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Draco wasn't shocked by Hermione's reaction to their little game the night before. She did what he expected her to … she ran. It didn't sadden or disappoint him; it was a common enough reaction. To experience pleasure so intense with what one usually associates with taboo or disgust. She simply needed time.
Hermione needed time to think, to analyze. The night before had been a shock to her system, she had learned things … more so about herself than about Draco that shocked her, things that she needed to work through. Even if sexual, a bondage, domination- submission relationship demanded a lot of respect for the act as well as between the partners, along with respect it also demand a lot of trust in the partner. While Draco had been incredible, she knew that this was just the tip of the iceberg, a tip which she had undoubtedly enjoyed but she nonetheless felt that a bit of introspection would not be amiss before she decided to delve deeper into the beautiful but dangerous world that Draco had shown her.
The most pressing issue that kept nagging her was the fact that Draco assumed she would have been comfortable in the role of a submissive, there were a lot of adjectives she could have used to describe herself but submissive was not one of them, he hadn't done it in a degrading manner but Hermione was an assertive person, taking charge was part of disposition granted she had felt a certain degree of liberation in their love-play but how did the submissive-dominant relation translate into her non-sexual life?
She needed answers to these questions and she needed to talk to someone who wasn't Draco, someone who could objectively look at it from both sides and so she decided to go and visit Ginny in the Gryffindor common room. Hurriedly she left her room where she had been hiding out since after leaving the Room; as she was now referring to it, early in the morning. Thankfully, seventh years were given most days off for self-study and up in her room she had managed to get most of her work out of the way, with stealth that would put any spy to shame Hermione sneaked out of the Head's Rooms and hurried towards the Gryffindor dorms, the weather was beginning to get a little chilly as October edged out September and the leaves on the trees were turning from a lovely green to a beautiful rusty- golden on the tall trees surrounding the castle.
Hogwarts was slowly starting to resemble itself again after the devastation of last year; it was poetic in a sense… Hermione felt as if it was therapeutic, as the castle began to get back on its feet so would she.
Hermione was let into the Common Room by a kindly third year who looked at her with hero-worship in her eyes and Hermione breathed a sigh of relief when she saw the red-head seated near the fireplace with a tome of Transcending Transfigurations on her lap, her expression one of extreme boredom and just plain disgust.
"I don't know why I took this subject." She said with a sigh of annoyance when she spotted Hermione.
"You still have time to drop it, you know. Doesn't make sense doing something you hate." Hermione replied, sinking into the chair beside hers with a weary sigh.
"What's the matter?" said her friend, "You look wiped out."
"I'm having a crisis." Replied Hermione. "That's why I came to talk to you."
"Is it something to do with your mystery man?" said the perceptive red-head.
"He's part of it, not the main reason though… nope, that's all me!" she said with a bitter laugh.
"What's the problem?" said Ginny gently.
"Let's say we call him Fergus, shall we." Said Hermione, "So I've been with Fergus for about two weeks now until yesterday when he said that the sex we were having was much to 'vanilla', so he introduced me to something more to his tastes and I didn't find it…. distasteful." She blurted out in one go.
"And now you're having second thoughts?"
"In a manner of speaking."
"About?" probed Ginny.
"The dynamics of this relationship, how do things like these work, what does it make me… submissive?! What's going to happen in real life, I interact with Fergus every day!" Hermione said anxiously
"What you like in bed isn't the person you are, Hermione." Said Ginny calmly.
"I sound a bit like an idiot, don't I?" said the curly-haired with laughing self-consciously.
"Not really, it's new and strange and you haven't had much experience with boys other than kissing my brother. To be honest I don't blame you for freaking out about this, sex isn't something new to me and I would be having second thoughts about this too. Does it make you happy though?"
"It is strangely liberating." Said Hermione, "Maybe not the sexual act itself but the placing of trust in another person, the fact that he could hurt me… very badly but he doesn't."
"Do you like him?" said the red-head curiously.
"It's like… we've known each other for years and yet we haven't. It's strange because it is not new territory."
"I thought you were going to talk to him?" said Ginny dryly, lifting an eyebrow.
"I did in fact but later on he got really bitter and that's actually what led to this whole episode that I've explained to you. He gets furious like it's a sin that I've dared to broached a certain subject or tried to get to know more about him and he'll very coldly tell me that we have an arrangement and this is breach of said arrangement." Sighed Hermione, "This was stupid of me, I should have had my first time with some gentle, staid man who doesn't demand so much."
"That is a lie!" said Ginny with a grin, "You are so enjoying this."
"Okay, maybe just a bit." Replied Hermione with a cheeky little smile.
"Hermione Granger, naughty and kinky… who would've thought it." Ginny said with a saucy wink.
"Lies." Hermione grinned, "I am not kinky well not that kinky." She amended "If I was kinky I would have demanded that next time we do something like this he switch places with me."
"That's actually not a bad idea…" said Ginny wickedly.
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Again dynamics of these kinds of relationships are very important, there is a difference between healthy Dom-Sub relationships and unhealthy ones. Leave me reviews talking about this and also guys remember I write for your enjoyment, I don't get paid for these works and the least you could do is tell me if you like something or not :) not a demand, just a request.