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And botox scares me. I'm watching I love the new millennium and they're talking about it. Plastic surgery in general scares me.
Chapter 10,
"Good morning my love," Emmett murmured as Bella opened her eyes. He leaned down and kissed her.
"Very good morning," Bella grinned. "What should we do today?"
"Hm, well, I was thinking a delicious breakfast and then we should go to the lake."
"Breakfast? You?" Bella asked, sitting up. Emmett smiled and lifted her out of bed. He took her hand and they walked into the kitchen. Bella grabbed a frying pan and the carton of eggs. She smiled when she heard the pitter patter of young feet. A dark haired boy came running into the kitchen and ran into her legs.
"Mommy!"
"Good morning dear," Bella giggled, kneeling down to kiss her son.
"Do you want to go fishing today Sport?" Emmett asked.
"Yeah!"
"Alright, kiddo why don't you eat breakfast first," Bella said with a smile as she tipped scrambled eggs onto a plate. Her son jumped into his arms and bit her neck. "OW! STOP!"
"Nothing more natural than a mother feeding her child," Emmett said with a smile.
"This isn't natural! Get off of me!"
Bella pushed on the child but he kept sucking from the bite on her neck. She felt her husband's arms wrap around her middle.
"So natural and so beautiful. Mmm if it was appropriate I'd have my way with you."
"Emmett stop! What are you doing?!" Bella squeaked as his hand slipped between her legs and his fingers pushed up against her. "Stop it!"
"You let him have his way with you," Emmett whined, "you even let his creation stick his skinny dick in you. Why not me? Don't you love me at all?"
"Yes, Emmett, I do love you, I love you so much but not like this!"
"Mommy hold still!" Godric protested. His little mouth went back to sucking her blood. His tiny arms wrapped around her shoulders, holding her tight. Emmett's free hand cupped her breast and squeezed her nipple making her yelp.
"Morning kids," Carlisle greeted as he came in with the paper. "When do you want to go to the lake?"
"Daddy! Help me!"
"What? Oh, I'm sorry baby," Carlisle said walking up to them, "Emmett are you going to hurt her?"
"No, Carlisle, I'm your friend," Emmett assured him.
"Bella he said he isn't going to hurt you," Carlisle told her, "he's my friend I have to believe him."
"No! Daddy!"
"Mommy give me more!" Godric demanded. He whined when Carlisle took him but calmed down when his grandfather cuddled him.
"Thanks Carlisle," Emmett said, pushing Bella into the kitchen table. He pushed her chest against the wood and tore her pajama bottoms off. "Does it hurt princess?"
"God please stop!"
"If you want me to stop then why don't you just make me? Is it because you like it? Did you think about me while he had his way with you?"
"Emmett please stop!"
"Look at me pet," Emmett growled pulling her head back by her hair. "Look at me! I gave you everything and you threw it all away for him!"
"I didn't want Aro to do what he did to me!" Bella cried. She felt warm blood trickle down her thigh and he roughly turned her around. She saw his blazing red eyes.
"You let Edward fuck you. How many times Bella? How many times did you lay with another man while you claimed to be loyal to me?"
"I didn't mean to," Bella cried, gripping his shirt, "Emmett I didn't think I'd ever see you again."
"Way to hold a torch for your man," Emmett growled, "how long did you wait before you gave up on me? On us?"
"Please...Emmett...please stop. You're hurting me."
"You like it. My sick masochistic human."
"Something's wrong with her," Emmett said, holding Bella's hand while she slept. "Can't Edward see her mind?"
"No, he said he couldn't read hers at all," Carlisle answered.
"Bella wake up!" Emmett called shaking her shoulders.
"Emmett don't do that!" Carlisle cried quickly. Usually humans woke up startled and the result was just as he predicted. Bella's reaction was to punch and they heard a small crack.
"OW HOLY FUCKING SHIT!" Bella screamed.
"Wow she has a mouth," Carlisle groaned as he grabbed her wrist. "You cracked your wrist."
