Nope still dont own it...i know sad aint it?
Alright well here is Edward for all of you, I hope this explains some of the missing links that I have been informed about, im sorry to cause any comfusion to the readers and I hope this clears some stuff up, so read and hopefully enjoy! (sorry if anyone is ooc)
(oh, and the words in Italics are what people are thinking... just so you know)
WARNING!!: there is some bad words in this chapter so be warned. (You have now been warned)
Explanations II
(E-pov)
"ITS BEEN THREE DAYS ALICE! TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!!"
My voice had risen to a considerable level and I was yelling louder than I ever thought I could
"Im sorry Edward I already told you I don't know.."
"DON'T GIVE ME THAT SHIT ALICE! USE YOUR DAMN POWERS AND TELL ME WARE BELLA IS!!!"
"Edward calm down" Esme was standing at my side trying to reach out to me and calm me down, I guess she figured since Jasper's powers weren't calming me down she would have to try the old fashion way
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME EDWARD! I CANT OK! NOT ONLY IS HER FUTURE BLANK MEANING I DON'T KNOW WHERE THE HELL SHE IS BUT I ALSO CANT SEE WHAT'S GOING ON WITH CHARLIE, AND NOT ONLY AM I TRYING TO FIGURE OUT ABOUT THEM BUT I HAVE TO KEEP TABS ON ALL 5 OF THE VAMPIRES HERE INCLUDING WATCHING ALL OF YOU TO MAKE SURE NOTHING HAPPENS TO ANY OF US, MY MIND IS STRETCHED THIN AS IT IS, I CANT EVEN THINK STRAIT LET ALONG TRY TO DIG INTO 50 OTHER PEOPLES FUTURES TO KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON, IM SORRY EDWARD I REALLY AM BUT IM NOT THAT GREAT!!" Alice was yelling almost as loud as me now, her voice broke a couple of times into a sob and you could see the pain in her eyes, I knew she was already having a lot of problems but still why couldn't she see Bella? Had something happen to her? Could she still be in La Push? I couldn't stop the anger that was overwhelming everything in me
Jasper was standing next to Alice within a second and was holding her tight, Alice, unable to hold back anymore broke down and held onto Jasper tightly sobbing tearlessly
"Edward we are all worried about Bella but there's nothing we can do right now, im sure she is ok, there's probably nothing to worry about" Carlisle spoke up as he walked into the room, im sure he heard all of out conversation
"God I hope she is ok" Carlisle's voice echoed in my head, he realized I probably heard him and decided it was best not to think of things anymore, I turned around a punched a wall not able to keep myself calm anymore
"Why the hell isn't Bella or even Charlie answering there phones!" I yelled to myself stomping over and snapping up my cell phone and dialing the number I have continuously called every 5 minutes for the past three days. This time someone answered
"Hello.." a soft week voice answered, she sounded like she had been crying
"Bella!?" The voice on the other end didn't sound like my Bella but I couldn't keep myself from asking, but after I did I wanted to take it back
The women on the other line burst into tears and started crying very hard
"Renee..." my voice came out in a small squeak, laced with fear
"E-edw-w-ward?" her voice was so sad and the fear started to take over every part of my body
"Yes." I was only able a short answer because I knew my voice would crack if I tried anything more complex
"Oh my god Edward! There gone. There gone, C-c-c-charlie, he's he's. oh god Edward he's dead! And my baby my baby girl! I don't know where Bella is! My Bella she's gone, she's missing, I've looked everywhere everyone has looked, she's gone Edward I just know it, my baby girl is dead... I I its all...I..." Renee couldn't speak any longer, the tears swallowed up her voice and then the screams erupted, the pain and anguish so obvious in her screams for her daughter, but I didn't care I couldn't hear anything I didn't care about anything the only thing I could feel was the pain,
My phone crashed to the ground and shattered, I could then hear the sobs and yells from my family, I knew right away that it was Alice yelling, but once again I didn't care, I just stood there frozen, unable to move or think just feel, the pain hit my chest like a shot gun blast, destroying everything.
Before I could really realize what was happening I was on my knees clutching my stomach and screaming as loud as I could, there wasn't anything in particular that I was screaming, nothing except my pain, no words came out just yells, my body was shaking form head to toe, I know if I was human I would be crying, crying so hard that it would probably kill me,
Bella...my Bella, why did I leave you, its all my fault its my fault I knew those damn werewolves wouldn't be able to protect you why did I leave I never should have left you
my body was shaking so hard I thought I would vomit.
Alice -pov
I was holding onto Jasper tightly, sobbing, If something happen to Bella it would be my fault, I wasn't watching her the way I should have been. Oh please god don't let anything happen to Bella.
