Thank you all of my patient readers. I know it has been a while but trust me I have a perfectly god reason. Well my mom and dad grounded me for some minute mistake I made which not only got me grounded but also got my cell phone taken away, and by the way the horrible thing I did to get all of this pushed upon me was that I forgot to put up dinner because it was already 12:00 at night and so I was tired from doing my homework. Ugh! I still haven't gotten my phone back. Sorry to bore you all with my story, now on with the real story. Remember constructive criticism always welcome and so are reviews
Lily of the Valley
Chapter 10 For my own good of yours
Dr. Cullen was getting ready to let me go, like he'd said after they'd kept me for only a while. Instead of Paul coming to visit and check in on me every few hours it was Jacob. Every time he'd come just to check up on me I'd casually ask if Paul was alright, just to make sure he wasn't punching trees or rather punching someone's face in for talking to him at the wrong time.
"Just sign these." He said handing me release papers.
"Thank you Dr. Cullen." I said handing them back on the clipboard.
"How many times do I have to tell you, you can call me Carlisle." He chuckled lightheartedly.
"It's just going to take some time to get used to." I said smiling back, but his smile put mine to downright shame as I told that my car was parked out front.
"Just let us know if you change your mind, or rather Paul does just tell Sam and he'll tell us." commented as I was getting ready to make my way to my car.
"I promise I'll let you and your family know as soon as I get this all worked out." I said before walking down the long hall in a navy blue long sleeved v-neck thin cotton shirt, black jeans, and a pair of tan boots Jake brought me.
I walked to my rental car and hopped in anticipating the long ride back to my house which was about forty minutes away. I let out a long drag a breath I'd taken in moments ago while I laid my head against the steering wheel as I started up the car readying myself for the forty minute ride back to La Push.
I breathed in the fresh air whipping my face through the open window with Here without you by Three Doors Down playing in the background.
As first stanza played I sang along softly and ran my hand through my hair. I exhaled and headed northeast on Bogachiel Way toward 5th Ave. By the time I'd hit La Push Rd. there was forest engulfing either side of the road which gave me a sense of calm. Now I was listening to I need you by Leann Rimes, as I sang along I swore I saw a blur of silver in the woods next to me. I shrugged it off and kept driving as the sweet melody continued to play on to the chorus.
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
I started to think about Paul and let my mind drift to what could have happened if I'd have stayed for those eight years. Multiple scenarios ran through my mind, us together and happy to us married and having kids.
I need you like water I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
And it carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
ahh I need you
Then the howl of a wolf broke me out of my trance and back to the reality I lived in. I listened, it sounded oddly like it was answering the lyrics of the song. I pulled the car over to the left side of the road and got out of the car to investigate to see if the animal was hurt or not. To justify my stupid and completely reckless action, I was an animal lover.
I trekked slowly towards the edge of the forest looking for any signs of movement. My eyes caught sight of a slowly slinking way from me behind a fallen decaying log. It looked like a wolf, only if a wolf was the size of a hefty bear, as I moved closer to check on it my instincts warned me that it was dangerous to approach a wounded animal. I was standing just two feet away from the log now as the wolf coward low to the ground and let loose a small growl. As my eyes wandered over its body for any protruding sticks, metal or blood it started to slink farther away.
"Hey come here." I cooed patting my lap and making dog calling sounds which sounded like kissing sounds one would make when poking fun at someone. "Come on I won't hurt you." I cooed.
As I tried to persuade the wolf to come closer to me it seemed tempted to but timid to approach me. It was looking at me keeping a close watch as I maneuvered my way down and over the fallen log slowly to it. As I got closer I could distinctly see the size difference between where I stood and where it did. While I stood at five feet and five and a half inches, the wolf cleared my head by at least half a foot.
It started to move forward slowly so that we were standing almost toe to paw with each other. I reached a hand out to show I meant no harm and expel any fear from my system, which the wolf would smell if it did want to attack. I smiled as it sniffed my hand and nudged it with its wet nose.
"You're not so ferocious now are you," I said reaching to pat it on the head, but as I did reach it lowered its body to lie down on the mossy ground. "And you're smart." I said astounded as I reached to pet its silver coat.
It lifted its head and licked my hand then licked my face, and I laughed at how gentle this animal could be but still be so colossal. I looked into the wolf's eyes and felt my body go rigid with bewilderment. I opened my mouth to speak but nothing seemed to come out, even as I back away from the wolf with panic clear on my face and even as my back hit the side of the fallen log.
