Jay was squishing swiftly and slowly through a crowd of people at Spinner's house party, he had that Hogart smirk and he was looking a little better.
His eyes were on Emma who stood with Manny and Liberty in the middle of the party, laughing and talking until Emma caught him watching her, tried not to smile, and went back to her conversation with the girls.
"Here yea go" Spinner said, as Jay got to him and tossed him a beer, he was standing with his new girl friend Darcy.
Before Jay even took one sip, Emma grabbed the beer and he protested "Hey" he then saw it was her and shut his mouth that twitched, trying to hold back his grin.
Spinner and Darcy shared a look, someone keeping Jay from partying? This'll be interesting.
He went to grab it but she hid it behind her back "Emma..." he warns and she just raised an eyebrow "It's just a beer!"
"You just got out of the hospital 6 hours ago Jay" she exclaims.
He smirks "nah, I think you care about me" he smugly said and Emma glared at his cockiness.
"I think your full of shit" Emma said and he just smiled down at her and she hid hers.
"Jay" came a voice splitting the two up.
Oh great, Amy.
"Heard you got sick" She put her hands on his arms,. "I can make it better" she smirks seducingly.
Emma rolled her eyes as Jay rolled his as well. But Emma didn't see it and just gave him back his beer "Have fun"
Was that bitter in her voice?
Jay watched her go back over to Liberty and Manny and couldn't take his eyes off her, even as Amy waved her hand in front of his face.
Emma was somethin' alright..
Back at home Jay took his usual spot on the ground with his blankets and pillows. Emma and him stayed awake as they just talked while she laid in her bed too.
"Did you ever pick out your porn name?" Emma asks since they couldn't really sleep...and she had a feeling he couldn't either.
Jay had to smile while shaking his head slightly on his pillow, laying on his back "What are you talking about?" he asks.
"Your porn name" Emma says again "Um, you know. You take the name of your first pet and your Grand Mothers maiden name, you put them together" silence. Jay had to laugh and Emma rolled her eyes smiling on her bed "What was the name of your first pet?"
"I've only had one" admits Jay and Emma listened "I had a dog named Rocket" he admits and Emma giggled a little. "Grandmothers maiden name...Rowe" he told her.
"Rocket Rowe" Emma said "Nice"
Jay closed his eyes to then open them, grinning a little "What's yours?"
"I had a bunny named Bunny" Emma said.
"Your named your bunny Bunny?" Jay oddly said and Emma mhm'd. Jay chuckled softly, classic Emma. Probably named her Fish, fish.
"Mother's maiden name is Nelson" she recalls.
"Bunny Nelson." drifts Jay looking up at the cieling "Dawons freaks, starring Rocket Rowe and Bunny Nelson" silence "Nice" he mocked her back, a crooked grin showing off his face.
"Shut up" Emma playfully said and sank more into her covers, smiling and oh god, was she blushing? Emma tried to whipe that off her face and tried to drift to sleep.
In the middle of the night Emma slowly got up from her bed hearing some gag noises.
She frowned sadly walking over to the bathroom where the door was left open.
There was Jay, sitting beside the toilet, tiredly sitting against the tub with his eyes closed, just trying to get one second of feeling better.
He hasn't puked yet, but it looked like he was going too.
Emma also sadly noticed he was shaking. Probably going through withdrawal..
This is what drugs did to you. Emma remembered,well, barely thank god. But when she was little her mom use to cry over her real dads drug use a lot
Jay looked over seeing Emma awake and sitting next to him to let a breath of relief out a bit.
"Feel like I'm dying" he softly admits feeling his stomach clenching and looks to her to feel a bit better.
Even in the middle of the night her eyes shined.
"close to" Emma teased while leaning on the tub with him.
"Thanks Greenpeace" joked Jay leaning his head to the side looking at her as she giggled a bit tiredly yet pulled her knees up to her chest, staying there with him.
He had no idea there was real people like her.. so caring, no matter what..and not fake about it.
"So.. what is it?" Emma had to softly ask, not being able to look at him though.
Jay sucked in a shakey breath, "Cocain." even saying it out loud made him want it. "Im sorry for putting you through this" he softly admits
"No harm" Emma teased shrugging a bit, "Least you're going to get better."
Jay frowned deeply, she had so much faith but...could he get better? It was so hard.. He watched her as she looked down smiling softly and he admired her
She was so beautiful.
He could always remember the way she smelt, the vanilla.
The way her curves were shaped and how her smile lit up a room.. yeah she drove him crazy but a good crazy.
Silence.
"I can't stop thinking about you" Jay suddenly admitted.
What did he have to lose?
Emma looked at him and they locked eyes. He looked so calm about itand she had a confused look on
Did he just say that?
"Jay.." Emma drifts not being able to know what to say
"I shouldn't of dragged you into this. Your better than it.. and you obviously been through it with someone already" Jay guessed
"It's why I wanna help you Jay" Emma confirms still looking down
Silence.
Jay softly put his hand on the further side of her face and she melted to his touch as he slowly turned her to face him
He begged silently for her to look at him while moving his head a bit to catch her eye and it worked.
He swallowed hard, "You\re the only reason I'm trying.." he confessed and her chest ached
...oh my god..
Jay and her slowly closed eyes while he leaned down and Emma's lips were inches away from his
"I can't" Emma suddenly whispered and pulled away a bit while putting her hand on his which was lowered from her face.
In sadness he held her hand back tighter while looking down.
"I'll stop" he promised
"Not that easy" Emma admitted with a sad smile and looked down to his hand holding hers, she held back for reassurance but shook her head no, "We've done this before, and I'm with someone now." she looked him in the eye, "I hope you win this, but.."
"I'll get better." he said firmly, desperately. He wanted her so badly.. did she think he wanted her on his mind 24/7.. all he thought about, it killed him that she was with someone else.
"That's exactly what my Dad told my mom." Emma sniffed a bit and tears welled up. Jay's mouth hung a bit..so it was her Dad?
"..just wait" he says wanting to prove he can get through this and Emma gave a soft laugh as he looked back to her with a sad smile.
Silence.
"you might wanna leave" Jay admitted looking away from her and she gave a confused look, slightly hurt.
Did he hate her now?
"In other words I'm going to puke" Jay explained crawling up and Emma quickly shot up
"Oh, ew" Emma commented and went out closing the door behind her hearing him chuckle a bit.
She smiled a bit getting back into bed, thankful she couldn't hear any of that. She then frowned and curled into a little ball.
She hoped he got better..
She couldn't be with someone addicted or doing..that.
But she believed in him, and deep down, did want to be with him. Her heart was still thumping in her chest, she had tried so hard to not look so obvious infront of him.
Jay was leaning back against the tub thinking of her and catching his breath. He'd do it. He'd show her he could make her happy more than Peter ever could.
Some say love is not for sinners And you told me how to get there
I believe that isn't true
'Cause when I was finished sinning
Love came down and showed me you
so I tried to find a way,
I ran through the garden,
but I tripped on the gate,
but I tripped on the gate.
What are you doing to me?
I'm so into you
And the hardest part is knowing
That I'll never follow through
You're slowly killing me
And I wish it wasn't true
Cause I'm so into you