The sobs were starting to slow down as Jasper rubbed my back, I could feel the calm and tranquility passing to me,
"Thanks Jazz" I said softly nestling into his chest some
Then I heard a small voice filled with sadness flow into my ear, it sounded like Bella's mother Renee, I listened carefully as Edward spoke to Bella's mom on the phone. Then she said it. Charlie was dead and Bella might as well be because no one knew where she was.
I felt the screams escape me and I fell to my knees, the sobs hit again full force and I felt Jasper hold onto me tightly, he didn't even bother trying to calm anyone in-fact if anything he was sending waved of sadness to everyone, unintentionally, but it didn't help.
ITS ALL MY FAULT! DAMN IT WHY DIDN'T I SEE IT, WHY COULDN'T I STOP IT! BELLA!!!
I swelled up with anger and sadness and then the heart breaking earsplitting sounds of Edwards yells filled my ears
Oh god Edward its all my fault, im sorry im so so sorry!
I opened my eyes and looked up, Emmett and Rose were hugging tightly, both looking like they were crying, Esme had her hands covering her mouth and the saddest expression on her face that made me want to kill myself for knowing I had made her hurt so bad, Carlisle was holding onto Esme tightly, the same look of horror and sadness covering all of his Features
Tanya and a few of the others walked into the room with sad looks on there faces, im sure they had heard the conversation and knew what was going on but the sadness in there eyes wasn't for Bella and Charlie, no It was for us, all of us, but especially for Edward they knew what happen the last time Edward thought that Bella died, this time is was very much likely that she was dead.
The thought sent another round of sobs through me and I was shaking furiously. My eyes wondered over to Edward who was curled up in a ball on the ground still yelling, he looked like a small child curled up like that,
I desperately wanted to go over and hold on to him tightly and tell him how sorry I was but Im sure he hated my guts right about now.
Just as I was about to turn back to Jasper Edward jumped to his feet and was out the door
"Forgive me" Jasper's soft voice spoke into my ear before he was also out the door, and from what I could tell Emmett had followed close behind. I turned back and looked at the flood, curling up in a ball a wave of hate that I knew Jasper was holding me back from flooded my body and I wished with all my might that it was possible for me to climb under a rock and die.
I felt cold arms wrap round me and start rocking my back and forth, I knew immediately that it was Rose but I couldn't move, I couldn't even believe she could look at me without hating everything about me, I know she didn't really like Bella a hole lot but still, she made out family happy and because of me everything was ruined.
Edward's -pov
I had to go find her, even if it was just her body, I had to find Bella,
I got to my feet and started running, in didn't need the car, I didn't need anything except my Bella.
I had barley gotten down the driveway when I felt a set of bars latch onto my arms and around my waist, I tried to struggle but I couldn't get away
A deep and vicious snarl came from my chest and I pulled harder and struggled more only to be brought to my knees
"Im sorry Edward, im so sorry but we cant let you go" Emmett tightened his grip on my left arm and waist, pulling me backwards some
"Please Edward, you cant go we're not don't here yet, in know you want to go find Bella, I want to go as well but there's nothing we can do, we have to finish this now. We're needed here we'll finish this up as soon as possible and then we will go find her I sear to you we will find Bella no matter what." Jasper was gripping my right arm and his voice was shaky but no matter there words I needed to go and I needed to go now
"You don't understand, its my fault, its my fault and I have to make it right in any way that I can. I have to get to Bella she cant be dead she just cant! She's still alive I know it, and I need to get to her now"
Ever since I had talked to Renee I had stopped breathing completely, even through the yelling I never once took a gulp of air, and even now as I sobbed and remembered my Bella I couldn't find myself to breathe.
I tried to struggle a little more but I knew it was futile so in the end I crumbled, falling to the ground and cried some more, Emmet and Jasper still held onto me tight but I could tell they were crying as well.. And as with all the other things, I didn't care.
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Soon after I fell to the ground I heard something, Alice was yelling my name, I sat up and looked back to the house when the images filled my head
I was standing next to a gate, a small white fence stretched out for miles, and there was a large beautiful house in-front of me, then there was movement I looked over and there she was my Bella, she was walking towards the house, holding the had of some guy that I had never seen before he was older but had an old fashion look about him, but there was something different about Bella.
They made it to the house and just before the man opened the door Bella looked back for one more look to the forest before she entered the house, that's when I noticed it, the difference.
I escaped from Alice's mind and let loose one last yell, what was left of my heart placed itself back together, but there was still pain, I still had failed to protect her
Bella, my darling Bella was now one of us
"She's...a...vampire" the words were slow and quiet, I sank back into the ground laying on my back and looking to the sky,
I heard Emmett and Jasper gasp. I smiled.
She's still in this world, she may no longer have a pulse or heartbeat but she's still here, I can still be with my Bella.
How was it?