"STOP! STAY AWAY FROM ME!" Bella screamed, jerking her hand back and balling up against the corner of her bed, pressed against the wall. "Please no more."
"Bella, honey," Emmett began.
"I said no!"
"No to what?" Emmett asked, reaching for her. She jerked away as if his hand was made of fire, using her sore legs to push back. She scrambled away and Jasper caught her before she fell off the bed.
"There, there Bella nobody will hurt you," he murmured gently.
"Don't let him hurt me too," Bella begged, gripping his shirt, "please Jasper don't hurt me too."
"Bella we don't want to hurt you," Carlisle assured her. He tried reaching out to her and she gripped Jasper's shoulder tighter.
"Bella Carlisle isn't going to hurt you," Jasper promised. Bella shook her head.
"He's going to let him hurt me again. Just because they're friends."
Jasper gave an apologetic look to Emmett and Carlisle and carried his sister out of the room. There Esme was waiting and she took over. Bella cuddled against her and cried into her chest. Her mother cradled her and rocked her gently. She sang a soft lullaby to help her calm down.
"Why don't you tell me what's bothering you," Esme suggested when Bella's cries had slowed to soft hiccups. "Jasper said you were having a bad dream earlier. Then you started screaming Emmett's name."
"Emmett...he wouldn't stop...it hurt so bad."
"In the dream?"
"No it was in the kitchen! I was making eggs and then Godric came in and they were talking about fishing! I tried to give him his breakfast but he just bit into my neck and kept drinking!"
"Sweetheart he is in Volterra, far away from you," Esme promised. "You had a nightmare."
"No! It was real! It hurt so badly it couldn't have been a dream! He's angry because I didn't stop them! I just laid there while Aro had his way with me." Bella looked up at Esme, her eyes shining with tears, "Mom I didn't mean to. I couldn't stop him and that doesn't matter. Emmett hates me and he told me that if I loved him I would let him hurt me too."
"Sweetheart, listen to me," Esme said gently, cupping her cheek and brushing her tears away with her thumb. "Listen to me love. You were raped. That means nobody can be angry with you for what that man did to you. Emmett loves you. He knows that what happened there will stay there."
"Daddy hates me."
"Absolutely not," Esme promised her, "your dad loves you more than his own life."
"Why does he let him hurt me? Why did he let me stay there?"
"Isabella Cullen don't you dare start thinking we wanted you to stay there!"
"Then why didn't he take me when he was there the first time?!" Bella cried. "Mom he's a vampire! My scent had to be on Aro!"
Esme shushed her gently and continued to rock her like she did when Bella was a little girl. She kept crying in her mother's chest. Esme held her tight, listening to her sobbing why over and over again. Outside Emmett was sitting at the top of the stairs, near the room where his fiance was crying. He felt Carlisle sit next to him and he looked up. Carlisle was holding a box of tissues.
"I'm still in pieces," Emmett mumbled, taking one.
"Nothing wrong with that," Carlisle told him, dabbing his own eyes.
"God my fiance had a dream about me raping her."
"My daughter blames me for not saving her when I should have," Carlisle mumbled, rubbing his eyes. "God if I was human I'd be getting friendly with a bottle of vodka."
Emmett laid back and looked up at the ceiling. Carlisle looked back at him and handed him another tissue as more blood pooled in the corner of his eye.
"I want to tell myself that Edward did the same thing Aro did."
"Maybe he did," Carlisle shrugged, "you never know."
"I thought you were the trusting type," Emmett said with a humorless laugh.
"The last time I trusted someone my daughter spent months in hell."
"Fair enough."
Carlisle dabbed his eyes again as Bella's crying continued. Esme was failing at comforting her but she was trying her hardest.
"I can't stop thinking about them together. He doesn't have it in him to force her, I know that just by spending time talking to him. The thought of her enjoying his touch...Carlisle I don't know how to feel about it. I want to blame it on her being in a bad place, that it means nothing, but I keep wondering. He loves her."
