Chapter Ten; Jealousy? No. Couldn't be.
EDWARD POV;
What more was there to say? The conversation was as good as dead. Everything I had said to Jessica was more awkward every moment. I guess she would forever be sore about the whole rejection thing. But at least she got the massage. I had heard her mind, while walking away from her. That she was ready to move on. Get off this strange, and powerful obsession with me. And I should have felt relief. I did feel relief. But there was something else. Something, I had never felt before in this life. I could remember- faintly- feeling it as a child. When my friend had gotten something I wanted more than the world. Jealousy was such a foul played emotion. But I wasn't jealous. I knew one day once Jessica was ready her mind would sink right back where it was. Going for the overly popular, baby faced Mike Newton. Just he way it should be, right? Yes. Alice, would be thrilled to know her plan didn't need to work. Hell, maybe we could cancel this whole party instead. Save me a night of sitting on the roof listening to teenagers running around my home. Also save the mess we would be left to clean.
During the night, while Jessica was asleep; I had done wandering round for hours. Listening to her breathing. Speaking with Alice and whatnot. I also, took it upon myself to speak with Carlisle and Esme. It seemed they too liked the idea of the party. Somehow thinking it would help up fit in- since we never really made friends in our previous locations. In fact, they had even stated that they would leave the party up to us. Go to Isle Esme for the weekend. Esme and Carlisle had too much trust in us. But why wouldn't they? We were after all 'grown up.' And the simple fact that we were worthy of trust. But it wasn't us I was worried about. No, it was the humans. Who knew what those lot would get up too and not have prenatal supervision. I had a feeling Alice would have that planned out anyway.
Two lesson's shot by before I had noticed. Lunch called ahead, and I rushed to the door. Greeted by none other than Alice and Jasper. The previous conversation in the car with me and Alice had shown interest in Jasper. Since he, didn't know if he too would be able to resist the urge around so many humans. He had learned the shear amount of people Alice and Jessica were planning on inviting; and grew rather worried. So I took it up on myself to mention either going away for the night with me, or feeding well the night before. I had a small feeling; Jasper was thinking on doing both. My eyes locked with Alice's instantly, then to Jasper. He gave a small, polite smile. Since it was rare for either of them to actually meet me outside a class unless it was the few me and Alice were in together. Then, of course Jasper would be waiting outside. We set on, no words needed. I knew what she was thinking- without having to use my gift. Jasper, was in his own little world. Thinking the possibilities of Alice being upset with him if he did leave for the weekend. He shouldn't worry too much. I knew how to handle Alice. Or, should I say- Alice knew how to handle me. I smirked at my own thoughts, and opened the door of the cafeteria. Jasper went in ahead. Alice lingered with me. "We should sit with her." Alice whispered, too low for any passing human to hear once we were walking towards our table. I looked down to my 'little' sister, and frowned.
"We have only just gotten her off our backs, Alice." I warned.
"Yes, but isn't it a little rude if we had her stay the night, then completely ignore her the day after? I don't know about you, but I won't be known for being ignorant. And I speak for everyone." Alice stated, giving a scowl before setting on and leaving me. I gritted my teeth, and set on to the table. About to tell the rest of the 'clan' the news of Alice's doing.
Reaching the table, I didn't bother sitting. For I knew we would be the ones that would have to move.
"Alice is making us sit with Jessica and her.. friends." I muttered, picking up the bottle of water that Rosalie seemed to leave at my seat every day. Strange, but it was her way of showing she cared for me. Rosalie and I had never came to bond like Alice and I had. The only person Rosalie bonded with was.. well everyone apart from me. Rosalie, disliked me. I knew that much. Though I knew she cared; and it was little things like leaving me water for a prop to fool the humans. I knew she would always have some small ill-feelings towards me. And I couldn't do anything the change that.
"No." Rosalie said bluntly, taking Emmett's arm and dragging him back down into the seat; since he went to stand and follow me. "We will be sitting here, like always."
"Alice will only come back here and make you move." I said bluntly, twisting the bottle within my hand.
