*Warning this is a very sad chapter!
New Beginnings
Chapter 10
"Positive" Emma smiled looking over at Will "I'm pregnant!" Emma screamed as she threw her arms around Will's neck "I have truly never been happier in my life as I am right now"
Will spun Emma around then placed her down on the ground and looked at her "Thank you for making me so happy, I love you so much" Will said cupping her face in his hands and kissing her.
"I love you so much!" Emma smiled
Will and Emma went downstairs and it seems as if Rose talked to Rusty about not being upset about Emma being pregnant because he didn't act like he was upstairs, they actually seemed excited. "By the looks of how happy you two are, the tests I'm guessing were positive?"
"Yeah they were" Emma said happily as her mom came up to her and hugged her.
"Were both happy for you, and we really are very happy for the both of you" Rose smiled
Rusty didn't say anything but he did come over and hugged Emma, but then Rusty started crying "Dad why are you crying?" Emma asked worried
"My little girl is having a baby, your not a little girl anymore Emma. I'm sorry I looked mad upstairs really I'm happy believe me, I'm just still trying to get it through my head that you are a beautiful grown woman, and no longer a little girl"
"Oh dad" Emma said pulling him in further into the hug "I will always be your little girl no matter what"
"I know it's just not the same, and I miss seeing you in the house, its lonely without your bright smile lighting up the room."
After the father daughter moment that was happening between Rusty and Emma, Rusty went to shake Will's hand to apologize for his behavior and congratulated him. Rose was particularly excited that she was going to be a grandmother.
After all the hype of the pregnancy died down Will called his parents to tell them and Emma could hear his mom scream through the phone and Will had to hold the receiver away from his ear, because of how loud she was. Will hung up the phone "Well as you could hear my mother was happy" Will laughed "So how are you feeling?"
"Great actually! I don't feel sick at all anymore"
"Great then what would you say we go out for a nice dinner tonight and celebrate?"
"Sounds wonderful"
Will and Emma had a nice dinner that evening and celebrated the new life that was growing inside of Emma, which they both created together.
A few days later Will and Emma were on there way home and they were excited to go to the doctors the following day to get the ultrasound of there baby. "I can't wait for tomorrow we get to see our little peanut for the first time"
"I know I'm excited also, it will definitely feel more real when we actually see that little heartbeat on the screen" Will said rubbing his hand on Emma's belly
The next day Will and Emma went to the doctors and filled out all the new patient paper work and they anxiously waited to be called in. Soon a nurse came out called there names and walked them to an examining room. A nurse began the ultrasound and confirmed that Emma was pregnant and she turned the screen to show Will and Emma their little baby. Tears of joy fell from both Will and Emma's eyes as they saw their baby for the first time. "That's our little baby, our sweet little baby" Emma cried.
"I know honey" Will smiled kissing Emma's forehead "I love you both very much" Will said placing his hand on Emma's stomach
"It looks like you are about eight weeks along, which is further then we thought" The nurse said "So we would like to see you again at 20 weeks"
"Thank you so much" Emma said
"No problem and congratulations on your first baby" The nurse smiled leaving the room
Six Weeks Later
"Will! Hurry up!" Emma yelled from the bedroom
"Honey what's wrong!" Will said worried running into the room.
"Look!" Emma said pointing to her stomach "I have a baby bump now!" Emma said happily jumping up and down
Will let out his breath and Will started laughing "I thought something was wrong, Emma"
"Oh I'm sorry honey, I was just excited" Emma said pulling Will into a hug and kissing his cheek.
"It's ok sweetie" Will smiled. Will placed his hands on Emma's baby bump "I'm very happy that our little peanut is growing" Will smiled and then he kneeled in front of Emma "Your mommy and daddy love you very much peanut"
"I love seeing this side of you Will" Emma said wiping a tear from her cheek "I love all the love you show for our little baby, you are going to be a great father"
"Well your going to be a great mother also" Will said standing back up and kissing Emma
"Thank you" Emma said kissing him again "Now I'm going to go relax in the tub, and I would love it if you could join me"
"No need to tell me twice" Will smiled as he lifted Emma's dress off and Emma did the same for Will. Will then lifted Emma up and Emma wrapped her legs and arms around Will.
After there bath together Will, they got out and Will wrapped a towel around Emma first and then himself and he picked Emma up bridal style and began kissing Emma "You know there is something sexy about you being pregnant" Will growled
"Well you know pregnancy hormones make me really horny" Emma giggled
"Oh do they now, well I have a feeling the next six months are going to be wonderful"
"Oh you can count on it" Emma smiled
Will carried Emma over to the bed and laid her down. "I love you so much"
"I love you also"
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A/N sorry for skipping through this pregnancy pretty fast but I want to get to this part of the story
Emma was now 20 weeks along and it was time for them to find out the sex of the baby. They were both very excited about this "I can't believe I'm already more then half way through the pregnancy, it's going by so fast!"