"Can you blame him?" Carlisle asked. "Bella is an amazing young woman who is going through a rough time."
Emmett didn't say anything to that. He didn't want to talk about another man having an interest in her. He had never really been jealous before. He knew that the boys at school thought she was gorgeous and he thought it was funny that they dreamed of a relationship with her. When they had started dating he constantly heard the boys hate him in the locker room. He would walk holding her hand and he knew that those other boys could try but they weren't going to separate them. When he kissed her he knew that she didn't care about any of them.
She cared about Edward. She had gotten worked up when he talked about staying behind and then again the other day when he said he was going to leave the family in peace. She may return his feelings and that scared him.
"What does it mean that she's having dreams of me not only hurting her but, by the sound of it, violently raping her?" Emmett asked.
Carlisle did something he very rarely did. He shrugged. Emmett groaned and covered his face with his hands. He kicked up when he heard Esme and Bella stand. He and Carlisle stood anxiously as the girls came out.
"Do you need me to help you sweetie?" Esme asked.
"They don't hurt anymore," Bella mumbled. She walked by Emmett and Carlisle without a single glance and eased down the stairs. The two vampires looked helplessly after her and then at Esme.
"She's barely convinced that it was a nightmare," Esme said quietly, "Emmett, don't be anywhere near her when she's in the kitchen for a while and Carlisle pull it back. I know you're worried but she is pissed off at you."
"Esme please, you know that if I had known..." Carlisle began, cutting off when Esme held her hand up.
"I know that and she knows that, but right now she isn't rational."
"But Esme I can't let her think that I left her there!" Carlisle protested quietly. "I'm not going to stay away from her when I need it."
"I know, honey, but you're going to have to try. Help her if she calls. She has me, Jasper, Rosalie and Edward to help her."
"I don't want Edward helping her with anything," Emmett growled.
Esme glared at him. "Not the time to be jealous."
"Esme she thinks I left her there!"
Esme looked at her husband like she just wanted to hit him upside the head. "Carlisle, Bella was raped, humiliated and abused repeatedly. Deep down she knows that you made a mistake and you deeply regret it but right now she's angry because it's so fresh. Let her calm down."
"But...!"
"Carlisle Cullen I swear to god if you don't listen to me I will be forced to take her away for a while."
Carlisle bit his lip and Esme calmed down a bit.
"Now, she isn't going to be herself for a while. She's starting to show emotions and she's angry."
Emmett turned and left while Esme was lecturing her husband. He went down the back stairs and sat in the living room. He wondered what kind of anger Bella was going to express. Was she ever going to be the same again?
"If it makes you feel any better, she always told me how much she loves you," Edward said. Emmett looked up at him. "She talked about you a lot."
"Comforting," Emmett grumbled. "How long are you staying?"
"I don't know. Until they let me leave."
Emmett stood up and went into the dining room. He wanted to go into the kitchen and pull her into his arms. But she was afraid of him. His fiance, the woman with whom he was going to make a pledge to love and cherish forever, was afraid of him.
"Do you want to go for a walk?"
Emmett jumped when he heard Rosalie behind him.
"You're tense and I know you want to get out."
Emmett nodded and left the house with her.
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Bella sat at the table with a fruit plate for breakfast. She looked up when Jasper sat with her.
"How you feeling sis?"
"Hungry."
"We got your bike back from the shop. We should go for a ride when your legs get better."
"Can I go outside?" Bella asked.
"I don't care," Jasper shrugged. "Just stay on the patio so you don't get the stitches wet."
"Why is dad so against me going outside?"
Jasper shifted and thought for a moment. "Well, I think it's because he's scared you'll get an infection in your stitches and get sick."
"Jasper I can tell when you're avoiding the truth."
Jasper smiled slightly, "why do you think? He's so afraid of losing you again and it's easier to protect you when you're inside."
"I know you probably hate me for putting out such bad emotions."
Jasper shrugged, "a little yeah," he said with a playful smile. "But seriously Bella you have every right to feel whatever you want to feel. I don't mind feeling your anger if it means you're not bottling it up."
