I Still…
Have This Broken Heart

A/N This one is a bit hard to read on my part... If anyone has a problem with angst, I would just like to warn them that this chapter is very much freckled with it.

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Draco arrived to Ginny's house just in time to see the window on the second floor explode with a blast of light, and what looked like a human body flying out, and crashing onto the nearby cement.

Without caring that the press had been following him for fourteen blocks, Draco screamed at the top of his lungs. "Ginny!"

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"Ginny!" Draco ran to the body that crashed against the cement, and was shocked to see Hermione.

"Granger? Oh Merlin, Granger! Say something!" He lifted her into his arms and slapped her face a few times. "Open your eyes! Talk to me!"

Hermione shook her head and reached up to touch his arm. "Ginny..." And then she pointed to the smashed window.

Draco looked from the window, to Hermione, and then back. "I don't know what to do here... I can-"

The youngest man with a camera dropped it, and rushed over.

"I went to medical school in the muggle world. I can help her. You go inside."

Before Draco had even entered the door, he heard the screech of a healer car. He didn't care. The whole building was hot, and he could see the flames from the stairs. He ran up, covering his mouth with his sleeve. He burst into her bedroom only to see one unmoving body, and the twitching body of Darby Smucker.

"Ginny? Ginny where are you!"

He heard a whimper and turned around. Her body was halfway out of the room he had...taken her in. He ran toward her and lifted her into his arms, shocked to see that that one particular room seemed to be immune from flames. Just as he lifted her, the healers were lifting Darby and the woman he didn't know. Apparently they had been just behind her.

He tightly closed his eyes and pulled her against his chest, apparating outside the house. He fell to the floor, pulling her cold, unmoving body against his. "Please Ginny, open your eyes... Please..."

She didn't move in the slightest. She was cold... But she wasn't bleeding, or bruised or anything like that. She looked fine and yet... She wasn't.

A healer took a few steps toward them and took a deep breath. "Can I please..."

He nodded and stood, holding her in a baby-like way. He handed her over and for the first time in all of his life, he allowed tears to spill out of his eyes, down his cheeks, and over his chin.

He didn't realize that a huge group had formed, and that Ginny's parents were there. He felt himself go down, but two arms caught him. Before he understood what was happening, he was against Arthur Weasley's chest, crying harder than he ever had in his life.

"Please Mr. Weasley... Let her be okay. Let her wake up... Please!"

Molly went on his other side and began stroking his back.

"It'll be fine Draco my dear... Oh and... Welcome home?"

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"You silly little girl. Come, lean into me and I'll tell you a story."

Ginny leaned into Draco in his big, wooden bed. "I don't need a stor-"

"Shush. I said I'm telling you a story so you listen, and love it. Okay I'm ready. There was once a little girl who was lucky enough to find the perfect man. She loved him and adored him more than anything in the universe. Unfortunately, he had to go away for a little while. This girl was mortified to hear about it and after he left she sat up in her room and looked out her window, waiting until the day he apparated in front of her house so she could jump out and right into his arms."

Ginny smiled. "That sounds-"

"I said shush. I'm not through. Well anyway, many years went by and the lovely little girl grew old and weary. She didn't know that her beloved had been killed while he was gone... So she just sat and waited. Finally, when she was a hundred years old, she decided that it would be for the best that she just give up... She died that day, and was buried a million miles away from her beloved."

Ginny tilted her head to the side. "What was the purpose of that sad story?"

Draco closed his eyes and leaned into her, smelling her neck and running his fingers through her hair. He didn't want to answer but... He had to.

"Love, I've been drafted, and I have to go."

Before he had even finished his sentence, she was hysterical. "No! You can't go! You're not allowed!"

Draco pulled her in closer, not allowing himself to cry as well. He shook his head. "I don't want to go but... The purpose of my story is that... I don't want you to wait for me."

Ginny ripped herself away. "Excuse me?"

Draco closed his eyes. "I want you to be happy, and even if that can't be with me. I have to go and you must realize that there is a chance that I will not return."

Ginny reached to the floor and pulled her light red dress against herself. She slid it over her head and turned to look at him. "I love you more than anything Draco but... How could you ask for me to forget you?"

He jumped up and rushed to her side, taking her face between his palms. "Never ever ever forget me Ginny... I just want you to be happy. I don't want you sitting around waiting for me. Be happy, date while I'm gone."

Ginny crossed her arms and turned away from him. "Just go Draco."

