Chapter 10: Matthew's story.

Finally, Mulder could talk to Maggie. She had no choice, the only thing she could do is to protect Bill, Charles and their children. They uttered threat against her family. Maggie lost one daughter. It hurt so much when her only daughter Scully couldn't remember about her mother, but it would be worse if Maggie lost Scully again. She made a choice, even though she couldn't stop crying every night.

"I had to give up on my daughter, Fox…" Maggie cried.

"I understand," Mulder spoke softly.

"She told me that she was happy, Fox, it's the most important thing I want to know. Even if she forgets me, it will be fine…"

"Do you mean that I have to give up on her too?"

"No, you don't have to, but you should, she has a new life now… just let her go, Fox."

The last thing Maggie told him made Mulder confuse. Should he let her go? She got hurt when she was with him, she lost her sister, her daughter, she even lost her chance to have a child. And he couldn't give her a normal life. Mulder just could blame himself for it. Matthew was a good man. He was rich, he has a happy family, he loved her, and Matthew could give Scully a normal life that Mulder never could.

And Mulder had his decision… Let her go, let the woman of his life go. He had to bury his love, trying to forget her.

Mulder packed his bags, preparing to leave the motel. Suddenly he heard a knock on his door. His surprise was visible as he saw Gillian standing here.

"Hi," she smiled weakly.

"What are you doing here? You had to be in hospital," he said coldly.

"I… may I come in? I have somethings to tell you…"

"No. You should go, come back to hospital. I have nothing to talk with you."

"Please…"

Even he tried so hard to make a cold face, his heart melted when he saw her puppy eyes. He sighed, "Ok, come in."

Gillian sat to the couch, looking down to her lap.

"You shouldn't come here," he started.

"Mulder, are you going to leave?"

"Yes. I will take a flight to DC this morning. What do you want to tell me?"

"I just want to ask about Scully…"

"Scully?"

"Yes… do you… do you… love her?"

His heart stopped beating. He took a deep breath.

"She's my partner."

"I think you heard my question?"

"She's my friend…"

"Do you love her?" she looked straight into his eyes.

Mulder turned his head, breaking the eyes contact. He said, "no…"

Gillian stood up. She looked sad, speak mildly, "Fine… so I will go now. Goodbye."

"Why do you want to know?"

"Nothing…" she shook her head.

"When you say nothing, it means something. Tell me… what's it?" he put his hand on her shoulder, looking at her tenderly.

"Because… she loves you."

Mulder was mute. She loves him? Scully loves him? Finally, he found his word.

"What? How? How do you know?"

"I saw her… in my dreams, Mulder, I can feel her feeling…" Gillian whispered, "Mulder…"

"Yes?"

"Help me… I had bad feeling, that I'm not Gillian, that this life is not my life… I couldn't breath when i saw you and i couldn't stop bleeding every morning when i wake up, after a dream. I'm afraid, Mulder…"

He grabbed her face, "Listen to me, Gillian, you are Gillian Greco, not that Scully, you had a fiancé and he will make you happy. You just have this feeling and those dreams because I told you about Scully and you are sick because you've worked too hard. I will go, i have to go. I don't want to ruin your life."

He pulled her away, but suddenly she held his waist from behind.

"Please… don't go…" she cried, still holding him tightly, "I… I don't know who I am, you are the only one can help me to recall my past."

"Let me go…" he managed not to cry.

"No… you can't come into my life and go away easily like this. I won't let you go…"

It was a heavy rain. Matthew stood in front of Gillian's house, waiting for her. Matthew cried in the rain. He remembered the first moment she opened her eyes, looking at him with her big blue eyes. He didn't believe in love at the first sight, but it was exactly the way he was in love with her. They gave him money to pay for his company. They told him to tell her that she's his cousin, to give her a new life. They didn't tell him who she is or where she was from, but he didn't care. He fell in love with this beautiful redhead. And he couldn't help lying her, that she's his fiancée. His love grew more when he saw her smiles, her face, her eyes, when he hold her and the first time they kissed. He didn't want to let her go, never… How could he live without her? He knew he was selfish, but he couldn't change his decision.

Now Mulder jumped into his life, he's killing her… Mulder could take her away… She would die of bleeding.

"Matt?" Gillian raised her umbrella to see his face.

"Where have you been Gilly? You make me worry, i found you everywhere…" his eyes was red.

"I hate hospital… It's raining, you have a key, why don't you wait for me inside?"

"I forgot my key."

"Come in, you can get a cold…"

"Honey…"

"Yes?"

Matthew injected to her arm. It was narcotic. Gillian dropped her umbrella, falling into his shoulder. He held her, kissing her cheek, "I'm sorry honey…"

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A/N: Tell me if you like my story so far. :( I just have a bad feeling that this chapter is bad. Sign. Had a bad day at school.