The morning came early for AJ and she wasn't even bothered about it. She barely slept last night; two hours at most. Other than that, she only tossed and turned around the foreign bed in the guest bedroom. Yes, she slept there for the first time last night. Ever since she dated Nick, anytime she was spending nights and holidays at the Nemeth, she would room with her former boyfriend but last night when she was about to enter Nick's room, she saw her things she left for reserve outside his door.
With a depressed broken heart, she carried all of her things, only to be helped by Mrs. Nemeth, who offered her the guest room. She said she knew Nick would do something like that even if he was told not to, so she cleaned the empty room earlier in the morning just for the young woman to sleep in.
And so AJ ended up in the room until now, where she just had tons of thoughts running her mind. She thought about Nick. She thought about Ryan. She thought of everyone else. What happened more than a week ago must already heading to consequences. Variety of options flashed in her head but the one that stood to her the most was what if she got pregnant? If she did, it has to be Ryan's since Nick always used protection; still unready to start a family because of his challenging career as a WWE Superstar.
As for her, she always took her pills but she had no idea what made her to be disturbed that she even forgot just to take even a pill on that very day to avoid this thing, Maybe this was just fate written for her or she was chose to be the player in this reality game.
If that happened, for sure she would blame herself first before anyone else. She could back out and notice the weird feelings on that night but instead she just went with it, screwing her whole life in the process. She let herself down to allow herself to sleep with Ryan that night and most of all, she let Nick down.
Now, all those dreams and hopes he always told her once they start their own family and got married would only remain as nothing but just hopes and dreams. She would never have the chance to fulfil his dream to make her as his wife for life and as the mother of his children. She would never have the chance to wake up every morning with his face greeting her with love. She would never feel his touches, kisses and affections ever again.
You blew it, AJ! You blew everything off. Now, look at yourself! Nothing but a dirty two timing little slut in his eyes.
She was about to cry but then Ryan ran through her mind. Why did he do this to Nick and her? Even if he did this to piss his brother off, to give him a little taste of what he felt, he could think of thousands of other alternatives to do it, but why did he choose to fuck her like that? Couldn't he think what she could get from all this? She couldn't believe she used to trust him as a close friend many years ago. The only good thing he ever did was introducing her to Nick; the man she thought she couldn't live without and now Ryan was also the main factor that her relationship was over.
How could you, Ryan? Why did you do this to me? To Nick? He's your brother; your own flesh and blood. I can't believe you stooped this low and the thought of you possibly being a father to my baby irate me, you know that?
Thanks to him, she had to sacrifice her own feelings and let go of Nick to protect his pride and feelings. Nick hated her now and even if he actually did not, it wouldn't make a difference at all. She couldn't be together with him anymore. He trusted her with all of him and what did she do? She ruined it and be the ultimate disappointment for him. She couldn't get back together with Nick. No! She made him to suffer for too much already. He was heartbroken and crushed because of her. Because of her, he was also just a permanent injury away from being unable to compete and do what he loved anymore. It was all on her.
She couldn't control it again. She swore tears were starting to become her bestfriend, now that they flowed down her face like a habit she couldn't get rid of. Frustrated with everything that was going on, she crumpled the bed comforter roughly before grabbing one of the pillows and slammed it with aggression until she threw it right out of her hands to the wall.
However, the coming several knocks on the door made her to stop what she was currently doing. Alarmed with it, she hastily wiped her tears from her face and beneath her eyes. She then turned to wipe her nose and sniffed deeply. Once she was certain that she was okay to go, she rushed to the door and opened it, only to be surprised when one of the men she thought about just now was right in front if her, sporting a guilty look on his face.
"Can we talk?"
Who's that? Nick? Ryan? Make your own guess. You guys will eventually find out tomorrow. Please review this chapter. Thank you :)
