We're
the new face of failure
Prettier and younger but not any better
off
Bulletproof and loneliness
at best, at best
"I'm Like a Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off" by Fall Out Boy
Nathan stared at his wife's stilled and sleeping form in the hospital and almost broke down into tears. He remembered the days pre-Haley when everything was so easy and care free. Sure, he was a jackass, but there was never anything that caused him as much pain as he's feeling right now. But Nathan knew that if he'd never met Haley, not only would he not have experienced that pain he was feeling right now, but he wouldn't have experienced the love. The love of never waking up alone, the love of having someone to depend on and someone to depend on you; he would have none of that.
Nathan knew that wasn't worth it. He needed Haley. He needed his rock. And right now, he needed her strength. He needed her to be strong enough to get through this and wake up because he honestly didn't know how he could live if he didn't have her and their unborn son.
In that moment of clarity, Nathan realized something that was almost as troubling as what had happened to Haley. He was like his father. They both had to choose between family and basketball in very crucial moments of their lives. Both chose basketball, and both paid dearly for it. He was like his father, prettier and younger but not any better off.