"I know I can't believe it! We need to get started shopping for the baby"
"I know I cant wait too start that but now that we will know the sex we can pick the theme and colors to match with the sex of the baby" Emma smiled rubbing her belly.
They pulled into the doctor's office and headed inside and they signed in and were now waiting in the room waiting for the doctor to perform the ultrasound. The nurse first showed up and began the ultrasound "Here is the baby…did you want to know the sex today?" Will and Emma both shook their head "Alright it looks like you are having a boy" The nurse smiled, but then her smile dropped when she began to move the wand around on Emma's stomach
"Is there something wrong?" Will asked concerned
"Uh I'm not sure, let me check with the doctor first" the nurse said as she left the room
"Will what's wrong?" Emma said as her heart began to race
"I don't know honey"
"I have a bad feeling something is wrong Will, something is not right, did you see her face?" Emma said starting to cry
"Sweetheart please calm down take deep breaths, lets wait to hear what the doctor has to say first" Will said running his fingers through her hair.
The doctor walks in and looks at the ultrasound and she doesn't look any happier then the nurse "I'm sorry Emma but…"
"NO!" Emma screamed "Don't say it please tell me your wrong!" Emma then turned to Will and saw the tears falling from his eyes "No…No…No…This can't be happening…this can't be happening!" Emma screamed and Will was trying to calm Emma down "You are wrong! You are all wrong! My baby is still alive there is no way my baby boy is de-…dea-…Dead!" Emma screamed. Will pulled Emma into a hug as Emma was still screaming.
"What happened?" Will asked though the crying
"It happens from time to time, but it's nothing you did wrong?" The doctor said "I'm so very sorry for your loss. I will come back in about 15 minutes and I will give you both some time alone."
"Thank you" Will said as he sat next to Emma on the examining table and pulled her into a hug "I'm so sorry Emma, I'm so sorry" Will cried as he rocked Emma gently back and forth.
"Why us, why is this happening to us? We don't deserve this"
"I know honey, no one deserves this kind of pain, ever. But remember what the doctor said you did nothing wrong, this just happens sometimes"
About ten minutes later Emma began to calm down from the screaming and was now just crying and moving into the shocked phase. The doctor explained the procedure that they will schedule in two days to remove the baby, and then Will and Emma were free to go.
The car ride was silent it was deafening. Will hated it being this quiet, and he hated seeing the pain Emma was in, and he would try to be strong for her but it was going to be hard. Trying to be strong when your trying to grieve yourself is almost impossible. When they walked into the apartment Emma walked into their bedroom and closed the door. Will pulled his phone out of his pocket and called Emma's parents. "Hello Will" Rose answered
"Hi Rose"
"What's wrong Will? Is Emma all right? The baby?"
The tears began to form in Will's eyes again "We went to the ultrasound today and…" Will couldn't seem to get the words out "And there was no heartbeat"
"Oh my god Will, I'm so sorry!" Rose's voice began to crack "I'm afraid to ask but how is Emma doing?"
"Not good we walked in the apartment and she went straight to our room, she didn't say anything the whole car ride home" Will began to cry "I don't know what to do or how to deal with this"
"Rusty and I will fly out there, were going to come be there and help the two of you out"
"Thank you so much, It really means a lot to me"
"I'm going to go tell Rusty and we will catch the earliest flight out. Just take care of Emma and yourself" Rose said and soon Will finished the call and then called and told his parents.
Will walked over to the door to there room and he lightly knocked and then opened the door. Will saw Emma lying on the bed on her side curled up with her pillow. "Emma? Can I come in?" Will asked
"Yeah" Emma quietly said
Will walked over and curled up on the bed behind her and the tears fell from Emma's eyes once again. Emma then turned around and buried her face into Will's chest "Will, this pain is unbearable, I'm pregnant with my dead son, how can I handle two days of this and how are we going to live with our son dying. I feel like I have failed at being a mother and he wasn't even born yet." Emma cried
"Emma you are a great mother and you did nothing wrong, I know now you want to blame yourself but this pain will pass. The pain will never go away 100% but it will not always be this bad I promise"
"I know I just wish I didn't have to feel this pain ever!"
"I know honey neither do I"
Rose texted Will saying they would be there in a couple of hours he couldn't wait for them to get here so he could focus on Emma and also have his own chance to grieve.
