you Tai, and I can't live with out you. I can't live knowing that it was my fault that you died! That you died with out knowing that I love you too!"-He was about to cut his arm when I got an idea. I could stop him! It was risky, but I had to try, he had to stop his nonsense. -"I miss you too! It isn't your fault! And I know it, I love you too Matt..."-It was a faint whisper, but it worked. All I had to do was say it like a message from beyond. I tried to sound like that mysterious voice that had spoken to us in the data dimension. Matt dropped the knife looking confused and scared. He looked everywhere, and when he didn't see anything or anyone... he stopped looking. I thanked God that he didn't look into the closet. Just then, someone knocked the door. Matt went to answer it. I saw him pick the knife up and drop it into the kitchen's sink. I heard that the one in the door was Izzy. It was now or never, I jumped out of the closet followed by Agumon, I created a portal and headed back to the digiworld before Matt discovered us.
~*ENDFLASHBACK*~ -"After that, I had constantly checked on you guys. Every three months in the time of the digiworld I would come and check on you all. Sometimes I came alone, but most of them I came with Agumon. It killed me to see you sad, still I thought it was better that way than having to face you and explain everything. It would be less painful for everyone; that was what I used to think. I suppose I was wrong. I'm sorry for causing you guys so much pain."- Tai paused and lifted his face, he had started to look down, feeling guilty for the pain of his friends and family. He then looked at his family, then at his friends. They were all teary, he HAD suffered as much as them. Maybe more. Tai kept speaking -" I'm sorry mom, dad, Kari. I love you guys; TK, Jyou, Mimi, Izzy, you're like my family too. We passed so much together I wouldn't ever think on hurting you. Matt, I love you, I'm sorry for all you suffered because of me. It was never my intention to hurt you."- Tai apologized, he felt so bad, he had caused pain when trying to avoid it. He looked at Sora, straight to the eye. -"I'm sorry Sora, I for being such a coward I hurt you guys so much I don't deserve your forgiveness, still, I'm here begging for it. I'm sorry, I really am, I wished I could change what I did; but I can't. Can you forgive me?"- Tai begged her. Sora's face was still showing a disbelieving look, yet her eyes had watered a little. She was struggling in the inside, her heart begged to hug her recovered friend, but her pride was hurt... and it was yelling at her to yell hurtful things to the chocolate eyed boy. Trying to avoid any bad moments, all she did was shrug and ran out of the apartment. -"I don't know anymore!"- She yelled as she ran out. Tai made an attempt to go after her but Mimi stopped him. -"Leave her, she needs time alone to think."- Tai nodded, Mimi continued. -"I'm sorry Tai, you suffered a lot just to save us. It doesn't matter anything we passed. It's ok now, you're back, everything is fine."- She hugged him. The others nodded, they were remembering the things that Tai had described...
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*Principia Mathematica: Yeah, sorry I took so long, it's just that high school is kinda hard. I'm having trouble with algebra... two "F" and I think one more is coming... I'll try to take more time to work on the fics. Sorry again, I took some days past the TWO-WEEK limit. Thanks for taking time to review and to email me, lots of love!
*Neo-chan: I just looooooove your stories, I've kinda read like half of them... when I have time to do so of course. Brotherly love, what can I say? Love it. Just finished reading chapter 8th, I don't know really if I've left any reviews. It's just that sometimes I'm just so sucked in the stories that I forget about time. I usually get online (when I do) like at 10:00 p.m. and I end up like at 2 o 3 a.m. so I kinda daze off a lot. Hehehehe... OoU *Neko-chan: Sorry, here's the next part... enjoy it! *Death- Stopper *CCPhoenix This is three years after defeating Piedmon!
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For the one's who have troubles with the Japanese names here they are...
