"I'm happy to see that you're feeling so much better." Viktor said laying down next to Heine. "The doctor says now that you're used to it, you can take small doses of medicine twice a day. You won't be as tired and almost everything will be as it was."

"Yes. I have you and the boys to thank for that. Do you have much to do today?" The red haired man asked.

"I'm not terribly busy, why do you ask?"

"I had hoped that you might have enough time to ...hold me the way you used to, just one last time." The king wrapped his arms around the shorter man, holding him tight and resting his chin on Heine's head.

"As you wish. But why must it be the last, you're the only one I've ever been in love with. I need you with me. If it's only the boys you're worried about-"

" I have concerns for you as well. What would the people of your kingdom think about a king who-"

"If you were beside me, those thoughts wouldn't mean anything to me. What can I do to prove to you how much I love you. I would find a way to bring you the moon if only you ask,Heine. Just tell me that I can look forward to many nights just like this one. You walked away from our love once, please, it would shatter my heart to watch you go."

" you've already proven your love,many times. It's not just anyone who would take a shot for someone. You went out of your way to take care of us,our little ones survived one of the coldest winters because of you. They weren't your responsibility.I realized then that my heart belongs to you,you genuinely cared for them,then you took it a step further and did everything you possibly could to make me feel better. I haven't forgotten about those days. There will never be a day in my life that I don't love you,Viktor. That I don't wish our lives could have been different. I want only good things for you and your family, no good can come of-" Viktor cut him off with a kiss, pulling away to look into his eyes, gently stroking Heine's cheek and kissing him once more, this time more passionately, pouring all the love in his heart into the affection.

Viktor gently repositioned Heine so that he was now lying on his back, while he leaned over the shorter man. When finally they broke the kiss, Heine smiled softly, as the blond man gazed into his eyes lovingly.

"It feels like we never left. My love for you has only gotten stronger. Can you tell me in all honesty that you don't miss this?"

"I cannot say that if we're to be honest. I remember the first time, we were lying in the grass, looking up at the night sky...you were nervous." Viktor chuckled.

"I was. As I recall you weren't. I was amazed that you could be so calm. Isn't a first kiss-"

"If it's the right time, it happens naturally. Of course it is a big step forward in a relationship. I'm going to miss this." Heine admitted.

"You don't have to. Stay. You deserve to have love and happiness too. You're stunningly beautiful, brilliant, my precious Heine, please?"

"We're just going around in circles, Viktor. You know I can't."

"I know you're very conflicted. Sometimes it's in our best interest to quiet our mind and listen to what our heart is saying, don't you agree?"

"Whatever I might agree or disagree with, it's not-"

"Give it a bit more thought...for the boys at least. Who better to teach them than you?" Heine sighed.

"You put far too much faith in me, Viktor."

"Maybe you just don't have enough in yourself. Now that you no longer need to worry about your pain, don't you think it would be all right to let yourself-"

"My plan has not changed. It's because I love you that I can't stay. Why must you make this so much more difficult?"

"It doesn't have to be that way."

"It is as it must be, for the good of-"

"But this, here in the moment, this is how it should be and look at us. This is the life we should have had together. "

"It would never have turned out that way. You wouldn't have your children, or live in-"

"Wouldn't it have been wonderful, if somehow it had been possible.."

"It isn't physically possible. There's no use living in the what ifs." Viktor grinned leaning close to Heine's ear, his soft words making the royal tutor blush slightly.

"Must you say things like that?"

"I'm only saying how beautiful they would have been. I haven't seen you blush like that in quite some time." The king teased.

"It's comments like that those that are the exact reason why we wouldn't." Heine turned away from his friend, now resting on his side. Viktor moved closer, pulling him back.

"All joking aside, if our time has gone, I will respect your decision, if not, and our love remains strong, there is always a place for you here. Do you still believe true love is worth fighting for. You told me that the night we first kissed. I've heard people say that when the right ons comes along, we'll know. I know in my heart that It's you." Heine rested his hands on Viktor's.

He would have a lot to consider, but for now, he would allow the affection, even if he knew it was likely to end with broken hearts