A/N: Hmm, two chapters in one day - don't get used to it ;) They were going to be one but it got too long.
I know some people are uncomfortable reading about adult things (sex) between consenting adults so I've kept this a separate chapter. If you would rather skip it please do, I won't be offended and you can still follow the story. It will however be referred to in future chapters. I like to think it's tasteful.
If you do read it I hope you enjoy. Oh yeah, it's probably NSFW.
** 10 **
While he loved the idea of this being the moment he hadn't been with a woman for some time, and nothing as serious or important as this. As she curled against him his palms moistened and his stomach threatened to turn inside out. Messing this up wasn't an option.
'Matt,' she spoke into his chest, the softness in her voice and the way she played with his shirt made him shift so he could see her face but she kept her eyes down.
'What's wrong?'
'Nothing, it's just,' she paused before letting out a long sigh. 'I've never done this before,' she waved her hand across the two of them. 'Been with a man, intimately.'
It took him a moment to comprehend what she was saying and his eyes widened. 'You're a virgin!'
'Yes, I'm sorry,' she went to get up.
'No.' He pulled her back and held her against him. 'I'm sorry. I was just surprised.' Thankful she wasn't looking at his face he closed his eyes and bit his lip, this had just become so much more.
'I've had relationships, they just never went that far, although they did try. I was never attracted in that way so they never lasted because I couldn't give them what they wanted. Maybe there's something wrong with me.' She shrugged and his heart ached at the self-recrimination.
'Or maybe you've been waiting for the right person.' He rested his chin on her head as she relaxed and her arms slid around him. 'I'm not pushing you, Tracy, I don't expect anything other than what you want to give when you're ready.'
'But that's it,' she lifted her head, licking her lips and his eyes were immediately drawn to them. 'I am ready. I want to know what it's like, to be with a man, to be with you.'
He needed to kiss her. He needed her to know how much he loved her, that he would never hurt her. He needed her to know how much it meant to him to be the one she trusted and loved enough to be her first. There was a certain amount of pride in that but it was a great responsibility and the thought of letting her down was terrifying.
Their tongues danced as their bodies moulded together and he knew she would feel how aroused he was. A soft moan escaped as she pushed up against him and his own response was a guttural groan as heat pooled low in his gut. He kissed his way across her jaw and down her neck. She lifted her head to allow him access and he glanced at her face. Her eyes were closed and her lips parted, swollen from his kiss. She was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen and she was giving herself to him. His eyes burned as emotion overwhelmed him. He kissed and sucked on the pulse point of her neck and she inhaled sharply, her fingers curling and digging into his shoulders.
Her first time shouldn't be in a narrow hospital bed. It should be somewhere special, romantic, with candles and flowers, somewhere he could worship her and give her the pleasure she deserved. He hesitated and she stiffened.
'What's wrong?' The fear in her voice made him rush to reassure her with soft kisses.
'Not a thing,' he looked into her eyes, her pupils wide with desire and need. 'Are you sure, this is not the most romantic place … .'
'Matt, the place doesn't matter,' she stroked his face and he leaned into her hand, closing his eyes at the softness of her touch. 'All that matters is that it's you. That you want me as much as I want you.'
He chuckled softly, 'I thought that would have been obvious.'
'It is,' her face flushed but she pushed him back onto the bed and sat up on her knees facing him. 'Guess I need to show you how much I want this.'
She lifted her shirt over her head and his heart race quickened as he stared at the black lacy bra and what it held. She chewed her bottom lip as she reached behind and undid the bra, sliding it off and letting it fall to the floor. Her confidence faltered as he didn't move, he was entranced by her hard pink nipples and the round, full curve of her breasts. She lifted her hands and went to cover herself and he cursed himself for a fool.
Reaching out he grabbed her hands and met her eyes, 'You are so beautiful.'
He sat up, ignoring the pain in his side as he lifted his shirt over his head and pulled her towards him. The feel of skin on skin had them both sucking in sharp breaths as their lips met, as arms wound around necks and backs. He would remember this moment for the rest of his life. He lay her down, kissed his way down her neck, across her chest and took a nipple in his mouth, the sound of her breathless moan music he wanted to play forever.
One hand carded his hair, the other gripped his shoulder as she encouraged him and his eyes closed as he savoured the sensation of soft fingers on his bare skin. Running his hand across her hip he cupped her backside, pulling her closer, leaving no gap between them. Wanting more skin he fiddled with the fasteners on her trousers, frustrated with himself because of his fumbling. She laughed and reached down to help, pushing the offending fabric over her hips and kicking them off.
Instantly his eyes were drawn to the black lace panties, tantalising and teasing as he glimpsed skin through the lace. Raising his face to hers, seeing the shine in her eyes and the flush of her skin he couldn't do anything other than kiss her. Pulling her in close his hand slipped under the lace to hold a perfectly round cheek in his palm. She pushed herself against him, rubbing her bare legs against his. The moment she lifted her leg over his and the heat of her touched his erection he gasped and buried his face in her neck.
'Did I do something wrong?' She went to pull back but he held on tight.
'Oh god no,' he lifted his eyes to hers, ran his fingers through her hair and held his palm against her head. 'It's just … I have never wanted anything more than I want you right now, all of you. I want your first time to be perfect, but I am so turned on right now I'm afraid of spoiling it for you.'
