I can't update as often sorry! Enjoy!
Aislynn was now three months and Spencer was returning to school soon. Aislynn was now smiling and was developing hand eye coordination. She was able to grab the toys that dangled from her bouncer and she was able to grab peoples clothes, hands, and hair. "You need to quit pulling on mommy's hair," Spencer giggled at Aislynn.
Aislynn smiled still holding on to fist full's of hair. Spencer and Toby couldn't resist her smile. Even if she was pulling hair she was forgiven. "Let me get that for you," Toby said trying to untangle Spencer's hair from Aislynn's hands. "So what are your plans for the day?" Toby asked.
"I'm just waiting for Aria to call me after her doctor appointment," Spencer said handing Aislynn over to Toby.
"What for?" Toby noticed her trying to escape.
"She just wants to talk," Spencer said avoiding Toby's eyes.
"Spence, what aren't you telling me?" Toby lifted her chin , forcing her to look at him.
"If I tell you, you can't tell anybody," Spencer pointed her finger at him. "Not even Emily."
"Ok?" Toby took a seat on the couch and set Aislynn on his lap. "What's going on?"
"Well the only reason Aria is confiding in me is because… she… thinks she might be… uh pregnant," Spencer stuttered.
"What? Why?" Toby was shocked.
"Well she was asking me what my symptoms were because she's having the usual, headaches, fever, nausea. I told her I wouldn't be much help because I never experienced a lot of symptoms." Spencer laid back on the couch, "She's totally freaking out."
"Well maybe it's just a bug?" Toby offered.
"That's what she thought, but it's been going on for over a week." Just as Spencer finished her sentence her phone buzzed. "That must be Ar-" Spencer looked at her phone, "Why is Ezra calling me?" Spencer hesitated before answering the phone.
"Hello?" Spencer sounded suspicious.
"Aria wanted me to call you," Ezra sounded chocked up.
"Why? Is everything ok?" Spencer was worried.
"I'm not sure yet. She told me this morning that she thought she was pregnant. When we came in to find out they told us she wasn't pregnant." Ezra's voice was getting harder to understand.
"Well that's good news right?" Spencer was beginning to wonder if they wanted to get pregnant. But Aria was smarter then that right?
"That's not that bad news," Ezra was silent. Spencer heard a small sob escape Ezra's throat. "They are referring her to an oncologist."
"What?! How? Why?" Spencer almost collapsed to the floor.
"After they took the pregnancy test the doctor thought they should run some other tests to see if there was another reason for the symptoms. When the blood test came back she had an abnormal amount of white blood cells. Which is common when someone has leukemia," Ezra sounded numb.
Spencer was silent. It made sense. The symptoms would be similar, but she would have never thought this is what the results would be. "Well you never know the doctor could be wrong. That's why they are sending her to an oncologist right?" Spencer could feel the tears stinging her eyes. "They are probably wrong. She's not sink. She can't be." Spencer's tears were rolling down her cheeks at an unbelievable rate.
"I hope you're right," Ezra started to weep.
"What should I do? Does she want me to come see her? Does she want to be alone?" Spencer tried to pull her self together.
Toby put Aislynn on her blanket and rushed over to Spencer. He rubbed her back as she sobbed into the phone.
"She's with Ella and Byron right now. I think she wants to be alone for a while. She said she will let you know when she is ready to see you guy's."
"Ok. Please keep me updated. And tell her I love her and I miss her. Tell her I'm here if she needs anything at all," Spencer squeezed her eyes shut trying to stop the tears from falling.
"I will. I'm going to call Hanna and Emily later today," Ezra sighed.
"You can call me too Ezra if you need someone to talk to. Toby and I are here for you too," Spencer assured him.
"Thank you," Ezra's voice broke. "I got to go. I will keep you updated. Bye Spencer."
Spencer dropped her face into Toby's chest and let her phone hit the ground. She sobbed until she had nothing left in her. Toby just held her and told her he loved her over and over. He offered to do anything to help her.
"All I can think about is all the times that I canceled plans on her because I was busy," Spencer sniffled.
"Hey don't do that to yourself. She understands, you're a mom you have responsibilities now," Toby kissed her forehead. "This doesn't mean anything yet. It's not positive that she has Leukemia."
"But what if she does? I can't loose her! She's one of my best friends!" Spencer cried.
"I know. But you need to be strong for her, she needs you. You need to stay positive, so that she can get through this."