"Alice will not make me do anything. You forget, I am not a push over like you, Eddie" She spoke the nickname I despised most of all. My teeth gritted tightly, while my hand clenched onto the bottle.
'Temper, dude. I'll handle her. Take Jaz' and save us a seat.' Emmett's inner voice called to me. Setting my nerves to ease. I glanced to him, and gave a blink for a thanks. Then, looking back to Rosalie, I shook my head. "Your funeral." I used that to hurt her. We all knew how much Rosalie wished for death. For us all. Said it was the only thing that would purify our soulless bodies. Jasper was out his seat and already walking ahead. Towards Alice with Jessica- who were making there way back from the salad bar. Lauren grumbling right behind them.
'Stupid, perfect, stylish cow. Stealing MY best friend. Stealing MY attention. God, who does she thinks she is? Tyra fucking Banks?'
One would have to admit, Lauren Mallory's mind wasn't one to be pure. Alot of coarse language tussled in her human head. I chose to ignore it. But it was there and then that I had a sudden wave of dislike towards that girl. All the more reason to break it from Jessica, when the time came.
Alice, Jessica and Jasper stopped once Jasper had reached them. Alice giving him a grin, and a small 'hello.' But Jessica's eyes were on me. I tried my best not to look into her beautiful Bambi orbs. But with every step I took, I felt the want to look grow. I stopped once my shoulder was brushing against Jasper's. "Jessica and I were just talking! This party, is going to be the best of the year, apparently." Alice grinned, giving me a wink and moving along.
"Totally. I mean, who doesn't love a party? Especially if it's got ALL the top music, the best food, a big garden for the drunks to roam around in-"
"Wait.. what?" I butted in, following after then. At the table, Mike was eyeing us up closely. Mainly me. I guess it was apparent that Jessica had a 'crush' on me? Alice took a seat beside her newly found friend. Jasper right beside her. I rested beside him. Between him and Mike. Looking right to Alice, and Jessica. Lauren had taken it upon herself to rest next to Jessica. Still cursing within her mind about Alice.
"Who doesn't love a good party?" Alice frowned, passing a can of coke to Jasper.
"After that." I frowned, keeping my eyes on her.
"Good music, best food, I'm sure Jessica said.." Alice glanced to Jessica, who had taken a bite out of her sandwich. She nodded anyway. Alice looked back to me, and tilted her head. Confused. Seriously?
"No. The drunks." I stated.
"Oh. Yeah. We have to get drink. It's cool." Alice noted.
Oh, so feeding hormonal teenagers drink was 'cool'? I'd just love to see what 'super cool' was. Having sex in a park fool of children?
"You know.. mom and dad won't like that idea." I frowned. That, was the truth. Esme and Carlisle would seriously dislike that! Hell, just think of the trouble that would cause! If someone was found staggering home drunk, and Chief Swan found out. All hell would break lose for Carlisle. He had done too much for the world to be put in that situation.
"Come on, Edward. I'm sure a few drinks won't hurt. What's a party without drink? Pre-school?" Alice stated, taking defence.
Mike chuckled, and nodded his head. Deciding now was the time to get his word in.
"Dude, you got to stop worrying. I've been to a million party's and got drunk and I've never been caught." I looked to Mike, and searched his mind. Seemed the baby-faced boy was a lair.
"Oh come on, Mike. You've been to five. And you only got drunk at one of them. And you were so bad, you fell asleep in my bathtub!" Lauren laughed, sipping her lemonade. That seemed to set the group into a fit of laughter. While Mike blushed. And I had to admit, even I chuckled. "But still.. shouldn't we ask all our parents for permission?" I asked, looking around the group.
"Dude, it's the 21st century. Live in the moment. Life's about risks." Tyler, the boy Lauren had also taken a liking too perked up, punching the sullen Mike in the arm.
"I don't know.."
