AN: Hello everyone! Thank you for the reviews on the last chapter. I know that you guys aren't happy that Magnus cut but it is essential for the story. This will be a less angsty chapter, which we've been needing for a while. Also I didn't write much about Alec's stay in the hospital, but everyone will now have their answers in this chapter! There will be a lot of discoveries, a long with a happier, slightly OOC Alec.

Warnings include some language and some naughty content.

This was a hard chapter to write since I've been so used to all of the upsetting chapters. So please enjoy and reviews are always appreciated!

Yeah, you can start over you can run free

You can find other fish in the sea

You can pretend it's meant to be

But you can't stay away from me

I can still hear you making that sound

Taking me down rolling on the ground

You can pretend that it was me

But no

Animals - Maroon 5

Alec POV:

For the first time in a long time I don't feel out of place as I step into my house for the first time in seven weeks. I didn't expect anything to change. There are pictures on the walls of me and my siblings.

Dad pats my shoulder awkwardly, "let's go put the sheets on the fridge."

I look down at the papers in my hand. One of them is a list of the new medications that I have to take and how often I have to take them. Another is a description of my conditions and how to handle them positively instead of negatively like I used to. The last is of phone numbers and addresses of the hospital and my doctor just in case I have any problems.

Now I have to go to weekly counseling sessions for the next few months.

Dad puts his hand on my shoulder again, "are you okay?"

I nod weakly. I don't know if I'll ever be completely good, but I feel better than I have in a long time. Not as good as I felt before... her. But, still better.

I follow dad into the dining room and step back in shock as mom, Isabelle, Jace, Max, Allie's mom, and Magnus all jump out from underneath the table. "Welcome home!"

A chuckle pops out before I can stop it and soon enough everyone is laughing too. I take this chance to look around the room. There's a welcome home banner hanging from the ceiling and streamers and balloons on the walls. The table is covered with food.

Max comes over and wraps his little arms around me tightly. Even though I'm surprised I hug him back. Max usually hovers around Jace and Isabelle instead of me but it feels good to have him come to me.

Soon I'm being hugged by everyone, except for Magnus. And something tells me he's not because of the looks Isabelle and Jace keep throwing him. Obviously they have yet to forgive him for cheating on me.

Max grabs my hand after mom finally lets me go. "Mom and dad wouldn't let us open our Christmas presents until you came home. Can we do it now?"

I feel bad instantly. I was in the hospital on Christmas. They came to see me but it wasn't anything like usual. "Ask mom."

He turns his puppy dog eyes on mom and I know that even she is having trouble not giving him what he wants. "After we eat."

I'll give Max credit. He didn't whine or cry. But he was the first one to grab a plate. "Come on! Let's eat."

Everyone laughed and as they all lined up I walked into the kitchen. I pull off three magnets from the side and put the sheets of paper from my doctor up on the front. I run my finger over the word 'bipolar'. I know I've read the word over and over but I can't help but stare at it again. Based on what the doctors said, I've been bipolar my whole life, but it probably wasn't really triggered until Allie got sick.

My fingers slide down to 'depressive symptoms'. According to the family there were moments in my past where I had manic moments but most of the time I had depression symptoms instead. Sadness, anxiety, difficulty making decisions, and most importantly, the suicidal symptoms.

My hand drops to my side. I hate that I'm sick. I feel better but I know what the pills and therapies cover. I know what I am.

I feel someone's hand on my shoulder and I expect it's mom but the person pulls me back against their chest. His arms slide around my waist and his face presses against my neck. My eyes close and I feel myself completely lean into him. We stand there for a few minutes before I turn my head and open my eyes. Magnus' black hair is spiked up but there is no glitter in it. His jacket is a dark velvety purple and his pants are rainbow colored. He's... wearing the outfit he was wearing the day he gave me a ride from the party. The first time I tried to kill myself.

His eyes open slowly and before I can say anything he's pressing his lips against mine. I stay still for a few beats while his lips move against mine. Don't do this... we aren't together anymore...

