Kayleigh whispers something to Jay, and then jay looks over at me, when he realizes that I'm looking he just smiles and looks away again. SHIT, SHIT, SHIT…. THEY KNOW THEY DEFINTLEY KNOW ABOUT THAT KISS OH MY GOD... WHAT IF THEY TELL MARK WHEN HE WAKES?! I grab Rob's hand and pull him out of the room and close the door behind us.
"I think Kayleigh saw us kissing Rob… she's acting really weird and she whispered something to jay... and then Jay looked at me and-"
Rob places his index finger on my lips. "Shhhhh, it wasn't Kayleigh."
"How do you know?!"
"Because I heard them talking, they were talking about how worried they are for Mark."
"Why did they look at me then?"
"Obviously because you two are so close. And anyways who cares if someone saw, it's not like you two are dating is it?"
"Yeah but we-"
"Then it doesn't matter, please stop getting yourself all worked up over that little kiss, it's not even important, just a comfort kiss right?"
"Yeah…" I hesitate.
"Know let's get back in there before visiting times are over, we need to spend as much time with Marko as possible, Okay?"
"Yeah… Okay…"
"Good." Rob smiles and walks back into the room and I follow in after.
"Georgina…" I hear a croaky voice coming from Mark's direction, which makes my eyes shoot up towards him.
"Mark! Oh my god you're awake, thank the lord!" I cry and grab hold of his hand. I see Rob staring at my hand holding Mark's at the corner of my eye.
"Can I have a second alone with Georgina please guys." Mark asks, looking at everyone surrounding him.
"Sure, c'mon lads let's leave these two alone." Gary replies standing up and picking a pocket sized book he was reading from the press next to Mark. The rest of the lads, Kayleigh and Mark's parents get up and follow Gary out of the door. As soon as the door closes there is a subdued silence between us. Mark pulls his hand out from beneath mine angrily.
"Mark what-"
"This is your entire fault Georgina!" Mark says bitterly.
I gasp in shock, because of what he has just said and because I'm not used to seeing him so angry and bitter. "Mark, you've just woken up, you're obviously confused at the moment, I understand."
"You don't understand anything!" He snaps "This IS your fault and one thing I know for sure is that I'm definitely not confused about that!"
"How is it my fault Markie."
"Don't call me that, only the people I'm close to can call me that!" I feel as if the whole world had stopped right in front of me at that moment.
"Wh- What are you trying to say Mark…"
"I don't want to EVER talk to you again! That's what I'm trying to say, you got me in all this mess, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be lying here in the hospital bed, if you didn't tell me about Rick, I wouldn't have got into that fight, he wouldn't have beaten the living day lights out of me, and I would've been happy, and could celebrate my birthday somewhere but this fucking shitty hospital room!"
"I'm sorry this all happened, but I told you not to do anything stupid, but you did, I told you that you being over protective was going to get you into deep shit and it did! I warned you Mark! So before you go blaming me for the crap you got yourself into, think!" I place my hands over my eyes, trying to disguise the fact that I feel like bawling my eyes out in front of him.
"…. Well I think we shouldn't talk ever again, and I mean it like I said before."
"Don't say that Mark… you don't mean it.. Your just confused.."
"DON'T" Mark says and then calms himself down a bit. "Don't tell me what I am, I'm NOT confused, I know exactly how I'm feeling right now, and don't tell me otherwise. Now I think you should leave before I say something I regret." Mark says as calmly as he can, closing his eyes trying to keep it all together.
And with that, I stand up and walk out of the door, not making eye contact with any of the others.
"Georgina" Robbie says as I walk past him, as if he were trying to tell me something. I refuse to look back and carry on walking ahead, keeping my head held high, trying to keep my dignity and trying not to just melt down on the spot and cry into my shaking hands.
"Georgina, wait up." I hear Robbie's foot steps behind me as I walk out the front door, they become closer and closer and then I feel his hand grabbing hold of my wrist and twisting me around so I'm facing him. "Georgina, what happened in there?" He questions, concern filling his eyes. What I didn't want to happen does, I feel my knees going from beneath me and I collapse to the ground sobbing my hear t out, not caring who saw. ''Eh, Eh" Robbie soothes and pulls me up and into a warm embracive hug. "I'm bringing you home and you're going to tell me all about it, Okay?"
I don't reply, just keep my head hanging low, I saw people looking at me with sympathy, they surely thought that a loved one had died by the sound of my intense crying.
When I arrived at the house, Robbie led me upstairs to my bedroom with a freshly made cuppa in his hand. "Get this down ya" Robbie says and smiles slightly.
"Thanks Rob." I croak and sniff.
"Don't worry about it." He replies and then slides next to me on the bed. "What happened with you earlier eh?"
I slide my finger around the rim of the cup, hesitating.
"Um…" I choke as the thought of what Mark said enters my mind. "M…Mark" a single droplet of my tears rolls down my face, as the feeling of crying begins building up in my body again.
"Basically..." I stop again, trying to hold myself together.
"Take your time babe." Robbie soothes.
I take a deep breath before speaking. "Apparently, according to Mark, it's my entire fault he's in the condition he's in, and he doesn't want to speak to me again." I feel my lip tremble, and I keep my eyes glued to the milky tea swaying in the warm mug in my shaking hands.
"What…"
"And what made me even more upset is that it's his birthday today Rob." I whimper. "His birthday." I bite my lip as the tears come flooding down my face.