"What I miss?" I looked up to the sound of Emmett, Rosalie scowling right behind him. His hand intertwined with hers. "What don't you know?" He added. Tyler, Lauren and Angela scooted along. Giving Rosalie and Emmet a place to sit beside one another. Mike seemed to like the idea he was beside Rosalie. Tyler, was practically crapping himself because Emmett was hurdled beside him. I looked to Jasper, who was fighting off a smile. Apparently, he was also feeling scared.
"Alice, has taken it upon herself to get the idea we need alcohol for the party." I muttered, looking to Alice for a split second while speaking towards Emmett. I was waiting for him to back me up. After all, it was his birthday. Not his 17th like everyone thought I would be. But actually, it was his 97th. What would a 97 year old want drunk teens running around him for?
"That's a awesome idea!" I forgot one thing. The 97 year old was Emmett. I frowned at him, and then heard Rosalie mutter within her mind. This isn't going to end well. Oh, she had that right.
"It isn't as bad as you think. We're not all going to get so bad we can hardly walk." Alice commented, twirling a fork around.
I watched her, and shook my head. Looking to the bottle of water sitting in front of me. Enough talk for me. It looked as if my opinion wasn't classed at all in this feud. No matter what, I knew Alice. She'd get it with, or without my agreement. I sighed to myself. Let the games begin.
"So, we should totally go out shopping tomorrow. We have to get outfits." Jessica spoke then, making me look up. She was speaking to both Lauren and Alice. Alice's eyes lit up at the word shopping. As did Lauren's. See, they weren't that different. Apparent from the fact Alice could rip Lauren's throat out with no hassle.
"Yeah! We all got to colour clash. Like.. Mike and Jess will have to match, since there together-" My hearing cut off. Did I hear right? Mike and Jessica? Going together? I frowned. Wasn't it a bit fast for her to move on? Hell, she had only decided a few hours ago! No, stop it. You don't care, remember. This is what you wanted.
But if I wanted this, then why the hell was I feeling like crap? Feeling like I could rip Mikes throat out. Just there. It was right in front of me. Hell, I could do it so quickly, no one would know it happened!
I felt a kick on my leg. I looked up, to see Jasper frowning at me. Obviously he felt my anger, irritation and jealousy. No, I can't call it jealousy. I wouldn't. But I knew with Jasper picking it up, then it was obvious that it would bring up questions. Grin, and lie. That was the trick.
"Edward?" I blinked out of my state, and saw everyone looking to me. Shit, what did they ask? I scrolled threw Alice's mind, finding the question she had asked. If I was in for the shopping trip. I knew why. Alice would want me to drive the teens. Great.
I looked to Emmett, who shook his head. Then to Jasper. He too scoffed and shook his head. I was on my own. "Do I have too?"
"Come on. It'll be fun. Like, serious fun." Jessica watched me. Catching my attention. Flashing me one of her smiles. My stomach turned into knots. "Okay.." I whispered. Damn it!
RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING
"Crap. I have History next. Erm, who's in my class?" Jessica looked round the faces. "I'm sure Mr. Yates is doing a double class. Fitting ours together." Alice shrugged. I glanced to her, and then back to Jessica. Fitting the puzzle together. Alice, would be in her class.
"Epic! I'll save you a seat next to me." Jessica smiled, standing up along with Angela and Lauren. Emmett and Rosalie had already gotten up and were walking off. Emmett still going on about how 'sweet' this party was going too be. Mike, Tyler and Eric were off next. Leaving me sitting with Jasper. Alice had stood, and nodded towards Jessica. "I'll walk with you." Alice lent down, kissed Jasper quickly, and then set off. Walking with her new friends. Great.
"Are you ditching?" I asked, after clearing my throat.
"What was that?" Jasper ignored my question, and store at me.
"Excuse me?" It was probably stupid of me to play dumb, but I had too. I knew exactly what Jasper was talking about. But I didn't want to face it.
"The Jealousy? Isn't this what you want?" Jasper asked, a serious frown coming over his face. I sighed. Trying to think up a answer. Glancing to the table, and keeping my gaze from him. What could I say? That I had grown to actually like hearing Jessica's heart. Or liked seeing her smile. Or falling into her rich eyes? No. I couldn't say that. That would only cause problems.
