A/N-I do not own Twilight, Stephenie Meyer does.

Bella's POV-

Edward took my hand and we ran deep into the forest. Everything around me was so clear, so crisp. The trees were greener than I remembered. The smells in the air were so distinct; it was like I could pick out every individual smell and know exactly what and where it was.

We continued through the trees before Edward came to a stop at the edge of a small gully. I looked around, taking in all of my surroundings. I could definitely get used to how it all appeared to me. It was almost as if I was seeing the world around me for the very first time; like I had been walking around with a balloon around me head and now it was finally gone. Everything around me was so beautiful.

I turned towards Edward and realized that he had been watching me the entire time and was now smiling that crooked smile that I loved so much. If I were still human I would for sure have been blushing.

"What?" I said sheepishly.

He pulled me closer to him, "Nothing love, I was just watching you look at the world like you have never seen it before. I felt the same way, so I know exactly what you're feeling. Don't worry though, you'll get used to it."

I laughed, "I guess. I almost feel bad."

He looked at me so confused, like I had grown an extra head or something. "Why?"

"Well, we get to see how beautiful this world really is while everyone else who isn't…well… like us, will never experience what true beauty and perfection looks like."

He sighed and then let out a small laugh, "You're amazing. You always think of everyone else and what would make them happy." He pulled me in close and kissed the top of my head. "But can I tell you something?"

"Hmm?"

"The only perfection I see here is the true beauty in my arms."

"Ha ha. You really do have something with wrong with your head, and I'm not referring to the fact that you can hear everyone's mind."

"You will never truly see yourself, will you?"

"I see myself just fine Edward, it's you that is delusional."

It was right then that something passed through me; a smell so strong it couldn't be ignored. Edward must have felt me tense because he released his hold on me and took a step in front of me, facing me.

"What is it Bella?"

"That smell, it's like I have to go to it." I was so tense.

"Then go. Let your senses guide you. I'll be right here with you." He gave my hand a light squeeze and then released me.

I took off searching for the thing that was calling to my every instinct. As I ran through the trees I could feel something inside me that was pulling me towards my destiny. It was like I was no longer in control of myself, but something stronger and deeper inside of me. It was almost as if I was being led by an unseen force. Before I knew it I came to an abrupt halt and focused in on my intended prey. There were four deer grazing among the trees completely unaware of the danger, me, that lurked in the trees.

Before I knew what was happening my body had lunged at the deer closest to me. I caught it around the neck as I brought the creature to the ground. My instincts had taken over and I suddenly felt my teeth sink into the deer's flesh at the same moment I snapped this poor things neck.

The blood in my mouth hit me like a brick wall. I had never felt anything like it; so warm, so thick, completely addictive. I continued to drink until there was nothing left. I slowly released the innocent animal that had been sacrificed so that I could live. I was once again in control of my body and now I felt nothing but remorse for what I had just done.

I sat back pulling my knees to my chest as I buried my face in them. What had I become? Would I be able to take the lives of innocent animals just so that I could survive? In all the time that Edward had left me to go hunting, not once did I ever consider this aspect of it; the aspect of taking an innocent life.

I began to sob tearlessly at the thought of the monstrosity I had become. I was slowly understanding why Edward had not wanted this life for me. I was too weak for this. My thoughts were reeling and I couldn't make sense of anything anymore.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I hadn't noticed Edward kneeled next to me. He placed his hands on my face as he slowly lifted my chin with his thumbs. My eyes slowly met his and I saw nothing but pain and hurt on his face.

Oh no! No he would hate himself for giving me this life that he felt was a curse. I felt all the feelings about my previous action disappear and be replaced with feelings of wanting to protect him. I had to convince him that I was ok. I would be ok, I just had to get used to this. It was still new. I loved him and that's all that mattered. I wanted to spend eternity with him and this was the way to do it. He had to know that there was no regret for him turning me; I wouldn't have had it any other way.

I focused on him when I realized that there was a trace of a small smile on his face; a smile I had never seen before.

"Edward, what is it?"

