Jacob's POV

I watched Bella lead Nessie by the hand out of the cafeteria. I looked around but everyone seemed just as confused as I was; except for Edward. I gave him a questioning look but he ignored it and headed for the lunch line. I followed closely behind him, intending to question him as soon as we sat down.

Which I did. "Edward what-" But he cut me off.

"You I can hear you asking these questions before you actually ask, so please don't repeat them to me." He said sitting down with a sigh.

I sat across from him. "Then tell me what's wrong with Nessie." I said not even glancing at the food on my tray. I wasn't very hungry.

"I don't know. All Bella told me was that she and Renesmee were going home early and that she would come pick us up after school since we all can't fit into Rose's car."

That didn't help me much. All I could think was that I had done something to upset her. She had been worried about me this morning, and in Lit. she had also asked if I was 'okay'.

Maybe I had said something then. I couldn't be quite sure, I hadn't really paid attention. I don't know what had come over me, I just remember watching Nessie talk with Garret and all of a sudden I had felt this sadness come over me. That was probably made Nessie worry about me, it was written on my face. Sighing I played with the food on my tray, not even bothering to try and eat any of it. I sat in silence for the rest of lunch, not really listen to what anyone else was saying.

I hope she is okay; was all that kept running through my mind as I sat playing with the food on my plate. After about thirty minutes though it I couldn't stand just sitting there, so getting up I dumped my tray in a trash can and left the cafeteria. I absentmindedly walked through the hallway, not really paying any attention to where I was going; it didn't matter, I had half an hour to kill. I walked out of the door leading to the gym, and noticed for the first time that the paved path lead in two different directions. Not really finding any reason not to, I started off in the paved walkway leading away from the gym. I followed it, my steps leaving foot prints in the snow. Confusion held my mind from thinking of anything but wondering what Nessie was doing right now. After walking a little a structure rose above me, and I looked around me. It was a football field surrounded by stacks and stacks of bleachers. I walked into the stadium and climbed up the bleachers 'till I was to the top and sat down on the wall of the stadium letting my feet dangle, faced away from the field. I was up probably 80 feet and got a really good view. I looked out at the mountains towering in the distance, covered completely in white. It really was beautiful. Nessie would really like it.

Renesmee. What was going on between us? The never answered question popped into my mind again. Something was changing; and I think she knows it too. Looking over the white in front of me a memory came to my mind and I smiled.

"Nessie!" I yelled running through the house and down the hall where her room was. She was fast asleep; and normally I wouldn't dream of waking her up, but this was just too good to pass up! "Nessie! Wake up." I said softy, gently shaking her body.

Groaning Nessie turned over and looked up at me through half opened eyes. "Jake this had better be good or I'm going to bite your head off." She growled.

I chuckled and leaned down closer to her. "Trust me you're going to want to go outside right about now." I said trying to stop myself from just throw her over my shoulder and carry her outside to see it!

"What? Why would I want to do that?" She asked and looked over at the clock on her nightstand. "Jake it's four in the morning on a Saturday! Why can't it wait 'til tomorrow?" She complained pulled the covers up over her head.

Shrugging I stood up. "Ok what ever, just thought you might want to see the snow piling up outside." Nessie shot out of the covers. "But I can see you're just too tired-" I didn't get to finish because Nessie squealed and ran to the window.

"Holy crow!" She jumped up in down in front of her window and clapped her hands. "Oh my gosh! Come on!" She grabbed my hand and pulled me out of her room and all the way out of the house. She stopped dead just outside the door.

I looked down at her. "What's wrong?"

Nessie shook her head, an look of awe on her face. "It's beautiful." She whispered, I could see her breath rise up a little before evaporating.

I watched as she made her first step off the front porch and into the snow barefoot. "It's cold." She said surprised. "I can't believe it!" She spun around in slow circles taking in everything around her. I watch as she turned around and around as snow fell all in little flurries all about her. She looked like a angel.

That had been her first time seeing snow. She had been so infatuated with it she had stayed up the rest of the night sitting in my lap in the middle of the yard, watching the snow fall. And I had to admit that it was a pretty amazing night for me also.