Taichi Yagami/Kamiya - Tai Kamiya Yamato Ishida - Matt Ishida Koushiro Izumi - Izzy Izumi Jyou Kido - Joe Kido Sora Takenouchi - = Takeru Takaishi - TK Takaishi Hikari Yagami/Kamiya - Kari Kamiya Mimi Tachikawa - =
Just in case Miyako?? - Yolei Daisuke Motomiya - Davis Iori ??- Cody
-"Really... this is more than what I expected. But it is now my turn to speak, it's time for me to tell you what happened, three years ago, when Piedmon killed me..."-
"Explaining you" By Baby-chan
~*FLASHBACK*~
"As everyone knows, Piedmon struck us with his powerful attack: Trump Sword. First it was WarGreymon who fell to his powers... then it was my turn. When WarGreymon fell, I lost all my hopes of winning the battle; I lost my faith on returning safely to the real world... I lost it all. I thought about you guys, about my parents; I couldn't let that monster win. I couldn't allow him to hurt you, you were my responsibility, and it was my duty to protect you. I had to do something. I tried to stop him, I knew of course; I couldn't do anything on my own. But at least I had to try, even if he had powers and I didn't. That was proven right away, when I gave in to his attack, well; I wasn't left much of a choice. I mean, I couldn't do anything. I tried; I really did... just not enough I guess. Anyway, when both swords sliced me, I felt an enormous amount of pain. I had never experienced something like that, and it's my true wish to never experience it again... ever. My whole body turned heavy, then numb. I had trouble with breathing; the air was slicing my lungs. Everything seemed to be lost. It was that moment, just then, when my hopes got up again, I heard my name being called by the one who could defeat the evil and save you all. I heard you calling me Matt. You hold me kindly in your arms, even though you seemed to hate me so much. I felt that no matter what happened to me, just being in your arms for some seconds meant the world to me. It was now or never. I couldn't die with out telling you. I loved you; you had to know... even if it was just to be turned down in my last breath... you would at least know about my feelings. I got brave when I felt you caress my hair and face, I started by apologizing about all our fights, then I told you. After I said it, I felt my entire body as light as a feather, the pain disappeared. I felt as if I didn't need to breathe anymore; all I wanted to do was sleep. Suddenly, I found myself awake, staring at what was going on with you guys. I couldn't hear anything; all I could do was stare. My wounds were gone; I was with out any trace of scratches, not even bloodstains were left. You could say I was intact. When I started to disappear, I got this strange feeling that this wasn't my end. I don't know why I got that feeling, it was just that it didn't felt like and end. Even though I have no idea how dying feels. At first, a blinding light came and I had to shield my burning eyes with my arm. When I opened them again I saw myself in strange dimension. It was some sort of data bank or something like that! I had never seen a place like that before. I saw Agumon at my side and I supposed that we were dead. I got happy to see that even in death we would at least be together. Agumon too, seemed to be wondering were could we be, for he had a confused face just like mine. I supposed that we had died in the battle, but I couldn't explain myself where we were at that moment. The strangest thing was that Agumon and I well; we were like floating or something like that! There was no solid floor beneath us. Just digits. We both were obviously freaked out, what had happened? Where were we? It was obvious that we had died, but were have we've been sent to? Was this heaven? No, it couldn't be. Was this hell? It didn't seemed like hell to me. It couldn't be hell either. It was so awful there, well at least for me... and I'm pretty sure that for Agumon it was too! We had no one else to talk with; we were floating in plain nothing. But then, I saw you guys appear where we were, and I thought you had died! I got scared thinking that you were dead too, maybe we had lost the battle. I didn't know what to think, but still, I could only think the worst. Agumon called you several times, but it seemed as you were ignoring us or couldn't hear us. Then I heard you say Matt:
"We can't end like this! We have to defeat him, we can't let Tai's sacrifice himself in vain!"-A younger Matt was yelling. I tried to tell you that we where there, but it was useless. Agumon yelled too, but it seemed that you couldn't hear us or see us. We somehow found a way to float to where you were and reach you, but when I tried to touch you... I just went right through you. You can't imagine how scary that felt! Goosebumps invaded me and I felt like screaming, yet no scream came. It seemed that you weren't exactly with us, I mean dead, as Agumon and I supposedly were. I didn't know why were you there in that dimension or whatever it was if you weren't dead, still I don't know why... but it really doesn't matter know. Does it? With my last hint of hope, you could say that sometime before I let my faith slip away into the abysm of resignation, I forced myself to believe that you hadn't lost the battle or your lives. That everything was ok, that you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. I hoped and wished with all my cells that I were able to at least encourage you. Agumon did the same. I can't really explain what happened. I wish I knew, because I know that I still wonder sometimes at night about it, but... I felt as I was in you, and you were in me."