His tongue presses against my lips and I open my mouth. He shifts so that he's in front of me and his tongue slowly slides against mine. I push mine against his and he groans into my mouth softly. His fingers slide up my back slowly, as if he's exploring my body for the first time.

Magnus pulls away and our eyes meet, "God, I missed you."

My heart is pounding against my chest and I need him to touch me more than I've ever needed anything else. "Kiss me, please. I need you."

He grabs the front of my shirt and pulls me back against him before his lips capture mine again. His hips press against mine and he kisses me more aggressively than he's ever done before.

He spins me around until I can feel the counter pressed against my back. His fingers grip my hips and he lifts me up onto the counter. I can't help the moan that is forced from my throat and my legs wrap around his waist.

Magnus kisses me deeper, his teeth gently bites into my bottom lip and my cock hardens until it's pressing painfully against my zipper. His hips thrust against mine slowly and I can feel his equally hard erection pressing against mine. One of his hands slides down to the front of my jeans and rubs me through them.

My moan is silenced by his mouth and I can feel a little bit of precum slide down my shaft. He pulls away and I whine softly, not even embarrassed by it. "Why are you stopping?"

He chuckles softly, "we're at your party. I think it would be inappropriate if I fucked you in your kitchen while your family was waiting in the other room."

All of a sudden I can hear Jace from the dining room, "you guys done yet?" Isabelle laughs along with him.

"No!" Magnus and I shout it at the same time which makes them laugh louder.

His eyes meet mine and I pull him in for a kiss, gentler than the ones before. To soon he pulls away and our foreheads touch. He speaks first, knowing that we have to talk about this. "So what does this mean for us?"

"I don't know. I really missed you. But I think we both still need a little bit of time to figure out what we want."

He pulls me off of the counter but he doesn't let me pull away. "I have a suggestion."

My lips pull up into a smile, "of course you do. What is it?"

He grins back at me, "let's go on a date tonight. Jace and Isabelle can go too."

My eyebrow rises, "you... want to take my brother and sister on a date with us?"

This time he laughs, "they know where I want to go tonight and I couldn't convince them to stay behind."

Oh this can not be good. "Where are we going?"

He grins again, "so will you date me again?"

His happiness is infectious and I can't help but smile again, "all I know is that when we were apart I missed you. I need you in my life. Thinking about you got me through a big part of my stay as inpatient at the hospital. I don't know if I've completely forgiven you, and I understand if you haven't completely forgiven me. But I love you. And we have things that we need to work out, but a... a couple of dates might help get us back on the right track. So yes, I'll uh... date you again."

I wish I could record his reaction and play it back for the rest of my life. His eyes light up in the most adorable way and before I know it I'm wrapped tightly in his arms. It's like a scene in some horrible romance movie, I look up and he looks down at the same exact moment and our lips touch. We kiss gently but passionately and his arms tighten around me.

"Hey!"

We jerk apart and look at the doorway to see Isabelle. She sounded angry but she's fighting to keep back a grin. "We've all finished eating and we're waiting for you two to come do presents with us."

My cheeks suddenly warm up, "please tell me you and Jace are the only ones who knew that we were making out."

She grins for real this time, "you two were in here forever. I think it's obvious to everyone that you guys were uh... making out."

I groan and smack my forehead, "oh God, please kill me now."

Her smile disappears and her eyes soften. I think about what I said and I reach out for her, "Iz, I'm sorry, I shouldn't ha-".

She smiles softly, "I really missed you." She clears her throat, "now let's go do presents before the big date!"

I roll my eyes but I follow her into the living room where everyone is waiting. Jace is grinning, mom and dad look uncomfortable, and surprisingly enough, Allie's mom is looking at me with a big smile. One that I haven't seen in over a year.

She looks like Allie...

Normally that thought would have killed me before. But this time, I can see the good. Allie would want her family to be happy.

Max grabs a present from under the tree that should have been taken down weeks ago. "It's time!"

I sit down on the couch in between Magnus and Allie's mom. They both take one of my hands and for once, I feel like I really belong.