'Seriously.' She smiled, a soft sexy smile that only made him want her more. 'So if I do this,' she shifted, pushed him onto his back and kissed her way down his neck, 'you're not going to enjoy it. Or this,' her lips moved across his chest and she nipped a nipple.
He groaned and her lips curled against his skin as she smiled. The pounding of his heart beat in his ears and his body burned as she moved lower. He gripped the sheets so hard his fingers hurt as she ran her tongue along the skin above the band of his boxers. Breath wouldn't come as she slowly rolled the obstacle over his hips and down his legs. When her lips or fingers didn't return he lifted his head.
'Are you okay?' It was his turn to be worried. Maybe she didn't like what she saw, was afraid of his manhood.
'Yeah,' she was blushing but she slowly reached out and ran her fingers down his very erect length as her eyes met his.
He hissed a breath and she smiled, 'Good?'
'Fuck yeah,' he dropped his head back and closed his eyes.
Fingers wrapped around him and the world disappeared as she gently moved her hand, rubbing her thumb over his tip where he knew she'd find beads of moisture. There was a soft intake of breath before soft lips touched him, followed by her tongue, tasting him as her mouth closed around him. He arced of the bed as his hands gripped the sheets, the wet warmth almost his undoing as she took him in and hummed in delight.
His senses reeled. She explored every inch of him with her lips, tongue and fingers, taking him completely into her mouth then pulling back slowly, so slowly it was almost painful. He wouldn't last. He was high on the sensations but he had to stop her. Wrapping his fingers in her hair he lifted her head, meeting her amused stare.
'My turn.'
She grinned and crawled up his body, her nipples brushing his abdomen as she did and he couldn't find her lips fast enough. The muscles in his side pulled but he didn't care as he rolled her over, his leg sliding between hers as she shifted away from the edge of the bed. Trying to ignore the soft rub of her thigh against his erection he kissed his way down her neck, loving the way her breath hitched as he teased a nipple with his tongue before taking it in his mouth.
Goosebumps jumped to life as he ran his fingers across her abdomen and hip, following with his lips as his fingers moved to the inside of her thighs. Her soft moans only heightened his need as he kissed along the line of lace, slowly sliding his fingers under the fabric and rolling it over her hips as she lifted herself up to him.
Continuing his kisses he followed the line from her hip to the one place that was his alone, inhaling the scent of her which only aroused him more. He wanted to explore every part of her, taste all of her, touch her most intimate of places. He wanted to give her the most mind blowing, perfect experience she ever had. As he ran his tongue over the sensitive bundle of nerves she arched towards him.
'Oh, shit!' The whispered words were followed by a moan that took his breath away.
He followed with a kiss and her fingers dug into his shoulder as he moved lower, loving the way she was wet for him. Caressing her folds and creases with his lips and tongue was pure heaven, hearing her sucked in breaths and watching her grip the sheets all the reward he needed. Her breathing quickened but he didn't stop as she tensed and shuddered, covering her mouth with her hand as she cried out and her release came. It was almost enough to send him over the edge but he managed to control himself as he concentrated on bringing her down slowly.
'Matt, please, I want to feel you inside me,' she looked down at him, her breathing still fast, her eyes dark and cheeks flushed.
He kissed his way up her body and settled between her thighs. Pushing her hair off her face he rested his forehead on hers, taking his weight on his elbows.
'I love you,' he kissed her as he slipped into her.
Holy, fuck! He gripped the pillow as wet, warm silk closed around him, feeling her tense as he sheathed himself to the hilt. Sucking in deep breaths he lifted his head to meet her eyes. She was biting her lip and as she opened her eyes they were moist with tears.
'Are you okay? Did I hurt you?' He was afraid to move.
She nodded then shook her head, 'Yes, no, it's … , amazing.' She blinked away tears.
'It gets better,' his eyes burned as he carefully pulled back before sliding forward, watching the joy on her face, the absolute beauty of it made him want to stay right there, in that moment, forever.
The instant she relaxed beneath him and her hips moved as she raised her leg around his he knew he wouldn't last. But it was all about her, giving her a memory that would stay with her. He shifted slightly and heard her gasp as he hit the perfect spot.
'Trace … ,' he groaned into her neck as she tightened around him, her cries echoing his as he let go.
Tears rolled down his cheek as he buried his face in her neck. She quivered beneath him, her leg tightly wrapped around his as her arms held him tight. Their chests heaved in unison and he was sure his heart was going to break out of his at any moment. Eventually he lifted his head, searching her face as she looked at him, tears running across her temples and into her hair.
'Are you … .'
'I love you,' she stroked the side of his face.
A sob escaped but she was smiling. The thought that he had raised so much emotion in her tightened his chest and he allowed his tears to fall as he laughed with her. He enveloped her in his arms as she stayed wrapped around him, as he kissed her through their salty tears and shaky laughs, as they remained connected in the most intimate of ways.
'I'm glad I waited,' she whispered as he rested his forehead against hers.
'You mean everything to me,' he swallowed the lump in his throat as he fought to control the urge to cry, to laugh, to scream his joy to the world. 'This moment, right here, is something I will never forget. That you wanted to give me this precious gift … .' he closed his eyes and she choked back a sob. He opened his eyes to hers, 'It's the most beautiful moment of my life.'