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I found the memory pen. So here's the next chapter.

Have you all heard about the movie? That's right. The movie rights to the book have been purchased. How awesome is that! I always thought that it would make a good movie, now we get to see.

Anyway, enjoy the chapter...

"Hi Mel," doc said.

"Hi," I answered giving him a slight smile.

"Feeling well I presume," he said

"Very well, thanks"

"Good, good." And the conversation ended there. If it could even be classed as a conversation. We fell into a very uncomfortable silence. Maggie and Sharon just stared at me and smiled. And, I still couldn't believe that they were smiling. Jared just placed his hand lightly on my leg as a sign of comfort, and nothing more. Jamie seemed oblivious to it all, and continued to eat his food.

I think Maggie must have been trying to convince herself to talk because her mouth opened and closed a quite a few times. She finished her meal without a word, and Sharon followed in suit. Doc finished his meal, and got up and left. That left me, Jared, Jamie, Sharon and Maggie. Jamie had also finished his meal and was looking at me impatiently. He expected me to talk to them! After everything they have done to me, well not me, but you know what I mean.

"So, how was work today?" Jamie said, looking at Sharon. Of course, he chooses now to play devils advocate and try and get us all to be one big happy family. Not gonna happen.

"Fine, thanks. What happened to you?"

"Jeb gave us some time off. For Mel." He gave me a nudge.

"Oh, yeah. I remember him say something about that." Maggie chimed in, pleasantly. I couldn't take it. All the pleasantries were getting to me. It was like taking the pin out of grenade. It was only a matter of time before I exploded. I stood up abruptly. Shocking Jamie and the two people, who I can now say, will never be part of my family again. I've said it before. Hate is a strong word. It applies here. In the purest form of the word. I hate them!

"I can't do this," I said looking at Jared, he understood. He didn't even jump when I got up. He could feel the tension and he knew why I was being like this.

"Mel," Sharon started, but that was all she said.

"NO!" I shouted, too loudly. We had an audience now. I started again. "No! Don't even speak too me. Not after what you've done. After what you've been like. It was me still. I was there, even when you knew, you still continued with the vendetta. And now, she's gone. And I'm sure that you are very pleased about that. But I'm not. I can't be. She was my friend. She proved her loyatly to you. She took care a Walter and fell in love with Ian. She belongs here. She belongs here more than you do. She is more human than you. She is kind, she shows compassion. You do not! And I am ashamed that you are part of my family. I'm ashamed that I ever went to look for you," I was now getting louder. And at this point, I didn't care who was watching. I just needed to get it out. Express my true emotions. Grieve, I suppose. That's one of the five stages. Anger. Well I was angry. Actually, angry was a nice word for what I felt like. I was fuming, annoyed, irritated, furious, enraged, mad, and ferocious. I was glad to be finally getting it out. It had been like a day, and a day to long at that. I don't do the whole bottle up your emotions thing. Well, maybe I did when it came to the whole crying bit, but anger. Anger always escaped me. I always had to let it out.

"She was my friend! And she's my family. She means more to me than you to do, and ever will again." Then a sudden thought came to me. If this is how I react to Sharon and Maggie. How will I react when I see Kyle? He tried to kill her, me, us. If the anger took over me like it had now, then I'll probably try and kill him and see how he likes it. I know, I know. Two wrongs don't make a right. But it my current state of mind, I do not care. If were doing the whole cliché thing, then and eye for and eye fits in this situation.

Maggie and Sharon were looking at me is disbelief as I turned and went to storm out of the kitchens. Jared followed. Jamie stayed. I don't think Jamie will be asking me to talk to anymore of them. I was still fuming as I walked out of the kitchens. Jared was a few steps behind me.

"Mel, wait. Slow down" he said. I turned. I was mad. Not just mildly made, but full on 'I'm gonna kill someone' mad. And Jared was just standing there. I still had anger to get out. He was the only one here, I knew I would regret it later but I did it anyway.

"And you," I screamed. "You're no better. You must have known I was there. You kissed her. You kissed me. Twice, no less." Angry tears were filling my eyes and I was now standing directly in front of Jared. I slapped him on the chest in an angry way.

"You. You hit me. You showed me know kindness, you hurt me. You broke my heart. I was dying inside when you hit me." I continued to slap, and hit, and punch his chest as it let everything out. The tears were now streaming down my face.

"You! You! You showed her no compassion. She was kind and nice, and everything that a human should be. She was as good as human. She got me here. She turned her back on world full of her people to help me. She's the most selfless person I knew. She is impossible to not like. She does everything that a human should." I was sobbing now. I was in mourning. I missed Wanda, like I would miss a hand or a foot. I needed her. She was my closes friend and I loved her. I had continued to hit Jared but with no force behind it. He put his arms around me and let me cry. I wept in his arms for what seemed like a lifetime. He just held me there, comforting me. Say nothing. Feeling guilty no doubt. I didn't mean for that you happen. He was all I had right now, and I loved him. More than anything, I loved him.

"sorry," he whispered as my sobs subsided a little.

"me to," I managed to say in between my sobs. I was fighting for control of my emotions. One minute I feel as if I could kill someone, the next I feel as if I can't do anything. Like I'm just to worn out, emotionally, to be able to feel anything. All in all, now, I felt numb. Nothing was there. I had lost my sister and my best friend. I assaulted the love of my life. I probably just scared Jamie half to death with the shouting, at my family. I would apologise to Jamie, but Maggie and Sharon would never get an apology out of me. Never.

I had held a little bit of anger back when I was shouting at Jared, and Maggie and Sharon. Just enough to shout at Kyle. To make him feel guilty, in the wrong. And after shouting, and blaming him. He would never get an apology.

I managed to stop crying, but Jared never let go. And if I was being honest, I didn't want him to. I slowly recovered form my numb emotional state, and feeling were coming back to me. Love swelled in my heart. Then sadness and grief took over that. I was slowly getting back to the state I was in before I went to the kitchens.

This chapter is a little be longer than the other. Not by to much though.

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