A/N: You people have no clue how much reviews make me feel TwT Thank you! Thank you! Now, now...I actually found the notebook I took with me on vacation and what I found was amazing! I found a chapter I was writing for Days in the Life of Takano and Onodera! And I found a few chapters in a LightXL fanfic I had been working on for a while. So, yay! I will soon type those and get them up as soon as I can! :D

Listening to Versailles ^_^

Here we go! ^_^

-Hiroki's point of view-

I just had to leave. I gave up. I'm just not fit to be his lover...He proved that by staying out late..not even calling me...I felt like shit just thinking about it. But...it was impossible to just stop thinking about him. I mean, he was the man I loved. I loved him more than I had loved Akihiko. I loved him more than he knew. More than I knew, even. But I had to leave. I had a feeling that he wanted me gone...Even if he were to come searching for me when he decided to wake up and realize that I'm gone...he would probably be faking his worry..

I sighed, walking down the mismatched streets, not paying attention to where I was or who was looking at me. I didn't care where I was, as long as I was away from that place.
As long as I breathed, I would keep going. I wouldn't give up so easily. My pride wouldn't allow it. But then...I'm just walking away from my problems...I know I should've talked to him...but I just couldn't. He would say "Ah! Hiro-san! Why would I do such a thing! I love you and only you!" and then he'd say he was only late coming home because of work. But I mean, who comes home the next morning when I wake up and doesn't even say anything about it?

I sighed again. I looked at my arms. At the mess of blood and skin I'd made. I teared up as I realised just how pitiful I was. Then, if things couldn't have gotten any worse, it started to rain. I couldn't tell the water from my eyes or the water from the dark grey sky apart. The water stung and washed away the blood, but the red kept coming back, as if acting as a painful reminder of reality. I just wanted to escape. Be who I used to be. The proud educator with pride and a backbone...Nowaki's probably still asleep...dreaming about that woman he's found himself so infatuated with lately...

I didn't know how long I had been walking, but when I lookeed around, I found nothing familiar. I could've been walking for hours since there was still daylight when I left. I looked at my cuts, which were still bleeding and burning as the rain soaked them. My leg was still bleeding too. It seemed as though I sliced deeper than what I thought. I looked at my hands. Why me? Why do I have to deal with this kind of drama that you only see on television? Why?

I felt weak. Not just mentally, but physically. I was drained. Emotionally, for the most part. But that took a great toll on my body.

I cringed when I thought I heard a wisp of Nowaki's voice calling out my name through the pouring rain and thunder. But I knew it was just my mind playing with my heart. I kept walking, or at least staggering. I passed a few more buildings before I heard my name again, only this time, it was louder. Loud enough to get my attention. I turned around, and there was Nowaki, running through the rain towards me. I couldn't move. It was as if I was glued to the concrete. And when I finally moved out of the shock, so did my body. I dropped to the ground, my legs unable to hold me up anymore. I winced at the impact. I had fallen down on my side and I just laid there as I saw Nowaki kneel down next to me. He helped me up so I was sitting on the sidewalk.

"Hiro-san! Are you okay? What happened?" he asked, gently holding onto my arms, worry coating his voice and concern painted in his eyes.

He's truly worried about me, isn't he?

All I could think about was latching onto him and never letting go. I want to hold him forever in my arms. I don't care about anything anymore. I just need him. I need his warmth, his kindness, his care, and his love. I want all of his love. I want to drink it in until I can't contain it anymore.

"I'm sorry...Nowaki...I'm so sorry! Please, don't be mad at me..." I forced out between my ugly sobs.

"Hiro-san," he whispered. "Why would I be mad at you? I've been so worried about you."

Just that alone made the sobs grow, "B-but don't you hate me?"

"Hate you? Baka, how could I hate you?" he held me closer, the rain letting up a little. I couldn't stop myself from letting everything loose.

"And what about you coming home so late? You're meeting a woman and what not. You love her more than me and I know you want kids and I know that I can't give them to you and I-I don't really like kids that much, but if it's what you want, we can always adopt. And I can just get over it. And then you won't have any excuse to date a woman, or a man. Just me, only me. Unless you're just tired of me...And I can understand if you are. I'll be completely fine if we break up...!" My voice cracked on the last sentence and the tears kept escaping.

"Hiro-san! I'm not meeting a woman! What gave you that idea? Was it something I said or did? And yes, I did want kids, but since I work in pediatrics, I'm around them all the time." he "And Hiro-san, I would never get tired of you! I haven't had enough of you yet! I want to go back home with my Hiro-san everyday and kiss him and make love to him over and over and over."

I couldn't speak. I just sat there. Thinking about what the hell I had been so over worked up over. I couldn't believe I cut over such a stupid misunderstanding. My pride could never forgive me now. It was over. Why does this man in front of me always shatter my pride like that?

"I only came home so late because I've been asked to do extra time at the regular hospital because one of the doctors is out on vacation,"

"But now, more importantly, why are you bleeding?" he asked me.

"...A long story..." I didn't want to explain anything yet. I just wanted to go home. And that's what we did.

A/N: Yay! Chapter 10 is done! So Happy! :D

Anyways, Versailles- Serenade was influencing my chapters a bit. It's just such a sad song that you can't help but write sadly along with it.

JA~NE! Review please! ^_^