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Chapter 10

The problem was Blaine didn't know what to think. One side in him wanted to hold on to the conviction that he only had to find the one person who he was meant to be with – who he had been with already in past lives – and that he would live happily ever after then.

The other side had started to wonder whether this conviction was an excuse to not have to work for love. He had done that with Kurt, assuming everything would go right because it was fate and so never talked about his bad feelings or needs that went against Kurt's wishes – and look how that had turned out.

Now, he couldn't stop believing in something he simply believed but he also wasn't bound to make the same mistakes all over again. So if he had the luck of ever ending up in a relationship with a person he felt could be his soul mate, he would still stay true to his own feelings. Yup.

Just… was Sam such a person? No, because he didn't view Blaine that way. But they still were somehow connected, weren't they?

Blaine put the pen with that he was scrabbling on his notebook instead of doing homework down and sighed. Overthinking it wouldn't help. Looking at pics of Sam would… not, too, Blaine had forbidden himself any drooling.

He had to get a grip of himself when they hang out or their friendship would really end soon. And Blaine wanted the old times back, where Sam had been his (admittedly very hot) friend and nothing more.

He would probably find his true soul mate in college and should now concentrate on getting there. He could already see it: he and his love running hand in hand over campus, he and his love sitting on a hot summer day in a coffee shop, he and his love taking tango lessons and enchanting everyone around them with their amazing sprinkling chemistry that made the viewers have orgasms by just looking at them.

Uhem, yeah, maybe not literally but you get the point.

The way there was just something Blaine had to go through. The reward awaited him at the end of it.

Huh, he wondered whether Sam would be in New York, too. He would still be Blaine's best friend and totally love whoever Blaine's partner would be. They'd get along with each other and Sam would be there for many things, like Blaine's birthday in February, hugging him tightly, kissing him, whispering how much he loved him into his ear, and then – oops, not best friend material.

So. Algebra. Let's focus on that.

Next day after school they went to the Lima Bean. It was a perfect day, the sun was shining warmly and reminded Blaine of the fantasy he had had yesterday about the coffee shop. Just that he was here with Sam now, not his true love.

But well… at the moment Blaine wouldn't complain about that.

They got their orders and then sat down outside.

"So, how was your weekend?", Sam asked, getting rid of the lid.

"Oh, you know… ordinary. And yours? Do you like Danny?"

This wasn't how it was supposed to come out and maybe sounded a bit intrusive but Blaine just had to know.

"I do! He's amazing! Gosh, I'd never thought I could actually like boys, isn't it weird?"

"Yeah?"

Sam smiled while he drank from his coffee. Blaine nodded along although Sam didn't look at him.

He found Danny amazing? Well, Blaine thought this was really fantastic!

Just that he wanted to scream and threw the table through the air but elsewise it was fantastic.

Blaine fumbled his fingers. He so could forget eating or drinking now. Even sitting in the sun was bad. The darkness of his bed would be welcome right now. And tears, oh, one was already escaping. Blaine quickly wiped it away and tried to smile.

"Are you okay? Blaine!" Sam sounded so concerned that it was even harder to bear.

So Blaine got up. "I'm feeling dizzy. And have a headache. And my stomach… think I've eaten something wrong. I'm going home. You can have my coffee."

Sam got up, too, and followed him.

"Blaine, let me take care of you, I'm good in that!"

Blaine shook his head, made up excuses of how he just wanted to sleep and then drove home. There he called Kurt, not caring about whether he was bothering him.

"Hello?"

"Sam loves Danny! He so loves him! They're gonna get married and have babies!"

"Oh, hi Blaine."

"He's found his soul mate in Danny and I'm still alone."

Kurt sighed. Then: "You're still on to that?"

"On to what?"

"That soul mates theory. I'm just saying… you're expecting pretty much."

