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Last Chapter! Maybe an epilogue type thing, who knows? I appreciate the support on this, I never thought I'd finish something XD Well here is proof that I have! Hope you all enjoyed the journey as much as I did! Over 1000 on my first fic….I never thought it would happen. You guys are beautiful people! I definitely will not be writing Akuroxas for a while, so enjoy this one while you can.

Chapter Ten

Roxas hadn't been home in two weeks. Ever since he found out about Zexion and Demyx he had been anything but pleasant. He'd missed classes, he was barely passing now, and he had even started to avoid Axel. His depression hitting hard and he wasn't sure why he was angry or upset. It felt like his world had crashed down around him when he really wasn't looking at the brighter side. Demyx wasn't going to be lonely; he had someone to keep him happy. Why wasn't Roxas happy for him?

"Roxy?" He heard Axel's voice before he saw him. The crimson haired punk took a seat next to the blonde before slipping an arm around his shoulder. "Hey, I've been wondering where you've taken residence. Zexion said they hadn't seen you in ages."

It only felt that way but in reality he had only been missing for two weeks. Two weeks wasn't ages. Roxas stayed silent as his hand closed around a small, metal object. His eyes closed and he sighed shaking his head, "Leave me alone."

"Hey, I don't get what your deal is. I really don't. Will you just talk to me?"

It had been a while since he'd felt the cool blade against his skin. It had been ages since he'd seen the red. Looking up at the sky he winced and shuddered slightly, "It feels like winter but it's almost summer, why is it so cold?"

Axel didn't understand the question. He looked around curiously before letting his hand fall from around the other's shoulders. "I…I don't understand. It's not cold out its like eighty degrees."

He would never understand. Roxas felt a tear slip down his cheek before nodding, "Oh right. How's Reno?"

The night Roxas had left the twin had been throwing a tantrum about graduating and what not. He wanted to graduate with Axel, he wanted to transfer schools but they wouldn't allow it. They said Axel and Reno were just fine apart and it was going to stay that way.

"Reno is fine." Axel sounded irritated, "I want to know what's wrong with you."

He unclenched his hand to reveal a thin line of red and a small, splotched blade. Axel raised an eyebrow and took the blade before throwing it as far as he could into the woods. Roxas peeked up at him wondering if he would throw him on the concrete and strip him of his clothes like Zexion used to.

'Let me feel something again. Do what he did.'

His thoughts urged Axel to do something to him, but his face remained impassive as he stared at the red head. Before he knew it the red head had bruised their lips together. Roxas leaned into the kiss and wrapped his arms around Axel doing his best to not get his blood on the other's white shirt. His hands were cut and cut deep. He didn't care, he didn't even notice when the blood slid off his palm and hit the concrete.

Axel pulled back mildly surprised as he stared down at Roxas; the boy's electric eyes were shining with lust and desire. What was he trying to do to himself? "Why did you have that?" He demanded softly brushing the hair from Roxas' face. "I thought you said you'd stopped."

He had, he hadn't lied to Axel. The blonde mewed in protest when his boyfriend wouldn't let him kiss him again. "I did stop! It was just…I was just frustrated!" He yelled letting his arms fall from around Axel's neck. "I wanted to remember that feeling of being alive!" The boy demanded angrily.

Hot tears pricked his beautiful eyes and Axel's heart broke. He brushed his long fingers through the others hair, massaging his scalp slightly. "Hey, calm down. It's not like you're dead, okay? You're sitting here with me in the middle of a park, begging for sex." His green eyes flashed mischievously. "But I won't take advantage of you either. I'm not having sex with you until I know you're going to be okay."

What logic was that? Roxas frowned and scrunched his nose slightly, "Who are you to turn down sex? You never say no, so why not with me?"

"I won't damage you emotionally anymore then you already are. When you're ready, truly ready, we will make love." The red head grinned and kissed his boyfriend's cheek. "I need you to get through this though, and I'm going to be here until you do. We will beat it together."

Roxas didn't want to beat it; he wanted Axel to just do what Zexion would have done. "Zexion would have slept with me."

Axel's eyes flashed angrily making Roxas regret his words. "I'm not Zexion, Roxas. I am Axel, got it memorized? Do not compare me to some kid that doesn't know how to take care of himself." He stood briskly and waved a hand in annoyance, "I'm going to take a walk. Do what you want."

Had he seriously just compared him to Zexion? What kind of sick joke was that? Sure, Axel knew they had done things and what not when Roxas was down or depressed, but what kind of friend took advantage of you when you were down? He guaranteed Zexion had his own problems and was probably using Roxas just as Roxas was using him, but damn how did that friendship survive?

He wasn't going to be Zexion; he wasn't going to use Roxas for something like that. If he had issues he would deal with them as they came. Running a hand through his spiked, silky hair he groaned and pulled a smoke from its pack in his pocket. He was beyond annoyed with the emotionally troubled teenager, but this was also his boyfriend. This was someone he wanted to protect and love. If only Roxas would let him.