- Tai paused, the others were silent. He took air again and continued with his explanation. -"I don't really think you can understand what I'm saying... I felt, for a brief and mystic moment, that I was a part of you and you were a part of me. As soon as I felt that, I thought that now you would be able to hear me. It seems it worked! Because my tag and my emblem glowed as I whispered my cheers: "Don't give up, I'm counting on you to finish what we started..."- He paused, looking at their remembering faces -"I saw that you could hear me! I got happy, maybe we, I mean Agumon and I, could go back with you. But right after that... you disappeared! I was left alone with Agumon again. My last hope of returning to the real world or even to the digiworld disappeared with you guys, and so did Agumon's. We thought there was nothing left for us, we were really gone. After that, time passed, and again I felt desperate. I got desperate of having no one to speak to, nothing to talk about. Agumon was the same, maybe even worse. We stopped talking; no word would be spoken by any of us. We stopped trying to get out; we were again dying slowly... even if we were already dead. It seemed eternities, ages. I really have no idea how much time it passed... but it was a lot, hell of a lot. I couldn't know, neither could Agumon, how many days, weeks, months and even maybe years passed by. There were no sun or moon to see, there were no clocks: just white and some digits here and there. We were all alone, Agumon and I must have spoken at the much like six or seven sentences in all the time we spent there. We just didn't feel like speaking, we would just stay there floating. We couldn't sleep. I don't know why, we didn't feel tired or sleepy. Time seemed that even when it did pass, it forgot totally about us. We seemed to be ages in that sort of dimension, but we never seemed to grow. Not a bit, not even my hair or my nails grew. We stayed exactly the way we were when we died. I got depressed as time kept slipping; with out notice of how much had already passed by. Also, there was too much solitude, I missed being around other people. I needed to be around other people, I was becoming sick of where I was. Sick of being lonely, I missed you guys so bad it hurt. I missed my parents, my friends, my life, the digimons, our adventures, I missed my sister... and I missed you Matt. So, I reunited all that was left of my hope, and wished to be able to see you guys again, I missed you so much and Agumon did too. I wasn't asking to be revived, all I wanted was to see you. After all, we were already dead. Piedmon had killed us, that couldn't be changed... or so I thought. And again my tag and emblem glowed, but this time, the digivice glowed too. It didn't just glow, it flashed some sort of lightning towards Agumon and then, the digivice disappeared. But the tag and the emblem kept glowing with a light so bright, I had to shield my eyes or I would get blind. And then, I felt them penetrate my shirt and skin. As soon as I got that feeling, I clenched my teeth preparing myself for the pain, but amazingly, it never came. Everything was with out pain. I didn't feel anything, not even tickles. They became one with me, and I became one with them. It was then, when a faint voice was heard, it seemed to be calling us. Agumon and I looked in every direction possible, but we just kept seeing all white and some digits. Strangely, even when there was no one there, the voice came from every where, the voice echoed through all that mysterious and weird place.
"Brave Heart, Fire Warrior"- It said. Agumon and I supposed that it was talking to us, I mean, we were the only ones there. "Brave Heart, lift your hand in front of your chest and think of the digiworld or about the real world..."-Agumon and I looked at each other, which one of us was the so called "Brave Heart"? We kinda guessed that it was talking about me. I mean, I'm the one with the courage tag. Courage makes you courageous, courageous and brave are kinda like the same... aren't they? I did as I was told, remembering every detail of the place where we landed the day the sky swallowed us and we fell into the digiworld. And then, a big oval of blue energy appeared in front of us. What the hell was that? That was all I could think. The voice was heard again: "Enter the portal..."- I saw Agumon looking at me, expecting me to say something. I stayed silent; I had nothing to say. That's a portal? I couldn't believe that... although it did seem like one. But where would it take us? To the digiworld? I couldn't answer myself those questions. Even so, I made up my mind. "Do you think it's safe Tai?"