And now we were living in a freakin winter wonderland! I knew Nessie really loved it. She hated summer just because it wouldn't snow and begged us every break to go somewhere it would snow. I wonder if she would finally get sick of it after living in it for the next three to four years? Some how I doubted it.

There was something about her in the snow. She looked different, more at home than anywhere else in the world. She looked so angelic with white all around her her brown curls falling around her shoulders and down her back, her bronze eyes glowing, it was breathtaking.

Sighing I rubbed my face with my hands. It was settled. I really need to talk to Jasper.

I sat there for the next twenty minutes or so, before I thought about heading back inside. Lunch was going to be over soon and I needed to go by my locker before Mrs. Nickles' class.

With no enthusiasm I got to my feet and took one more look around. No a soul in sight, just snow. I turned to head down the stairs when a thought came to me. I felt my eyebrows rise; right before I grinned.

Turning back away from the field I looked down the backside of the stadium, there wasn't anything that would brake. Chuckling I took one more look around, no one; before I stepped off the side of the wall.

Wind rushed past my face, pulling my shirt upwards and throwing my hair everywhere. I laughed; this was awesome! I fell relishing in the cool air flying at me, the earth rushing closer and closer to me. Right before landing I bent my knees for the impact. I landed with a thud; making feet prints 6 inches deep in the ground.

"Oops." I muttered. I hadn't really thought about that. Looking around I quickly stomped on the ground evening it out; making it look just like an uneven patch of dirt, then covered it with snow.

Still feeling hyper from the fall I jogged back to the school building, and to my locker. But by the time I got to Mrs. Nickles' class room I couldn't continue to grin. Miley Crick was in this class. And worse than that she was my lab partner.

Sighing I took my seat in the second row of work tables; there was a empty chair next to me. At least for now. Most of the room was empty; only two others were here yet. I must have been earlier than I thought. A couple minutes later I really wished I had stayed out in the bleachers longer. A tall girl with flaming red hair wearing a shirt I felt embarrassed just by seeing came in and sat down next to me.

"Hello Jacob!" She said in a high voice, leaning over to show off her chest.

Feeling like I was about to throw up I managed a. "Hey."

Miley smiled widely. "Has your day been as boring as mine? I've been so bored I fell asleep in my history class! I mean you think after teach for over ten years you could learn how to lighten up the topic! But no he just drones on and on. You know I-"

I didn't even bother listening any father than that. When I had first met Miley I had tried listening to her, but all she did was whine about how horrible the teachers were and how bad her ex-boyfriend treated her. I couldn't even make myself try. I had forgotten how annoying humans were.

Luckily class started shortly after that; and I was saved from having to pretend to listen to her.

I walked out of Mrs. Nickles' class room and was heading toward the gym when I heard someone shout from behind.

"JACOB BLACK!"

Well that was a new one. No one in the school had the guts to talk to a Cullen, let alone call them out in the middle of the hallway where everyone could hear. If it wasn't for the fact that I recognized the voice I would have been shocked. Though I was confused.

Turning around I saw Bethany Warner running flat out towards me, shoving a few people who didn't get out of the way in time. Including Miley!

"Yes?" I asked trying to keep from laughing.

Gasping for breath Bethany choke out. "Where is Nessie?"

"She had to leave early. She was starting to feel sick. Why? Is something the matter?" Why did she need Nessie so badly to run all the way from her last class, which was on the other side on the building to find her? I mean, we would be in gym together, why couldn't it wait 'till then?

Bethany gulped in a couple deep breaths before answering. "No. Nothings wrong. Why would you ask that? She just wasn't in class and I was wondering why."

No way. "Really? You ran all that way? You couldn't just wait until gym?"

Bethany looked at me like I had grown a second head. "Why would I have done that?"

"But-" I thought about trying to explain that we would have been in the same room in two minutes if she had just gone straight to the gym after her last class, but instead I said. "You know what never mind. Come on lets get going."

Bethany smiled and walked beside me. "Do you bite your nails?"

I bit back a laugh as we walked into the gym. Ok, so not all humans were bad.

I walked to the parking lot; at first I was confused, the Volvo was missing. But then I saw it in a parking space a few slots away and then remembered that Bella had taken it with Nessie.

I walked up the car and hopped in. Bella was sitting in the passenger's seat; no one else was in the car.

