The storm died away taking all the magic that had wrapped around us before with it. Dimitri suggested we get dressed on the off chance we'd get caught in such a 'compromising' position. I resisted at first snuggling closer.
"I'd love to stay here, and lounge with you all day but unfortunately, we have to go." He persuaded me with long heavy kisses. I'd always assumed that after sleeping with someone, an awkward silence would wrap around us, layers of uncomfortable on top. Instead it felt good to be wrong for once.
We dressed, made the bed back to the way it was when we first got here, and stood side by side in front of the window. The clods were sill thick hanging overhead but the weather was well enough to return back to or dorms.
"I don't want this to end," I admitted biting my lip. I heard Dimitri sigh n agreement. He wrapped his arms tight around me, prolonging the moment until we'd have to leave. He spoke into my ear, in a soft sweet whisper.
"Neither do I. It doesn't seem fair does it, Roza?'
"No. Were finally together…in a literal sense, and I'm happy and thrilled but…"
"It feels like it's ending to soon," he filled in. I loved the way he could read me, or own invisible bond bringing and holding us together. I nodded. He hugged me closer and kissed my cheek. "Don't worry. The school year is about to end and then we can be together every second we have without sneaking around."
"Your right. A few judgments might be passed, insults thrown or way, and possibly cause a new student teacher la to be passed in or government but what the hell. You're worth it," I said turning around to face him. I clasped my hand behind his back and lifted my face up to him. He was smiling the sunrays lighting he streak of his hair.
Such an angel, I thought before kissing him. It filled me with warmth and almost a giddy feeling.
I'm starting to love my life.
We walked out of the cabin, my arm locked in his, smiling and joking around. For the few minutes it took to get out of this part of the forest, I forgot about the moment to come hen we'd have to separate for who knows how long. We finally reached the outside of the forest, my smiling weakening with each agonizing step, only a life with Dimitri to look forward to.
"We're going to have to separate eventually," he said staring at the concrete path a few feet away. With those words, contradicting, he gripped my hands tighter pulling me toward him. "One more kiss."
The weeks were hard, me feeling even more alone than before now that I had something I couldn't enjoy every second. Liss was worried at first questioning my distant behavior, voicing them out loud and in her mind but passed it off as morning for Mason. In her head, she fixed it so she thought I needed to deal with this alone and ditched me for Christian. Normally I'd be peeved about that and in a way I was but I grew into a safe, comfortable routine where my longing for Dimitri was pushed aside.
I went to my classes in a daze, somehow paying attention without actually being there, ate breakfast, lunch and dinner in my dorm room and hung out with Eddie when my own solitude was too much for me and when thoughts (and fantasies) of Dimitri creeped into my head.
It was safe.
Until Tasha came back.