- Agumon asked me, I didn't even answer Agumon's question, I just kept thinking that I'd rather be in where ever that portal took me, than stuck were I was. It would be better if I took my chances with the portal; maybe it would take me back, than staying there to die again of solitude. Again I did as I was told, and I felt as if I had been thrown to a pool, I felt myself splashing into something. It wasn't water that's for sure. Even so, it was a refreshing feeling. I had my eyes closed, suddenly; the splashing feeling disappeared, to be replaced with the feeling of air, sounds and mostly, solid ground. I wasn't sure if I should open my eyes or not. I didn't want to see where had I been sent to. I was scared, scared of what could I find when I opened my eyes. I pulled up my guts; after all, I was the digidestined of courage. I had to show the characteristics from which I had been chosen. I opened my eyes slowly, and I found myself at the digiworld, where we first arrived there. It seemed to be a few hours before sunset. I was speechless; I couldn't believe my eyes. I rubbed them hard, trying to wake myself up from some weird dream. I couldn't, I was already awaken. I was back! I really was! I had longed and wished for it so much I couldn't believe it. I fell to my knees; I squeezed the dirt in my hands, feeling it. I kissed the floor, thanking God for being so kind. I rubbed my head in the dirt, yelling thanks to the heavens. Thanks for all. Thanks for being back again. Agumon, who had followed me through the portal, screamed in excitement as he ran around feeling the floor under his paws. He too, couldn't believe we were back. He saw me kneeling, and approached, he placed his paw in my shoulder. -"We made it Tai, we're back."- I nodded smiling. Suddenly, I felt amazingly tired; my eyes started to close. I felt myself heavy; it became difficult to be kneeling, so I just dropped myself to the floor. It wasn't long before Agumon fell to my side, he too felt deadly tired. It became hard to be awake. Eventually, we both fell asleep cuddled one into the other. I swear I had never felt so tired before. I slept like a baby. I don't know how much I slept, but I need it so much. I suppose all that time with out sleeping made us all tired. When I woke up, I felt like a new person... it had been hell of a long time since the last time I slept. It was already past dawn, I had slept at least 12 hours. I noticed Agumon was missing. I was about to call him when my stomach announced me that he was alive again too. I felt like starving, thirst took over me. I found myself running to a nearby stream. The stream in which we fell the first time we were here. When that digibug chased us. I saw Agumon coming with food; he too seemed to have been at the verge of dying of hunger. We ate like pigs; not even chewing. We couldn't control ourselves we NEEDED to eat. After that, we rested some more. Still, we felt tired, even though we had slept a lot the day before. Some while later, we set off to explore. We wanted to see if the digiworld had changed after the battle. Mostly, I wanted to make myself sure, that we had won. I had still some fears that haunted my thoughts. Fears that we had lost and that you had died too. We evaded the digimon that knew us, trying to be as silent and wary as shadows. We traveled through a lot of places, until we had almost checked the entire digiworld. Of course, this took a lot of time. We must've been traveling like 4 or 5 months. Of course, this is almost nothing in human time. But still, I didn't age a day. I would stay just like I was when I had eleven years old. I got worried, but I suppose that it was because of the difference of time between the Digiworld and Earth itself. In all that time, I kept thinking about you guys all day. There was no moment that I wouldn't be thinking about you all. My parents, my sister, my friends... my love. I missed you Matt so much, even when all we had done before was just argue. That had become an important thing... and I couldn't help but miss it. After we were entirely sure, that there wasn't any dark master left, we stopped. We settled down, after we had done with our travelling. We built some sort of house in a small and well hidden grotto. We spent there like another two months. It was until one day, that we discovered that if I concentrated hard enough, we could travel to the real world or to the digiworld using the portals. Agumon on his side could digivolve whenever it was needed to do so, into WarGreymon or into whatever other of his digievolutions. Agumon tried to convince me to come to the real world, but I wasn't sure, I felt that I wouldn't find a warm welcome. Again, I was scared of facing the effects of time. The effects that my confession could've caused. Scared that you guys wouldn't accept me for not being what you would call normal. I mean, maybe you thought that homosexuals were wrong... I use to be like that, why shouldn't you think that way? I would not be able to live if my family or friends didn't accept me for who I was, for who I like. Most of all, I was scared to face you Matt. Being in love with someone, who seems to think about you like a rival, isn't something easy. When you said you didn't hate me, things seemed easy, and I blurted out my feelings. Besides, I was at the verge of dying; it didn't matter anything anymore. But now I was back, it DID matter now, and I wouldn't be able to live after being turned down by you. It may sound stupid, but it's true. You could tell