Then out of the blue I ran back to my car stumbling over loose rocks, upturned roots, and fallen branches. I almost smacked face first in to the ground once as I ran to the car and yanked the door open, hoping just hoping that the wolf didn't follow me. My hands were trembling so much that as I struggled to start the car with the keys I accidently dropped the keys. I reached down, ducking underneath the steering wheel, searching for the keys. As I searched franticly for the keys I heard a knock on the window of the car door. As I looked up I dreaded to see the face I knew would be there whether I hoped or not.
"Open the door." He stated knocking on the glass once more.
"Hell no." I retorted as my eyes found where the keys were laying.
"Please Lin just open the door." Urged Paul.
"I said hell no!" I yelled turning my head towards the window where he stood.
"Just let me explain!" He yelled frustration clear on his face.
"No, you kept that from me and that's it that's the bottom line damn it!" I yelled once again.
"Will you just listen?!!" He bellowed from behind the window.
"There's nothing to listen to." I stated and started the car ready to drive away, but to my dismay Paul was standing in front of the car when I tried to get from where I was.
I'd had enough of this the secrecy and leaving me in the dust while I'd bet that more people than just me knew.
"Get out of my way." I said marching right up to him.
"Not until you listen." He dangerously low.
"Fine then I'll just run you over then let's see if you're still standing." I snapped turning around back to the car.
I felt a hand wrap around my forearm and then it stopped me in my tracks and turned me around.
"Let go." I said low like he'd done before.
I felt him release me then I averted my gaze from his hand to the woods next to us. Although I'd done this I could still see part of his face from the corner of my eye.
"What do you actually want to tell me?" I asked as a cool subtle wind picked up a few strands of my hairs and tousled them in the wind.
"I know it's hard to understand but I couldn't let you know, it was for your safety. I wanted you to be safe." He explained in a loving voice, maybe a voice a little to tender to even be him.
As he got ready to continue explaining I held up my hand to stop him. I already knew what he was going to say and frankly I didn't want to hear it, at all. I wondered for a moment as the wind blew and we heard the sound of the trees leaves rustle. What if I never came along? Would he have been free to choose who he wanted to live forever with, and who he'd love for all time until the end came? Or would 'fate' choose for him since I didn't come back?
"Don't." I uttered.
"I guess you 'saw' that coming didn't you, since you can 'see' everything." He said with his arrogance showing through again.
"Nope I just put two and two together; I'm not that needy that I need to 'see' everything just to get through a day." I countered turning back around already walking back to the car.
I was walking back to the car, and before I got to open the door six inches a hand came down on it slamming it shut. As his body sandwiched me between him and the car I turned around.
"Why do you have to be so stubborn?" Paul said which almost was low and soft enough to be a coo.
"Why question when imprinting makes you like it any ways?" I said sarcastically trying to look everywhere but at him.
"I gave into it and frankly I like who my imprint is."
"Well I don't." I could have sworn I felt his face fall a million miles from where it was when I said that, and truth be told it hurt me a lot.
"Why?" He asked hurt, and vulnerability lucid in his voice.
"Don't you remember what we talked about as kids? Or am I all that's running around up there?" I asked getting frustrated.
"No I remember clear as day and I take it all back."
"Why? Remember you said if you ever became one of them that if you imprinted you'd never give in, and that you'd pick who you wanted not what some werewolf mechanism told you to do. You told me that you wouldn't care who you'd imprint on that you'd live your life who you wanted to not what someone wanted for you." I reminded him.
"Yeah and that's when we were kids and when I didn't know what it felt like. It makes me happy and I don't mind it or feel mad about it."
"That'd what I'm talking about. Did you just hear what you said? That wasn't you it was the imprint talking not you." I said poking his chest with my index finger.
"And your point is exactly what?" He countered throwing what I'd said back in my face.
"You know what since I am your imprint I want you to let me leave." I said looking straight into his eyes which were filled with more hurt then I could probably bear to carry. "I'm sorry but I just don't want you to be my slave for all time." I said low, my voice filled with sympathy.
"Whatever makes you happy, and just for the record I wouldn't mind being your slave for all time." He said trying to put a smile on my face and faking one of his own signature smirks.
"I guess that's comforting to know." I joked back.
He let me get into my car and as I drove away I turned the radio on and ironically enough Always Be My Baby by David Cook was playing.
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, noooooo
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
I ain't gonna cry no You'll always be a part of me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl You'll always be a part of me
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my,....my baby....
You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
You will always be my baby
Yeah I know (tear, tear, sniffle) she left him standing there all sad and heartbroken. Don't worry my readers something is coming to Forks soon and the Cullen's need to know. Review please and I'll have chapter 11 up soon.