Also... I've endured some real personal heartbreak in the last few months. Like our beloved John Thornton had to watch the woman he loved walk away from him, thinking he would never see her again... I have lost the man I love to another path, another life - and I don't know if I will ever see him again. He's the one for me - I'm not being melodramatic when I say that I don't have the desire or ability to even look at anyone else, let alone let them into my bruised and battered heart. I'm getting used to be alone, though it isn't easy to even get through the day sometimes, and life feels rather empty. I guess real life isn't like the fairy tales with a guaranteed happy ever after. I always believed it would work out somehow. But it hurts too much to believe that anymore - for myself anyway.
But I'm going to keep writing this story - for all of you, if nothing else. Real, true love does happen, and it is the most precious thing in the world - worth fighting for, living for, and dying for. I've fought the good fight, and though my fight is now over, I will never stop believing that what I can't have is out there for others to find. I live my life in testament to the one I love, and I hope, in another life, he will find it in his heart to love me the way he can't love me now. I hope I can prove worthy of him by continuing on. He's worth everything I have to bear, every tear I cry.
Anyhoo, I'm finally getting a laptop soon, so I'll be writing again and hopfully posting by the end of the month. Sorry again for the delay -