me: Hey! "You're only fourteen, get over it, it's just a crush." But it wasn't just a crush, and I knew that so well, it made me want to cry just to think about not being what you wish or even deserve. How could it be just a crush? It's not like everyday you get sucked into another world with some kids and realize it's your job the save the world. Things like that change the way you are and the way you think. Nobody here present can truly say that he or she didn't learn anything or change in any way possible. We aren't like the kids our age, we don't think like them, not anymore... we have matured so much, no one would ever tell we truly are just kids. We faced so many things, risked our lives so many times, we aren't normal teens. We are digidestined, and we must face the consequences, no matter what are. So it wasn't just a crush, I knew that very well. We passed so much together; I felt as if I was bound to you Matt in so many ways, that it scared me. Our fights, our argues, seemed to me like if they were just tying us together, making the relation between you and me look impossible, yet perfect. Even so, I still felt scared of being turned down. Ironic isn't it? I'm supposed to be the digidestined of courage, I fought with monsters, faced death itself... yet, I'm scared of facing a fourteen year old boy. I felt so pathetic; still I wouldn't let Agumon convince me of coming to the real world. He decided to leave the point there, knowing I would accept when I felt ready to do so. We dedicated our time to built our home perfectly, this of course, with out other digimon noticing it. We took our time in that; I needed some time to decide. So, we got ourselves to work, Agumon would go and get stuff we needed, while I'll be watching over the place. It would be less suspicious if the digimons saw another digimon instead of a human, especially when supposedly the chosen children had already left the digital world. It wasn't long before I found myself sad about everything. And every night, when I thought Agumon was sleeping, I would go outside the small grotto and sit under the stars. And then, I would find unstoppable the rain that flowed from my eyes, I felt so alone. Alone with out you guys, I felt no one except you could stop the rain that was pouring inside me, in my heart, in my soul. One night, when my eyes were flooded with tears, I felt Agumon's paw in my shoulder. I looked down, he called me, and I couldn't hold it anymore. I sobbed in Agumon's shoulder; he hugged me, and listened to all that was drowning me from inside. The next day, I woke up in Agumon's lap, and I made a decision. I would go to the real world; it was time to see you. I needed to see you. We waited until midday, then it was time. I concentrated myself hard, thinking of my room. Remembering every detail possible, trying not to forget anything. We were going there, 'cause I needed to disguise Agumon, in order to make him able to walk along the people with out causing hysteria. The portal appeared, I was going to enter first... I was nervous. Even when we knew I could do it, I mean create a portal when I concentrated hard enough, we only entered once into one of them. It was when we were brought back to the digiworld. So we weren't exactly sure if it would work again, mostly, because we were now going to the real world. I pulled my guts again, and stepped forward the portal, my eyes closed. Again the splashing feeling came and, as soon as it came, it disappeared. I supposed I had arrived to the real world. Still I had my eyes closed, no sound was heard, it was total silence. Slowly and carefully, I opened my eyes, just to find myself in where I've wanted to be: in my room. Happiness invaded me; the joy of being back home was burning me. I wanted to scream in delight, yell at the world that I was back. Still, I remained silent just to be wary, maybe there was someone else in the apartment. I wasn't sure if I wanted to let anyone see me yet. Agumon popped out of the portal right after, he too got happy to see I was back home. I jumped to the bed and hugged the pillows, smelling the scent of my house, feeling its softness. I decided I would take some of my clothes and change myself into them. The ones I was wearing were all dirty and a little ripped. I was looking through the drawers, praying that my mother hadn't thrown my clothes out when Agumon screamed. -"Tai! Look at yourself! You're changing!"- And it was true, I was changing, I felt myself doing so. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My hair was growing, my nails, my body... It didn't change a lot, but it did change a little. Maybe it grew all it had to grow in all the time I was lost in that dimension and in the digiworld; I really don't know what happened, all I know it's that my body changed. I suppose we noticed it 'cause it happened all of a sudden, but it wasn't that odd; I mean you all changed, you just did it with time and not in one moment. I swear, that was weird, but even so, I felt relieved. I had thought I would stay like an eleven-year-old boy forever. After that incident, my body has grown normal, like everyone else's does. I saw how dirty I was myself, and decided to take a shower. But first, I had to check if there was someone in the house. Slowly I got outside the room, and silently I checked the house. There was no one; everything seemed to be fine. When I was entering the kitchen I got shocked at what I discovered there. I found a calendar with the date: it had been almost a year from when we were transported back to the digital world for the second time to defeat the Dark Masters. Exactly eleven months, one week and five days, that is the exact time which took me to return to the real world. I couldn't believe it at first, especially when most of that time we spend it in that weird dimension of data. With out wasting more time, I decided to take a shower now that I was sure there was no one in the house. While I took a long and relaxing shower, cleaning myself from all the dirt and relaxing a little after so long, Agumon was making us some lunch. I quickened my pace when I remembered that at any second Kari could appear or maybe even my parents. I dressed myself and noticed my clothes barely fitted me. Then I ran to look for some clothes Agumon could wear, once I've found some old clothes that disguised him perfectly, he placed them on. We ate quickly and ran out of the apartment. Before running out, I grabbed a notebook in which Kari had all the addresses of all of you guys. I'd seen it before, so I knew which one was. All I had to do was see if it had everyone's address there, it did. Also, I looked for the money I'd been saving, it was still were I'd left it: hidden beneath the bottom bunk. I took it, just in case. Luckily, we didn't met with anyone familiar when we got out. We walked through the city, trying to use the less populated streets. I still didn't feel like meeting you guys, I wasn't ready. For now, all I wanted was to see you. To make myself sure you were all ok. First, I went to TK's house, thinking that probably Kari was there too. Before we arrived at his house, I saw TK and Kari walking, Kari seemed to be crying; that worried me. I followed them closely, just enough to see where they were and distant enough to avoid being seen. You entered a small café; we followed inside and sat behind you in another table. Then I heard it all: Kari was crying because of me. She missed me; she blamed herself about my death. I felt terrible; it broke my heart to see her and to hear her in that state of depression. I was about to turn and hugged her begging her to forgive me for not showing up earlier, when she said she was happy that she was finally getting over it, she had almost forgotten it all... but that she still felt bad when she saw anything related to me. After I heard that, I became sad, because I thought that it would be better if she never saw me again... ever. I know it was stupid, how could it be better? But in that moment it seemed to be the right thing. I heard silently the rest of the conversation, that way I found out about Mimi moving away to America with her parents. I found out that Mimi, Jyou, Izzy and Sora were fine and so were my parents, but I couldn't find anything about Matt. We walked out of the café just like we came in, silently and carefully. TK and Kari didn't even notice us. So, Agumon and I got in our way to check on Matt. I was very nervous, but even so, I couldn't wait to see you. After a while of walking, again in the less crowded streets, we reached Matt's apartment building. How in the world would we find anything with out being discovered? I wasn't ready to face you, to talk to you... what would I say? What would I do? Even when I wasn't ready to face, I do was for seeing you. I had to see you; I NEEDED to see you. We sat in the sidewalk across the street, staring at the huge building, thinking of any way possible we could get information about you Matt. I knew for sure, that Matt would be alone. His father was always working, he had said that once in the digiworld. The notebook had the floor and the number of your apartment, all we had to do was get in. That of course, was the hard part. Then, I got a weird yet possible idea. I told Agumon and he agreed. Matt's apartment was on the fifth floor. We went inside the building; we used the elevator and got to your floor. We looked for your apartment number and once there, it was time to get to work. I tore off one of the notebook sheets and, with the pen I took from Kari's drawer, wrote a loving note directed to: the carrier of friendship... of course, Matt. The important thing about the note was that I had drawn the best I could, the friendship emblem. I folded it neatly, instructed Agumon on what he had to do and gave it to him. It was, well, it seemed to be an easy plan; I wasn't really sure. Agumon hid in the upper part of the stairs, while I knocked hard on Matt's door. I stuck my ear to the door, and when I heard Matt coming, I quickly slipped the note from underneath the door. After slipping the note, I ran to the stairs and jumped onto it's landing spot, in the middle of the 4th and the 5th floor. I heard Matt open the door, asking if someone was there. -"Hurry up Matt! The digiworld awaits!"-I yelled. I heard Matt calling my name. -"Tai? Tai is that you? Tai!"