"Can I answer that at a latter date?" I asked, looking up to Jasper. He gave a sympathetic look, and nodded. "Better get to class." I smiled, and stood from my seat. Jasper and I departed ways, and I took a seat in what was-so-called-art class.
Day day carried on like normal. I sat, listened to others heads. Sometimes I would come across the image of Jessica within someones head. Laughing. Then I found Mikes head, in the class opposite mine. Going on to his friend about some football match. Not once even thinking about her. How was that even possible? Mike should of classed himself lucky to be getting to go to this crappy party Alice was throwing in order to get her off my back. I knew I didn't deserve Jessica, but nor did Mike. Her smile could like up anyones day. Her laugh, was like music. Her eyes. Well, they could down right break your heart. Alice had waisted most of our time by standing and talking to Jessica, Lauren and Angela. Lauren, had seemed to sweeten up to Alice. Sure, the harsh language was still in her thoughts, but it had cut down a tad. Alice had that effect on people. Emmett, had taken Rosalie off home. Due to her complaining that she didn't want to wait any longer. Jasper, had hitched a ride with them. Leaving me, leaning against my volvo- or my baby as I called it- alone. Going over plans. First, it would be complete makeover clothes session. Going to all the major clothes stores and trying on everything. Then, accessories. Grabbing whatever shiny, dingily and sharp objects they could get there hands on. Then, a small break. A hour or so for lunch, a long chat and giggles, then back to makeup. Taking us right up to the time we left for home. And I, being the idiot that agreed to go with them, would have to endure it all. Woh-is-me.
"Bye!" Alice grinned, waving off Jessica and skipping to me.
"Finished?" I asked, arching a brow. Opening the car door, I slipped inside and slammed the door shut.
Alice was two seconds behind me. Once her door shut, she turned and looked to me. A gleaming look within her eyes. "Yeah! I think I'm actually going to like it here. Jessica is really nice. We're planning on going to see a movie next weekend." Alice stated, leaning back in her seat. I set on down the road.
"Is that before or after Esme and Carlisle ground you?" I taunted. Seemed the whole drinking thing hadn't settled down yet.
"Oh, give it a rest. It won't be too much. Look, if anything gets out of hand. And you find a couple having sex in your room, then I'll simply tell everyone to leave. And anyway, we won't be drinking. And I've saw that Jessica isn't either. Actually.. she told me she doesn't plan too." Alice promised. I smirked, and shook my head. As much as that thought amused me, I didn't think it would work.
"Mmhmm." I answered, and turned into the forest, heading up the road to our home. Alice, for once didn't speak the rest of the way. She just simply got out, and ran right to Jasper. I, doodled behind. Once inside, I fell back onto the sofa, beside Emmett- who was watching the game, as always- and closed my eyes.
At least my mind was put at ease. I had no idea why I was feeling relief that Jessica was in fact being smart, and planning on being sober, but I did. One less head I would have to worry about. I sat there, for the entire night. Emmett left the room at around one- two in the morning. While I stayed put. The sofa, still smelt of her. I didn't want to accept what I was feeling. Whether it was jealousy, relief or just plain.. irritation. But with her scent all around me; all my problems seemed to vanish. Lord. What had this girl done to me..
Then the sound of Rosalie's hard breathing came over the house. And I knew instantly this wasn't going to work out. I, was trying to relax. In the many times I had tried before; this stunt, was probably Rosalie's way of getting back at me. So, I did what any normal guy would do. Instead of sitting and listening to your 'siblings' try and reproduce, I left. Leaving the my volvo behind, and rushing off into the tree's. No designated place in mind. I didn't want Alice to know my where abouts. That is, if she was even concentrating on where I was going. But then it hit me. I knew where I was going. It didn't even have to be decided. My feet already knew where I wanted to be. And as much as I wanted to deny it, who was I kidding? I was going to her.
A/N;;
So, my friends, who gets the feeling Eddie likes Jessica after all? Well, only time will tell. :3 Review, and tell me what cha' think?