"Hold the goddamn phone!" I stood under the arch into the kitchen "You… You met Historia!? And spent the night in her house?"
"I just said I did" She looked confused
"Explain!" I didn't know how to form sentences
"I met her on the subway last night. She looked pretty upset"-
"What!? Oh shit!" I put my hands on the top of my head and walked over to the couch where I parked my ass next to Isle "Did she say what she was upset about?"
"Well, I don't know if I can tell you"-
"Isle, I'm your cousin for fuck sake! You haven't seen me in years! Tell me"
She sighed and repositioned herself to face me "She's upset over you, dip-shit! She told me everything"-
"Me!? What did I do!? Fuck! I knew this would happen I"-
"Shut up and let me talk! Jesus Christ!" she took a deep breath "She's upset over you because she loves you"
"… Like in love with me ooorrrr she thinks I'm cool and loves me like a friend?"
"For fuck sake you haven't changed a bit" She sighed "She's in love with you, asshole"
I stood up and put my hands back on my head "Fuck" and went to my room. I went searching through my clothes
"What are you doing?" Isle asked from the couch
"Getting dressed. I'm going to go see her" I picked up a shirt and smelled it. Nice, it's clean
"You sure that's a good idea?" I could hear her voice getting closer.
"I'm never sure about anything" I answered as I pulled up my jeans "But I can't let her slip through my fingers"
She stood in the doorway of my bedroom as I walked passed her "Dude your life is like a soap opera!"
I finished buttoning up my shirt and grabbed my keys on the counter top
"So you're just gunna leave me here and go to her all dramatic!?" She asked "It's not like I only just got here or anything" sarcasm was a family trait.
"Isle, I gotta do this. I can't fuck this up" I opened the door "Make yourself at home and I'll be back as soon as I can"
"Wait!" She called "At least give me your phone number so I can call you!"
I stepped back inside and wrote down my number on a Titan's Pizza menu "Okay, you need anything, just call"
"Whatever. Go to your woman and give her an extra kiss for me you drama queen" She smiled
"Will do" I smiled back before closing the door behind me.
I ran down the stairs and out the front door. My car was parked right outside. I got in and turned the key in the ignition before reversing and finally getting on the road.
Fuck… FUCK… FUUUUUCK! What are you doing, Ymir? What in the name of shit are you doing!? Going to her apartment? What the hell are you even going to say to her!? "Hi Historia ah hurr durr I'm an asshole and you're amazing..?... I love you… even though I shouldn't and even though this is so fucked up…" this is so fucked up.
I stopped at a red light and pressed my forehead to the steering wheel "Uggghhhhh! I should turn around… she probably doesn't want to see me. She probably won't even open the door" I sighed "What if she told Pixis not to let me in?... NO STOP THINKING LIKE THAT, YMIR! YOU ARE ARGUING WITH YOURSELF! JUST GO TO HER GO GO GO!"
The light turned green and I put my foot down on the accelerator.
Remember the last time you wanted to back out, Ymir? The Christmas party? You can do it, you didn't back out then and you're not gunna now!... God you really are a drama queen…
I parked as close to her apartment as I could. I took off my seatbelt and sat in my car for a minute gathering my thoughts. Running over what I was going to say to her in my head. Once I had built up the courage (and wished I had a drink of whiskey) I got out of the car and paid for parking.
Don't turn back. No turning back…
I walked up to the front door where I was met by Pixis.
"Ymir?"
"Hey Pixis" I tried to smile
"You two alright? She hasn't come out of her apartment all day" He asked. He seemed genuinely concerned
I sighed "I don't know. I hope so… At least I know she's home… She say anything to you?"
"Nope" He shrugged like he was apologising. He opened the door for me "Go on up"
"Thanks" I patted his shoulder as I passed him.
I got into the elevator and took a couple more deep breaths. The elevator ride felt even longer than the car journey. Finally it stopped and the doors opened.
I walked down the hallway towards her door
You know what you're gunna say to her. Just say it. Do it. Tell her. Fucking tell her!
I reached her door and composed myself "I love you" I whispered to myself in practice "I love you a lot and the past couple of months have been amazing and I love spending time with you and you're amazing and fuck work we can still keep it a secret" I nodded to myself and rang the doorbell.
I am going to shit my pants
After another eternity (it was probably ten seconds) she opened the door. The second she saw me her eyes went wide "Ymir"-
"Listen before you say anything I… I… I-fuck it" I held her face and kissed her with as much mushy-gay-pretty-cute-love as I could. After another eternity I withdrew and pressed my forehead to hers "I love you" I whispered.
"I love you too" She smiled but it dropped "My parents are here"
"Oh" I looked over her head and saw them on the couch looking at us "Oh shhhhhiiii"-
"Mom, Dad… This is Ymir" She turned and held my hand, leading me towards the armchair. If she didn't drag me I'm pretty sure I'd still be standing at the door in shock… although to be perfectly honest, her parents looked just as shocked as I did.