- I started running down stairs, I heard Matt running behind me, still, I had a lot of advantage on him. I could hear him running downstairs trying to catch up on me. He never did, I ran out of the building and into some shop that was near by. He never found me. I trusted that he had done what we needed him to do. He did. I saw him pass the store, and I ran again into the building. I took the elevator to his floor. There was Agumon waiting for me, inside Matt's apartment. In his attempt to catch me, he had left the door wide open. I had never entered his apartment, so I looked for his room, along with Agumon. Once we found it, we started to look for something that could tell us how he was. I looked at every inch of it, trying to keep it in my memory in order to return here again someday using the portals. I heard Matt enter the apartment, saying something about hallucinating stuff. Agumon and I quickly jumped into the closet, praying that he didn't need anything inside it for a while. I left the door barely open, in order to see him, that way I would be able to check if he was ok. He took a while in entering, and I had become desperate when he finally came in. My mouth fell wide open, both in astonishment and in shock. He was so beautiful, even more than when we were together in the digiworld, I couldn't help but drool. But I wouldn't be able to do so, I was in shock. His eyes were red and puffy, he had been crying. He had a knife in his hand, even Agumon could tell what he was planning on doing. Agumon was about to say something, probably going to yell my name telling me to stop him, so I just placed my hand in his mouth. And signaled him to keep quiet. I hadn't planned that, so I didn't knew what did I had to do. I was trying to think quickly, I had to stop him; he couldn't kill himself. I needed him; only that I was too scared to admit it. I was about to jump out and discover myself to him when he said something out loud. -"I miss you Tai, and I can't live with out you. I can't live knowing that it was my fault that you died! That you died with out knowing that I love you too!"-He was about to cut his arm when I got an idea. I could stop him! It was risky, but I had to try, he had to stop his nonsense. -"I miss you too! It isn't your fault! And I know it, I love you too Matt..."-It was a faint whisper, but it worked. All I had to do was say it like a message from beyond. I tried to sound like that mysterious voice that had spoken to us in the data dimension. Matt dropped the knife looking confused and scared. He looked everywhere, and when he didn't see anything or anyone... he stopped looking. I thanked God that he didn't look into the closet. Just then, someone knocked the door. Matt went to answer it. I saw him pick the knife up and drop it into the kitchen's sink. I heard that the one in the door was Izzy. It was now or never, I jumped out of the closet followed by Agumon, I created a portal and headed back to the digiworld before Matt discovered us.
~*ENDFLASHBACK*~ -"After that, I had constantly checked on you guys. Every three months in the time of the digiworld I would come and check on you all. Sometimes I came alone, but most of them I came with Agumon. It killed me to see you sad, still I thought it was better that way than having to face you and explain everything. It would be less painful for everyone; that was what I used to think. I suppose I was wrong. I'm sorry for causing you guys so much pain."- Tai paused and lifted his face, he had started to look down, feeling guilty for the pain of his friends and family. He then looked at his family, then at his friends. They were all teary, he HAD suffered as much as them. Maybe more. Tai kept speaking -" I'm sorry mom, dad, Kari. I love you guys; TK, Jyou, Mimi, Izzy, you're like my family too. We passed so much together I wouldn't ever think on hurting you. Matt, I love you, I'm sorry for all you suffered because of me. It was never my intention to hurt you."- Tai apologized, he felt so bad, he had caused pain when trying to avoid it. He looked at Sora, straight to the eye. -"I'm sorry Sora, I for being such a coward I hurt you guys so much I don't deserve your forgiveness, still, I'm here begging for it. I'm sorry, I really am, I wished I could change what I did; but I can't. Can you forgive me?"- Tai begged her. Sora's face was still showing a disbelieving look, yet her eyes had watered a little. She was struggling in the inside, her heart begged to hug her recovered friend, but her pride was hurt... and it was yelling at her to yell hurtful things to the chocolate eyed boy. Trying to avoid any bad moments, all she did was shrug and ran out of the apartment. -"I don't know anymore!"- She yelled as she ran out. Tai made an attempt to go after her but Mimi stopped him. -"Leave her, she needs time alone to think."- Tai nodded, Mimi continued. -"I'm sorry Tai, you suffered a lot just to save us. It doesn't matter anything we passed. It's ok now, you're back, everything is fine."- She hugged him. The others nodded, they were remembering the things that Tai had described...
*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/ There, done! Was it good? Leave your comments! Sorry for the long delay... coming next: "Remembering you", the dds remember in their own P.O.V. Love and kisses! In case I take a lot to update, Merry Christmas! Happy New Year! Enjoy your holidays, love.. Baby-chan ^o^