"Misery loves company I guess."
"It sure does," Jasper agreed. "Come on, let's go sit outside."
Bella nodded and he helped her stand up. He held the bowl of the fruit and they went outside to the large patio with the built in covering. Bella sat on the swing and Jasper handed her the fruit.
"I missed the rain," she said quietly, "it was very sunny and dry there."
"Would you like dark curtains for when you sleep? So you don't wake up on a sunny day and freak out?"
Bella shook her head no. "Really what I want the most is to be able to decide what I want to do. I mean since I've been back it's like I'm a prisoner again."
"We don't mean to trap you," Jasper promised, "we all just missed you so much. Especially Carlisle. He lost it at work in the middle of a surgery and we had to bring him home. He was just curled up in the supply closet crying and it scared everyone."
Bella curled up against him and he cuddled her gently.
"We were falling apart without you," he said quietly.
Bella looked up at the sky through the clear ceiling and felt the cool watery breeze. She sat up and stood. She walked to the wooden rail and leaned against it. She was wearing just her pajama shirt which came down to the middle of her thighs. She had kicked off her bottoms in the nightmare, reinforcing her belief that it was real. Jasper wasn't sure he liked his sister outside half naked but if she was comfortable that was fine. Besides, they were isolated. He stiffened visibly when his sensitive ears picked up on something he didn't want to hear.
"How can you even stay with her knowing she cheated on you?"
"Because until she says otherwise I will believe that he raped her too, and most importantly, I love her. Rose, please, you're embarrassing yourself."
Jasper clenched his fists. He understood unrequited love. Hell he would see Katie with a new man and want to rip him to shreds after they broke up. But he never went so far as to try to convince her that her lover was dead, or try to win her away while her lover was healing from severe trauma less than a mile away. Jasper heard Rosalie kiss him again and vowed that he was going to kick her butt.
Bella turned and went inside. Jasper wondered where she was going but was soon distracted by Carlisle's arrival.
"Why is my daughter crying?"
"Shit she's crying?" Jasper cried, jumping up. He ran to the wooden rail and saw down the hill that Emmett and Rosalie were fighting, visibly, nearby. "Oh shit."
"What is going on here?" Carlisle demanded. Jasper didn't answer. He ignored the wooden steps leading down to the lower patio and jumped over the side. Carlisle watched his blonde son rush down into the woods. He heard Bella in tears but knew that he was supposed to lay low for a while otherwise Esme was going to take her away to heal in peace, probably to her island.
Bella stopped when she saw Edward. She ran to him and hugged him around his middle.
"What's up?" he asked as she hugged him and kept crying.
"He hates me that's what."
"Who?"
"Emmett!"
Edward pet her hair gently and awkwardly hugged her. "Bella he doesn't hate you."
"Why did I sleep with you?"
"Because I asked and you thought you were doomed to hell?"
"You knew what you were doing, why didn't you tell me?" Bella asked, looking up at him. He felt her mood growing angry.
"I didn't want to get your hopes up. I mean what if Aro had stopped me or something else happened. Trust me Bella, I had no certainty that I was going to be able to reach your family or they were going to rescue you. I hadn't planned on Alice helping me by luring Aro away."
Bella pulled away and rubbed her eyes. She turned to leave and stopped in the doorway. She put her hand lightly on the frame and sighed. She looked back at Edward.
"Will I always be this way?"
"No," Edward answered quietly, "one day you'll be happy and you'll hate me like you should."
"What will you do if I do hate you?" Bella asked.
"I'll go back to my life. Maybe I'll run into Aro and let him kill me for defying him."
"You aren't allowed to die when I can't," Bella told him, "you aren't going to die because of me either."
"Well, as I said, you'll come to hate me for what I helped him do to you. Then you'll let me go."
Bella turned to face him fully. "Are you that unhappy here?"
Edward shrugged, "it's a little tense. Your family doesn't like me at all and Emmett is just waiting for Carlisle to let him kick my ass."
