Jason walked back into the studio and over to the couch. Elizabeth's eyes were closed, her legs curled up to her chest, her head resting against the arm of the couch. She was sound asleep, and Jason knew it had been a long time since that had happened.
He pulled a stool over near the couch and sat down, his eyes never leaving the woman on the couch. He watched her breath evenly, how her head was laying on her hand. She seemed peaceful, and Jason didn't know if he should break that spell.
He had learned a lot of things in the past few hours. Elizabeth and Lucky's marraige had been in trouble for a long time. Elizabeth had not been intimate with Lucky since they'd been married. Lucky had turned to Sam. All of that had shocked him. There was one thing, however, that just wouldn't stop running through his brain: Elizabeth loved him. She loved Jason. She married Lucky, not because she wanted a life with him, because she wanted Jason to be free to be with Sam. She honestly thought that he would be happy without her or the boys in his life. She loved him. She was willing to live in a miserable marraige just so Jason could be free. What Elizabeth had forgotten was that Jason felt free with her.
Jason knew that Elizabeth was blaming herself for everything. Carly was right about her punishing herself more than anyone else could. He also knew that it would take a lot to convince her that she was wrong; that he wanted her and the boys in his life. He wanted to make a family with her and really try. She had no clue just how much he loved her for her, not just because she was the mother of his child. He was determined to change that.
His thoughts were interrupted by movements on the couch. He looked up only to find Elizabeth staring at him, her eyes holding a shocked expression.
He stood up and walked over to the couch, sitting close to her. He reached down and moved a stray hair off of her cheek. Her hand came up and caught his, holding it against her face. They stayed that way for what seemed like hours.
Finally, the silence was broken by her soft voice.
"I'm sorry."
Jason swallowed a lump in his throat. The love he felt for this woman, the love that he had suppressed and forced to the back of his mind and heart, was engulfing him, filling his body with a warmth that had not been there in years.
"I don't want you sorry. I don't want you hurt."
Elizabeth's eyes instantly filled with tears at his words. They brought her back to a day in the park. The day she chose Lucky over him. She sat up and started to speak, only to be interrupted by him.
"I know you don't know what you are to me. Let me fix that right now."
He shifted nervously on the couch, his hand grabbing hers firmly. She'd never really seen him nervous before. She watched as he took in a deep breath and let it out before bringing his head up and looking at her.
"I love you. I don't think there was ever a time when I didn't. When you walked out on me, I guess I shut that part of my heart off. I jumped into a relationship with someone else because it was easier to lie to myself about what losing you did to me than facing it. We reconnected, which is something I never thought would happen. Then, we came together one night. It started out as the two of us leaning on each other. It ended up just being about the two of us. Everything I felt for you came rushing back into me. I..I tried to make it work with Sam, but..but it could never work. She wasn't you. She never was. And once I had you, even though it was just for that one night, I couldn't let go."
Tears were streaming down her face, his words flooding her with warmth. He reached up and wiped the tears from one side of her face, his thumb rubbing her cheek softly. His eyes never left hers as he continued.
"When you came to the penthouse after I was released and said that I could spend time with you and the boys, I was so happy. The more we met up, the more I wanted it permanently. I love those boys so much, Elizabeth. Jake is this perfect mixture of the two of us, and he was created in love. Cameron has snuck his way into my heart and I wouldn't have it any other way. He's a beautiful boy, Elizabeth. I love him just as much as Jake and I think of him as my own."
She stayed quiet as she listened to his words, trying to absorb all of what he was saying.
He swallowed again, unable to keep his emotions in check as he normally would have. He needed to get through this. He wanted her, and was determined to convince her of that.
"It's not just about the boys. It's about you and me, and what we are to each other. I have never trusted anyone as much as I trust you. I want to have a life with you. I want to raise those boys together with you. I want a family with you. I want to wake up with you in my arms every morning and fall asleep the same way. I love you, Elizabeth." His voice cracked, his words coming out in whispers from the lump in his throat.
Elizabeth saw the truth in his eyes and was awed.
"Jason, after everything I've done to you, how can you still love me? I've hurt you worse than anyone else in your life. I took your son from you. I gave him to someone else. I promised you he would have a good life and a family and I broke that promise-"
"No, you didn't." He stopped her babbling and held her face in his hands, his own inches from hers.
"You didn't break that promise because it will come true. Jake and Cameron will have a family, and they will be happy and loved. We will give them that. You wanted Jake safe from the dangers of my life, and I can't blame you for that. You wanted to keep our son safe, Elizabeth. I know that nothing has really changed about my life. I know that there is danger, but I swear to you, I will do everything I can to keep my business away from you and the boys."
Elizabeth smiled through her tears, her hands moving up to cover his on her face. She blinked away more tears so her eyes could focus on his.
"I believe you will do everything in your power to keep us safe. I trust you, Jason. I love you too, so much."
In the next moment, his lips her on hers, kissing her with everything he was feeling. She reciprocated with equal emotion, both of them holding on to each other tightly. The kiss seemed to go on forever, neither one wanting to stop, even if it was to breathe. When the need for air finally one out, they both pulled away just slightly, their foreheads resting against each other's.
She lifted her head to look into his eyes, seeing a peace and happiness in them that warmed her to the core. She smiled softly, reaching down and grabbing his hand before standing up. She turned to look at him, her smile getting wider.
"Let's get our boys and go home."
Jason took in her words, knowing the meaning behind them. She didn't need to explain, he saw it in her eyes. He was taking his family home. Things would need to be changed, security would need to be tightened. His bedroom needed to be totally redone. None of that mattered in that moment. His family was coming home.
