It was only when I felt his lips on mine that I actually realized what I just did. At first I was shocked with myself, then felt guilty because Gamzee probably didn't know what the hell was going on. I sighed, blowing air out my nose, and got ready to push him off of me. However, that plan was thrown out the window when Gamzee tilted his head and started moving into the kiss.
Since this was my first kiss as far as I was concerned, I tried to move with it. It felt clumsy and wet, with our mouths moving against each others. As our kiss got deeper and more... Er, 'hot and heavy' if I can say that, I wrapped my arms around his neck and tried to work with him.
I was soon out of breath and could not breath fast enough through my nose. I opened my mouth wide and sucked in air, and turned my head sideways when Gamzee tried to stick his tongue in my mouth.
I panted heavily, trying to calm my nerves, which felt like someone shocked electricity through me. I squealed loudly when I felt something warm and wet pressed against my neck. I whipped my head around and gave him a stern look.
"You did not just lick me." I said. He gave me a lopsided grin, and started to lean down to kiss me again. I put my hand on his chest and pushed him off of me. He turned and sat next to me as I sat up. Thoughts raced through my mind. Most of them where something like, "WHAT." Just, what? We just kissed.
I groaned and put my face in my hands. Well, what now... Were we 'lovers' now? It was odd to imagine us as lovers. In this room with no one else, would it be possible? It almost seems inevitable.
"Tav, you okay, bro?" He asked me, his voice full of concern for me. I lifted my head out of my hands and turned to him. "Gamzee... Do you like me?" I asked him. Since my feels were obvious to me, I wondered if he felt the same. I'm not saying I was in love with him or anything! I just know that I'm attracted to him in some way!
He tilted his head to the side and leaned back, supporting himself on his arms. "Well... I do. Why do you ask?" He asked me. I cursed myself inwardly, and tried to explain the situation to him.
"Well, when two people like each other, they, uh, do what we... Just... Did..." I felt my face heat up as the memory came hurdling back to me. "But, it's more than liking someone. It's, uh, love..." I said, completely embarrassed.
"Love is when... You really care for someone. And, you want to be with them all the time. Well, maybe not all the time, but maybe most of the time? And you feel real light and you feel warm around them..." Oh, God, this was the shittiest explanation of love in the history of ever.
"Well, I dunno about all that, but I do know that I get some motherfuckin' warm feelings when I'm with you, little bro." He said, grinning at me. Wait, whaaaat?! Whoa, whoa, whoa, STOP. Gamzee had a 'thing' for me?! I mean, I know I did, but c'mon! This was too awesome.
I started laughing and laughing, throwing my head back and giggling like a child. Gamzee stared at me like I was crazy or something. I probably was, who knows. But it felt great to feel a crack of relief in this sexual tension. Or just, regular tension as it is.
"Uh..." I heard him sound out. I tuned to him, hugging myself and smiling. "Sorry, it's just... I dunno, I've liked you like... This for a while now, so..." I tailed off awkwardly. I mean, I did like Gamzee a lot, and maybe romantically as well. But I suppose there's no use in avoiding this anymore.
I suddenly felt a warm hand atop of mine. I looked up and found myself gazing into Gamzee's eyes. "Tav, I dunno what you're all up and trying to say, but I know that I feel motherfucking warm around you." He smiled, and I tilted my head sideways a bit.
"Warm...?" I questioned. He took his other hand and rubbed the back of his head with it. "Well, you know... I get all warm and happy when I'm with you. And when we kissed," He had to paused because he giggled to himself a bit. "I felt like, that was motherfuckin' right, you know?" I stared at him. Did Gamzee like me?
I smiled softly, and leaned in to pres my forehead against his. "I guess I do to? I guess we can..." I hesitated, not knowing if using the term was alright in our situation. "Date for awhile?" I felt so awkward saying that.
"I don't see why motherfucking not." He said, and kissed me again.
I'm so sorry for this short and shitty chapter, but I could not work with this. My goal was to get them into a relationship, and now my goal is achieved. Everyone, brace yourself up against something solid, because your feels are about to get destroyed in the next few chapters.