"He won't care enough anymore. He has her now."
"Who?" Edward asked quickly. He paid attention to the voices in his head and he heard three angry ones all revolving around Rosalie kissing Emmett. "Oh."
"You know she's always hated me for dating him," Bella laughed dryly as she slipped into the soft arm chair near the door. "She can't stand that someone doesn't want her. Hell all the boys at school wanted her, even some of the girls! Everywhere I went I was the unattractive sister. I went to three schools in three different cities because we moved so much and at each one she was the hot one."
"Bella you're beautiful," Edward assured her.
"Now! You didn't see me through my awkward phase when I had acne and braces! I used to be so self conscious about myself, especially in middle school when I couldn't wear shorts and skirts without being called bacon legs. I mean I told dad that it didn't bother me and sometimes I would snap and fire back, but most of the time I just hated it! So imagine my surprise when Emmett actually found me attractive!"
Edward sat beside the chair and held her hand. "Bella, honey, she isn't worth getting worked up over."
"She only wants him because she can't have him. I know she doesn't like me, she's never liked me."
"Then why do you care what she thinks?" Edward asked. "Bella you have so many people that love you. Three vampires that are sexually attracted to you..."
"Three? Whose the third?"
Edward gave her a look. "If you don't know that I find you very sexually appealing then clearly you aren't very observant."
Bella blushed a bit and mumbled something about him making it up.
"You are beautiful. You're strong and your smart and you are every man's fantasy."
"Correction, I'm pale and I'm barely a C cup, I have no ass and my hair has really no volume or shine or anything guys like."
"Being a guy, I can tell you what most guys like. I look at your blonde sister and I think beauty queen who spends hours in front of a mirror trying to look perfect. I look at you and I see a girl who has better things to do. You're approachable and comfortable. When you aren't spitting pasta at me that is."
"You know he's right."
Bella looked up at Emmett who was leaning against the door frame. "You are the perfect girl because you're so imperfect."
"Then why did you kiss her?"
"I didn't. She kissed me and I pushed her away. Bella I only love you."
Bella was about to say something when the vampires froze. Then Emmett grabbed her and tucked her in his arms. Edward stood before him, giving her a little more shield and Bella found out why when she heard a familiar coo.
"Mommy come back now," Godric said. He looked older now. Nearly a month old he was standing on his own and looked like he was maybe two or three. He was holding his father's hand. Carlisle was there in a flash and he stood protectively in front of Edward and Emmett.
"Oh now Carlisle is this necessary?" Aro sighed. "Will you protect my Edward as well?"
Before Carlisle could speak Edward ran by him to the small vampire at Aro's side. Now that he could see her clearly he saw that it was Alice. Or what was left of her. She had cuts all over her body and dried blood on her chin and neck from where, Carlisle assumed, she had coughed up some of her blood. He could smell the tangy blood, so different from a humans, all over her.
"Alice! Alice say something!" Edward pleaded, holding his sister's shoulders. He pulled her away from Aro and cradled her. "What did you do?!"
"She was a naughty girl and was punished."
"She lied to daddy," Godric said, "just like you did. It's wrong to lie to daddy."
"Edward that punishment awaits you as well," Aro told him lightly, "for summoning a cavalry and stealing my Bella."
"She isn't yours," Emmett growled, holding her tighter.
"At night, whose touch does she dream of?" Aro asked with a wicked grin. "I know by your eyes that it's mine. She dreams about me inside of her."
Carlisle walked up to Aro calmly and punched him in the face. Aro laughed and hit back.
"Fighting now are we? I thought you were peaceful."
"You will pay for hurting my daughter," Carlisle vowed.
"How did I hurt her?" Aro asked, his grin widening, "sure the first couple times she screamed and pleaded for me to stop, but then her tune changed. She loved it when I fucked her."
Carlisle struck again and Aro caught his arm before throwing another punch. Carlisle took it with a clenched jaw and the two vampires glared each other down.