He didn't see Roxas coming and as he popped the cigarette in his mouth he cringed when a pair of thin, pale arms encircled his waist. Roxas buried his face in Axel's back and squeezed his eyes shut apologizing over and over. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I really didn't, I'm so sorry."

Axel released the tension in his body as he looked over at Roxas. The smaller boy was sobbing into his shirt, his face immediately relaxed. How could he be so hard on someone like this? Especially his Roxas. Turning he dropped the unlit smoke and wrapped his arms around the small blond with a smile.

"Hey now, don't cry. I didn't mean to sound so mad, I was merely frustrated. Just…I'm not Zexion Roxas, I love you too much."

The blond froze and Axel wondered if he'd messed up by saying those words. Instead, Roxas looked up with shining eyes and squeaked, "Really?" When the other nodded Roxas pressed his lips back to Axel's and smiled gently. "I love you too."

Months Later:

"We did it, Roxy! We graduated!" The red haired, star was all over the place at the ceremony.

He bounced from person to person hugging everyone and anyone. He was more surprised he had graduated then Roxas honestly, that last bit had been really hard to come by. His blond boyfriend snuggled into his side as the black cloaks hung from their bodies loosely. Roxas could see a band t shirt under Axel's and he rolled his eyes slightly with a snort. This one was entertaining.

Roxas still hadn't spoken to Demyx or Zexion nor had he gone home. He'd been staying with Kairi and Namine which had been hell in all sense. When he looked up though and Demyx was in front of him the blond froze. His brother looked down at him, one of the proudest expressions on his faces but the smile was wary. He was unsure if he was allowed to be here or not.

"Congrats Roxas, I knew you'd gradate unlike me. You're a lot smarter and had more determination!" Demyx gave him a weak smile and reached out to hug him, but then he remembered the circumstance.

Axel looked at the mullet haired mess before clapping Roxas on the shoulder. "I have to go say good bye to Marly and Larxene! Since you don't like them anyway, I'm going to leave you to it!"

His boyfriend was gone before Roxas could say anything. He wasn't sure what to say or do though. Sora ended up breaking the silence by throwing himself at Roxas from across the room. Right, no Demyx led to no Sora and he suddenly realized how much he'd missed his family.

"Good job, Roxas! You were wonderful we knew you could do it!" No one called him a dick, no one brought up the fact e was stupid and immature, but Roxas didn't care at this point and time. He was more than pleased with wrapping his arms around Sora and spinning him around laughing.

"You're going to get taller than me if you keep growing!" Sora hadn't been as tall as him before had he? "I missed you." He whispered the last part and buried his face in Sora's shoulder.

The brunette laughed and kept his arms around Roxas for a moment more before Riku made his way over. He raised an eyebrow at Roxas but didn't comment. "Riku, you're hair is getting longer."

The silverlet nodded before his eyes met with his older brothers. "Sora, I'm going to see Zexion. Stay here with Roxas."

The brunette was more than happy to comply. He started asking questions a mile a minute but Roxas' eyes flicked back to Demyx. He really wanted a hug from his oldest brother, the one that had raised him, supported him, and made sure he had gotten here by all means.

He felt his lip tremble before he was against Demyx's chest crying his eyes out. Sora stared in shock at the blond before sighing and shaking his head. "I didn't even finish talking yet! Were you listening at all?"

"Sora just shut the hell up for ten minutes! Please, just let me talk to Demyx." The other spat shooting a glare at him. "Please, I haven't seen him in so long; just give me ten damn minutes!"

His younger brother quieted himself before Roxas looked back at Demyx. The older blond had already wrapped his arms around Roxas and was smiling at him. "It's good to have you back, Roxas. I thought I'd made you hate me."

"Never! I'm so sorry, Demyx. I was a complete ass, and I didn't mean it! I really didn't! If you like Zexion then I think it's great that you two are together, and I'm sorry I was so cold to you guys. Don't let me ruin your happily ever after, I was a stupid boy. I was too ashamed to come home and then I…"

He was cut off when Demyx pressed his lips to his younger brother's forehead. "I forgive you, Roxas. I should have told you. It's okay, it really is."

The blonde smiled ecstatically and threw his arms around his brother again. This was the best day of his life! "Now, go congratulate your boyfriend." Roxas sighed stepping away from Demyx.

The older blond sighed and shook his head, "Zexion and I aren't together, Roxas. We haven't been for a few months now." It was natural his younger brother wouldn't know considering they hadn't talked. "Anyway, are you going to move back in now? I'd really like to see you before you went off to college."

He was leaving Demyx alone again? How did that happen? Roxas smiled weakly before turning to look back at Zexion. Riku had his arms around his older brother, a sincere smile on his face. "Yeah, of course I'll move back in."

What had he done?

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Darn looks like I'm doing one more chapter! Alright one more and then that's it I'm done! And it'll be super short, so don't expect a lot!