"Babe, aww babe, Mark will calm down eventually, he's just very shell shocked and confused about what's happened in the last few weeks as all, he WILL come around, I know Markie nearly all my life, trust me.
I look up into those magnificent eyes of his and smile slightly "Thanks Rob... But what if you're wrong... And he doesn't though..."
"He will, I bet fifty quid on it!" Rob laughs, making me laugh also.
"You always know how to make people laugh don't you?" I giggle.
"Suppose so, that's why I'm known as the class clown" he laughs and pulls me into a hug.
"You give lovely hugs Rob…" I say seriously, placing my half-drunk tea onto the bed-side cabinet and look up at him.
"thanks ba-''is all he says as I clamber onto him suddenly, again not even thinking about what I was doing and begin kissing him passionately. He kisses me back and wraps his arms around my torso, pulling my waist closer to his groin, I feel him harden beneath me and groan into my mouth as I slide my tongue into his. "Fuck...'' He moans as I unzip his trousers and pull them to his knees, and straddle on top of him.
"Wait…" I say, pulling away from the kiss.
"What?" he breathes.
"I… I can't… I love Mark…" I suddenly realize. "If we had sex… I would never forgive myself… you're his best mate…"
Robbie nods. "I totally understand Georgie." He replies
"I'm sorry…" I say.
"Don't apologise, I shouldn't have come, I should've just let you go home yourself and minded my own business, it's not your fault."
"You were only looking out for me Rob."
"No... I took advantage when you were down."
"But you weren't the one who kissed me or started all of it, I did."
"Yeah, but I encouraged it by not stopping you and for that I am sincerely sorry." Rob gets out from underneath me and pulls up his trousers. "I'll see you soon yeah?" he says and walks out not letting me reply back. Shit, I've annoyed him, and he was so understanding about it all, why am I such a cow to lads when they're so caring to me for fuck sake!
I button up my top and run out the front door, hopping on one foot as I try to get my other shoe on at the same time, I spot Robbie walking down the road, he has his hands at the back of his head, like he was about to be arrested or something. He looked gutted. "Rob, I'm sorry, please come back in and we'll talk, please!" I shout as I catch up with him. He stops walking and looks at me.
"I don't think that's a good idea Georgina." He says seriously.
"Why?"
"I just think it isn't."
"Please…" I grab hold of his hand, and I see him going all soft.
"Okay…"
We walk back to the house and sit down in my room again. "I'm re-''Robbie kisses me and I can't help but kiss him back. Why does this keep happening, I don't have strong feelings for him do i? … Again I feel myself unzipping his trousers as I clamber on top of him, as he eagerly grabs hold of my waist, repeating the same actions as before. Before I know it, were all over each other. Doing things I never even imagined I would do with Robbie before. My heart belongs to Mark, so why am I doing this? I unbutton his top revealing his muscular chest, he smirks in-between kisses as he feels me rubbing his chest. This is not right Georgina, stop now! I say over and over In my mind, but I don't, it's as if someone else is controlling my body, and my true feeling about it all is trapped somewhere in my mind. I'm meant to be saving myself for someone I truly love, Mark, Why are you doing this Georgina, why?! .
An hour later and it's all finished… What. Have. I. DONE! I look next to at Robbie, his bare back facing me. I can't believe I've just slept with Robbie, Mark's best mate…. What was I thinking, I should've just stopped after he kissed me.
Robbie's p.o.v.
Oh shit, what have I just done?! Mark told me so many times about how strongly he felt about Georgina, and that he thinks he's in love with her... so why have I just slept with her?!
I turn to face Georgina, and our eyes meet. "Hey…" I gulp and paint on a smile.
"Hey…" she replies, and smiles back. There is silence between us as we look at each other, thinking the same thing.
"I love you Georgina." I say without thinking, and instantly regret it. You silly bastered, why did you say that for?!
Georgina laughs slightly, and pulls the covers up to her face.
Even though I probably didn't mean what I just said, I was still waiting for her to reply.
"Well?" I ask.
"Well what?"
"What do you think about what I just said?"
"What time is it?"
"Um, 4-"
"Oh shit, you better go, my parents will be home any minute."
"But i-"
Georgina wraps her dressing gown around her and throws my clothes at me. "I'll wait downstairs." She walks out of the room and closes the door, and I begin getting dressed.
Georgina's p.o.v.
SHIT, SHIT, SHIT, SHIT! I begin pacing up and down the sitting room, with my hands in my hair, shaking my head and closing my eyes tight. WHAT HAVE YOU FUCKING DONE GEORGINA?! ROBBIE HAS JUST TOLD YOU HE LOVES YOU! WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO NOW EH?! I feel my hands begin to shake and my throat becoming dry. This is your entire fault Georgina, you kissed him first at the hospital, making him think that you wanted this to happen, and then you go and invite him BACK to your house when he stopped it the first time?! What the hell is wrong with you?! Robbie's such a nice lad, why are you doing this to him?! The sound of Robbie coming down the stairs tightening his belt brings me back to reality, and I look over at him, and smile at him.
"Do you want me to stay for a while?" He asks.
"No, you better go, as I said, my parents will be home any minute." Robbie nods and grabs his coat.
"See you around." He says softly and walks out the door, closing it behind him. I feel horrible as I sit down on the sofa. Mark is going to go mad when he finds out… well he doesn't have to if I make sure he doesn't… Yeah that's what I'll do. I'll talk to Rob tomorrow and make sure that none of us tell about what just happened, and I'll work on getting Mark to talk to me, and then everything will be fine, yeah everything will be fine. I eventually convince myself.