"How did it feel when you learned I lied to you?" Aro asked quietly. "When I raped your little girl that night I told her over and over again how you cried."
"I. Will. Kill. You," Carlisle growled through clenched teeth.
"Silly Carlisle, you can't kill me. You can't kill anyone."
"I promise you, I will."
"Not when I'm holding your little angel. I have you and your entire family frozen in place because you love this little human so much."
Then Carlisle did something that nobody expected. Bella was tight in Aro's grasp and it was too risky to attack him fully. But there was something he had. He snatched up the child and held him tight. Aro made a slight shift in surprise.
"Give me my daughter or I will kill your son."
"Daddy!"
"You won't," Aro growled. "He's a child."
"You stole mine off of the street and tortured her. You've brought out a very dark side of me and I will do whatever it takes to get her back."
"You won't kill my son."
"You will give me my daughter."
The room was absolutely silent and the tension was so thick Jasper was feeling overwhelmed. There was an anger in Carlisle's dark eyes that they had never seen before. Bella looked at her father and for the first time in her life she was afraid of him. Somehow she had always been able to look past him being a vampire and a hundred times stronger than she could ever hope to be. She wanted to feel for the scared child in her father's arms. She wanted to feel something. Anything. She wasn't happy that her son was in pain as his father tried to figure out if Carlisle was bluffing or not, but she wasn't sad or scared for him.
She was scared for Carlisle. Yes, now he believed he would be able to kill the child if it meant he got his daughter back, but what about tomorrow? Or the next day? Godric was a demon in Bella's eyes but his death would weigh on his heart forever.
"Dad don't," she said suddenly, "don't kill him."
"Showing maternal love are we?" Aro asked her lightly.
"I don't want you to go against everything you stand for just for me," Bella told him. Carlisle looked at her.
"If it means you'll be safe..."
"As much as I hate that child I don't want him to die at your hand."
"Mommy?" Godric sniffed. "You hate me that much?"
"Yes."
"I hate you too mommy."
"Bella, if you agree to marry me your family will be safe," Aro murmured against her hair, "your father won't have to kill anyone and if you come with me this moment, I will forgive my children for their betrayal."
Bella turned her head towards him.
"Bella don't listen to him," Emmett said coming towards her. "We won't let him get away with this."
"If I agree, you have to swear to me that you will never, ever, hurt my family or Edward or Alice. You also have to agree to let me see them regularly."
"I suppose," Aro agreed. "Do you agree then?"
"Bella don't do this," Carlisle begged her.
"It's for the best. This way I can see you all and nobody has to die."
"Bella you can't do this," Emmett choked, reaching for her. He grabbed her small hand. "I love you."
"I promise you'll get over me," Bella said with a sad smile, "I hear vampires are easily distracted."
"I'll never get over you," he promised. Bella saw the blood beginning to leak from his eyes. She kissed his cheek lightly. She hugged Jasper tight when he came to her. She could feel that he understood why she was doing this even though it was killing them all. She hugged Esme tight and her mother cried against her hair as she rocket her gently. She and Rosalie dropped all pretenses and didn't seem to acknowledge each other. Finally she turned to Carlisle.
"Daddy..."
Everybody was surprised when Carlisle just turned away and left. They watched as Bella watched him leave and silent tears rolled down her cheeks.
"You'll see them at the wedding. Now come, the plane leaves in an hour."
Godric climbed up into Bella's arms and they left with Edward carrying his sister. He looked sadly back at the family and wished he could stay. It was tense most of the time, but watching them gave him hope. Seeing their strong bond made him feel like it was possible for a group of vampires to live together and love each other.
"You made the right choice my dear," Aro said as he led her to a sleek black car down the way. "I can give you anything you desire and one day you will truly return my feelings."
"Don't hold your breath."
"Oh dear one we have forever."
Bella didn't say anything. She looked back at the white mansion she used to call home and knew that somewhere her father was in pain and her fiance was brokenhearted. Forever was a long time.
TBC
Kindly refrain from killing me. The next chapter will be worth it.