1Disclaimer: Don't own twilight.

A/N: I was going to do Seth's POV but I decided Edward. So you can see what's going on in his mind. I want to try something new and if you guys like it ill do his POV again. Before you read it is nothing like Meyer's Edward. A week has passed since Leah was gone and it starts off with Edward talking to Bella. I have trouble with men's POV I really hope you like it. And Bella bashing. Enjoy and review. Lame title I know and sorry for that.

Chapter 10- Edward's POV

I have no idea what I seen in her. She acts like she is the center of the universe. Maybe it's because I can't read her mind and the smell of her blood that made her seem amazingly wonderful. She doesn't understand the torture she put me through since she chose the dog. I've never been so thankful that I couldn't dream of her because that would just make me in more agony. She was talking on her cell to someone I don't even know. Leah is better than her or maybe I can't forget how Bella handled the relationship. I can't believe I am even thinking this because I thought only Bella could make me feel so alive and real. Leah has a great heart and selfless when it comes to people she loves. She is stubborn and covers the pain but other than that she sticks to what she believes in.

"Edward?" Her voice was seductive and I could smell her scent strongly.

I was looking out my bedroom window. I have no idea why I let her come in. She just gave me the pout that caves me in to her every whim. She never been like this I think I made her realize how perfect she was. Perfect? I see the mistake and the blind spots she created. She wasn't perfect not even close, the typical selfish human. I can't just blame her though. It is my fault that I pushed her away making her feel like she had to choose. I didn't realize how weak a human can be. I was so in love with the mortal I being selfish. But I learned a mistake. I am 107 years old and I keep making mistakes. So much for learning my lesson.

"What?"

Meeting her soft brown eyes was a mistake. I see weakness in her eyes a lot different than Leah's. I felt my strength shatter under her stare. I need to stop comparing the two. Leah shouldn't be compared to Bella. She is past tense. She is staying there. I will not give in to her like many times before. I forgave her for cheating but she thought I wasn't good enough and left me for the smelly dog. Don't use that kind of head Edward. Stay strong better get this all over with before Leah came home. Wow, Leah corrupted me big time. She took a step closer in her Nike shoes. Her soft brown hair was in a clip holding some hair up on top of her head. Wearing faded jeans and a heavy hoodie. She never cared for the cold. But she handled my cold hard body. I never really got that. She is abnormal that is for sure.

"How have you been?"

"Like you give a fuck about me."

She took a step back and her look was not fear but hurt. I do give her credit even after biting her she still isn't afraid of me. I could snap her little body in half like it is nothing. I could never do this because I still love her.

"Edward, I am sorry. We were over and you are so stupid for risking your life for me. Besides Leah saved you. You are fine now and you do look great."

"You are a liar, Bella. Every word that came out of your lips was nothing but false feelings for me. I fell for your manipulative bullshit. I never made you choose like everyone thinks. You can't just waltz in here and start a formal conversation and think that what you did was fair. I regret risking my life for a pathetic human."

I felt bad for what I said after I said it but she pissed me off. I am not going to have her act all innocent.I knew she was going to fight back she isn't as weak as she looks.

"Life's not fair. I knew you been..."

"You haven't been around to long to deal what I faced. I am not using this curse as an excuse. I am not that shallow. But you can't stand here and preach about shit you have no idea. If you are here on pity or blame then go else where. I have shit to do and a life to live. And thank God you are not involved in my life anymore."

"I am sorry. Edward you can't think I am a heartless whore I am not. I did love you and I wanted to become one of you. But you push me away."

"Listen, you are a heartless whore seeing him behind my back. Becoming a vampire isn't all fun and games. If you became me and you think you can just erase it when it wasn't the actual life you wanted? Do you think that love lasts forever? You don't know what forever is until you lived as long as I. You don't know what loving is, since you couldn't have been faithful and trusting in our relationship. Just because you are beautiful and everyone wants you isn't a reason to be a vampire. Or a certain power to contain if you did. Which I think you would. But you did this all on your own. If you are here to hear me say you aren't a selfish whore then leave. I don't need your pity. Believe it or not Bella Marie Swan, I don't want you back."

Tears were falling down her face and I felt for her. She is human and humans do make mistakes. I put my hand on here cheek and she met my eyes. Damn, she is still beautiful and after the talk of letting everything out made me feel at peace. She gave me her small reassured smile. Then her lips touching mine. I was shocked at first and didn't move. I couldn't think straight until a certain girl came to mind. And I was shocked even more. Since I thought my heart could only belong to Bella. But I think I am falling in love for Leah.

"Stop. Bella you can't just come in here and kiss me. We are over for good." I felt relief when I saw her face crumble.

"Is it someone else?" Her voice iced in jealously.

"Leah Clearwater."

I felt my face form a smile at her name. Its been a long week I have to admit but I needed her safe for tomorrow. (A/N: Alice can see Leah's future only. I needed this to happen to create drama later on.) Plus it is a great experience for her. I feel like she is my daughter. I internally cringed at the sight of that. If I slept with my sister that would be gross. Bella was getting a white tint to her face.

"She is the most heartless bitch I know. She hates me and the feelings are the same."

Anger went through me as I hit the glass of my window. The pieces of the glass hitting my arm like pavement. Turning into little pieces spreading on my white carpet. Bella moved closer to the screen TV as the bigger pieces hit my floor. She fell on the floor in shock to see the anger. I never officially used my anger in front of her. I never really get angry. She just messed with the wrong person to put down.

"You have no right to speak about her in a negative way. Do you know what she has been through?" I ask in a icy tone. My vampire features probably standing out more. I didn't give a fuck.

"I really don't care. This isn't about her."

I never felt this much anger before with anyone besides James. Yes, she was getting me that mad. Acting that selfish and admitting that she was basically better than Leah.

"Okay, don't bring her up like that again in this house or around me."

"Wait until I tell Sam?"

Confusion hit me, "Why Sam?"

"She is a wolf. She can't fall for you." She began laughing. "This is good, you didn't know?"

I lost it and I was about to choke her when Emmett took me around the waist. Holding me tight with his grip. I was so angry I didn't hear him coming. I am losing control and Emmett was shocked at this too.

"You fucking liar. You don't want anyone happy. You are bored with your life so you want to fuck with mine. I will save your pathe..."

"Shut up, Edward. Calm down. I am afraid Isabella isn't wrong. She was going to tell you but she left and was afraid."

Bella left and I was glad as I felt my body give out. Emmett kept his arm around me and helping me to my bed. The door went off downstairs and I couldn't sense who it was. The one person who made me feel alive can't be with me. Why am I always damned? I love her and I can love again. I thought I would always carry around my love for Bella. But Leah... She made me see. But we can't make this work because we both are forced to hate each other.

"Edward, Leah is here." Rose said looking at the smashed window. She put her arms around me as I glanced at her.

"Rose, I would have to say this is the worse day of my life."

"Emmett stall Leah." Her voice was low and sympathetic. "You love her and obviously she loves you because she has known she was wolf and she still slept with you."

"I know you are right. But..."

"If we have to we will protect you and Leah. We love you no matter what."

"You are right. But I am still pissed that she kept this from me."

Rose was silent and then turning on the music to block out our conversation. I can't face her now. But I have to because it is right. I can't shut her out over her becoming a wolf. She didn't choose this like I didn't choose me becoming a vampire. I will be by her side no matter what she says. After I give her the third degree that is. I hate liars and she did big time.