Rose and Rusty arrived and Rose went straight to see Emma. Will walked into there spare room where some of the baby furniture was. Will sat in the rocker and broke down and cried. Will couldn't understand why this had to happen to them, they say everything happens for a reason was this their sign that they should wait till after there married and enjoy married life for awhile before kids like they planned on. Will would never know why this happened but he just hoped Emma would be able to make it through this. Just hearing and seeing her so upset killed him inside, he hated seeing the love of his live crumbling on the inside.
Will left the room and closed the door hoping they just would leave the room un touched for as long as possible. Will walked into their bedroom and saw Emma sleeping he curled up in front of her and pulled her in as close as he could. "Will?"
"Shhh, Go back to sleep honey"
"Thank you Will, for being so wonderful and supportive for me today"
"No need to thank me sweetheart" Will said kissing the top of her head "I love you"
"I love you" Emma said through the tears
Emma was the first to wake up and when she looked up at Will she saw Will's red and swollen eyes and dried tears on his cheek. Emma got out of the bed and went to the bathroom; Emma couldn't handle looking down at her stomach and seeing her belly with their baby still there. Emma walked into the kitchen and made some tea and sat there at the kitchen table. Will soon walked in and sat down next to Emma, neither said a word for a while, not really knowing what to say. "Will I know you want to ask how I'm feeling today, but don't want to since you can guess how I feel"
"I'm sorry honey I just don't know what to say, and I feel like I might say the wrong thing to you and make you upset again"
"I know and thank you for trying to protect me, I really appreciate it" Emma said kissing Will and then Rose walks in.
"You both are up early this morning." Rose said
"I didn't sleep well last night" Emma said looking down in her lap.
"I'm going to go call the school and tell them we are not coming in this week" Will said getting up noticing Rose wanted to talk to Emma.
"Honey as you know I'm sorry about this pain but I do want to tell you that it does get better over time" Rose took a deep breath "I know what you are going through. I never told you or James this but before I was pregnant with James I gave birth to a stillborn, we found out weeks before the due date. I thought that I going to die from the amount of pain my heart was is, here I was loving this baby and carrying her around for nine months. A mother will always grieve the children that they loose and it's something mothers should never have to go through, but Emma it happens and you and Will, will make more beautiful babies together"
Emma was in tears "Thank you mom for telling me this it makes me feel a lot better knowing that I wont always feel like this"
"Right now is the time to grieve and nothing is wrong with grieving just don't let it take over your life forever, or else it will affect the wonderful relationship you have with Will" Rose wiped the tears from Emma's eyes "I always said that you were a gift from god cause as a baby you looked just like the baby we lost and I love her just as much as I love you and James."
"What was her name?"
"Annie" Rose said wiping tears from her eyes
"Mom I'm so sorry"
"Don't be honey, I have come to terms with it, now its time for you to come to terms with your loss, and you will in time, I promise" Rose said as Will walked in the room again.
"Em, honey, the doctor called saying they had a cancelation today if you wanted to go in today"
"That would be good" Emma said as Will nodded and then went back into the other room "Well I guess this is it" Emma said rubbing her belly.
"Would you like me to come with the two of you today?"
"I would love it, if you a dad could come"
"Great then I'll drive you both there"
"Thanks mom" Emma said hugging her mom
Will sat back down next to Emma "Ok so we should leave for the hospital in about 30 minutes" Will said rubbing her back
"I really wish there was an easier way" Emma said leaning on Will's shoulder.
"I know honey, but I will be there with you the whole time, I wont leave you for a second" Will said kissing the top of her head
Will went to get Emma's bag packed and they went down to the car and headed to the hospital "I'm not ready for this Will, I'm not ready to say goodbye to our son"
"I know honey" Will said squeezing her hand "Were both not ready for this but we will get through this together remember that alright"
Emma shook her head "I know, I love you" Emma said leaning over to kiss Will
"I love you to, sweetie"
Emma got checked into the hospital and admitted into the hospital and they began to induce labor and after being in labor for over five hours she gave birth to Sean Michael Schuester. Will and Emma both had there time to say their goodbyes and hold Sean before the nurse took him away. Will climbed into the bed with Emma and pulled her close as the tears began once again. "I love you Emma, I'm so proud of you, you did so well today"
"That was the hardest thing I had to do in my entire life Will, I never want to do that again in my entire life" Emma sobbed
"I know honey, I would do anything for you to never have to deal with this kind of pain again."
Emma had to stay in the hospital overnight then would be able to go home tomorrow. Going home would be hard for them and trying to get back to a somewhat normal life. Will knew he was going to have to return to school in a week or two because they needed to begin practicing for Nationals. It was going to be hard to get back to normal life but it would help to keep busy and not to think about Sean all day long.
A/N told you this was going to be a sad story, trust me I cried so much writing it! Thanks again for reading and I promise this will not be as sad in the next chapter!