"Sit" She gestured to me. I did as I was told and she sat on my lap "You want tea or anything?" She asked me
I took a second to register with me "Uh, no… to be honest I think I need something a lot stronger"
"Me too" Her father gulped
I don't know if she was calm or just good at hiding her panic but Historia never faltered. She left to get me and her father a drink as we just sat there opened mouthed gawking at each other. Soon enough her step mother interjected
"So… um, Yimr… ah… god where to start?" she laughed slightly trying to lighten the mood "You're… you're a woman"
I nodded, unable to use my goddamn mouth.
Luckily enough, Historia came back and set two bottles of beer on the coffee table before sitting back on my lap.
"A Lesbian…?"
I nodded again.
Her father finally came out of shock "What!? Excuse me? Just explain this to me! Are you gay, sweet heart?"
She took a deep breath and held my hand. This is a big moment for her. I remember coming out to my parents.
"I'm bisexual, Dad… I like both"
My heart was pounding in my chest. I could only imagine how hard hers was thumping.
Her step mother spoke up "Well…" She turned to her husband and whispered "How is this going to look if word gets out that your daughter is currently batting for the other team?"
"What do you mean?" He asked back but never took his eyes off Historia and myself.
I gripped her hand and she gripped mine a little tighter.
I was not expecting this. Wow… talk about a baptism in fire
"Conservative customers?"
"Customers?" He asked finally looking to his wife
Hold the fucking phone here! Is she worried about a fucking business?
"Whoa!" I spoke out "Let me get this straight"- (lol straight) –"Your daughter has just told you something huge! Do you know how terrifying it is to be in her shoes right now? And you're worried about a business!? Do you realise how fucked up that sounds!?"-
"Ymir" her father spoke up "I'm not worried about the business" he smiled reassuringly
"You're not?" His wife asked almost in disgust
"No!" He got on his knees in front of Historia. He held her free hand "Sweetheart, I love you and more than anything I want you to be happy. I get worried about you and I guess I forget that you're a grown woman sometimes but I never want you to feel scared telling me things"-
"So… you're cool with it…? You're not mad?" She asked
He laughed "Not at all. The only way I'll be mad is if she hurts you. I know I just said you're all grown up but you're still my little girl" He kissed her hand
"Wow. That went way better than expected" I sank into the armchair and laughed "Wow, I wish my parents were that cool with it"-
"Wait here a second!" The evil step mother spoke up "your daughter is with a woman!"
"I know! Isn't it great!" He smiled like a kid on Christmas. He held out his hand to me "Hi, Ymir. I'm Lod"
"Hi" I shook his hand. He stood up and sat back on the couch next to his wife. He picked up his beer and necked it "Wow, I needed that"
"Tori" her step mom turned to us "Are you sure you're…"
"Bisexual? One hundred percent sure. I think I've always been but, I never met a woman I found attractive, until I met Ymir"
I sat forward and followed in her father's footsteps by necking the beer. My phone started vibrating in my pocket.
I took it out and answered it "Yo?"
"Ymir!" Isle "Where you at?"
"Historia's apartment… with her parents"
"oh" she sounded sorry for me
"Yeah, I don't know when I'll be home" I admitted "I just had a beer"
"Oh, okay… everything okay?"
"Yeah" I smiled "I'll see you later"
"Okie dokie"
"Bye"
"Bye!"
I hung up the phone and sighed. I looked up to see her parents standing over us
"We better be going" Lod stated
Historia stood and I followed as we all made our way towards the door
"It was great meeting you, Ymir" he shook my hand again as Historia opened the door "How about I treat the two of you to dinner next weekend? I'd love to get to know you"
"I'd like that" I smiled in return.
He kissed his daughters cheek "Take care, Sweetheart"
Her step mother simply nodded as she passed me and did the same to Historia as she left. Historia closed the door and leaned against it with a sigh of relief. She looked at me "Wow" She laughed lightly
"Wow" I replied as I took a step over to her.
She stood up and fell against me in a tight hug "Thank you" she murmured against my chest.
"Why are you thanking me!? You just came out to your dad and stepmother!" I smiled before kissing the top of her head.
She looked up at me "I wouldn't have done it if you weren't here"
"You wouldn't have needed too" I felt kinda bad
"I'm glad I did" She kissed me. She withdrew and hummed happily "So… you love me" She had a huge shit eating grin on her face
"Fuck" I chuckled and let go of her. But before I could get far enough away from her she grabbed my collar and pulled me into a deep kiss.
She pushed me backwards and I fell onto the couch. She climbed on top of me and continued the kiss. My hands began to wander upwards under her t-shirt.
She stopped the kiss "Y'know, we never did finished what we started the other day. I was too tired to tie you to a chair last night"
I had the biggest smile on my face "We could pick up where we left off" I began to kiss her neck
"I would like that" she giggled
Fucking hell this woman is so sexy
She sat up, straddling me. I sat up too and held her back before attacking her neck with my mouth again. My hand reached for her bra and I unhooked it
She gasped slightly "Y'know what, fuck it. Tying you up would take too long, I can't wait"
"Me either" I growled against her skin before pulling her t-shirt over her head and slipping her bra off her shoulders.
I kissed her torso, gently nipping at the skin, working my way to her breasts. I began to lightly nibble on and flick her left nipple with my tongue. I could feel her hands scratching down my back looking for the bottom of my shirt. Once she found it she pulled it over my head too.
Needless to say, we were both in for a good afternoon.