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Edward's POV
It was the day before the wedding and it felt like my world was ending. It had no meaning without Bella. It was for the best that I never called. That way she would conclude that I died instead of finding out I was getting married. This wasn't fair for her. She shouldn't have to go through whatever she might be going through for me. Even if it pained me to think it, it would be best if she already forgot me. Being apart, she would forget me and move on. She would be in another man's arms loving him how she did me. It ripped me apart trying to imagine her with someone else and happy.
The water from my shower was getting cold so I turned it off. I grabbed my towel and stepped out. My mother was having a dinner here for the Volturi; I had no choice but to attend.
After dressing, I headed out to see if Esme needed any help.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I'm Jane Volturi, soon to be Jane Cullen- Edward's fiancé." I stepped out and saw Jane speaking on the phone.
"They hung up; how rude." She placed the phone down and turned towards me. "Oh hello Edward."
"Who were you talking to?" I asked.
"Some person who wanted to talk to you but they didn't leave a name." She informed.
"Either way I don't know anybody here. Did you have to tell them we're… getting…married?" It burned my throat saying that word.
"It's true isn't it?" She picked up her wine glass from the coffee table and walked towards the kitchen.
I sighed and walked after her to 'greet' everyone else.
After greetings, I walked back to the living room and sat down with whisky in hand.
If I could go back, everything would be the same. She would be upset for not calling but she would get passed it. I could propose to her and plan our wedding together. She would want something small but I would make sure that Alice turned it into something extravagant, what Bella deserved. We would go on our honeymoon and start the family that we talked about. A baby from Bella. If it were a girl, I would plead to name it after her- Isabella. If it were to be, a boy there would be no chance for her to name him after me.
"Why are you so lonely?" A disturbing voice asked.
"I want to be alone." I said bitterly.
"I know that you don't love me, that you are in love with a girl back in the states. I really am sorry Edward about all of this. I never wanted this. I wanted to be happy as well with my love." She got up and started walking away.
"You aren't a bad person. I just can't love anyone but Bella." I said gulping down the whisky until it burned.
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I found it hard to sleep at night. I always fell asleep thinking of Bella but this time was different. It was like a vivid dream but I felt conscious in it.
Bella was in a dark room crying and shredding a wedding dress with a knife. Her make up was running down her face and her hair was choppy. I tried going to her but each time she would move back and yell 'I trusted you.' In the back, everyone appeared Alice, Jasper, Rose, and Emmett. On the other side, Jane appeared with a wedding gown twirling in joy.
Bella got up and ran, she ran but fell. "Bella!" I ran after her and helped her up into my arms. "I loved you." She whispered before disappearing from beneath my arms.
I searched around me and one by one everyone else disappeared too. I was alone. I had no one else.
"Bella!" I woke up frantically panting and sweating. My shirt penetrated with sweat. I threw back the covers and walked to the window. The moon was bright and lit up everything. If Bella looked outside, she would be able to see the same moon.
Time had passed so slowly here. It tore me seeing Bella the night before I left, she was miserable and I had no one to blame but myself. Emmett, who was my closest friend apart from Jasper, probably hated me right now whether he thought me dead or alive. He was Bella's brother and I knew he would do anything for his sister.
I was felling hot after the dream, I wouldn't be able to sleep like that. I walked into the shower and let the ice-cold water penetrate my skin. I stood there frozen thinking of how in a matter of hours I would lose Bella completely.
I wrapped a towel around my waist, walked to my room, and pulled my bag from the closet. I hadn't unpacked everything yet. I grabbed a clean pair of boxers, sweat pants, and slipped them on. From the corner of my eye, I saw something fall out from the bag but I didn't see where it fell.
I laid out the top blanket from the bed onto the ground and closed my eyes. Once I woke up again the beginning to the end of my life would begin.
"Edward. Edward get up son." I heard Carlisle trying to wake me up but once I opened my eyes, I would be in the reality in which I would sign my own death sentence.
"I'm up." I threw the covers back and stared up at my father.
"I'm sorry son." Was all he said and walked out of the room.
I threw on a shirt and went out for a run.
I had been running for a while when I came across a cascade. The sound was soothing and load. The anger and the resentment I had bottled in me was threatening to erupt. I had a huge knot inside my through that wanted to combust.
"Aghhhhhhhhhhh!!!" I screamed. "Aghhhhhhhhhhhh!" it mimicked the roar of the water.