"She wanted to stay home and have a little time to herself." Bella said peeking back at me over her left shoulder, before I could even ask.

I sighed out loud. "Is she ok?"

Bella eyed me thoughtfully for a minute before she nodded. "Yeah, just a little confused." I was about to ask about what but Bella held up a hand. "Don't ask. It's a girl thing."

I wanted to groan, but I didn't. I hated 'girl things'. Because the 'thing' was usually about a guy! How it made any sense was beyond me.

A couple minutes later Edward walked up to the car; along with Jasper.

Edward jumped into the driver's seat and Jasper opened the back door. "Jacob I believe you are getting ready to be kicked out of the car." He said with a grin.

"What did you and Alice switch powers for the day or something?" I asked sarcastically. Jasper just shrugged. "Really, I'm being kicked out?"

"If you don't mind I would appreciate it if you would walk home with Jasper." He said.

"Why?"

"I would like to take my wife on a date; and no offence, I don't want you to come." He said sarcastically.

"Oh, my bad." I muttered and got out of the car.

"Thank you." Edward said smiling as he drove out the school parking lot.

"Well I guess it's just you and me old boy!" Jasper said coming up beside me.

"Yep." I said and we started off at a human walk. We couldn't go any fast until we got off the school grounds and away from any humans. "Why did you come with me? You know I've been known to walk on my very own from time to time?"

Jasper shrugged. "Alice told me to."

"Ah. Now it makes sense." I said with a chuckle.

We walked in silence for a while, still at human speed. We were just about out of sight of the school when I decided it probably now of never. So I asked. "Jasper, do you mind me asking a stupid question?"

Jasper shook his head. "Not really, if I did I don't know how I would have managed living with Emmitt for so long."

I laughed. "Yeah." Feeling a more than a little stupid I looked down at my feet.

"Jeeze why are you so nervous?" He asked looking at me. "You're not going to tell me you realize that you're gay and you are secretly in love with or something; are you?"

"No!" I said my head shooting up. How was I supposed to ask this? Sighing I spit out the first thing that came to mind. "Could you explain my feelings?"

Jasper looked puzzled for a moment. Then recognition flooded his face. "Um, what do you mean?"

My eyes narrowed. "You know exactly what I'm talking about."

Jasper sighed. "Why don't you tell me what you think you've been feeling and I'll see if it jogs my memory?" He suggested, a sort of challenge in his eye.

Groaning I looked up to the sky, it was thick with white clouds. "I don't know! I just feel like something is changing. My way of thinking, my way of seeing things." I looked over at Jasper, he saw staring at the ground. "Do you have any idea what I'm talking about?"

He nodded. "Talk to me about Nessie."

"What about her?"

"Oh come on. You know she has almost everything to do with this." He said rolling his eyes. "Talk to me about how you think of Nessie."

Uhg, I didn't think I wanted to do that. I wasn't even sure what I thought about her. But the answer should be easy shouldn't it? It should be the same answer that I always gave. "She is my best friend." I said, and then paused. Why did that not sound right? "She's always been my best friend." Sighing I let the words I hadn't let myself even think because of their insaneness tumble out of my mouth. "But it's like suddenly that's not enough anymore. Every time I think of her as my friend I feel like something important is missing." I said in a rush.

Jasper looked at me with a sympathetic smile. "Yeah, that sounds about right." He said with a soft chuckle. "Jacob, I'm not going to tell you what to do. Because I've had a conversation like this before where I gave the person the easy answer and it turned out bad. And I'm not going to give you an answer you're going to like. But it's the only one I know to give you." He paused looking thoughtful for a minute. "This is just one of those things that is going to take time to understand. That if you try to rush and skip ahead to find the answer you'll probably regret it." He shrugged. "Just let live. Do what you want to, not what you think you should want to. And this is going to sound sappy as all heck, but here it goes. Listen to your heart; not your head. Because feeling aren't meant to be rationalized."

Not really sure what to say I just nodded.

"Come on, we should get home." Jasper said and started running at vampire speed. I followed behind him in silence. My thoughts whirled around in my head.

Don't be rational. Hmm, this could be interesting.