"No regret?" Those two words was all he spoke, but that's all it took. How could he know? Had he heard what I was feeling?

"How did you-"

"I don't know. I couldn't hear your thoughts as you fed or even afterwards when you were upset, but when I kneeled down and put my hands on your face…everything that you were feeling, everything you were thinking came pouring into me. I didn't just hear your thoughts Bella; I felt every emotion that was passing through you. It was… it was breathtaking."

"But how?"

He shook his head, "I don't know. We will ask talk to Carlisle when we get back to the house, but first we need to talk about this." He said as he looked over at the poor deer that had softened my hunger.

"What about it?" I stared back down at the ground.

Again he pulled my face back up, meeting his gaze, "I know how guilty you feel, but it will get easier. I know this sounds really ridiculous, but think of it as the circle of life. All of the animals on earth are predator and prey; we're just a tad different in the fact that we are not prey to anything. But Bells, you have to understand that by feeding off of the animals, we're saving innocent human lives; and I can guarantee you that you would feel much worse if you accidentally killed a person."

I absorbed what he had said and knew that he was right. "I know that you're right, I guess it's just going to take some getting used to. I'll be ok though, I need you to know that." I said pleading with him.

He pulled me up to my feet as he spoke, "I know you will my love. You were an amazing human being, but you've become so much more now…timeless."

My lips crashed into his with such need and want that I didn't know if he would return it or pull away, but much to my satisfaction he returned every ounce ten fold. He wrapped his arms around my waist as I knotted my hands in his hair trying to pull him closer to me, but knowing that there was no possible way we could get any closer. I felt his hand on the small of my back pulling me into him. His lips left mine and worked their way down to my neck and then to my collarbone.

I let my head fall back as a small moan escaped my lips. I felt a small smile form on his lips as he worked his way back up to my lips. His lips met mine again and then slowly ended what had to be the most intense, passionate kiss we had ever shared.

He pulled his face a couple inches away from mine, brushing a lock of my hair behind my ear before stroking my cheek with his thumb. I still hadn't opened my eyes hoping that he would continue, but knowing that he wouldn't. I finally came to terms and looked at him. God, I was so lucky to have this man be in love with me.

"I am the lucky one. You made my life worth living. I haven't felt my heart beat in a very long time, but when I'm with you it's like I can still feel it." He smiled so deeply.

"I liked it much better when you didn't know what I was thinking." I laughed.

"You have no idea what a gift it is for me to hear what you think and even better to feel what you feel. I have never been happier than at this moment."

I pulled myself into him as I rested my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms tightly around me. This was one of those perfect moments that you only see in those sappy love movies, but god how I never wanted it to end.

He pulled away to soon, "We should get back to the house. We have some things we need to talk to Carlisle about and I'm sure you want to get umm…cleaned up."

"Uh?" I looked down at my shirt and for the first time realized that my feeding hadn't been the cleanest thing I had ever done. "Oh, opps."

He laughed, "Don't worry, you'll get the hang of it."

"Don't tell Emmett." I knew he would make fun of me for this and I didn't want to listen to it.

"I won't. We'll even go through our bedroom window so that he doesn't see you until after you've cleaned yourself up. I left the window open for that sole purpose."

"How did you…" I stopped before I finished my sentence, "Oh…Alice."

"Yeah, she saw this predicament and warned me, so I took the appropriate steps to make this as easy as possible for you."

I smiled as I grabbed his hand, "Have I told you how much I love you Edward Cullen?"

"You tell me all the time, but I will never get tired of hearing it. Every time you tell me I can almost feel my absent heart swell."

This man was perfect.

"Not quite, but I'll try to be perfect for you." I couldn't help but laugh at his remark to my thought. This was going to be funny.

"Bella, are you ready to go home?"

I took in a deep, but unneeded breath, "As ready as I'll ever be."

He leaned down and gave me a small, but perfect kiss before taking my hand in his, "Then lets go home Mrs. Cullen."

We headed back into the forest in the direction of his house…our house.

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