I fell onto the mud on my knees. I had time to throw all this away. Find a way to the airport and leave but I couldn't do that to my parents.
"BELLA! BELLA!" I cried. "Nooo!!"
I sat on the ground angry at the world for putting me here. With my fists I jabbed at the ground.
Crying, I sat quietly thinking of all that Bella and I had gone through. When I first met her, I knew she would be someone special. When I had brought her home to meet my parents she was terrified that my parents wouldn't like her- they fell in love with her.
Her first time skiing, she couldn't stop and ran over me.
She had to be the one to teach me how to serf because I was the one afraid of the water.
All the memories would just be that. There wasn't a way to make more memories together.
I got up off the ground and started finding my way back.
Once I saw the house from behind a tree the furry seeped back trough my veins. As a one last resort to cause my self-pain for what I had done to Bella, I brought my fist up and with all my force crashed it against the tree. The tears that flowed weren't from the force against the tree but of the despondency I felt.
I wrapped my fists in my sweater as I walked into the house. I avoided Esme so that she wouldn't see me.
I washed my hands under the running shower and went back into my room for my boxers.
Esme must have laid out the suit I would be wearing. Involuntarily I picked it up and put it on.
I was buttoning the cufflinks when something caught my attention from the corner of my eye.
It was the necklace pendant Bella always wore. That's what must have fallen out last night. How could it have gotten in the bag? The night before I left, she had it on. She was clutching it when I found her crying on the side of the bed. Had she put it in my bag?
She must have. Now she kept mine and I would have hers. I brought it to my lips and kissed it. It was the only belonging I had of hers that was close by and that I could hold.
I opened the drawer to the nightstand and took out my wallet in search of Bella's picture. I had taken it when we had taken a ferry ride in San Francisco. She was smiling up at the sun. The rays of the sun were on the side of her thin face. She looked radiant under the sun light. The picture was recent, the summer we both took off on vacation.
I sat on the edge of my hand and held it to my chest.
Tears rolled down my face as I said goodbye.
I felt a hand rest upon my shoulder. I didn't need to turn to figure out it was Esme.
"I'm sorry sweaty. You don't have to do this. Live your life and let us stay here. We did our job of raising you and that's enough for us. Go with Bella and be happy. Don't worry about us." She cried.
"I can't do that." I squeezed the pendant and opened the palm of my hand. "Bella left this in my bag." I said.
"What happened to your hand?" Esme asked alarmed.
"Nothing painful." I got up and walked towards the window. My hand was swollen and red.
"Let me see it." Esme ordered.
I took her hands in mine and kissed her palm.
I slipped the pendent in the pant pockets and put the picture in the vest pocket.
With torture and misery, I walked Esme out to the car that would take us to the Volturi.
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"We are here today in the presence of family and friends to share with Bride and Groom the most important moment in their lives. Without the love between these two people we would not be here today."
I laughed bitterly at the last statement the judge made.
While the judge recited what he needed to, I cringed. I held onto Bella's pendant for dear life that it started to cut me through.
All I wanted was to run.
"Jane, do you take this man to be your husband in this civil matrimony?"
"I do."
"Sign here please."
Jane as well as I held bile in her expression as she signed the binding paper.
"Edward, do you take this woman to be your wife in this civil matrimony?"
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"I will repeat. Edward, do you take this woman to be your wife in this civil matrimony?"
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"Edward I love you." I heard Bella's voice loud and clear in my mind. "I Love you."
"I love you too." I whispered back.
"I shall repeat one last time. Edward, do you take this woman to be your wife in this civil matrimony?"
… " I…yea." Mentally I kicked myself for turning my back on Bella's words. I had crushed all we had and I had just destroyed what we could have had.
"Sign here." The judge handed me the pen for me to sign.
I couldn't do this. Jane placed her hand over my torn fists. I pulled my hand away and signed.
"With the power invested in me I declare you husband and wife."
As people clapped, I grabbed Jane and walked away.
"Edward I expect you to make my daughter very happy." Aero spoke.
I cocked my eyebrow and sipped the whisky.
"Here are your honeymoon flight tickets." He handed them to Jane.
"Honey moon?" I asked disgusted.
"Yes, you are married to my daughter now." Dian added.
(A/N)
So here you have it, they are now married. The honeymoon…. that's a surprise!
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