Hello! Someone asked me how my friend was doing in a review and I wanted to let everyone know she is much better. She is in counseling and is doing well. I don't know if I have said during what book this is, but it is in the earlier stages of New Moon. Edward left, Bella was catatonic and all that happened. However, she did not jump off the cliff and the whole thing with the Volturi never happened. If I have mentioned the time period before, please PM me
The smell of pancakes wafted into Bella's nose. Her eyes flashing open, she sat up quickly to find herself in her bed. She didn't remember going upstairs last night. Rose had stayed a while after Bella had broke down and they had talked about everything that came to mind. Rose rented a chick flick and they curled up on the couch. 'I must have fallen asleep.' Bella blushed, noticing she was in pajamas. Rose must have undressed her. She had seen her ugly, scarred body.
Tossing the covers off, Bella grabbed some clothes and went to take a shower. Avoiding mirrors had become a habit of hers. She didn't want to see the face of the person she had become. Steam poured from the bathroom as Bella turned the water to scalding and started to scrub her skin, turning it red and opening scabs from previous sessions of scrubbing. Then, alarm bells sounded in her head. She wouldn't be able to scrub like she usually did. There was a vampire in her downstairs! She stopped her motions and finished on with her shower.
After towel drying her hair and dressing in a simple t-shirt and jeans, Bella walked down to meet her guest.
"Rose?"
"Over here." Rose was sitting at the kitchen table with a huge stack of pancakes and a container of syrup next to her. "I didn't know how much humans tend to eat so I made the whole box of pancake mix."
Bella's eyes bugged out, "You made that whole thing?" Rose just smiled and pointed to the seat across form her. "So what are you doing here?" Then, realizing how rude she sounded, she quickly rephrased herself, "Not that I don't want you here, but you never, at least before yesterday, showed any signs of not hating me."
"Oh Bella, I never hated you." Bella raised her eyebrows at this. "I have always been jealous of you. You're human. You have your entire life ahead of you to spend it with whomever you want. You can grow old with that person. I have never hated you. I was simply jealous."
"What life? No one will ever want me. I'm dirty."
"Bella you're not! What that evil thing" spitting the word out "– did to you does not make you dirty. It isn't your fault for what happened to you." Rose took the brunette by the shoulders and made sure her point got across. "Never blame yourself, no good will come of it. It may take you sometime to be okay with yourself, but please, don't harm yourself."
The human girl turned and looked at Rose strangely, "What makes you thing I would hurt myself?"
"Bella please, I know what you're going through."
Bella looked away, not knowing how to respond or even what to think. "So where did you learn to cook?"
"Esme made all of us learn to make a few dishes in case you ever needed something. Looks like it came in handy after all." Rose explained with a soft smile.
The question of why Rose was being so nice again flashed through Bella's mind. It just seemed so strange that the blonde bombshell could want to be something like the human girl. Why would she want to be human? Rosalie was the most beautiful person, regardless of the fact that she is a vampire, on the planet. Pondering the question while she put a single pancake on her plate, she could not come up with any plausible answer. "Rose, may I ask you a question?"
"Of course, Bella. What about?"
"What do you want to be human?"
Rosalie sighed. "When I was human I never worried about anything. My family was rich. I was engaged, living at the top of society. My best friend however, wasn't as well off. She did live comfortably, with a wonderful husband and baby on the way. Up until that point I hadn't even though about children, but as soon as I saw those cute little dimples, I knew I wanted them. It was on that day when that child was born that Royce did what he did and Carlisle found me." She took a pause, allowing Bella to soak it all in. "Did you know that I was intended to be with Edward?" Bella shook her head no, eyes wide. "As soon as he heard my thoughts however, he knew he didn't want me.
"Part of the reason I was so mean to you for a long time was that Edward wanted you, but not me. I'm a very vain person." A wry smile came into place. "It was silly of me. However, most of the reason why I was so jealous of you was because you can still have children. Yes, I know I would be dead if Carlisle hadn't changed me, but I still feel a whole part of me missing."
Bella looked at the vampire across from her and reached forward, giving her a hug. She could feel Rose go still, probably from the shock of receiving a hug. Slowly Rose's arms wrapped themselves around the smaller girl. They stayed like that for a few moments then pulled away.
"You're a good friend Rose."
Rosalie smiled, "You too. Now, finish your food."
After all the food had been put away, Bella laughed, saying "I won't have to make breakfast for weeks." Sobering for a moment, she realized that this was probably the first time she had genuinely laughed since the incident.
Ring Ri–
Rose snatched her phone out of her pocket, silencing the ringer quick enough that Bella would never notice. The only people that would call her would be her family. Glancing at the caller ID, sure enough, it was Alice. A small beep then sounded, telling Rose that she had a text.
Opening the message, it read:
Rose, answer your phone! We actually care about Bella, unlike you! If you don't answer right away, Edward is coming over,
-A
Typing so fast, her fingers would blur to a human's eye, Rose sent back a reply:
Alice don't you dare have anyone come over here! Bella is too fragile to see any of you. Seeing Edward or you would just crush her. Stay away! I'm warning you.
-R
Rose shut her phone and silenced all sounds. She didn't want Bella to open her phone because of the ringer going off. The girl's curiosity would just lead her to finding a text from one of the other Cullens and lord knows what Alice would do if she could contact Bella. No, Rose would protect Bella from them unless Bella wanted their company. Though it was doubtful Bella would ever forgive them. Rose felt lucky enough that Bella accepted her being there. She did not want to screw things up with Alice interfering.
Bella had taken the time alone to clean off the dishes and put the excess pancakes in Tupperware for future days.
"You really did surprise me with how well you can cook." She smiled at the blonde, closing the refrigerator door. "I've always been the cook in the family. Renee could never focus long enough. She always burnt food and Charlie never learned to make anything."
"It's actually quite fun. I really hated it at first, but it was grown on me. You're the only one I can actually cook for, being the only human friend I have."
"I'm honored you consider me a friend, but how do you make it taste so good if you can't taste it yourself?"
Rose smiled for a spell. "I can still smell it as you do and with taste and smell being so closely related, I can just tell. Plus, I remember some things from my human life."
"So are we doing anything today? I mean, uh, I didn't mean to presume that we were –"
"It's fine Bella. I don't mind. I didn't have anything planned. Did you have something in mind?"
Bella was silent. However, as an idea popped into her head, she smiled and said, "Have you ever ridden motorcycle?"
Well, thanks again for reading my stories. Please review and tell me what you think of it so far. If you have any ideas about where the story should go, please say your thoughts! I appreciate any influence you guys have on my stories and love your input. I am going to be revamping the previous chapters and taking out the annoying middle-of-the-chapter A/N: notes. Anyways, thanks for reading and R&R!
~Hemeophage