"And what wrong with that? When it comes to love it's just good to not make compromises!" Suddenly Blaine's tears stopped. Great. One the other hand his fist clenched and he swore to himself to find another friend with whom he could talk about love topics without being ridiculed.

"So you believe in this… theory. Okay. Still, who says you can only date your soul mate?"

"Well, I would date Sam if he only wanted to, didn't you listen? He's got Danny."

"And have you ever thought about the fact that Sam's just discovered his gay side? He needs to make some experiences. Do you want to be an experience for him or do you want to be more?"

"More", Blaine whispered. The picture of him and Sam dancing tango in New York came to his eyes and went right into his tingling guts.

"And have you told him?"

"What? No, of course not. We're on our way back to being friends."

Kurt laughed. He actually laughed right into Blaine's face (ear).

"What? Stop laughing!", he groused at him.

"I'm sorry, it's just… how on earth do you think this will work? You're head over heels in love with that boy."

"Today I almost cried in front of him because he complimented Danny", Blaine admitted.

"See? No, you can't go for just friends."

Blaine narrowed his eyes. "Well, what am I supposed to do?"

"Take up a position. Tell him how you feel. Remember that 'talking about feelings' thing? Not doing what others want you to, et cetera?"

"I'm trying to! I swear. But sometimes I think… I mean in love it's…hard."

"Yes, but it's also especially important when it comes to love! How else is the other person going to get to know you?"

"I don't know", Blaine sighed.

"And do you think is healthy and good to give up yourself for the person you love?"

"How come it sounds bad when you say it?"

"Because it is. Believe me. Adam and me, we always fight. No one of us says yes if we don't feel like it. But then we find compromises and make up."

Blaine bit his lip and tried to clear up his thoughts. Fighting was good? This all was a whole new idea to him. Before he could formulate anything Kurt said:

"You gotta love yourself, too, not only them."

"Yeah, well…"

"I'm calling you Friday and ask about it. Go and stand your man! Gotta go now, bye!"

And he was gone. Damn you Kurt, always running away just when Blaine really needed him. Not that it happened much in the last time but when they had been together… oh well, not get into that now.

But what was he supposed to do? Tell Sam… that he couldn't be friends? Then they would be nothing!

Blaine's hands trembled when he thought about that. It could also start to make Sam think, couldn't it? Up to this moment his still thought Blaine was just crushing and that he could easily get over it. Because Blaine had told him exactly that.

And even if he still said no at least Blaine would've acted on his feelings. How would that be? The thought kind of made him feel powerful. Yeah. He'd do it. Right now. Before he changed his mind.

His fingers were calling Sam before he knew what he wanted to say to him. Still trembling he held his phone to his ear.

"Blaine! Everything okay?"

"No, I mean, yes, but… I need to tell you something."

Arms and legs were soft as jelly by now. Blaine gulped and closed his eyes.

No, he couldn't do it. Sam would be angry. Or leave him, at least leave him, that's what would happen.

"I'm all ears."

"Yeah uhm…" Quick, think of something. Anything but love. But Blaine's brain was empty, there was nothing in it.

"Should I come over?"

"No, I'm on my way to bed. I just wanted to tell you… I'm sorry."

Blaine silently breathed out. Oh God, now he was lying. Again. But no love confession today, no asking for a decision. Good. He couldn't do this, he wasn't Kurt!

"For what, dude? When you're not feeling well that's just it. Know what, call me when you're up and I'll bring you some soup. We can watch a DVD and you'll be better in no time, okay?"

"Don't you have plans with Danny or something?", Blaine wanted to know. Well, not really wanted to know but he had to.

"Don't worry about that, Blaine. You're still my best friend."

"Still, you shouldn't neglet your date..."

"It's not that important. He'll understand. Or if he doesn't then I can't do much with him anyway, right, I'd need a boyfriend who can accept our close friendship."

"Yeah", Blaine mumbled. "Close friendship."