"But Gin-"

"I said go!"

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Draco sighed and pulled his hair with his hands as hard as he could without pulling it out.

"Draco, please sit down. Your pacing is doing nothing but making me nervous."

"Molly, I can't help myself. If anything happens to her I may as well jump off a bridge."

Molly rolled her eyes. "If you don't stop pacing I'll toss you off myself! We're all scared love but please... If one of us has to brave..."

Draco sat by her side and tried his hardest to stop his hands from shaking. "I just love her so much..."

Molly suddenly was looking over Draco's head.

"Who exactly is this Mrs. Weasley?"

Draco looked up, startled.

"Mrs. Smucker, I am so sorry..."

Molly stood by her side and took one of her hands with both of her own. "They're both in surgery right now... They haven't given us any new infor-"

"I believe I asked you a question." She took her hand away and gave Molly a look that reminded Draco of the one his own mother used to give him when he was in trouble.

Draco stood up also, holding out a hand to shake hers. "I'm Draco Malfoy."

The woman closed her eyes and clenched her fists. "Wonderful to see you alive lad. How long have you been seeing Ginny behind my son's back?"

Molly pushed him out of the way and got nose to nose with the other woman. "Listen Olivia, everyone knows that your son is quick behind the curtains and my daughter has been blind to it for far longer than I care to admit it. Now, this young man is a gentleman, has made my daughter very happy over the years and as much as I would love for my daughter to open her eyes and realize that your son is a manipulative dirt bag, she unfortunately loves him. She has been completely faithful."

A rough slap caused Draco to hold his wand against Mrs. Smucker's neck. "Go. I don't care where. But go."

She took a deep breath and turned around. "I am waiting for my son to get out of surgery. Tell them I'm outside. I need a fag..."

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A loud explosion hurt Draco's ears. He put his hands over his eyes as rubble smacked him in the face. He winced and rolled over. Ever since he had left home all he could think about was Ginny. He kept her picture in his breast pocket, never moving it unless he needed to see her face... He needed that a lot more lately. He was going nuts without her sweet kisses... Her sweet smell... Her sweet everything...

He had been drafted oh so long ago but now? He had gone into hiding what seemed like an eternity ago. He couldn't go back... He couldn't write anyone... He was just stuck. All he wanted was to go home but right now that was impossible. If only...

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"Mr. Weasley?"

All of the Weasley boys stood, including Arthur.

"Yes?" Ron said, pushing his way into the front.

"Your wife us very unstable. Her heart, liver, brain and uterus are all being held up with various potions and spells, but we believe the fetus will still be perfectly healthy."

Ron was wide eyed. "Wait... Wait a minute. One at a time." He put his hands on his head. "Too many words I don't understand. Fetus?"

"Well that means she's pregna-"

"I know what a fetus is Malfoy what I mean is, she isn't pregnant!"

"Tell that to the fetus."

"Basically what we have here is... Well your wife is acting as a human incubator. The baby will be fine but we can't promise your wife will live much longer than it will take to deliver... At this moment she's seven weeks along... If you wish, we can keep her alive so you have your child, or we can take her off all treatments...

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With all his heart Draco had wanted to ask that doctor about Ginny, but as soon as Ron found out the news, he went storming off, and against his better judgment, Draco followed.

"Weasley wait!" he shouted, running down the hall. 'Those damned long legs of his!'

Ron stopped at the end of the hall and opened the double doors to the stairwell. When Draco made it, he saw Ron standing, facing the wall.

"She was the first woman I ever loved you know. The first woman who ever believed I was worth anything."

Draco thought it against his better judgment to say anything, so he just kept his mouth shut and gave Ron the opportunity to vent.

"We have Alex and Abby... We have a business and a family and yet every morning when I look at her all I see is that same 11 year old girl I fell in love with."

"Pervert," Draco said, before he could stop himself, then panicked.

Luckily, Ron laughed. "You're a fucking asshole, you know that?" He wiped his nose and sighed. "I just love her so much..."

And without any form of warning as a courtesy, Ron was in Draco's arms, bawling his eyes out. Startled, Draco's first response was to push him away, but after a second he just rolled his eyes and patted Ron on the back. It might have looked a bit strange if anyone had walked past, but he was trying to be kind... After all, he had no idea what kind of news was waiting for him about Ginny.

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A/N So there's a baby on the way, and there's not gonna be a mommy.... Just so you know, that idea was based on an episode of House I saw the other day lol.