Renesmee's POV

Mom had went to go pick up dad and Jake and I was left sitting on the edge of my bed wondering; mostly about Jake. I trusted mom more than anybody; except maybe Jake, and I trusted that she knew what she was talking about. But what was I supposed to do? She had said trust my heart; but what did my heart want?

To see Jake.

Well that was easy! Smiling I got to my feet and rushed into Jake's room where I would wait for him. I sat down on his bed, leaning against his pillows. His scent was all over the room and I breathed it in. I loved this smell; like fresh air and trees and mist all rolled into one. It was perfect. Sighing I looked around the room while I waited for everyone to get home.

But after a few minutes my thoughts came to haunt me. Was it really that easy? All this confusion I'd been feeling lately couldn't just be fixed that easily.

NO! I shouted at myself. I wasn't going to think about it! I was going to see Jake and go from there! Quickly I shut my mind down and thought of nothing; as best I could.

A couple minutes later I heard Rosalie's voice from down stairs as she entered the house. "What do they see in her! And she thinks she's all that! It's insane!"

I giggled and sat up a little and waited to hear Jake's voice. But it didn't come, neither did mom's or dad's. But mom had mentioned something about maybe going out with dad later today, so that's probably where they were. But where was Jake? And Jazz?

Climbing off the bed I made my way down the stairs to the second floor where Emmitt was sitting with an X-Box controller in his hand. Some times it amazed me how quickly he could turn that thing on and be in the middle of a level.

"Hey kiddo! What's up?" He asked not taking his eyes off the screen.

I stood behind the sofa. "Nothing much. Do you know where Jake and Jazz are?"

"Um," He paused to blow some alien's head. "Jake had to walk because Eddie and Bella wanted to go out and Jasper went with him."

Puzzled I walked back up to Jake's room and sat down. Why hadn't they all just ridden in Rosalie's car? Sighing I settled back into Jake's large bed ready to sit hear 'til Jake and Jazz got home.

I didn't have too long to wait. About ten minutes later I heard Jasper calling for Alice. Smiling widely I sat up and waited for Jake to walk through his door. Which he did, 14 seconds later.

"Hey." He said smiling. He dropped his backpack by the door and came to sit next to me. "How you feeling?" He asked, his eyes scanning my face.

I couldn't keep the smile off my face. What has been wrong with me the past couple of days? This was Jacob; my Jacob. Hm, I like the sound of that. "Actually I feel pretty stupid." He raised his eyebrows at me. "I shouldn't have left like that. It was dumb." I really couldn't see why I had been such a mess. I had no reason to be.

"It's not that big of a deal. Don't worry about it." He said brushing some hair out of my eyes. His finger tips grazed my forehead and the warmth of his touch stayed long after his fingers moved. "Do you want to talk about it?"

I shook my head no. "Naw, I'm all talked out on the topic."

Jake nodded then looked down. "But we're ok? Right?" He asked quietly.

Shocked I grabbed him with both hands by the face and pulled his head up, so he had to look at me. "Jake? We're fine. I'm sorry I've been acting all weird lately; but it's all going to get better from here ok?"

Jake stared into my eyes and I felt myself blush, it was like he could see into my soul, know exactly what I'm thinking. My breath caught as a sudden desire hit me. It was so alien that I almost didn't know what it was. But after a moment I realized what it was.

I wanted to kiss him.

I felt my hands fall from Jake's face; but no other part of me moved. I felt frozen in place.

"Nessie?" I faintly heard Jake call out to me. But I couldn't respond. "Nessie?" His hands came up to cup my face. "Renesmee?!"

Hearing the urgency in his voice I was able to suck in a deep breath again. I blinked and focused on his face. His beautiful face.

The warmth I had been feeling when I was around Jake suddenly explode, into an overwhelming feeling of something so big and grand I had to gulp in a breath of air.

What was happening to me?

Hello my fantastic readers! And even more fantastic reviewer! Hope everyone enjoys this chapter! Just to give you guys an update, I'm still out of town and will hopefully get back on the 13th. So I'll get some more writing done then, if not before! But enough about me; I know the whole part with Jasper was kind of short, and I'm sorry. But PLEASE review anyway, I don't care if you loved it or hated it, just give me some feedback! Anywho, I'll try to update again soon! God Bless!