But he couldn't help it. His heart swelled over with love and his eyes tore up, this time because he was touched. Blaine laid a hand on his chest and gulped. Sam would choose him over Danny anytime.

"Thanks, Sam."

"Don't mention it, bro."

After the call Blaine actually lay down on his bed and grinned wildly. Sam was such a nice person. And he really cared for Blaine. This alone felt like heaven on earth.

Blaine so couldn't lose this. Lose Sam. No way. He'd rather suffer in his company than never have it at all.

"Is this him?"

"No. And stop asking me, it's not like we're going to get revenge or something like that."

Sam focused on his plate and put some mashed potatoes in his mouth. Every football player that passed them in the cafeteria seemed to be a suspect in his eyes.

"Right?", Blaine said. "We're gonna leave it, okay?"

Sam puckered his lips and looked up.

"They can't keep on treating you that way. It's bullying."

"It was Kitty's revenge for not giving her the role and I'm okay with it. It's over now."

"This morning she and other Cheerios shouted across the hallway how…" Sam stopped and his cheeks turned red.

"Nothing nice, I tell you."

"What did they say?"

"Something about clothing."

"Clothing?"

"Didn't really catch it", Sam mumbled, smashing his sausage.

Blaine raised an eyebrow and waited until Sam caught his look again.

"It doesn't matter, okay? It was vulgar and I won't repeat it. The point is I almost punched her. Thank God Jake was there cause I can't hit girls."

Blaine shook his head. He wouldn't go against the Cheerios or the Titans now he had finally managed to leave that environment. Engaging with them wasn't really the point here.

"Please, just leave it, okay?"

Sam shrugged and kept eating. Blaine took that as an agreement and turned his attention to other things. For example how Sam seemed to have forgotten everything that had happened during the last weeks. The only proof that it actually had changed their lives was when Sam talked about Danny.

And what a shady character Danny was. He played soccer, who did that? He didn't like dancing, what the hell? He was a crappy singer and always paid on their dates… that was just… just…

His phone buzzed. Blaine took it out and read the message. It was from Kurt. '2 days left & blaine? I know u haven't told him yet. Go on do it'

Blaine sighed and put the phone away. Who the hell did Kurt think he was to give him orders like that? Tsk.

Not that Blaine hadn't thought about it once or twice. The risk of losing Sam was too high though. And what if it faded away soon? It would anyway when Blaine met the one true love he was supposed to be with for his whole life.

With them everything would be clear, hitting it off from the moment they met, right?

Well... Okay, it hadn't been like that with Kurt. Blaine had needed some time so see how good they were for each other. So… maybe he couldn't figure out who it would be just by thinking but by actually trying it?

But no. Sam seemed so happy with Danny. And anyhow… no.

"Emergency! Blaine!"

A student from his Comic Book club came to a halt in front of the table, breathing heavily but still talking on.

"We need Nightbird! Justin… has… swallowed…"

"Oh my God, is he dying?" Blaine jumped up.

So did Sam.

"You're gonna need Blond Chameleon, too!", he said and went after the already departing student.

Blaine frowned for a few seconds, not sure if he should be angry. He had told Sam that he wanted this for himself and now he just barged in?

But first Justin needed his help. They went to the arts room where the boy was sitting, face red as fire and close to a panic. He told them he had eaten some coloured uncooked macaronis because he had thought it was sweets. So Blaine told him to calm down and rather go see the nurse.

"But it's safe to say you won't die, okay? Don't freak out."

Justin nodded and left the room with his friend.

"He has eaten a lot of them, look. Just yesterday I coloured a whole box."

Sam came from the storage room with a half-empty carton in his hands. Blaine looked at it, bit his lip and caught Sam's eyes. Talking about feelings, making a point, alright. Here we go.

"Why did you come with us? I told you I want this club as a little something for… my own."

Oh my God he sounded so selfish. How on earth was this supposed to be good? Why would he grouse at Sam for his eagerness to help people? Was Blaine the villain now?