Spencer started to calm down, "You're right. I just don't know what I would do without her." Spencer hugged Toby for what felt like days. Her whole world was turned around, and it felt like she was powerless to fix it.
"Ill be here for you Spence. What ever you or Aria need I'll be here for you."
Three days later it was confirmed that Aria did have Leukemia. The good news was that 80-90% of people can get rid of leukemia. However it had a 40% chance of relapsing. The girls took turns staying with Aria. Ezra was with her as much as possible and so were her parents. On Friday's Spencer didn't have school so she would take Aislynn over to visit Aria. On the weekends if Aria was up to visitors Spencer would come as much as possible. She would call her after school everyday to make sure she was ok. Aria had been receiving chemotherapy for three weeks now and hopefully only had one week left.
"Spence, I'm ok. Ezra is here. Emily just visited me like ten minutes ago. I'm actually really tired," Aria yawned into the phone.
"Ok," Spencer didn't argue. "But call me at anytime if you need me. Even if it's in the middle of the night."
"I will. Go spend time with your boyfriend and your daughter, they probably miss you." Aria scolded Spencer. "I'm serious. You are always at school or with me. I'll see you on Friday."
"Alright. I love you," Spencer said for the hundredth time in ten minutes.
"I know. You tell me every second of every day. I love you too, bye."
Spencer rolled her eyes and laughed. She was glad Aria was being pretty positive about the whole thing. She knew she was acting like an overbearing mother but she just felt so bad. But she was glad to go home straight from school and spend time with Toby and Aislynn.
As soon as Spencer entered the apartment she saw Toby holding Aislynn on the couch. He had her laying on his legs and he was tickling her making her laugh. Spencer's heart nearly broke. She felt like she hadn't seen either one of them in weeks unless they were both sleeping. Toby turned his head when he heard Spencer close the door. "I thought you'd be at Aria's?"
"No, she was tired." Spencer greeted Toby with a kiss. She scooped Aislynn up and gave her tons of kisses from her neck to her lips to her hands. Aislynn giggled as Spencer blew a raspberry on her stomach. "I missed my baby girl," she said in a high voice.
Toby got up, "I'll make us some dinner then."
Spencer sat down on the couch and played with Aislynn making her laugh some more. She loved hearing that sound. "I'm sorry I've been away from you so much lately," Spencer apologized to Toby.
"It's no problem, I understand." Toby started boiling spaghetti noodles. "How is Aria?"
"Well the treatment makes her feel like crap. But it sounds like it's going pretty good so far."
"That's good," Toby smiled at her.
Spencer took Aislynn in to her room to change her. She felt so guilty leaving Toby to care for Aislynn by himself lately. Of course he wouldn't complain to her, but she wondered if he was getting frustrated. She also felt guilty because Aislynn was growing fast, and she was missing out on important things. She missed the first time Aislynn laughed. She knew it wasn't her fault, but she couldn't help but feel bad.
"Dinner's ready!" Toby yelled down the hall.
Spencer picked up Aislynn and walked into the kitchen. She put Aislynn in her bouncy chair next to the table. "This looks great Toby," Spencer said looking at her plate.
"This is for all the stress you've been through," Toby smiled.
"Well I'm sure I'm not the only one who's been stressed. Everyday you get off work and you go pick up Aislynn from daycare, and then you take care of her and put her to bed before I get home," Spencer frowned.
"Yeah but you go to school. You take care of Aria. Then you come home and study or write papers. Then you get like two hours of sleep and wake up early so you can spend some time with Aislynn. You win," Toby winked at Spencer.
"We are so young, yet we deal with so much." Spencer picked up both of their dirty plates and started the dishes. Spencer nearly dropped the dishes on the floor. "OH MY GOD!" Spencer said turning around.
"What? What's wrong?" Toby looked concerned.
"It's your birthday tomorrow! I Totally forgot!" Spencer gasped. "I am the worst girlfriend ever!" Spencer looked like she might cry.
"Spence, it's not a big deal. I don't do anything anyways normally," Toby rolled his eyes.
"Are you kidding me?! It's your twenty first birthday! Of course we are going to do something!" Spencer scolded.
Toby started warming up a bottle for Aislynn. "No we are not."
"Yes we are!" Spencer argued. "I will call Emily tomorrow to see if she can watch Aislynn. Then we can go do something fun, whatever you want to do."
Toby was going to argue back but he knew she wouldn't give in. So he settled for rolling his eyes, "fine."