The Way we Was

Disclaimer : yade yade yada I don't on the stupid story, but I do own my f***ed up mind.

A/N ok so this chapter will be solely in Alice's point of View. I have to warn you now it will not be pretty, remember this is the asylum which she ran away from so it can't be good :P

WARNING: Painful and Disturbing Scene's ahead.

Chapter 9: Lost

Alice POV

The time I had been back in this hell-hole was unimaginable, I lost track of the days or the weeks or months I had been back. I felt the familiar feeling of loneliness creep back in as I realised that no-one was coming to help me.

They abandoned you little broken 'Pixie', no-one in this world wants you not your parents, not 'Bella', not even the country.

I know but I have to keep hoping that she will come for me, she will she promised she would.

Yes, she 'promised' that didn't she?

YES! She did!

What just like your father promised to save you all those years ago, just like that sweet little intern promised you as well?

'SHUT UP!' I screamed at the top of my lungs.

Haha, I wish you could hear yourself, you deserve to be in here. You are talking to yourself now.

I wanted an escape from this hell-hole but both my recent suicide attempts had been foiled by my own cowardice, I had the knife to my wrists and I just couldn't bring myself to cut, just in case Bella came to find me. It had been a long time since my last visit from the doctors and staff, my bruises and cuts had healed and I no longer felt the aching pain between my legs, that always followed for days after one of their little 'sessions'.

One Week Later

I feel happy for a change as it is my Birthday I am now 17 years old, I was surprised that I was happy at this, but I remembered that 17 was the same age as Bella physically. Unfortunately my happiness didn't last long; I wasn't the only one to remember the date. When I heard the doctors voices outside I froze.

NO! Not today any day but today please.

Ohhhh, Pixie's gonna get fucked, haha, come on and admit it you enjoy it don't you the attention?

Of course I fucking don't you idiot why would I?

Because I enjoy it and I am part of your mind, miss crazy.

'Right, so are we gonna give her a birthday special then lads?'

'Hell yes, but I call dibs on making her cry, because you know I love that part, hahaha'

'Right but I get the branding iron, the sizzle makes me hard'

'I know the feeling my friend and the chilling scream they make whilst getting branded makes me want them to never stop'

Fucking brilliant they are going to use a branding iron… A BRANDING IRON!

Yes, a branding iron pixie, and I know we are going to love every second of it.

No we ar…

The door to my room opened slowly. I looked up to see the familiar faces of my rapists, all with an evil smile on their face. I noticed one was holding a gun but before I could question what it was for, I heard a soft bang and then felt a sharp stabbing pain in my neck.

'Haha, nice shot'

'Thanks I was practising on the others when I got bored, ya know to keep them quiet'

I awoke to a room I had never seen before, but I hoped would never see again it was beyond creepy. It had chains and straps and winches connected to ropes and some of the straps. There were strange and pain inflicting implements on the walls, some with blood stains on them. I then noticed the amount of blood on the walls, the splatters and hand prints made it look increasingly like I wasn't getting out of this.

I felt I small tug at my wrist, I was connected to the wall by four chains around my ankles and wrists and I also now had on a dog collar. All my clothes were gone, No surprise there, but I could tell they had already 'had a go' cause I felt that warm slimy feeling inside me. Oh great they fucking came inside me. What else is new they do that all the time. Yes, but all the other times I have been conscious!

'Ah she is awake, how are you Alice?'

I dared not answer in case I angered him, but it seemed luck wasn't on my side today.

'When I ask you a question, Alice,' He said while taking out a small controller 'I expect a Fucking Answer!' He pressed one of the buttons and I felt a sharp pain hit my neck. I couldn't hold it back I had to scream, after he was satisfied that I had learnt my lesson.

'So let us try this again, how are you Alice?'

'In pain' I whimpered

'Wrong answer, Alice I'm afraid.' I looked up to see a glint of enjoyment in his eye, and then his finger went over the necked button and slowly pressed down. Another sharp but more powerful pain shot through my body, I screamed again but this time higher pitched and for longer. After I had managed to control my body again I noticed that this fucker had a hard-on from watching my pain.

'Ok, last time Alice, how are you?'

I was in too much pain to answer I could feel myself trying to answer but my body was now broken I couldn't make a sound. I looked up to see victory glaring from this bastard's eyes.

'Ok Alice if you won't answer my question then a much more painful method of punishment shall be used, Derrick, get the branding iron ready'

I felt my body chill, they were really going to use a branding iron, I started to panic and struggle which made my restraints start to cut into my wrists and ankles. I could hear the siring metal before it was on view. As the iron came round the corner I couldn't help but let out a small whimper which seemed to excite the fucker with it more, as he came at me with it faster.

'So where am I branding her… First?'

I felt my eyes water and tears fall freely, they were going to brand me more than once. I tried to get away but felt my back press against a cold stone wall behind me. The man came slowly towards me; I hadn't heard where they had decided to 'brand' me first. I could only focus on the ever increasing heat from the iron and the evil glint in the man's eyes as he slowly approached me with it. Then suddenly I felt something press against the skin on my stomach. Slowly I felt heat and smelled burning and then the siring pain of the iron shot through my body making me scream long and hard.

After he withdrew the iron I felt nothing, as if my lower body didn't exist anymore. Suddenly cold water stuck my stomach bringing on a set of silent fits and spasms which I couldn't control. I wanted to die the pain was too much, I felt myself blacking out, the edges of my vision was going blurry.

'Haha don't worry Alice we will have lots more fun with you when we are done punishing you for running away.'

A/N ok so this was a little of an interesting chapter, and I am sorry for those who think it is a little too much but it is needed to show what Alice is going through while she is in the asylum. As always please tell me what you think good or bad by REVIEWING :D