"Welcome home Master Sebastian, how is everything?"Cynna greeted.
"Where is Ciel?"
"Upstairs in bed Sir." Sebastian rushed for the room completely ignoring Hannah and the boys. Once inside the room, he saw his mate sitting in bed with a book. He knelt down beside the bed.
"Ciel, are you alright, what happened,what did he say?" Ciel sighed and closed the book.
"I don't think I've ever seen you this way" Ciel said his tone was somewhat irritated but calm.
"Ao told me that you called the healer here today. What happened, tell me that I will not lose you, I could never-" Ciel took hold of his mate's hand.
"Yes, I had Cynna call the healer. As far as I know, you're not going to lose me anytime soon. But, I do need to apologize to your mother." Sebastian tilted his head in confusion.
"Apologize to my mother for what love, whatever it is it can wait until you're well."
"Well then she'll be waiting for a while." Sebastian waited expectantly for further explanation.
"Sebastian, you're going to be a father."
"Are you certain?" Ciel shot him an irritated glare
"No. I said it to make you feel good."
"I'm afraid I don't understand Ciel."
"It's sarcasm Sebastian, yes, I'm sure, the healer said so." For a moment there was a wide smile on Sebastian's face but it soon disappeared.
"You are not happy about becoming a mother?" Ciel found it difficult to look at his mate as he answered, Ciel released his hand.
"No. Don't let me stop you from being happy."
"Ciel, if you don't want to do this, I could understand. I would not put you through this if it is not what you want."
"Relax, I was given the option and I said no."
"You want to have our child?"
"I plan to have it yes." Sebastian kissed Ciel lovingly.
"Thank you. Who knows, maybe in that time, you will begin to get used to it and form a bond."
"Anything's possible. There's a stack of instructions and information on the table there." Sebastian picked them up and sat on the bed.
"It seems you are going to need me around quite a bit more, feedings every few hours, If I could not provide this for you, what kind of Mate would I be?" He said answering Ciel's question before it could be asked.
"Have you looked at this?" Ciel shook his head.
"It says that because you are male, this experience will be different for you. In later months, where women typically show, you will not. You will feel the weight however."
"Strange." Ciel said opening his book again.
"It will be more painful for you, you are to rest for at least an hour each day after the the first few days of bed rest. This can mean sitting down or lying down, some find taking short naps help." Sebastian read on. You will need to visit the healer often. I- you are not the least bit interested are you love?"
"Not at the moment. I'm tljust trying to be okay with it for now, I can worry about that later."
"You do not have to do this Ciel."
"I said I would."
"If it is making you upset, I-"
"You want this don't you?"
"Of course. I would love to have a family with you.' Sebastian said hope Ciel knew he meant it.
"Then shut it."
"Will you eat?"
"Yes."
"I shall bring it right away."the young demon nodded. Sebastian made his way out of the room. It wasn't long before he came back and handed the glass to Ciel.
"Thank you." He said taking a drink. " you must hate me." He commented.
"I do not hate you. I still very much love you. I wish I could understand why you feel this way. Having a family is meant to be a wonderful thing. Especially for the mother."
"You know that I didn't really want this to happen. The plan failed and it did. I'm sorry Sebastian, that I can't be happy with you. I don't want my feeling to take that from you. You have every right to be happy. I-"
"You are willing to do this for me, that is more than I could ask of you. Perhaps it is that it is your first time. They say the first is usually the most difficult."
"Sebastian, this will also be my last. I will not do this again."
"No, I would not ask you to. All I ask is that you are both healthy and one day you are able to feel the same as I do."
"I'll try."
"I cannot ask anymore than that of you." Ciel emptied the glass and set it on the table.
"Do you want me to hold you Ciel?"
"You don't have to. I know you're upset."
"I want to, if you would like me to. You need to know how much I love you, that nothing will ever change that." Ciel suddenly began to sob.
"Yes." He said leaning into Sebastian, who wrapped his arms around him and gently rubbed his back.
"How can you even be near me now?"
"I love you. You are having a difficult time and I would like to help you through it. Perhaps together you and I can figure it out."
"I don't deserve you, or your love." Ciel sobbed.
"You are right my dear, you deserve so much more."